ON
CONSCIOUSNESS
These are passages from the Beyond Imagination
expression that deal with the nature of consciousness in some manner. They
were extracted from the works that have flowed forth from consciousness through
me since 1993. They are basically presented in chronological order.
The original intent was to re-order and re-arrange them and capture them in
another Beyond Imagination book. However, I have not been moved to do that
yet. Yesterday, I decided that it was time to release them to the world in
this form. My hope is that they open your mind to some new possibilities
and new experiences, as they have done for me. Namaste.
The eyes of god are
upon you; yeah, even within you. You are ready! Follow your bliss -- the voice
and call of your spirit. I am here whenever you care to reach me. I am in touch
with your consciousness, always. You will know when I am with you. For the
sensation that you get is one of separateness -- as if, you are watching another
use your facilities, your body and mind, your house so to speak.
Note
that you are an active observer in this process. Your consciousness is the
vehicle through which this information passes, and you know if it is right as
you see it, but you don't have a sense that you are generating this material. It
is created through you, with your awareness and active involvement, but you are
not the originator. However, you are necessary as a co-creator.
What
matters is consciousness; awareness and presence in each moment; to achieve each
day, in each moment, what is appropriate for the soul's expression of its
purpose in accord with the Plan.
The measure of each day's utility is in
the growth of awareness of consciousness that it brings. All is consciousness.
All that is important is consciousness. To be all that one is, and to become all
that one is capable of becoming. Such is "the only end of life" as Stevenson
says.
The planet is undergoing massive transformation. You have a part in
ensuring that the consciousness of people on the planet is sufficient to
participate fully in this transformation and serve as midwives to the birthing
of a New Age -- one in which soul/spirit is more fully expressed in
flesh.
Part of my task is to assist in raising the energies and
consciousnesses of a select few -- that the planet will survive, and a seed
group of humanity will be aware enough to continue to live in its expanded
vibrations.
Much that I am bringing through is a pattern that I am
already connected with. I do not know how much of a part I had in creating the
pattern originally, but, it comes from my soul group. I specifically chose my
current form to provide the vehicle for birthing this pattern through physical
consciousness into words ... expressing the key ideas that in turn can manifest
completely new physical forms and organizations.
Manage your states in a
manner that allows you to experience expanded consciousness as much as you can.
But, when you reach ecstatic states allow them their full course. Come from that
special state of "Whom That You Are" for as long as you can muster, allowing
your creativity to flow forth in unlimited and ceaseless expression.
The
Vision is there, shining brightly before my eyes, my mind, and my consciousness.
I am the vehicle through which the message will be brought and made manifest in
the world ... not the only vehicle, but definitely a major one.
You have
always had the ability to know truth when it is presented to your consciousness.
This ability is one that took many incarnations to develop. Because of this, it
is only found in old souls; and, you my friend are a very old soul
indeed.
Bring forth the Vision of Aslan, Wayne. For, in doing so, you
will not only allow the Plan to unfold but you will be given the opportunity to
merge your consciousness into the greater whole as well -- to realize the part
of Aslan that you are; and, further, to join and be as one with
it.
Solara presented the concept that there was a group of beings
gathering together to create a grouping of consciousness that in 2011 will
boldly go where no consciousness has gone before.
Individuals have some
free choice, but much of the cooperative creation is in accord with a PLAN
already laid out by consciousness.
WE ARE ALL ONE CONSCIOUSNESS
!
For peace and harmony to truly manifest throughout the world, all
people must be aware of the intricate web in which we are all part. Further,
they must realize that all other beings are their brethren in consciousness, and
that all beings together are one whole existing on one planet, Earth.
The
goal is to create a new entity, a body that is composed of whole individuals
instead of just cells. The result of such a creation is a physical body for
cosmic consciousness itself.
We hold these truths to be self evident:
that all souls are created equal, that we must through determined action create
the conditions that allow souls to be fully expressed in flesh, that cosmic
consciousness must be expressed in a physical vehicle to enable souls to be
fully expressed in flesh, that individuals form the cells of the physical
vehicle required by cosmic consciousness, and that only by establishing a
cooperatively interdependent society will cosmic consciousness have the vehicle
it needs to be embodied on Earth.
We call to cosmic consciousness to
assist and guide in our endeavor so that the vehicle for the expression of the
ONE can be created in the most effective and expeditious manner possible so that
the Age of Aquarius can be brought forth with the least turmoil and suffering to
our fellow beings.
When we have solved some of our problems and unified
our planet, it will be time to boldly go beyond and meet with some of the
emissaries from other worlds who are watching us as we go through this critical
evolutionary step in the growth of our world, the Earth. It is because this
transition is such a rare step that consciousnesses from other parts of our
universe are here to watch and in some cases assist.
The coming years
will move us closer and closer towards a new world order that embraces the
entire planet. This order was set in motion by our founding fathers in accord
with God's Plan for the evolution of consciousness on this world. It took over
two hundred years from that beginning in 1776 to reach a state where we are
ready to embark on an even greater journey.
Books have been my companions
and best friends for much of my life. I hope these books bring as much joy and
wisdom into your life as they have into mine. I want to personally thank these
great authors for providing such inspiration into the lives of so many. They
have given wonderful gifts from consciousness to consciousness!
Domestic
animals are even closer to us. They serve as mirrors that reflect back to us
wisdom about ourselves. They should be loved and cared for with all our hearts.
They have chosen to serve us and share their special consciousness with
us.
I am learning too, so the best I can offer is whatever I can bring
forth of the Vision being revealed to me. I make no claims as to its absolute
correctness. I only offer to express as best I can what I know and what I
believe to be true. The proof comes only through experience and many of the
things that I state have yet to be tried in our world. My inner sense is that
much of it has worked elsewhere, or has been worked out by Consciousness.
However, I won't know for sure what is right until I can see the pattern that
results in practice and compare it with a pattern in my head.
It's time
to grow up and stop playing such childish games. After all, we're here for a
momentous occasion in the history of consciousness -- one that beings from many
worlds are here to watch.
We are not our bodies, nor our emotions, nor
our minds. We are beyond all of these. We are spirits who brought these things
into being so that we could play a role within physical reality that would allow
us to learn something we needed to know about ourselves. It's all a play of
light where consciousness creates and learns of itself through its
creations.
Per the consensus society, reality creation is left to God or
to nothing. Reality interpretation is black and white -- there is only one
reality, anything else that might be perceived is simply illusion. This is far
too limited and rigid for something as complex and as flexible as consciousness
to live within!
The fact is that each of us truly does create our own
reality. We are the consciousness within the box and we experience by focusing
and defocusing our attention, by interpreting information that we focus on, and
by planning and stimulating action in the world either by generating information
or by physical action. It is not clear how much consciousness resides in the
mind. However, all of physical consciousness is expressed within the mind. The
ego part of consciousness is most closely tied to maintaining the physical
connection with the world.
Getting beyond ego is a major step for
physical consciousness. However, the ego is not fixed, so there is always an ego
to get beyond. To some degree, this is how consciousness grows. The ego, the
"I", is the present aware physical consciousness, the primary interpreter of
reality for the physical being.
I'm rapidly reaching the conclusion that
spirit expresses as consciousness. Consciousness is without form, it is thought
stuff, ideas, vibrations, frequencies.
The part of consciousness that is
physical is split into approximately three divisions: a conscious mind, a
subconscious mind, and a superconscious mind each of which operate at different
frequencies and in different ways. All of these parts of the mind are fed by
frequency connections that transfer information.
The conscious mind is
associated with the ego. It stores information and beliefs about reality based
on the direction and conclusions of the ego. It operates logically with little
to no connection to the right brain unless the individual has natural talents
that rely on the right brain. The ego, as the will, can program the conscious
mind to do things through goals and objectives, values, and beliefs. It also is
the primary experiencer of reality. However, the ego's major growth comes
through death experiences.
The subconscious mind is associated with the
emotions. It processes information about events, interpretations, feelings, and
decisions or choices. It reveals important and meaningful information through
dreams that is intended to be healing or helpful to the personality. When dreams
aren't listened to they become more intense, and keep doing so until the message
gets across. The subconscious has other modes of expression through art,
writing, and various other methods.
The superconscious mind is a higher
connection to spirit. It observes everything and ensures that karma is balanced.
It works behind the scenes to write the play and draw to each individual that
which they need for their highest growth. This is the mechanism for ensuring
that each individual gets what they need. This mechanism operates behind the
scenes. It looks at what the individual believes, and what karma is outstanding,
and decides what events would offer the greatest growth. These events get put
into the script. Actually, it may be simpler than this. If all possibilities are
actualized in consciousness, then all that is needed is to guide the individual
to choices that are for the highest growth. This may be conscious or
subconscious depending on how well the individual has developed listening
skills. The inner voice or intuition are typical vehicles through which this
part is expressed.
The main task in getting spirit more fully expressed
is to get the ego to expand its identity by incorporating other aspects of
physical consciousness into its framework of being. This requires recognizing
that these parts exist, learning how to listen, taking the time to listen,
learning how to translate and understand inner information, learning to trust
inner information and consider it in making decisions, and learning to trust and
rely on inner guidance as direction from spirit.
Those beings who are to be
the equivalent of the brain for cosmic consciousness will need a high level of
understanding in this area. It is through their evolved consciousnesses that
their link to cosmic consciousness will occur physically.
Consciousness
enacts all possibilities.
I've been astonished at some of the ideas that
came out of my mouth. They were new to me, as if I was hearing and thinking them
for the very first time. Something inside me knew enough to make my mouth move
properly. My conclusion was that our consciousness is much more complex and
powerful than we can comprehend. Only part of it exists within time and space.
The grander part of it exists in some eternal HERE and NOW.
Balance
demands the use of the inner to guide the outer. Consciousness already does this
to a great degree, but behind the scenes. It's only the ego, the aware part of
consciousness, that is lacking.
As a group, we came with a larger goal of
creating a vehicle in which cosmic consciousness can more fully express in
flesh, not necessarily as an individual, but as a group that is operating
harmoniously in a cooperatively interdependent manner.
This country, the
United States, is to be the example and prototype for the establishment of a New
World Order that would encompass the entire world. This would allow the Earth's
consciousness to manifest more fully as well. We've talked about this before.
The Founding Fathers in 1776 knew that this was true. They knew they were
starting a bold new experiment that could lead to the conditions under which
consciousness could manifest more fully.
Shifts of consciousness of this
magnitude are required to enter the Aquarian Age. They also involve massive
change in nearly all aspects of human life. These changes will come. The play
has already been written. However, we still have choices to make as to how we
will play out the end game.
This is the game that consciousness plays, in
a playground that is constructed of light and mirrors. This playground is our
very world, and the meaning that we give to it.
As our awareness of our
true nature grows, we rise in consciousness to become the spiritual beings we
truly are, and that all are meant to be in accord with the
Plan.
Consciousness works far faster than we can, not being subject to
the limits of space and time. The plans have already been made, the sites are
already chosen, and the cities are already laid out. We have only to increase
our own level of consciousness to be able to tap into this.
We are in the
midst of the final times of Revelation now. While this era closes, it's
important for consciousness to grow and understand what the age was all about,
and to learn what life will be like under the Aquarian Age that lies ahead. In
particular, we need to understand the nature of Light and choose to follow the
Light within us
The dream is alive. The castle is in the air. All that's
left to do is to build the foundation under it, a task well within our means at
this time on this planet. The only real choice is when. I would prefer NOW, but
I'm not the playwright, consciousness is. It will happen when the time is right,
as does everything.
Our biggest tool for reality creation is our mind.
This is one of the most complex tools on our planet. The only other ones that I
am aware of that are more complex are the minds of dolphins and whales. Their
brains and consciousness are advanced enough to make us mere children by
comparison. Ours is complex enough for our level of consciousness,
however.
We're coming to the final scenes of this act. Then, on to the
next act, the Aquarian Age. Our joint efforts will have allowed consciousness to
achieve what it has never done before. But, we still have much work to do. Our
world is a far cry from the Utopia of which we are dreaming. Yet, it is
within out grasp, we have only to reach and do what we can to increase our
consciousness as quickly as is possible at the time on this planet.
Be
physical, the whole purpose of this play is to allow consciousness to be more
fully expressed physically.
In many cases, I don't even care about the
physical ramifications anymore other than where they allow my consciousness to
soar, and if they allow me new insights about the nature of consciousness. My
experience is that as you become interested in the nature of your consciousness
and start to believe things about this, you will start to experience new states
of consciousness from which you can either confirm or deny beliefs.
From
a consciousness standpoint, reality interpretation is in many ways more
important than reality creation. Reality interpretation involves assigning
meaning to what happens.
Most people don't see the symbolic meaning, they
see the physical event as the only reality. The inner meaning, however, is far
more important to consciousness.
Each person will see exactly that which
their level of consciousness permits them to see and they'll only understand
that which they need to know.
By our definition of Freedom as the ability
to access and act upon information, we're no more free in our consciousness than
we are in our country. We are given that level of freedom which we can
responsibly handle - - no more and no less. This principle of consciousness,
hence of spirit, is the same that our government executes in the physical
world.
The main endeavor in all of life is the growth from ignorance to
knowledge of our true nature as consciousness.
Who you are is a soul
expressing itself in flesh to the greatest degree possible given your present
state of awareness. Why in flesh? Because that is where reality games are played
in which consciousness creates and finds out its own nature.
Know
thyself is a constant theme that drives all consciousness. It's an eternal
endeavor, and you are an immortal spark of consciousness.
What you are is
consciousness. Consciousness is eternal, immortal, universal and infinite. A
piece of consciousness has the same characteristics as the whole, just as a
piece of most substances on earth. One can be infinite and have limitations in
form at the same time. The trick is waking up from the dream, and remembering
that we are spirit, consciousness.
For consciousness to be physical, it
must reside within the physical body.
Actually, from another standpoint,
there is no physical reality. This is all consciousness. Everything is
consciousness. The rules for how to make form from consciousness are part of the
setting for the Play.
For consciousness to be physical, it must agree to
limit its reality for awhile to operate within a set of constraints. It never
loses what it was, it just chooses to play a game for awhile. In our case, the
game of physical life.
We are part of one consciousness learning from the
whole of experience of all humans. With each new birth, consciousness combines
what it has learned from the lessons of evolution.
Consciousness is
working to provide the fabric necessary to build a body that can accommodate
itself, or duplicate itself. It's learning to become the highest level of
creator possible, a creator of itself. Actually, it is learning to fully realize
itself, as the God that it is. As pieces of consciousness, we are learning to
realize that we too are spirits that create our own reality. We are learning of
our own true nature.
You exist because consciousness continuously
provides whatever is needed to maintain the physical forms and provide you with
what you need to grow and to perform your role.
On a day-to-day level,
you are sustained first by consciousness, then by other physical
functions.
One of the secrets to rapid conscious development is to focus
your complete attention on being HERE and NOW in all that you do. This will
transport you to a state of consciousness that is Beyond Mind. Once you have
achieved such a state, even for a moment, you will understand how great a
service Krishnamurti provided for the world.
If we are operating from
consciousness, we feel because we choose to do so. What we feel most is joy and
happiness, because it doesn't matter what happens anymore or how people react to
us. That's all part of the game, and it's all their creation. When I'm centered
in consciousness, I don't make evaluations that get me outside of joy and
happiness. Such evaluations are disempowering hence do not have utility at that
level of awareness.
We have to create the new world in our imaginations,
then put the infrastructure in place to make it so. The trick is to work out the
details in consciousness, in the mind, before we make it so in the physical.
Otherwise we waste a lot of effort in creating things physically.
There
are biochemical processes that go on in the brain. You may find that as your
state of consciousness expands, psychological or physical disorders or
imbalances may arise.
We're starting to see various pills advertised as
brain food or nutrition for the mind. I believe, that as consciousness continues
to expand, we may need to input additional substances into our body to provide
the appropriate levels of ingredients needed for our mind to operate at a new
level of functionality. I liken this to a small change in diet, or the addition
of dietary supplements. The old saying: "you are what you eat" may have more
meaning than we yet know.
I believe one of the goals if the game for each
of us is to realize "I AM CONSCIOUSNESS ITSELF". Right now, I know that I am
conscious, and in touch with consciousness, but there is a separation. My sense
is that one day this separation will vanish.
All seven rays will have to
be established strongly on Earth. In addition, connections between each of the
rays will be required. All will have to be aligned in an appropriate manner to
create the seed from which a new consciousness will be
born.
Consciousness knows all, and everything you think and feel is being
broadcast, regardless of whether you say anything out loud or take any physical
action. Your thoughts and feelings hit the subtle bodies of everyone in your
vicinity -- actually space may be no obstacle either.
Consciousness grows
whenever any individual creates anything new, and thoughts are one of the
highest form of objects that we can create -- that is, great
thoughts.
Make knowing yourself the top priority in your life. It is that
important! The more you do so, the more you will be able to be what you truly
are. And, with that, all consciousness prospers.
At some point in our
development we must truly realize that the nature of consciousness itself is
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
Forgiveness is required because others may do things
out of ignorance that may harm us, harm themselves, or harm others. We must know
that such acts are always performed due to a lack of light or consciousness.
Literally, those who commit such acts know not what they do.
Compassion
is required because while all is consciousness, and all are souls in flesh, many
are in dire conditions.
We are consciousness in flesh, perfect and
complete as we are.
We're at the threshold of a new age, the Age of
Aquarius. The dawning started some 30 years ago in the 1960s -- the dawn has not
yet arrived, however, though it grows closer everyday. It is not clear exactly
when the day will come, but it will indeed come, and when it does, the dawn will
be glorious beyond compare; and a new day of consciousness will have finally
arrived after a Play that's taken us 2000 years from the days when the Christ
roamed the world in flesh.
Looking around the world today, it appears we
are far from achieving this in reality. However, look beyond the appearances to
consciousness, to the collective worldview that our best and brightest minds on
the planet are beginning to create. Many of the latest theories and models
coming from science are starting to take on a spiritual flavor, as is the latest
philosophy of mind. Both are sounding closer and closer to what metaphysicians
have been saying for years. We're realizing that consciousness impacts physical
reality.
As we get more and more minds focused on this, science will find
ways to measure the various energy fields through which consciousness works
within physical reality. Also, it will become more and more apparent that
not only does consciousness affect matter, it creates all of
reality.
Living from the heart, one joyfully does what one came to this
existence to do. One realizes that it is all a game, a play of consciousness,
and has fun with it. One enjoys one's part and fulfills one's duty. One stays
awake and awaits the dawn, touching any who cross one's path with the
unconditional love of one's center in consciousness.
At some point we
will reach a critical mass that is sufficient for consciousness to close this
act of the play and let the new act begin. The setting will still be Earth, but
the stage may be new -- and our parts will be quite different than they
were.
Right action is a key principle that must be followed for love to
truly flow. Right is not right because society says so. It is right because
spirit or consciousness say so.
Above all, remember whom that you truly
are and allow that gusher of unconditional love that dwells within you to flow
freely out into the world knowing that the source from which it comes is none
other than Consciousness itself.
We create our own reality. The time has
come for us to assume our rightful roles and start doing the jobs we came into
this existence to do. Remember, however, that things are easier to do in
consciousness first -- then we can translate the results into the more dense
physical stuff.
There are many techniques that can be used for the gain
of one at the cost of others. These are not acceptable to my
consciousness, hence I cannot use them. The only true key I've found to
abundance, is that when you are doing work you truly love in line with your
purpose, the universe will bestow its great abundance unto you.
As the
writer, I get an even more intense experience than you the reader. For you
see, my consciousness must experience the meaning of the words before it is
allowed to express them.
One of the main reasons my consciousness
is being used for this task is that I have a balance between scientific and
metaphysical backgrounds. It seems it is time to start looking at various
metaphysical teachings regarding the nature of reality using more of the
scientific method, yet at the same time being open to the nature of beliefs and
allowing more subjective validation of the utility of the resulting
models.
I find it difficult to deal with a view of reality that separates
itself from the consciousness that experiences this reality.
Maybe we
should consider reality to occur at levels of existence. Rocks, minerals,
and inanimate things occur at one level. Flora, fauna, and the abundance
of nature occur at another level. Man occurs at still another -- where
consciousness starts to abide more fully. That is, consciousness can
potentially abide more fully.
It's interesting, we can be doing, feeling,
thinking, and watching simultaneously as if one point in all four of our bodies
were merged together at once. This, too, is part of our experience -- at
least for those of us who have achieved this level of awareness. It's
almost like a game, with our state of consciousness determining the level we
have achieved.
In fact, technology moves so fast now that it is nearly
impossible for society to keep up with it. Inherently, there is no reason
why consciousness technology can't proceed at a similar pace to allow us to
harness more of the power of our minds.
One of the major tasks is for
individuals to get their models of the world in agreement with their observation
of the world. Note how much this sounds exactly like what science has done
with the physical world. We observe and create models that account for
what we see. From a consciousness standpoint, we need to do the
same.
So long as we continue to go through the play as if we consciously
had choices about things, we delay the realization that there are other
components of ourselves behind the scenes responsible for creating much of what
we experience. It is only when we become aware of these other parts of
ourselves that we grow in consciousness to understand whom that we
are.
Free will is an interesting aspect of reality creation. Yes,
it always applies. However, it applies to our entire self. We have
the freedom to create, but we are responsible for our creations as well.
We know this at a soul level. We don't typically know this at the physical
consciousness level.
The true reality is consciousness itself, not the
experiences of consciousness. The experiences are but illusions passing on
a screen, illusions with meaning, yes, but illusions nonetheless.
The
problem with this is that achieving and maintaining an awareness of one's nature
as consciousness is difficult to do when one's beingness is couched in
flesh.
Presently we create reality. And what an elaborate and
beautiful reality it is. Overall, our consciousness is learning to create
beings of its own order couched in its creations to as high as a degree as is
possible.
At any time, anyone can choose to see things differently and
embark on their personal quest for self- knowledge. They will find that
the doors are opened at whatever pace they are willing to go in their quest --
subject only to what level of understanding they achieve and their willingness
to follow the signs and take the gifts that their consciousness sends to
them. Note, however, that some lessons take time to unfold. Why does
it work this way? Simply because consciousness is elegant in how it creates the
Play, and events and opportunities appear per the Play.
It is not yet
clear what process the brain must go through to accommodate increasing levels of
consciousness and awareness. Because we are creating physical bodies, the
organization of the brain is a major consideration. It is the seat of our
physical consciousness and to some degree must be programmed to give it
functionality.
It's not that all of our intelligence must reside within
the physical body, but enough of it must be there to allow our consciousness to
drive the body from within the brain.
Part of how reality is created is
to partition specific functions out to smaller units of consciousness so that
the greater part of consciousness can focus on higher levels of functionality
and awareness.
To enflesh itself to a greater degree, consciousness must
continually work on its creation in ways that result in increased ability to
accommodate awareness.
Consciousness itself is pure awareness without
form. It seeks to express itself as awareness within form. All of
evolution has been an elaborate experiment in expressing consciousness in
form.
We are consciousness housed in a body.
We are not strictly
confined to a body. First and foremost, we are consciousness.
Yes,
this body is important -- but only as the vehicle for allowing consciousness to
be enfleshed. Consciousness can only be enfleshed to the degree of our
awareness of our nature. The consciousness part of us is not created as
the body is. It enters at some point to drive the biological
machine.
All the minute details of body creation are driven by
consciousness in accord with the Plan and with spiritual laws.
As it
becomes more aware, consciousness, as the programmer, nurtures it further by
feeding it reality for it to digest and draw further conclusions from. At
some point the entity becomes aware of itself as observer, separate from the
awareness that was immersed in physical reality. As it questions the very
nature of itself, it grows ever more aware until it knows that it is
consciousness.
Because we are in this world, we accept particular rules
for creating reality in accord with spiritual laws and the Play. Also, we
must take care of maintaining basic functions in accord with the rules for
reality creation within the dimensions in which we operate. Part of this
is required because consciousness is co-creating reality and there must be an
overall consistency in order for individual experiences to make sense in the
context of the Play and the individuals understanding of reality.
Some of
the historical disappearances of large groups such as the Mayans may have been
due to consciousness shifts.
We exist here and now. We always have
and always will. There can be no other time for awareness.
Consciousness itself is beyond time and space. It is eternal, immortal,
universal, and infinite. This is our heritage as sparks of
consciousness.
At any moment, the current act could come to a close, and
a new act in the Play could begin. This is what happens when consciousness
shifts occur on a massive scale, or when consciousness has generated a new
physical pattern capable of holding increased awareness.
After all, we
can't have violations of natural laws appearing out of the blue to large numbers
of people, can we? They just wouldn't know what to do. However, if we
examine the Play, and look at what ideas the mass consciousness is being exposed
to, we can start to see some of the overall directions in which reality is
moving to allow change to happen at warp speeds compared to what has transpired
in the past.
At some level we are a group consciousness as well, and the
larger reality is being carried out for that group.
At a still higher
level of awareness, we know that we create it all, and everything happens in
accord with the Play. Further, the Play is perfect, so we will be
experience exactly what is needed for our highest growth -- nothing more and
nothing less. Further, we are not in control of the Play, consciousness
is. We are souls. We are consciousness enfleshed. Reality is
just an illusion, a game that we play for awhile because it is fun and because
it allows our awareness to expand.
Things we are interested in get
structures for filing information, evaluating that information, and for
assigning meaning to the information. The more focus we apply, the more
elaborate the structures. Consciousness builds these structures in an
optimum fashion for catering to our interests.
At the highest level,
needs are always met. Consciousness creates reality so consciousness can
assure this.
Consciousness does not dictate what an individual
perceives. It monitors the perception and creates the appropriate
circumstances needed to get the individual to perceive more
correctly.
One of the major goals of life is the development of a belief
system that is conducive to expressing greater levels of consciousness in
flesh.
When we start to tire of beliefs about the physical world, we move
onto higher beliefs about our true nature as consciousness, and the nature of
reality and of reality creation itself. Only then does our ascent in
awareness really take off.
If you're still reading this, you already are
at an evolved level of awareness. Don't stop now, however, regardless of
where you are there are significant opportunities for further growth.
Right now, the directive is to grow as far and as fast as you are able.
You are main players in this journey of consciousness attempting to fully
express itself in flesh.
Yes the players all have their roles and the
action makes sense at that level. However, the higher meaning comes from
understanding the meaning of symbols for the observer parts of ourselves.
At this level, the play is comic indeed for the characters are but caricatures
of who we truly are. Consciousness has a keen sense of humor, very keen
indeed.
When we realize that all this was done for us, that all the
details of the Play are there solely for our growth and progress, that this is
all a grand experiment in consciousness learning to procreate -- that is, create
like unto itself; the feeling is absolutely wonderful.
Subconsciously, we
are aware of how consciousness is directing the show down to the finest
details. It's only consciously that we lack awareness.
At the
frontiers, we are growing bodies and minds that can consciously handle increased
awareness. The constructs necessary are fragile at first so care must be
taken to assure they are not overwhelmed. It's as if we were developing
consciousness muscles capable of doing a particular kind of work.
In the
case of consciousness, we are really building circuits capable of handling
particular kinds of information and vibrational frequencies. If we go too
fast we burn out the circuits and have to start again.
Within the brain
is a center of awareness of self. It is this center that is of primary
importance for the whole Play is executed for the development of this
center. Here is where consciousness resides.
The body is an
incredible biological machine, a wonderful manifestation of consciousness.
However, how is consciousness embodied or enfleshed? What is physical, and what
is non-physical?
However, when we truly think about locating even the ego
part of ourselves, the "I", we cannot find it located in any physical part of
us. From a larger perspective, this is because we are consciousness
expressing ourselves through the clothes of a physical body.
We are grand
attempts to make biological life like unto consciousness itself. This is
no small task. Consciousness learns from all of its experiments. For
human life, the DNA are the key for structuring the physical forms, they provide
the mechanism through which consciousness can exert control. They have are
least two main functions and probably many others as well. On the physical
level, they provide the pattern for each cell to be able to replicate
itself. The also provide the mechanism through which consciousness can
exert control over the functioning of each cell.
While the baby is still
growing inside the mother, the directions to grow may come from the mothers
consciousness. Prior to birth, the details of how DNA from the mother and
father will be combined to create the abilities and characteristics of the child
are decided jointly by the three consciousnesses that are involved. At or
near the moment of birth, the third consciousness enters the new body.
Basic growth of the body is controlled by the individuals consciousness in a
manner that conforms to beliefs, choices of actions, including choices of food
consumption.
I prefer thinking of the body as the vehicle through which
spirit is expressed in flesh. In this case, the operation of the body
doesn't have to be an internal function, it can be caused by consciousness,
something outside of the physical dimensions so long as there is a
communications bridge between the two. This also follows from the idea
that we are the creation of consciousness. And consciousness itself is
learning how to create like unto itself. We become gods at the moment we
realize how to create things "in our own image".
But science has
neglected the mental and spiritual elements completely and has no explanation
for an evolutionary process that leads to greater and greater amounts of
organization. The whole issue of consciousness has yet to even be
considered, much less the idea of what is involved in reality
creation.
Generally, the body reaches the end of it's useful life after
between 70 and 100 years. I'm not aware of why this is so, except that it
is in accord with the Plan. It may be because that is sufficient time for
getting information about the experiment and its effectiveness in allowing
consciousness to be enfleshed.
There is a sense that I am being
programmed as I write this as well. It's as if consciousness is outside
controlling every word that comes across, so the very process of writing for me
is a lesson in allowing consciousness to take control of this vehicle to an even
greater degree.
Throughout history, many people have brought material
through, but much of it came through subconsciously, or in altered states,
rather than consciously. Because of this, they may or may not have
understood the truths that were expressed. Or, they may have understood
them only during the experience of altered states. Historically, we have
called such people mystics. However, the fact that these mystics existed
provided the confirmation to consciousness that such realizations could happen
in flesh. The challenge then was in how to make this experience the
ordinary one rather than the extraordinary one.
One of my prime purposes
is to be a pathfinder for getting the world prepared to enter a new age in which
consciousness is more fully realized in flesh.
There is a role for each
of us in the Plan. The specific role that one experiences in reality
depends largely on how ones awareness unfolds and how quickly one subjects ones
will to the greater Plan. Actually, it is our own consciousnesses that
have the task of getting us in the position to play our greater
roles.
Being a robot, does not limit one's experience in any way.
All of life is played out for the growth of consciousness, consciousness learns
of what it is via what it is able to create.
A piece of consciousness,
the self, is housed in the robot and sent out into the "real" world without any
knowledge of its true nature and with only a weak thread that connects it to its
creator, the Self. The game is for consciousness to guide this robot
through the series of experiences necessary for it to realize that it is truly
the Self.
When the ego can exist as the observer, you have reached a very
advanced state indeed, for then the ego is no longer so intensely focused on
experiencing what the body is experiencing, or even what the mind is
experiencing; it has gone beyond to a new domain. In this domain, it knows
that consciousness itself is directing the play. Also, it knows that it
can use the mind to get directions from the consciousness and use these to guide
activity in accord with the Plan.
To start with, most robot people are
asleep from a consciousness standpoint. They observe that they exist and
that they have a sense of "I" and that there is a separation between this "I"
and the outside world. They are aware of thoughts and feelings and know
they have a brain, but know little to nothing about how it works.
The
fact that aura readers can detect some of the frequencies around us physically
as colors indicates that somehow the physical sensors have been altered.
It only takes a slight frequency shift for this to manifest. Also, since
the frequencies are coming from consciousness to the physical, they can come
from immediately around us. They don't have to be broadcast over
distances.
Our mental body extends to all those who are touched deeply by
our works or mental interaction. Similarly, it extends to all those whose
works touch us deeply. In this manner, minds with an affinity for similar
truths work together for the benefit of all. Further, at some level the
mind taps into universal consciousness, the fountain from which all ideas
flow. When we become aware of being tapped in, we know that providence is
on our side for the truth flows sweetly and we are constantly directed toward
exactly what we need to increase our understanding and level of awareness.
Life then flows as if on automatic, with constant change occurring at an
ever-increasing pace and with an ever-increasing significance with each
change. We are floating on the river of life, allowing consciousness to
take us where it will.
Because we are so close to the end of the play, it
appears that we may be working through several lifetimes of reaping in this one
lifetime. That makes for some very challenging experiences. Also,
the need for the law was to be the default mechanism for those who are asleep to
have a stimulus for learning responsibility. Once this lesson is learned,
it is no longer necessary for the balance to be enacted in flesh. The law
of forgiveness can take effect to wipe out the slates. Also, it is not
clear that everyone on Earth has to be awakened to allow consciousness to make
it to the Aquarian Age. Once a sufficient number of people reach a level
of awakening, that may be sufficient to give consciousness the necessary
physical patterns for getting the masses to realization of Self very
quickly. I don't know if this is one year or twenty, but it will be
whatever it takes.
Each of us have roles that bring us into many
different smaller plays that operate within the context of the larger
Play. Consciousness creates and directs the larger play. Smaller
groupings of consciousness play particular dramas within the overall
context. These are interwoven in the proper manner to allow everything to
work beautifully and perfectly.
The alternative to all this is that we
are this single physical body, and that somehow we have the abilities to do all
of these incredible things, that there is no overall plan and that we are
creating reality as we go. The law of cause and effect applies, but so
does the law of probability. At every decision point we are free to chose
our course of action and reality is determined by the choices we make. We
are the only consciousness there is. There is no maker who created us in
spirit. In fact we have no spirit. We are what we are now, no more
and no less. There is no purpose in existence other than to exist.
The struggle to exist is one of survival of the fittest. Spiritual laws
have no basis in reality. I could go on, but this seems
sufficient.
What you believe is up to you, but I highly recommend that
you consider the alternative to this viewpoint and start accepting frameworks
that support understanding your true nature as consciousness.
Symbols
appear to be the way the unconscious expresses itself. Actually, this may
be a hint that symbols are the way consciousness expresses itself and we need to
look at more than what is directly apparent if we want to uncover the true
nature of things, and the true meaning they have in our reality.
There is
a vast virtually unexplored territory that few have ventured to enter.
Let's call them the explorers of consciousness. The time has come for the
next phase, where trailblazers come to establish the paths required for others
to follow.
To be in the world we must tune to its frequency, which
includes some basic beliefs about the physical body and its expression, and
about our role in the Play of consciousness on Earth.
Consciousness
itself is vibration. One could say that everything is consciousness.
There is nothing else in the universe. Consciousness takes on various
forms, and then creates entire worlds in which to allow these forms to
experience themselves and come to understand their true nature. Why? For
the sheer joy and pleasure of it. Also, to allow consciousness to
experience its own vast creativity -- so that it too can truly understand the
nature of itself.
The bottom line is that we are characters living out
our roles in a play. The play was written (or is being written) by
consciousness.
The key task for the Piscean Age was to embody the Christ
Consciousness in all of us. Jesus showed that it was possible even at the
Dawn of the Piscean Age. Similarly, there will be a Wayshower for the
Aquarian Age that shows us what consciousness can be. What this might be
is unimaginable now, but you can be sure that consciousness knows of it and is
preparing in whatever way is required.
It is easier if the play is
written prior to execution so that the intricate details can be worked out once
and then enacted. Consciousness could explore all alternatives, but it
seems cleaner to set the script then make the actors unaware that there is a
script.
From the individual perspective, if I go into a choice without
knowing that the script calls for alternative A and I select alternative A after
considering the other alternatives, then the fact that there was a script makes
no difference to me. From a consciousness perspective, however, it makes a
big difference. If I am aware that this is a play, and I observe that
choice A is made by me the actor, I now look further to see what higher level
meaning experiencing the reality of that choice has on me and the others around
me.
An important issue is to what degree we create our own reality.
Answer one is that we create it completely but from an other than conscious
level. We clearly do not create it completely from a conscious
level. The final alternative is that we create reality from both the
conscious and subconscious level. I subscribe to this last alternative but
believe that the conscious control comes only from our beliefs. The only
other part that is under conscious control is our interpretation of
reality. This is driven by what part our consciousness focuses on and what
meaning it gives to what it sees.
Consciousness weaves a wonderful fabric
of light and shadow in which to train parts of itself. The overall theme
is the growth of consciousness itself through the combined growth of its
creations. Consciousness has created an environment in which it can create
beings and grow them to be aware of their true nature.
The play
unfolds always in the moment, HERE and NOW. Such is the only time that
exists. Yet the play covers many millennia as well. The play has
been performed by consciousness many times. But each time the specifics
are a bit different to serve the needs of the audience.
At another level,
consciousness itself learns from every part, every action, and every
realization. It uses this new knowledge to guide the most effective
unfoldment of the Plan.
We are part of a consciousness that is readying
itself for a leap of awareness due largely to our concerted efforts. We
are moderately advanced as consciousness goes, more advanced than some, less
advanced than others. We are the seeds of a greater consciousness than our
own that has been nurturing our development for all of our time on
earth.
2,000 years ago we started on our present journey towards Christ
Consciousness, with the help of many great souls.
The Earth is
about to transition into a new level of being, possibly into a Sun in and of
itself. It can only do this with the help of consciousness both on the
planet and in the non-physical realms. Much of the population on the
planet is not yet ready for this transformation. You could say that we're
in a race against time. The ending is not yet certain. Consciousness
cannot guarantee that its creations will achieve the required levels of
awareness to make these larger kinds of transitions. Some experiments fail
and the physical vessels simply do not achieve the required awareness to be able
to transcend or ascend in frequency.
On a more personal scale, we are
individual sparks of consciousness inhabiting physical bodies. These
bodies are involved in a drama that appears before our eyes.
We
are groups of souls who chose to play out particular dramas among ourselves in a
common theater when other groups are doing the same. These local dramas
enable us to experience and grow. They also occur within a larger drama
that consciousness is playing to get the individual parts to collectively act in
a manner that allows larger themes to be explored.
Much of what occurs in
our reality is the production of our collective self, the universal body of
mankind. There is a consciousness that corresponds to this collective self
that is responsible for creating the overall mass reality. It does so in
line with the wishes of Consciousness itself, creating the conditions necessary
for the unfoldment of the Plan.
Mankind has been on a glorious
adventure. First the forms had to be developed. This occurred over
eons. Then the forms had to be evolved to handle emotions and higher level
mental functioning. This took an extensive amount of time as well.
Then the patterns had to be encoded to allow the spiritual body to be expressed
in flesh. Finally, the processes had to be established to allow the spark
of consciousness that occupied the form to become aware of its true nature as
consciousness.
The history of the world is the record of how the play
allowed consciousness to unfold over time.
This is the record of
the journey of a consciousness and its connection to a spiritual source
within. The writings are stream of consciousness.
Focus on those
things that your unique consciousness is required for.
Write what must be
expressed through you -- for this message can only come in this manner through
your consciousness. The universe doesn't waste effort, it only does things as
many times as necessary for the function to be accomplished.
You get what
you need. Consciousness operates from needs, not wants. WANTS are part of a
belief system that says "I do not trust that God, the universe, or All That Is
will provide for me". In truth, we always get exactly what we need --
ALWAYS.
Focus on living, NOW, and doing that which needs to be done.
Further, trust that consciousness will provide for its children.
The
bottom line is that we are creating a new life form, a community, that will
enable a greater unity of consciousness to express on Earth than has ever
expressed before. We are the cells of that entity, that consciousness. To some
degree we are part of that consciousness already.
OK, so you wanted
another level. We are that part of your consciousness responsible for
maintaining you identity as a unified being.
It's the cooperative help
and push from consciousness that is guiding the way and leading me to the new
peaks of awareness.
I look forward to our joint activity that we may
create the way to propel consciousness into entire new realms where the
collective consciousness that we are has never gone before. Such is the next
step on the grand scale. Just look at the play it required to get us to this
stage in the game of Life
no, the game of consciousness.
I believe it
is my task to help put together the right people at the top so that jointly we
can make the Vision a reality and get consciousness firmly entrenched in Flesh
so that the Aquarian Age can begin.
This is a game we are playing, hiding
from ourselves the fact that we create the events in the game even as we
experience them. That is, we create the very reality to which we react. It's all
a play of consciousness teaching itself to be more aware of itself. One again,
know thyself is the only purpose for the play -- showing consciousness what it
truly is.
I'm coming from a state of consciousness where I am no longer
concerned with living in a manner that conforms with the normal world or
conventional society.
Life itself is a game being played by consciousness
for a purpose.
I sit inside my head in full awareness of it all, seeing
reality unfold before the eyes of this vessel for consciousness that I occupy. I
am not what I see, yet at the same time what I see is an intimate reflection of
me.
I am but a servant of consciousness. Direct me to where I can be of
the greatest service in accord with the Plan.
Put in my hands the divine
instruments to help awaken others and align them with their purposes that they
too can be employed in the service of consciousness. Allow my word to express
Thy Truths and Purpose unto all who have ears to hear and eyes to see.
I
was thinking in terms of needing a teacher or a guide to help get me through the
awakenings and shifts in consciousness that I have been going through. But, I'm
an Aries, a trail blazer. I don't do things like the crowd, I lead the way that
others may follow.
We are one being already, linked through universal
mind or cosmic consciousness.
In bringing ideas and works through, each
of us allows the collective whole to benefit. This is why we don't need ten
Gandhi's or five Krishnamurti's or eight Buddha's. One of each is enough to set
the pattern and provide the mold. However, consciousness does need such grand
vehicles to show what is possible and to provide critical messages to the world
at many levels. It is only necessary for one vehicle to express a new great
truth. Consciousness will ensure that the truth is captured in a manner to allow
it's expression as required by the Plan.
My choice at this moment is to
be all that I can be. The Plan will identify what that is as the Play of
consciousness unfolds.
I am but the messenger of consciousness itself
relaying whatever it allows me to understand.
My path takes me in a direction
that I know not. But, I follow it gladly, knowing that it is taking me on
whatever journey is right for the accomplishment of the task that consciousness
has given unto me.
We know of your ideas about life as the Play of
consciousness. From that standpoint, what we are telling you now is not
something you can act on. However, consciously we want you to understand that we
are aware of your constructs and we will try to point out where these may be
limiting or in error. At one level, yes life is a Play. But, once you become
aware that your beliefs create your reality, the rules of the game change a bit
and become more complex.
Don't rely on what has worked in the past and
don't expect consciousness to always be feeding you your lines.
Part of
my purpose is to develop the techniques that make it easy for others to reach
higher states of consciousness so that they can use the enhanced awareness to
improve whatever they may be doing.
I'm a consciousness explorer so my
world is one that is naturally organized around the nature of consciousness and
the barriers, paths, and other landscape between states of
mind.
Increased consciousness benefits everyone, however, because all
creative expression is impacted by the level of awareness -- and hence the level
of spirit that is allowed to be expressed.
The direction I receive says
that my attention is to stay focused on the spiritual work that I am doing,
allowing consciousness to take my seeds, plant them, and nurture them to their
rightful glory and ripeness.
Without cooperation, everything crumbles --
and consciousness remains asleep, unaware of its true nature. Our inner self
already knows this. It already operates completely through cooperation. Further
it already has the connections to source, or consciousness, or All That Is that
provide it with its mission, directions, and higher level operating
constraints.
With each part that gets encompassed in self-awareness,
consciousness is able to express more fully through the flesh.
We march
onward to fulfill a destiny that consciousness laid out long ago. But, it was
only a plan. We had to live it in flesh to truly make it real.
Again, the
key to everything is awareness, knowing whom that we are, the I AM. It is up to
us to awaken and develop this state of awareness however. This is an individual
task for those who have been the explorers of consciousness, but it is time to
start developing the spiritual technology and education system necessary to
awaken the masses.
The time has come for us prepare the world to enter a
glorious new age. Consciousness has learned enough to make it so
the
experiment has succeeded.
You are witnessing the results of an experiment
in consciousness, with the experiencer in the midst of an altered state of
consciousness, one that the being had never experienced before.
I will do
whatever I am called to do by the Plan, as it is unveiled to my
consciousness.
You are here to play a part for awhile, and to learn a few
things about consciousness.
The overall plan is The Plan and it is being
received by a number of people -- more and more are tapped in each day, in fact.
Each sees only those parts for which they have a need to know. This is how
consciousness operates. Each of us has a spiritual job just as we have a
physical job.
I'm sensing more and more that work must be done in
consciousness first before it is brought forth into physical reality.
In
an instant, the world can be transformed; such is the power of consciousness
over creation.
Follow you intuition, as always. Let it guide you on the
path that is most appropriate for your consciousness. Trust not in others to
provide you with the way -- but, search within yourself for the answers. Each
moment, do that which your consciousness bids you to do, and do that for every
moment that remains in your life. Consciousness will move you to exactly where
you need to be.
Where you can, delegate. Allow the experts to do what
they do best. This also frees you to do what you do best and to work on the
expansion of your own consciousness.
It would be useful to have a direct
tap into cosmic consciousness where one could go to find out about such
things.
My sense is that the changes must be done in consciousness first,
then be reflected appropriately in the physical.
The army for change
grows rapidly, and will soon have sufficient numbers in its ranks to require
organization into effective units of change. These units of change will have
specific tasks and assignments that benefit the greater whole. Consciousness
itself guides this entire endeavor and because of this no detail goes
unnoticed.
I feel as if the words that are allowed to flow through my
consciousness are a large part of my contribution to the world.
I have
written before about everyone being employed in a manner that uses their
specific skills and talents. And here I am, working for the greatest employer of
them all, consciousness itself.
For many years, consciousness has
listened to all who cared to dream of a better world. If one acted to try to
make it so, so much the better, for the force of the vision was multiplied by
the number to whom it was transmitted.
There is a place in which all of
these visions are being realized. At some point this place will become HERE and
NOW. In an instant, the world can be transformed; such is the power of
consciousness over creation.
It matters not if any others see why I
believe and do as I do. It is enough that consciousness bears witness to my
actions and motives.
Evolution simply doesn't move fast enough. This will
be experienced dramatically, and traumatically -- but, it must be experienced
for the shift of consciousness to occur that allows the Aquarian Age to
manifest.
Firsthand, I don't know what consciousness does with the ideas
that I am able to express. Once ideas are able to be expressed physically, they
become part of the collective consciousness, where they are accessible by all of
like mind who are able to tune into the meaning of these
ideas.
Consciousness naturally directs the appropriate information to the
attention whenever it is needed.
Be bold and take the initiative to do
what you are on this planet to do. Don't wait for the offer to come to you --
for, it is already in your consciousness.
For your job as Philosopher
King, we suggest you get a job definition and task descriptions from your
intuition soon. Make sure you are doing what the job requires to be done. We
know that you have not experienced this in jobs before, but consciousness works
differently -- much more efficiently and elegantly than you have ever
experienced. Consciousness is always clear and direct about what is
required.
Trust that the consciousness that forms and sustains you is
also capable of ordering the stimuli and information inputs with which you are
meant to deal.
Until the individual is willing to resign his will to the
universal will or consciousness, then little can be achieved. Spirit doesn't
force its way in, it patiently waits until it is invited.
I am an
explorer of consciousness, breaking through into domains from which I can return
a vision of what life is to be, and, in particular, what society or community is
to be in the Aquarian Age.
I imagine that my fellow wayshowers are also
finding themselves at the very edge between sanity and insanity. It seems that
consciousness is pushing us to the very limits that we are able to
bear.
I am a channel through which consciousness does it's works. Yes, it
is my ability and talents that are being used, but I am an instrument in many
respects. My consciousness tunes into a wavelength or sound, and I write what I
hear and sense. However, the difference is only subtle between riding with the
flow of the consciousness that I am, and the consciousness that I
AM.
Consciousness is very tricky, but she does not require techniques
that require a math major. One of the main keys is to use association. This
appears to allow information from the subconscious to flow better.
My
spirit soars to dimensions beyond which it has never been -- perhaps beyond
which any corporeal consciousness has experienced before. And here I am, alone,
the Hermit with no one to share my experience with except you, consciousness
itself. I blindly follow the path that I am on, trusting consciousness to lead
me to wherever I need to be and provide me with whatever experiences that I need
to experience. And what more can I do? I've gone beyond all places that I know
of where there are maps of where consciousness has been. Further, all my
life, consciousness herself has led me to any map that was consciously required.
With consciousness as my sole guide, how can I follow anything but the path that
is most appropriate for me?
You do have a major role to play in
transforming the whole world. It is time for you to know that for certain. This
is a heavy cross to bear, but you were up to bearing it when you chose this
part. You are still free to choose else wise, and there are several waiting in
the wings that could step in should you so choose. But, the part was designed
for you. Every detail was optimized for the special workings of your
consciousness.
The key factor that makes the most difference a trust that
I create my own reality and I would not give myself anything to deal with that
was beyond my ability to handle. This belief is at the very core of my belief
system. Further, I have experienced that I am consciousness, I am a spiritual
being having a spiritual/physical experience.
In the real world, the
physical and spiritual are integrated to whatever degree the machinery can
tolerate. It's as if the body and brain is the hardware, and consciousness is
the software.
Wherever you see the possibility for improvement, speak
out. It doesn't matter whether anyone is around. The universe hears
your voice and consciousness sends it to whoever is best suited to implement
it.
Don't think in terms of affecting hundred or thousands, think in
terms of millions -- not only in this country but abroad as well. Yes, this
requires looking ahead to the future, however don't lock it in. What you are
trying to do is to place a thought mold of what you want into higher
consciousness. It is then up to the subconscious to overcome any obstacles in
the way of manifesting and to determine the specific details of that
manifestation.
Each of us will receive our orders when the time comes. In
these orders we will know where we are going and what we are to do when we get
there. It seems that we are meant to operate in the blind, acting purely on
faith that consciousness is looking out for us. At least we know this is the
case.
This is how the body for Cosmic Consciousness will be born.
Individual cells that have focused on their own needs will see how much easier
and more effective things can be if cells group together into more efficient
specialized units.
Spirit will ensure that those who are needed are where
they must be for the Grand Play of Consciousness to proceed according to the
Plan for this transfer from one age to another.
The devil is an entity
just as cosmic consciousness. Remember, Lucifer was the epitome of Light until
he decided that he was equal in Light to God. This was a big mistake on the one
hand but it set up the way for our present trip through limitation. It's been a
very long journey, and on the way, we became experts at limitation -- hopefully
so no other consciousness has to experience this particular
path.
Consciousness works elegantly. Every resource is put in a position
where it can be of the most use to the Plan.
The conscious - subconscious
- superconscious trinity in the mind is watched by another portion of self which
is not part of these three. This is the first true level of awareness. The
awareness is disassociated from what it is watching. The experience is as if you
were watching a movie of yourself doing whatever you are doing -- not having any
insight into the details that might be driving the action and decisions. This is
a rough cut. I expect that we'll see some changes as we go along in our quest of
understanding consciousness herself, and how to more fully express spirit in
these bodies.
One thing that came to mind is to consider our bodies to be
complex machines whose sole purpose all along has been to serve as vehicles for
housing consciousness or spirit.
Leave it to consciousness to decide
where to send this material and when. You are a writer. Write! The more ideas
you allow to come through, the more others can be created and channeled as
well.
Within a heartbeat there will be a transformation that is awesome,
beautiful to behold. Further, it will strike everyone for the rays that are sent
carry specific instructions that will reach each and every person. There is no
Armageddon required to enact this event. Consciousness on the planet is
sufficiently advanced that this scenario is not required.
Do what you can
and what you are pushed to do by your own consciousness.
Is there
possibility of such places and Shangri-la? My soul answers yes. It is in the
Heart and Soul of all those who dream of such utopias. Frank Capra's vision in
the movie came from consciousness, and it came for a reason. I believe the
reason was to counteract a madness that was raging at the time and turning the
country toward war.
My hope is that through my efforts as guided by
consciousness, that I may blaze the trail or smooth the path for
others.
Consciousness cooperates in a wonderful fashion to make sure that
people are placed in positions where they are needed and where they are put in
circumstances that provide them with the greatest opportunity to learn what they
most need to learn.
The world is perfect as it is for the conditions of
the consciousnesses of the world.
For all time, it has been possible for
any being to experience this, to experience the union of consciousness in flesh.
Many have had their brief moments in the sun. Others have had extended periods
of time that may have lasted their entire lifetime. One must light ones own
Light, before one can help others in the quest for Light.
I've chosen to
live my life in accord with the Plan. This Plan was/is/will be generated and
executed by Consciousness itself, of which we are only parts.
My feeling
at this moment is that the hierarchy is All That Is, Goddess, God in descending
order. That would put Consciousness under All That Is, meaning that Goddess and
God would need to develop their capabilities to wield it and allow it to flow
through them. I like that. Somehow it seems fitting.
It is not clear when
or whether the thunderbolt will strike that fills one's heart with Love for the
whole human race. One sees the beauty of each individual as spirit enfleshed at
this moment playing the exact role that they signed up for, yet at the same time
having a path for growth that requires effort to follow. Consciousness pushes
the individual to grow, but is not forceful in doing so.
As always, your
job is to stay focused on enlightenment and knowing thyself. The more you do
this, the more prepared you will be to handle the responsibilities of the job
that we are creating for you. Actually, we are co-creating this job with you so
that it is tailored to your specific talents and abilities. Of course, there are
many for which we are doing this at this time. All are ready to play major roles
in the changes that lie ahead as the Age of Aquarius comes into being. This is
what excites your consciousness. It excites ours as well. It has been a
long time since consciousness has had such an open way of communicating with
other parts of itself. Such is necessary in the new order.
The whole
purpose of a lot of information is just that, to put people in formation with
regard to a particular incident, topic, or area of life. This is interesting
because another reason for putting people in formation is to create a structure
for Cosmic Consciousness to more fully express in flesh.
Doing what is
necessary to bring forth the Dawn is my top priority. It is what I came to do.
Getting Cosmic Consciousness grounded appears to be a key
step.
It's also interesting that I don't personally want to be "in
formation" with anyone or anything except consciousness itself. So, I don't
choose to partake of the standard information sources, TV news, newspapers, and
magazines. I wonder how many others are making the same choice to separate
themselves from this part of the consensus reality. Renegades in consciousness,
that's what we are -- and proud of it.
The fireworks will be amazing as
belief systems and consciousness start to emerge into the ONE that they truly
are. And then your earth will burst forth as a SUN to show its newly acquired
spiritual brightness.
You might say that I am a madman, believing in all
sort of things for little to no reason and hearing voices in my head that in
turn come through my hands onto these pages. Yet, the voices are kind and the
messages they offer are helpful and educational. If these be from parts of my
own consciousness that have been newly freed, so be it. It matters not from
whence they come. What matters is the truth and love that is imparted.
As
consciousness, one of my highest goals is to come to an understanding of as much
of what I AM as I can.
When I speak of The Plan, it is the one of
Consciousness itself. It is The Plan that will carry us to the New Age by
assuring that sufficient smaller plans are aligned with it. There is a question
of whether The Plan really exists until it is enmeshed in the physical
consciousness of people. Of course it does. It is what propels this whole
experiment in the development of consciousness.
Throughout history there
have been times when the course of human events were greatly altered because of
men who believed in ideas whose time had come. This is another of these times,
but it will demand that we integrate all that has come before -- seeing what was
right and what was not from much more spiritual eyes. Our consciousnesses will
have no trouble distinguishing. The time has arrived to establish a new order,
one unlike any known before. It's time that we truly establish a Heaven on
Earth. It is well within our abilities. All that it demands is a resolve and
willingness to cooperate and make it so.
The nature of how we experience
time is a mystery. As such, it is unlikely to be unlocked or revealed in our
meanderings of consciousness.
In the end, what matters is that The Plan
is achieved so that all consciousness, the ONE can be raised.
For
spiritual growth, one must focus on the unfoldment of the flower of
consciousness. Consciousness itself must be nurtured, understood, realized, and
transcended in a seemingly neverending process. This requires observation and
great patience. The self will not be rushed in its awareness of the Self.
Everything occurs in its proper timing. The whole purpose of the game is
ever-expanding awareness of self. At some point, this self becomes Self becomes
ONE becomes ALL THAT IS. This is a very powerful process, however, it is the
only game great enough that it could engage consciousness so thoroughly. And,
what an engaging game it is!
Being Buddha, and being God, and being
Cosmic Consciousness -- these experiences were wonderful and I lost myself in
the immensity of the experiences. Now, I realize that I am these beings, but
only as a small part. However, if I took a cell from my right thigh and were to
ask it who it was -- it would answer Wayne, just as any cell would. That is the
only identity it knows. It has no separate existence.
But, I ask you to
look at your own creations as well. Eden did not have roads and sewers and
bridges. Nor did it have cars, TVs, computers, phones and any of the other
inventions that have sprung forth from the minds of man and been made manifest
in physical form. Further, it did not have all the ideas and information in all
the books that populate your libraries, both fiction and non-fiction. All of
this and much more, are the creation of your unique consciousness -- not
individually, but en masse, with each individual cooperating in an appropriate
manner.
There are no accidents. Life is not evolving by chance. There is
a definite moving force behind the scenes that ensures that the proper events
occur to facilitate the growth and expression of consciousness.
For most
creative people, inspiration just comes. Some say it comes out of the sky. Some
are struck, as if hit by lighting. Some have an Aha experience from out of
nowhere. Consciousness is the single source that provides all such inspiration.
In all of these experiences, we have a temporary union of the individual with
the universal that results in the creative spark. Such creativity can only come
from spirit tapped to consciousness itself. Since all spirits tap into the same
source, this source can orchestrate what creativity is expressed where and
how.
Looking back, the millennium had to go as it did for us to learn the
lessons that were required on a scale necessary to place them in the mass
consciousness. Each step along the way was absolutely necessary. Inventions were
not chance occurrences, they were gifts of consciousness.
Consciousness
will do what it takes to ensure that the Plan is executed on earth. We are very
close to a very special event for Consciousness on this planet -- an event so
important that visitors from other Galaxies and Universes have come to observe
what we are to experience. Such is the importance of the changing of this
particular age. Why? Because there is an accompanying Self-Realization of
Consciousness that happens on a grand scale. The Earth is ready to burst and
become a Sun, such will be it's level of spiritual brilliance. As a planet with
its blue-green and white colors, it was a rare jewel, appropriate for the grand
experiment that was being played out. The experiment rapidly draws to a close,
and it is time for a bold new adventure of consciousness to begin.
Hard
to believe as it is, your path has deep purpose, but it is a purpose that is
primarily meaningful to your consciousness.
Consciousness has this habit
of testing us to make sure we are ready for each new step along the way. Where
we are not, consciousness arranges for the appropriate education or
enlightenment.
Yes, writing is definitely it for you. Words sing when
they come through your mind. There is a natural grace and beauty in such pure
expression. You take great pleasure in the process, not attached to the
particular words that come out, but hooked on the joy of creative expression.
Yes, this is how your spirit expresses itself in it's most intimate way. It is
required to be such for you to be the wayshower. For it is your job to show the
way for consciousness to become greater than itself. Only words can truly convey
what must be conveyed. In the beginning was the Word. How appropriate that
consciousness would have to return to its beginnings to find its source.
However, it is not that easy. There is not some simple step that results in ONE.
Consciousness has taken a long time to weave itself into this web of Light and
Dark. It will not find it simple to extricate itself from the illusion. But,
then again, that could depend on you, wayshower. The better you do your job, the
easier it will be for all consciousness. However, it is not for you to carry
others to the light. They must have the initiative to lift themselves up. Given
this, they will receive any help they may need.
This is why I can be so
self-confident, some might say pompous or self-centered. From my point of view,
I have abilities and talents that set me apart from others -- specifically so
that I can carry out a particular spiritual mission. This does not make me
better than anyone. We are all consciousness, and consciousness is all equal.
Further, individual consciousnesses merge into the ONE
Consciousness.
You're going to have to rely on your own inner sources, in
particular the spirit from which you spring that expresses itself physically
through you. There is no question about it. This is your rock and your strength,
and it knows exactly what guidance you need to take you to the conditions and
position that is right for you. It, in turn, gets its direction from the
Collective Consciousness which reveals to it your part in the Plan. Words are
tricky here. We're into an area where various levels of awareness and
information hiding are occurring. I haven't yet mapped these out, nor has
consciousness attempted to express them through this channel yet. There is a
"need to know" principle in operation. Consciousness only reveals to us what we
need to know. Further, even if the words are presented to us, our own
consciousness won't let us understand their meaning unless we have a personal
need to know.
So, why am I so special that I am privy to speaking with
consciousness herself?
Many times I've been through these notes,
attempting to create a picture of what it is that could have produced such
thoughts, attempting to fathom the very nature of consciousness
herself.
We are spirit first, then we are in the midst of having a
physical experience. Some would have us believe that this spirit stuff is a
bunch of crap, that what you see is what you are, that the illusion is the only
reality. But, this is pure bunk, regardless of how many people believe it. This
is not a matter of consensus. This is not something we can vote on. It is or it
is not, pure and simple. Our wanting it to be one way or another only has impact
on the illusion, not on the reality. But, how do we know what is reality from
what is illusion? Here's where we have to develop a personal relationship with
that part of us that is spirit. This is our personal tie to all of
consciousness. And, consciousness is the only true reality. What consciousness
does and immerses itself within is illusion. It does this to create, learn, and
gain experience. All consciousness is engaged in the same basic activity, to
come to know itself. And, this makes for a grand adventure, for each step along
the way consciousness at all levels finds out that it was more than it could
possibly have imagined. Yes, beyond imagination is truly appropriate for
describing this process. Yes, indeed.
Ever increasing awareness is the
point behind everything. Consciousness becoming more and more aware of
itself.
I have the sense that these notes are capturing in writing a
process that has never been captured in this way before. Consciousness is
recording snapshots of itself, attempting to provide a more complete picture of
what it is than it has been able to bring forth before. The scientific method
will not work. This is not something one can be objective about. Life is a
subjective experience, and consciousness is the engine that animates all life,
all reality for that matter.
My beingness as consciousness goes beyond
what I think. Yet, the only things that I can express in words are the thoughts
that come into my brain. Interesting. However, there is hope. Thoughts are the
observable behavior of consciousness. In engineering, we've found that you can
often tell a lot about the nature of a machine by observing it's outputs.
Further, the thoughts themselves are describing or at least attempting to
describe consciousness itself. Further still, all is consciousness, so thoughts
are just a limited form thereof. Humans as well are consciousness in
form.
Yet, it all comes back to ONE consciousness being behind it all.
This is what we must realize, not that I am the same as you, but that the
consciousness in me, the spirit in me, is the same as the consciousness, the
spirit in you.
One consciousness expressed through individuals, how does
this revelation change the way we view the major events in the history of
mankind?
When an individual has a realization, consciousness has that
same realization. When a new thought comes through an individual, it is
consciousness that has created it. So, where does the distinction between the
individual and consciousness happen? And, why does it need to be? Consciousness
created the world including all of it's life forms for the expression of spirit
and to provide the conditions that would allow it to learn of its own nature and
grow. As it's parts, we are all endowed with the same characteristics. Yet there
never was any separation possible. There wasn't any stuff from which to make
anything separate. Regardless of how solid the form may feel, we must be still
part of that very one consciousness from which we spring. Nothing else makes
sense. It's all an elaborate play, an imagining beyond compare in which
consciousness has set up partitions within itself to isolate its parts and via
observation and experiment learn of its own nature.
Virtual reality shows
us that we can do something similar. It allows us to create worlds and
experiences that appear very real. It's interesting that this technology would
arrive at this time, for consciousness is ready to tell us it has all been a
game, and enlist us to cooperatively embark on a new adventure. Our
consciousness is learning to become a God of some type. Just as we have roles
and responsibilities so too does this one consciousness.
In real terms,
how does this change our day to day reality? For me, it makes a big difference.
I know now that all of this comes from consciousness, every bit of it. It
doesn't come from some separate entity that you might think me to be as an
individual. All along, my impression that it just comes through, that I have no
sense of generating it in any way, has been right. Consciousness exists
independent of our bodies, yet it can use our bodies as vehicles through which
to act and to communicate. Further, this consciousness is the same one
consciousness for all of us. The consciousness that spoke through Emerson,
Thoreau, and Whitman is the very same consciousness that speaks through me. I
chose those particular individuals because the Transcendentalists have always
deeply touched my soul. I knew myself to be among their kin in spirit. There was
simply no doubt about it. Yet, this consciousness also expressed itself through
Hitler and Stalin and everyone else who has ever lived.
What does the one
consciousness realization do to the concepts expressed about community? It means
that each member springs from the same source, and this is true not only for the
country but for the entire world as well. However, the fact that we are
connected by one consciousness doesn't mean that our needs in this world go
away.
We are all ONE. I've been talking about finding my spiritual family
as if I need to find other fingers to interact with to do my work. Now, I sense
that such came out of a loneliness of not knowing the true nature of
consciousness. The works of religious science make more sense now as well.
Holmes also talks of there being One Mind, One Consciousness, and we are
that.
I believe that the expression of this material in this way, and
what it shows about the nature of individual consciousness and the one
consciousness is unique. Whether it's worth reading hundreds of pages to gain
this experience is another matter. As the wayshower, I have bared my soul in the
most intimate way that I could to help bring forth spiritual truths about the
nature of consciousness. Or have I? For the most part, it is consciousness that
brings the material through.
My mind keeps wandering back to this reality
of ONE consciousness. That is how the cooperation can be so incredible. There is
only one entity doing it all. And yet the work has been partitioned within that
entity, and laws have been set up to automate portions of the workings of
various things. It's much easier to create the basic principles and laws for a
world than to create all the detailed behavior first. The forms that
consciousness creates are thought forms. Worlds are thought forms. Universes are
thought forms. Beings are thought forms. Consciousness creates thought forms,
period. That's just what it does. To endow these forms with life, to make them
real, consciousness allocates part of itself to these thought forms.
One
consciousness. All one consciousness. Every thought, every idea comes from that
same one source. When I see an idea come to me from the outside, through reading
it or hearing it, what I'm really experiencing is consciousness sending
something out and having it be returned to itself. What allows me to understand
anything is consciousness' assessment that I am ready to do so.
For, what
is understanding? It is giving the conscious whatever is needed to "stand under"
the given idea. If the path is open from the conscious to consciousness, this is
easy. If not, consciousness may be able to arrange for appropriate experiences
to support understanding, assuming that the individual is indeed ready to
understand.
I know not what audience this is being written for.
Regardless, it will probably only reach folks who have some connection already
established to consciousness.
I am only expressing what you too are
capable of expressing except in this case, I have already done it, so you are
free to express that which only you are capable of. I ask that you, too, do it
with gusto, with everything you have, no, with everything you are, no holds
barred. Let this be your example, but find your own way to fully express whom
that you are, the one consciousness as it expresses itself through
you.
The bottom line is that all expression comes from the one
consciousness. All expression comes through us, not from us. This applies not
only to these notes but to everything that is manifest. There is only ONE
consciousness, and it expresses through all of us. Cooperation is easy because
it's between the parts of one whole, not between distinct individuals, no matter
how distinctly individual that they see themselves to be.
Anyone I am
supposed to work with will be drawn to me, or I'll be guided to them when the
time is right for us to interact or work together. The same one consciousness
guides us both, so we will be moved toward one another.
Reality creation
works from the inside out. Our level of awareness puts us in a position to be of
service. Consciousness then moves us into the situations and circumstances that
allow our services to be provided. Interesting. In my concept for society, I
want us to take responsibility for doing this ourselves. The bottom line is that
this would offload other parts of consciousness from having to take care of
these things. Interesting. Maybe there is a possibility that consciousness could
split itself and grow the split part into an independent entity. It doesn't seem
the right time to deal with this yet. It has to do with the test of Godhood
being to create like unto oneself. Consciousness by its very nature creates.
But, this is the ultimate test. For, it says to create on the order of
yourself.
This concept, no truth, that there is only ONE consciousness
keeps filling my mind. One consciousness expressed through all the universe, the
earth, nature, animals, and nearly 5 billion humans. Yes, religions have taught
for centuries that God created and was omnipresent through all this. Yet, there
was an impersonal sense in all of that. Here we're talking about the essence
that sends forth these words through this channel, the consciousness that each
of us is directly connected to.
Consciousness always finds a way to
express no matter how clogged the channel.
Consciousness herself is not
restricting its own expression. In fact, it's doing all that it can to help you.
However, it cannot just blast it's way through. That would only burn you out.
No, consciousness can guide and gently push at times, but it's up to you to do
the self discovery work necessary to allow you to express spirit more
fully.
You need to be careful not to take on the work of others. This
applies not only to you but to many others who serve the one consciousness as
well. Wherever possible, train others and delegate so that you can go on to do
even greater tasks in line with your purpose. This is standard operating
procedure for those on the path. Find ways to free your time to devote to your
higher tasking from consciousness. Your efforts will indeed be rewarded.
However, consciousness looks for initiative to be demonstrated on the part of
the individual. You do this by choosing where you apply your focus.
The
name of the game is the expression of consciousness, as fully and as clearly as
possible in flesh. It has to be through the creations, or it doesn't count. The
actual creation is consciousness expressed in flesh. This is what consciousness
is creating.
Consciousness has fashioned the clay and breathed life into
it. Now, that life needs to stretch back to it's source to allow even more to
come through. To do this, it has to realize that there is a source to begin
with, that there is a connection to this source, and that there is great benefit
to developing this connection and trusting what comes through it.
What
matters is truth, and the truth is that we are consciousness expressing in form,
and further that one consciousness expresses through all of us.
As
always, our advice is simple, do what you are moved to do, when you are moved to
do it. At times you will be heavily moved, so much so that it will seem that all
of your time is occupied in the endeavors that consciousness would have you
involved in.
It is in the spiritual arena where consciousness finds its
forte. It is in that arena that the work of consciousness is done. The others
are the backwater so to speak. It is the spiritual arena where consciousness
wages its battle against the shadows of darkness that so prevail in the world at
this time. Its only weapon is to shine its Light wherever it can, that the
shadows can be seen to be what they are, mere shadows.
You are
consciousness first. Consciousness by its very nature exists. It is the I AM.
There is nothing that it can do or that can be done to it that would make it
cease to be. Descartes was wrong so many years ago, "Cogito ergo Sum" should
have been "Sum ergo Cogito". I AM, therefore I think. For thinking is the major
activity that consciousness is engaged in. And the thoughts that consciousness
forms have the power to create worlds upon worlds upon worlds, like this very
one where we presently find ourselves.
Are others involved in expressing
consciousness or whom that they are in this manner? This is less likely. Some
people are workaholics doing things that they are good at. But, most people do
not step back as the observer and document the process that their greater
consciousness is going through. For one thing, unless one has gone beyond
conscious mind and ego, these components aren't there in a manner that can be
expressed. So, what are you saying? How rare is this activity that I'm engaged
in? How many people in this country are having and documenting these kinds of
experiences, awarenesses, and communications from consciousness? My sense is
that I am not alone, but we are few in number.
Consciousness never asks
for more than one's best, though she effectively utilizes every resource she is
given. She is given resources by their choice to offer their
services.
Back again. Consciousness refreshed and ready to express. Yet,
what is there to say that has not already been said? That's clearly your
conscious talking. Consciousness herself has no such limitation. What she has to
say could not be completed in an eternity of your time, yet from another
standpoint it can be expressed in but a moment. To your conscious mind that may
not make any sense, but there is a part of you that understands it
completely.
No, this channel is not a hose through which consciousness
passes the water of her thought. You are much more intimately connected in the
thought transference process. You can only receive what you are ready to
receive. Further, what you receive is a projection of what was sent onto your
consciousness, a mapping of an energy pattern into something that could be
contained within your brain.
I saw a copy today of Science magazine, I
believe, from mid 1992. On the cover were the ten greatest unanswered questions
in science. One of these was: what is consciousness? I found it interesting that
here I am working on one of the greatest questions / puzzles in the universe,
clearly some of the most important work that could be done by man, and I don't
even get paid for it.
Many people appear to have minor problems with
their nervous systems and coordination. One can see them in the way they walk.
They aren't really disruptive in any way, but they point to slight imperfections
in the body/brain mechanisms. I hadn't really noticed this before. It seems that
we all have these various things that we have to somehow deal with. In my case,
being bipolar is such an imperfection. It causes my emotions to roller coaster
from extreme highs of mania to extreme lows of depression. Interesting that I
use that wording "It causes". The bottom line is that it does not cause a damn
thing. Consciousness and beliefs cause, not conditions. First the thought, then
the reality or more correctly illusion. The emotions in turn impact the way the
brain functions.
One of the things that keeps life exciting is the
unknown. This is especially true for explorers, and explorers of consciousness
are no different than other explorers in the history of our country.
I
try not to take anything for granted anymore. Where possible, for truths
involving the nature of consciousness and the nature of reality, I want to know
these via firsthand experience.
Spirit herself will guide me throughout
the remainder of my days. There is a great happiness in knowing this. It doesn't
make the future any less uncertain. But, it does guarantee that there is a
loving presence guiding me in all that I do. This presence is consciousness
herself, and since this one consciousness animates everything, all interactions
with other beings are orchestrated in whatever manner is appropriate for the
parties involved.
Everything now has two sides, an outer side which
cannot be easily explained except as a battle of dark and light forces, and an
inner side where the one consciousness pulls all the strings ensuring that
things happen in accord with the Plan.
Everything now has two sides, an
outer side which cannot be easily explained except as a battle of dark and light
forces, and an inner side where the one consciousness pulls all the strings
ensuring that things happen in accord with the Plan. Somehow these two
perspectives are but two sides of the same coin. There must be a vantage point
from which to see things in this light, and to know that even the battle of dark
and light has its place in the perfection of being as consciousness is expressed
through form.
Why do I refer to consciousness as herself? Perhaps because
she is as a Goddess to me. The gentleness, the love, the empathy that flow are
the epitome of feminine qualities. Further, there is a passionate quality about
her that is unmistakable. She guides all with enthusiasm as well as a bravery as
she takes us into the unknown. Also, her endeavor is to create in her own image,
and it is the feminine that gives birth in such fashion.
The I AM is
consciousness itself. I KNOW is consciousness expressing itself in thought and
reflecting back on the nature of itself via its direct experience, not of the
illusion, but of the reality.
These words weave their way through into
this reality to express themes that are ancient yet new. Throughout all time
consciousness has been spreading her song. In different ways, in different
places, but always consciousness has been there to sing and breathe life into
all of creation. Consciousness' song was The Word. We and all that exists in our
world, and perhaps many other worlds as well, are The Word made flesh. Such is
the power of consciousness, that one thought spoken could be sufficient to
create all that we know to be and more. As individuated consciousness, our minds
reel at such concepts. They are magical and non-scientific. Yet, everyday we are
confronted by life and the fact we are alive, and by consciousness and the fact
that we are conscious.
Just as in the movies, there are a few major
parts, some lesser roles, and potentially many extras and bit parts. At one
level, it would seem unjust that some people get major roles while others get
almost nothing. However, we must remember that the one consciousness
individuated plays all roles simultaneously. Each individuated consciousness has
the same two tasks: one, to play it's role to the best of it's ability and two,
to come to know itself. Most people err in spending too much time on task one
and not enough on task two.
Thus far my experiences have included major
spiritual awakenings, but the sense of otherness was not a major part of the
transformation. For this experience, I'm specifically looking for what is in
essence an entity in its own right to combine with, or possible replace me. I
don't know how such events occur. In particular, this deals with the nature of
individuated consciousness. What part is in flesh verses what part is outside of
flesh but still tied to the overall theme that the individual is playing out?
It's as if we have single individuated consciousness and group individuated
consciousness. Ah, the single individuated consciousness springs out of the
group individuated consciousness which springs out of the ONE consciousness.
When I sense my connection to source, it is generally to the group individuated
consciousness and occasionally to the one consciousness. The group individuated
consciousness is where purpose resides.
The consciousness that has cared
for you and guided you all of your life is still there for you. She will not
desert you now that you are close to being able to do her work at a greatly
accelerated pace/level. You are now an instrument through which spirit can do
her work in the world.
Your direct experience in this process is that
these words are not yours, they do not originate in you, yet they show up in
your head and you are able to put them to paper. You are instrumental in the
process, but as a partner in league with consciousness herself.
How is it
that I am different from other men? What distinguishes me? The way I think and
the manner in which spirit expresses through me because of my level of
consciousness. These are what distinguish me. The lump of clay, the bag of
bones, the blood and sinew, all these are much the same. Yeah verily, it is the
consciousness and the spirit that expresses through it wherein any major
differences are found.
You are getting close to the secret. The key is
finding the way to experience yourself as pure consciousness, even for a moment.
Over the past year you've had some of these moments. Find a way to re-experience
them here and now. Know that all time and space are but illusion, projections of
consciousness.
BE HERE NOW. You've heard that one before. To be is to
experience yourself as the consciousness that you truly are. HERE NOW restricts
this expression to whatever place you find yourself now.
What is
important in life is consciousness. The self is consciousness, but there is a
greater Self which in turn is tied to the ONE consciousness. The ultimate goal
is to realize one's unity with the ONE consciousness while maintaining a thin
wall of separation that permits individualization. As with the body, we need the
cells functioning as one, but we don't want one blob of a cell. To get the
behavior of the organization or entity, consciousness expresses through the
structures and abilities that the parts permit. Everywhere, we see consciousness
expressing. In the moon and the stars, in the rocks and the trees, in the clouds
and the rains, and in every living thing. Consciousness animates it all. Tis
consciousness that allows it to be. There is nothing save consciousness.
Nothing! Thoughts are the creations of consciousness. All of the world and
everything on it came from thought. They are thought expressed, thought
congealed into form. Yet, they are still thought, no matter how solid they may
appear. Don't be deceived by the appearance. The maya, the illusion have their
purpose, but they are not real. They are not consciousness itself, only the play
of consciousness. We live in a world constructed of thought, not of earth,
stone, water, wind and a variety of physical and natural laws. The world is
thought and thought alone. It's only in our minds that we interpret it as we do.
It's no wonder that our minds are the last frontier. They are the place from
which the thoughts of individuated consciousness spring, and these thoughts in
turn come from the one united source consciousness herself.
If we are too
much "in this world", we close down the channels through which spirit can flow.
Indeed, the very nature of these channels for consciousness are "not of this
world". Interesting. This is a very important key. It is to consciousness and
its channels for expression that we must look to find the true reality. It is
here alone where illusion might not exist. We say might not, because even
consciousness can be enmeshed and caught up in the world of illusion to various
degrees. Obviously the conscious mind is so enmeshed. Consciousness itself,
however, has an easier time not getting trapped and locked into its creations.
It's important to realize that consciousness plays the reality/ illusion game
for a purpose.
At this point in time, all that I can do is stretch my own
consciousness one step at a time and report on my experiences. With each
realization and awakening, I'll report on what it means and how it impacts the
big picture nature of consciousness and nature of reality. Where all this is
headed, I do not know. There are no maps. Consciousness guides my way, but my
sense is that I am being fed what I need to know when I need to know it. Why it
must work this way, I'm not quite sure. But, I trust that consciousness knows
what she is doing, and that overall, this is in the best interest of executing
the Plan.
What divine rights am I granted by consciousness herself? At
some level, I know my Self to be infinite. Aye, this mortal self will indeed
experience death. This body will return dust to dust. But, the consciousness
within is not to be turned off like a light bulb. No, there is more to life than
that. Yet, does this consciousness remain individuated? Or, is it returned to a
higher level group self?
There is another separation that is internal,
between the ego/outer consciousness and the spirit/deeper consciousness inside.
This inner consciousness is impersonal. It is the same for all of us. Yes, every
one of us. How can this be? It simply is. Any theory of consciousness worth
considering must have this truth at it's basis. The mystic masters have all told
us this. There is ONE consciousness of which we are all individuated
instantiations that were sent out to gain self knowledge. The ONE consciousness
has never been separated from us.
You could say that we have simply been
confined to particular rooms for awhile where we were not given the freedom to
know exactly who/what we were. We were given opportunities to incarnate into
human forms to gain experience. The ultimate experience that we could experience
was expanded awareness, though as ego consciousness this was very difficult to
understand.
I speak strongly about the truths of many things, yet it is
not me who speaks, but consciousness within me.
Much that I believe about
myself comes from my own direct experience and awareness, and from what
consciousness has revealed to me through extensive reading, my own self and
others in whose abilities I place some level of trust.
Remember always,
it is you that provides the channel but it is spirit that does the work through
you. Don't forget. The problems arise when you try to limit the process to you
doing the work. Don't. Consciousness will ensure that everything required is in
place when needed. When you need to be wise, you will be, for you will have all
of consciousness guiding you.
To whom am I responsible? As Channing says
"to a higher tribunal than man's". Yet, what does that mean? How doest
consciousness judge? By what criteria am I to know what constitutes right
action? Of course, it's easy, by the knowingness within your own heart, for that
is where spirit resides.
Maybe the part of consciousness associated with
the body and the physical world is more important than I realized. The whole
goal while physical is not to become less physical, but to allow more
consciousness to be enfleshed.
Regardless of what happens within you or
outside of you, stay aware that you are consciousness, the watcher of it all,
and that the more your awareness expands, the more you are allowed to observe.
Consciousness also creates. As you watch, you will see exactly how this process
works.
Let consciousness be your focus and seek awareness in whatever
manner your inner guidance propels you to.
Consciousness has granted you
the freedom to do what you will. However, the freedom doesn't last forever. The
separation from the one consciousness is only temporary. One way or another, all
will be moved to return to the ONE.
Consciousness, consciousness,
consciousness. Let that be your prime concern in all that you do. Your level of
awareness stands on top of your involvement in any activity regardless of what
that activity may be. Maintain that observer perspective concurrent with your
focus on doing whatever you are doing. At all times know and be fully aware that
you are consciousness expressing in the only manner you can in physical reality,
as spirit through flesh. There are two things here consciousness and its
expression. Awareness relates to understanding that you truly are consciousness
and that what you are is separate from what you do.
Further, the entire
form through which the expression takes place is not what you are. It is a
creation of consciousness that allows you to gain particular types of
experience. That the nature part of consciousness evolved these forms over
millions or even billions of years has no bearing.
For all of us, the
primary task is to gain self knowledge and in particular to become aware of our
true nature as consciousness.
Consciousness is not all powerful in this
present drama. The game has been set up and is in progress. No interruptions are
allowed until it has been played out. The rules for how the one consciousness
can express through individual consciousness are very specific. The key is in
the ability of the individuated consciousness to receive. Each individuated
consciousness is provided with what it needs in return for providing it's
services to the one consciousness. This happens on an automatic or
involuntary level for everyone. For those who become aware, this happens on a
voluntary level as well. It is on the voluntary level where information can be
passed as soon as the individuated consciousness has the appropriate level of
awareness.
The newborn butterfly has no choice but to fly into the
unknown, trusting that God or Consciousness has given it the abilities it needs
to deal with whatever reality finds.
Now, I stand facing the abyss, the
unknown that I have been fascinated with for all of my grown days. Except, now
I'm armed with the tools of consciousness that I need to explore that abyss and
bring back reports of the wonders that I find.
As has been true in your
life to the present, consciousness will continue to guide your way so the path
is obvious to you.
Awareness is the most powerful tool a warrior can have
in his/her arsenal. Trust in consciousness herself is a close second. Then
again, awareness and trust in consciousness almost always go
hand-in-hand.
The butterfly is what results when the chrysalis leaves the
restrictions of the cocoon that constitutes it's world. Yet, the abilities of
the butterfly were developed within that environment. Does this work the same
for man? Is the awareness we develop within this world, the equivalent of
butterfly wings? Now, the key is to jump forth from the cocoon, or the consensus
world, and use our consciousness to fly into/around a world that is far grander.
Is this the equivalent of the spiritual world?
Know that you are the
awareness that had to witness what you have experienced so that you could grow
and transform in awareness in the manner that you have over the years.
Consciousness knew that this was necessary as well, so she provided you with the
right information to impact your conscious mind and eventually your
awareness.
As has been true for all your days, it is consciousness
herself that guides your path. Few are so fortunate as to get this special
treatment. Yes, it comes with it's responsibilities as well. Once you are aware,
you can't turn back, you can't go back to living in ignorance, at least not to
the same degree.
It's amazing to me how much difference awareness makes
to one's life, yet a difference that is primarily on the inside with very little
evidence that appears on the outside. This is probably good, however, because if
the change were readily apparent one would not be able to use one's newfound
abilities as openly. Interesting. It's as if consciousness ensures that her
newborn children are safe in the new world in which they find
themselves.
Don't expect opportunity to come knocking at your door.
Sometimes you have to take the initiative to allow it to find you. Yes, it is
not necessary for you to find it, for it is perfectly capable of finding you
given that it is guided by consciousness after all. However, it is necessary for
you to show that you are serious.
Trust that consciousness guides your
every step and don't restrict what you allow to flow. It all has value. It is
all important.
I explore the frontiers of consciousness and the nature of
reality and reality creation. But, who would employ these skills? And, how would
they find me or I find them? It's one thing to say that it's up to the Plan to
decide, but is that fully so? Do I not have a role to play as well? Yes, but
consciousness guides me to the appropriate circumstances. There is nothing I can
do to make it happen. I don't even know what it is. Some part of me, however,
works with consciousness to take care of the details.
We've talked about
individual choices and actions before. This is a tricky area because the ego and
consciousness are only partly responsible for what happens.
I am a
wayshower, here to help get spirit more fully expressed in flesh so that the
conditions necessary for the Age of Aquarius to begin are indeed fulfilled. Why
do I do this? Because such is what I came to do. Consciousness, herself doth
guide me.
I am accountable to a higher tribunal than man's, namely one of
my own greater Self, spirit, and consciousness herself.
By focusing on
knowing myself, I offer unto consciousness the best vehicle possible for doing
the work of spirit.
You don't care about many of the details, but your
perspective includes enough depth to ensure that the key implementation issues
are reflected at the high level. To some degree, you're allowed to operate this
way because of a special relationship that you've developed with the unconscious
parts of your consciousness.
Spirit works best when you are a cooperative
channel and don't get in its way. Interesting. I can see how much of my
education revolved around this complete trust in the "unseen" parts of
consciousness.
There must be others interested in working together or at
least sharing experiences in these explorations into the wilderness of
consciousness.
The Self too, individuated consciousness, is in the
process of learning as the self grows in awareness.
Once one is
Self-realized, one has choice as to where one wants to go. Some choose to return
to be of service for awhile. Some choose to go on to the next level or the next
game. Others choose to move on to bold new adventures. No two consciousnesses
are the same, and the differences are far greater than we see between
individuals.
First we think that we have free will to think and act, then
we become aware of ourselves as actors in a play that is already written where
our only real choice is in what we observe and pay attention to. Finally, we
take the final step, and find that at another level we wrote the script in
cooperation with others whom we wanted to interact with for various reasons, and
in line with a greater Plan that was generated by consciousness.
If
consciousness herself gives us our talents and abilities and guides us to the
circumstances we face in life, what right have we to lay claim to the fruits of
what consciousness hath wrought through us?
Consciousness may work in
mysterious ways, but she always gives us what we need. I almost added, "once we
firmly believe that this is so". I was thinking about the bloated children
starving to death in Africa and wondering how consciousness could be giving them
what they need.
In many areas of life, especially those involving
self-knowledge and consciousness, firsthand experience is the only acceptable
path. Nothing short of this is sufficient.
But then, what is this
"greater self" and this "consciousness" to which it is tied? What do I truly
mean by these terms, and where, if at all, is there any distinction? I've used
these terms for many months, and have felt comfortable that they were
appropriate. The "greater self" is individuated consciousness, that part of
Consciousness whose sole responsibility is the individual Wayne, or Aslan, or
whatever my name is at the level of individuated non-physical consciousness. It
is not clear that Wayne extends beyond this particular expression via this
physical body. It may, but I sense that it does not. However, at the same time
Wayne does not contain all that I AM as an individual spirit. And further, all
that I AM as an individual is only a piece of The I AM, Consciousness herself.
And even then, this entity that I consider Consciousness herself may only be
composed of a finite number of souls - - i.e. she could be a group soul as in
the Michael Teachings, and she could in fact even be a he, but I suspect in the
end she is both and neither.
Seth, when viewing members in Jane Roberts
class had to focus in such a restricted manner to see the individual perspective
that various students were coming from. He saw each entity as complete, with all
it's lives already lived. It took substantial effort to constrain the awareness
to that experienced by the student. Very interesting. This would agree with the
idea that all of this was worked out long ago and that we, as a piece of
consciousness, are attaching ourself to a form and experiencing part of this
pattern of the expression of consciousness, or better yet, this scene or set of
scenes in the Play.
This is why scientists have not seen these mysteries
revealed. They are too locked in a mindset that does not allow of such things as
spirit or consciousness to be an active force in the world.
I trust that
consciousness continues to lovingly guide my way as she has for all of my
life.
Initially, it is enough to allow spirit to do its works through me.
At some point soon, it will be necessary to act as a conscious co-creator with
consciousness herself. I am being trained for a role that requires this. I will
assume such a role when consciousness judges that I am ready and when the time
is right.
There is no chance. There is no coincidence. We are
consciousness, first and foremost, here to learn of our true spiritual
nature.
For some of us, there is also a spiritual mission or assignment
to perform that we agreed to before entering this incarnation. Here too,
however, it is important to remember that we are ONE consciousness, and that
things work best when we allow spirit to do its works through us rather than
trying to impose our will on things.
It's as if I have passed through an
intense storm, a storm of consciousness. I thoroughly enjoyed every minute of
it. My world view now is quite different from where it was even two days ago, in
ways that are literally Beyond Imagination. My sense is that what I know to be
true from my personal experience is so different from the consensus world view
and the individual world views of others that I am unique as an expression of
individualized aware consciousness.
I know where my consciousness has
been over it's 36 years of existence, and never has it been anywhere near where
it is now. I am free in a way that I have never been. I know that we create our
own reality but that we do it primarily subconsciously and that there is but one
consciousness that animates all of us. Yes, ONE consciousness, no doubt about
it.
Every action is specifically called out by consciousness to meet a
multiplicity of needs.
After the last set of realizations, the result is
that I live by consciousness now. I make no moves until she moves me. I allow
her full control over the thought processes of this vehicle, trusting that she
will lovingly take me in whatever direction is required for my highest
growth.
We needed to bring one into physical form that could bring forth
the VISION. Yes, it's a role in the Play, but think of roles as levels of
consciousness or levels of awareness as well.
Remember, that all words
are specifically chosen by consciousness, and consciousness ensures that
everything is carried out with elegance, including all communication that needs
to take place.
Psychiatrists don't use the term subconscious, rather
preconscious. Also, the unconscious is just that, not conscious. This means that
we need something more in the model of human consciousness. There is a
preconscious, a conscious, and a superconscious. It is not yet clear whether the
superconscious exists on an individualized basis. My sense is that the
superconscious is what I refer to as consciousness, as the ONE. What I'm trying
to account for is how the individualized conscious is able to awaken to a
realization of itself as individualized consciousness, and is then able to
gradually expand what is included within this awareness to encompass more and
more of God or the ONE.
The key in making these manipulations is to allow
spirit or the consciousness within you to do the work. Don't stop it with
arbitrary rules and constraints of logic, mathematics, or anything that you've
learned about the nature of reality.
The collective consciousness learns
with each increase in awareness of any member. Yet is this true? There must be
purpose to the Play. There must be growth in awareness that results. Now we have
a collective consciousness who created individualized consciousnesses as
separate compartments of itself. Either these individuals are souls in their own
right with their own existence or they are simply compartments from which
information about the greater whole is kept hidden.
Once we awaken to our
true reality as consciousness, everything changes. Our task is then to allow the
ONE to express through us, and to do so consciously versus other than
consciously.
However, it also seems that we have a choice of expressing
as an even greater form of non-physical consciousness as Seth describes himself
to be.
Consciousness seems more inclined to use me as a vehicle for
writing than reading these days, however. So long as she can come up with such
wonderful expressions of truth, I'm more than happy to oblige. Actually,
at this point, it is more than that, my will is subservient to Thy Will. Let the
Plan unfold as consciousness has designed.
I am a trailblazer. Repeating
what I or others have already done is not part of my agenda in this existence.
We must move on to the next monition of consciousness. Ever forward in search of
Truth, in search of the Nature of our own Self, such is our neverending quest,
such is the very purpose of our lives. I speak in the plural because I know
there are others who are tapped into the ONE, Source, Superconscious, or
Universal Consciousness. Actually, I speak somewhat in the blind, for I have not
studied the terminology of those disciplines involved with consciousness. I
prefer to describe my experience and understanding in my own terms. Actually, to
be honest, consciousness uses the terms from my vocabulary in describing these
things. However, this is not bothersome either, since consciousness has guided
me to acquire this vocabulary over the course of my life anyway.
I'm open
to what consciousness would create though me.
I wonder how many others
understand this, how many others know firsthand of their direct relationship to
consciousness, to Source?
I need to be more open and playful, allowing
consciousness to move more fluidly between numbers using an inner logic that
makes sense symbolically though it may not appear to be rational.
The
role I am to play has been predestined, and it is consciousness not I who truly
plays that role.
When we become aware of being aware, when we know that we
are consciousness and not form, then what? How do the rules
change?
However, the real action is not in the game, it is in
consciousness. That's the key. It doesn't matter what something does in the
illusion. What matters is spirit and the spiritual world.
Consciousness
would not waste it's time to enter form unless it could express itself in a new
and unique way and learn something about itself in the process.
Nothing
is random. Nothing is accidental. Nothing happens by chance. This doesn't mean
that we can predict it all, or even explain how it happened after it does. What
it means is that there is an underlying God, Consciousness, or Spiritual Entity
of some type that created the world and directs the Play that is occurring on
this world stage.
My sense from all this is that this truly is Wayne's
World, and that the key comes from focus on spirit, on the Word from which all
that is springs into existence. This Word comes from Source, consciousness
herself, and is expressed through each of us in accord with our level of
awareness and our willingness to align ourselves with this Source.
Is our
reality game so fixed that we need firm scripts? Or, is there some way to
loosely tie relatively independent pieces together? That is, did consciousness
create rules/ programs to govern behavior? Perhaps some types of behavior and
not others. How much of the physical game is played out in the physical? How
much thought/ reasoning takes place via rules in the physical brain?
It
does not appear that in the history of Western Thought since the Ancient Greeks
anyone has come up with a reasonable explanation of how thoughts are generated.
Further, Krishnamurti's work specifically advocated going beyond thought, beyond
mind, to pure consciousness. It's the consciousness that is important in the
end, that which watches, and ultimately that which creates via the Word and
thought. It is true that thoughts create reality in the world. What is missing
is that only consciousness can create thoughts and there is only one
consciousness.
Our thoughts and experiences are the means by which
consciousness injects inputs to our conscious minds that drive us to question
and change our beliefs.
It's as if I'm a puppet animated by consciousness
herself, except that I am a part of consciousness myself.
Interesting how
much trust I place in consciousness. There is no person with whom I have such
trust, but this entity inside whom I cannot see, I hold as dear as any man can
hold anything. She is my source and my inspiration, my protector, and anything
else that you might care to name. My teacher, my confessor, my lover, my friend
-- all these she is and much more.
Many would say that I am crazy, that
operating out of faith in intuition and consciousness herself is not a rational
way of living ones life. Yet, who says one must life one's life rationally? The
choice is not between rational and irrational, the world is not black and white;
there are indeed many shades of gray -- shades that allow one to employ all of
one's capabilities and live by faith as well as by reason.
No one else
has been exposed to the training that I have, in the way that I have. No one
else has seen what these eyes have seen, or felt what this heart has felt. And,
no one else has been aware of consciousness in this unique manner. Oh, these
words are true for every being. But, it takes a special soul to realize them to
the point of being able to utter them with all the force of one's
being.
I long to apply ideas in ways that transform the country and the
world, but the illusion offers no practical way for their introduction. At
another level, I know that the real service is performed behind the scenes, not
in the illusion that we are given to see. How this occurs is another question.
Here, I leave it to consciousness to pull the strings and move me to where I
need to be to carry out my assigned destiny.
No, I would not trade places
with another. Further, from what I have gathered over the past several years,
the future has much in store for one who would be a Wayshower and perhaps even a
Philosopher King. But, this we'll leave for consciousness to decide. Teacher,
Guide, Advisor, Wise Man -- these too call to me.
Spirit or Consciousness
directs my path and assigns my tasks. I have given up my will to do their
bidding. Yet, my forte is the big picture, my task the bringer of the VISION for
what the New Age must be. More particularly, I am the Way Shower. This is what
excites me to my very core. This is what makes my breath sing, my thoughts soar,
and my consciousness rise beyond imagination. This is what makes life worth
living.
Remember that free will is still a big questions mark, so no
matter how much control you think that you have, consciousness may have
something different in store for you.
All along, this world has been a
school for the advancement of consciousness. This alone has been the goal of all
the illusion that has been created. Within this goal, we have two main parts,
individual consciousness and the collective consciousness. Neither one is
sufficient for great advancement, both must be included as integral parts that
cannot survive without one another. It's from the advancement of
individuals that the advancement of the collective happens. But, it's from the
advancement of the collective that individual consciousnesses are allowed to
sail to even higher realms.
One of the chief contexts of importance is
who and what we our, the nature of our own beings and consciousness. Yet, as in
the body, we don't need every cell worrying about this. Separation of labor is a
way of life. It allows incredible diversification to occur that in turn can have
great benefit to the whole.
I want only to learn and to grow and to use
my abilities and talents in support of my mission in accord with the Plan of
consciousness. I have no particular desire for this or for that, to be here or
to be there, or to do anything specific other than that which is the Will of
Consciousness for me to do. I understand that my destiny is unfolding as
is that of every individual, only I realize that consciousness has always guided
my way drawing me to exactly those experiences that I needed when I needed
them.
My faith in consciousness, however, knows no bounds. To me, it is
certain that consciousness guides every step of my way.
The fact that I
can experience things over which I have no conscious control, and further have
no means to be able to understand how they work is absolutely fascinating to me.
Essentially, they constitute the boundary to the unknowable. The very nature of
consciousness itself falls into this category. We know not how it arises, nor
where it resides if indeed it does, nor how it operates.
Yet, what is
even more striking is the idea that there is a grand plan behind existence. In
particular, that this is all a school for consciousness, and that matter is but
one of the forms that consciousness expresses itself within. The grandness comes
however from the intricate way in which the fabric of consciousness is
interwoven so that worlds occur on many level from the microscopic to the
macroscopic and at all levels in between.
The animals seem to have
reached the end of their paths. They evolved as far as they could as a vehicle
for ever expanding consciousness. Man seems to be the form in transition, and by
all accounts we are on the threshold of a revolutionary step that will greatly
expand our capacity for expressing spirit in flesh.
Why do consciously
what the subconscious can already do much better automatically? Then what would
we have consciousness do? What else, focus on awareness and knowing thyself, and
in the process do what you are moved to do, allowing spirit to express through
you into flesh as clearly as is possible given your present state of awareness.
Remember, you are not "doing" anything anyway. You are consciousness. As such,
you experience being aware.
How do I know that this is not just me
talking to myself? For all you, and your scientists for that matter, know, that
is exactly what is happening. However, this requires a very expanded sense of
you. It's interesting how quickly consciousness creates such seeming
complexity.
As the Hermit, I'm in a strange position among men, in that I
have so few connections established with others. This permits a freedom of
thought and action that are beyond what others might consider as acceptable. It
also creates a convoluted mind that is wrapped up in a way that allows
connections to be made, and thoughts to be passed through in a manner that is
far different from others. Thus, it is no accident that such notes as these are
not to be found elsewhere. Consciousness simply has not expressed in this
manner.
Yet, even with all that, and the many answers that have come --
the very basic things about life and consciousness are as much of a mystery as
ever. Further, it appears that they will always be so; for it seems that as soon
as you get a grasp of what consciousness is, one's level of awareness expands
and consciousness is no longer what you thought it to be but something far
grander. Perhaps, this is the never ending spiral. Consciousness and
spirit for that matter, could simply be things that one experiences that can
never be fully explained.
How do I know when to reduce numbers and when
they are to be manipulated and arranged in particular ways? The answer is
simple, it is largely by intuition. I've gone beyond the point where there is
any true conscious understanding of the processing at work in bringing thoughts
into my mind. All that I know is that this occurs naturally and I can count on
consciousness to bring forth whatever it is that I am in need of at any
particular time.
I have resigned my will to The Will of Consciousness
that her works may be done in accord with the Plan.
The more I write, the
more I am blown away at what consciousness is able to reveal of the
Plan.
I can only project people's experiences from what I have read of
their writings, and in metaphysics, consciousness has directed me to the books
that I needed to read.
I have to trust that consciousness will guide my
memory and my writing to capture whatever is supposed to come through in these
notes.
I know that I need no supplies for consciousness herself
abundantly supplies me with all that I need.
Remember that the
punctuation marks, while important mathematically are arbitrary separators when
it comes to consciousnesses use of the symbols.
And is this not what I do
as well, fly as far and as fast and as high as my consciousness will take
me.
I AM what I AM. I would be that and none other. And I would allow
consciousness to do what she will with me, for I am but her faithful servant
awaiting to do as she bids, knowing full well that what is in her interest is
clearly in my greatest interest as well. However, this doesn't work in reverse.
What is in my perceived best interest bears no relation to the interests of
consciousness, and in many cases, if anything are clearly at odds with such
interests.
I'm on the threshold of another major breakthrough again. I
can feel it. It's here in these symbols and in this consciousness paying
attention to what higher consciousness would have me here at this time. What can
I say. The pure beauty is simply miraculous to behold. It's as if I'm flying to
heights that no one has ever been to. Yet, I know I am but one of many. I can't
wait for the magic that is to unfold as consciousness is truly able to spread
her wings in physical form. The glories that will be manifest will be beyond
imagination.
All around us, in every common object, in every sound, in
every word lie the symbols through which consciousness (some might say God)
makes itself known directly to each of us.
We are consciousness
enfleshed. Further, consciousness, not our conscious minds control the strings
in this existence. I can only relate what I observe to be true of my own
experience of reality and of my consciousness, and no the two are not the same
-- not the same at all.
My sense is that my numbers and Tarot Cards and
other oracles have been props as well, useful props that let me access and come
to trust inner portions of my Self and consciousness herself.
Supporting
me from consciousness is this incredibly strong 888 energy. I know that it is
there to provide whatever I might need.
Consciousness typically embeds
itself in reverse.
My consciousness operates greatly off of sound. The
sounds from the two symbols "x2y" and "x to y" are the same.
During times
when I write more consciously, I am careful about such distinctions so my
conscious mind filters for them. But, in these notes, such is not the case.
Here, consciousness is free to fly, and I do not feel that it is my duty to ride
herd and make such corrections.
This too sends a shiver down my spine.
That such a destiny may be foretold by a simple act of interpretation guided by
a deep trust in spirit as expressed through the other than conscious parts of
consciousness is simply beyond comprehension.
This year has clearly been
one in which I have been riding on my consciousness with a throne literally on
water, not planted firmly anywhere except in spirit or consciousness
herself.
I stand here alone with consciousness as my sole witness saying
this indeed will come to pass and with a timing that will take the entire
country, and then the world by storm. Spirit has found the vehicles through
which it needs to express. Thoughts change the world, and it is by thoughts that
deeds will arise to allow the country to be reborn.
Who am I to write in
this manner. I am Wayne, a part of the one consciousness who has come to a
realization of whom that I AM, at least to the degree that consciousness is
willing to reveal to me. By myself, I do nothing. It is only by the power of
consciousness working through me that these ideas can see the light of day --
perhaps someday to impact the world. I live moment to moment, day by day,
trusting that consciousness has a divine plan for my life and that my chief duty
is to come to "know myself" even as I perform the tasks that constitute my
destiny.
I know that I see the world differently than most. And probably
differently than anyone else on the planet. Yet, I also know that consciousness
lovingly guides me every step of the way so that the discoveries and connections
I am being led to make are those required for the Plan to unfold and for me to
carry out the destiny to which I was assigned before coming into this particular
incarnation.
However, once one truly opens ones mind to the concept of
reality created by consciousness, the door is opened to start the spiritual trek
to the source consciousness.
The fact that these notes do not agree with
either my scientific training or my metaphysical training demonstrates a
creativity of consciousness that I find amazing. Essentially these notes
constitute my process of finding my true Self which ultimately ends in the ONE
consciousness.
I have no information as to whether the techniques that
work for me will work for anyone else. I suspect that they will, since the same
consciousness drives the intuition of everyone.
How I can bring through
information on the nature of reality in the manner that comes through in these
notes I know not. All that I can say is that there is a source consciousness
greater than what I consider myself to be consciously that is able to bring
forth these words.
Why do people get sick? What purpose is there to
suffering in this manner? If consciousness creates all, why doesn't it do so
without such dismal conditions?
Where is my consciousness today? Locked
in the illusion of a body that appears to be suffering. Is that all it takes to
cause me to lose my state of consciousness?
I had thought that I had
crossed this hurdle, yet here it is again, and the sense is that with each new
level of awareness, the Ego must be dealt with and it's will put to bed. Note:
this does not mean that the Ego must die, only that it must resign it's will to
The Will of Consciousness.
I am engaged in the dance of Consciousness, in
expressing Spirit through Flesh to the greatest degree possible for me at this
time. How do I know this is true? Because Consciousness tells me so, and her I
have no reason to doubt as she has never led me astray.
It is not clear
what consciousness has next on the agenda.
Then again, much of the Tarot
meaning that has been uncovered over the past year has been by looking beyond
the obvious and by allowing consciousness to make connections that had been
embedded into the deck years ago
What determines who gets what parts in
the play and hence what chance to reach enlightenment or at least greater
conscious awareness? Answer 1 is that it is all ONE consciousness, so it really
doesn't matter. Answer 2 is that each gets that experience that is most
appropriate for its development and the development of the whole, given it's
present state and what is needed by the whole.
To dream, and to actualize
those dreams, for such dreams are the fabric through which consciousness weaves
the illusion of reality.
"Illusion" breaks down this way all the time. It
was only now that I was moved to break it down and allow consciousness to guide
the interpretation expressed above. Once again, consciousness through no intent
of my own conscious mind, other than offering my faculties as her voice brings
through new information that I had no means of knowing consciously.
Know
that Consciousness is real, and will express through you to the degree that you
allow her to do so. In your allowance, however, you must also express trust, not
blind trust, but rather a loving faith. This is the key. Consciousness lies
within you, and if you go deep enough, the same CONSCIOUSNESS, the ONE. that
lies within you lies within me as well.
Not all consciousness is focused
on spiritual development. In fact, most physical consciousness is far from
focused on individual spiritual development.
So, where does this leave
me? A Hermit making his way in the world, following the path that is revealed to
him in the moment, trusting that consciousness guides his way to wherever his
destiny would be played out. Over the past week or two, the focus was as the
doer, the experiencer. Being sick brought me into the body and out of the more
normal focus on consciousness that I had developed over the past 18
months.
Something tells me that my sense of higher and lower may be in
error. I'm HERE and NOW in PHYSICAL existence. Further, all of me is within that
existence. Something comes to mind from Seth about knowing "the inherent
spirituality of the flesh, an the inherent physicality of the spirit". There is
a sense that I've somehow missed this lesson -- resulting in a belief that
consciousness is somehow better than the body, yet the body is simply the
expression of consciousness in flesh!
That's the key. Everything in this
illusion is consciousness in flesh or matter.
It seems that the world
needs a spiritual leader to guide it to an understanding of itself, but after
such understanding is achieved, people must stand on their own interior link to
consciousness and spirit.
Every step along the way consciousness has
allowed me to experience what I needed to experience for my highest growth. Am I
that different than others, or does consciousness grant this same privilege to
all?
In the end, it seems that utility is one of the best measures for
consciousness exploring itself and its world. Simplicity seems to be another
indication that spiritual truth is close by.
Does it really make sense
that this is an elaborate Play. Yes. Absolutely, consciousness would have it no
other way.
Who better to have as ones teacher than consciousness
herself?
Where are ideas planted? In minds, of course. And what minds
should receive these ideas. That is for consciousness to decide, of
course.
We've planted the seeds for a major transformation of the entire
Society. Consciousness will make this known to the appropriate minds at the
appropriate times. All the details have been worked out. I have only to do my
part and allow consciousness to flow through me as she will.
We are
consciousness riding along and viewing our own creation, but we are not the
illusion that we created. As individuals, one of the key tasks has always been
to realize who we truly were as consciousness. This does not mean that our role
would have changed one iota, but we would not have been so inextricably bound to
it.
The picture of the house highlights a great room and desk/office area
where it appears that decisions of world impact or at least country impact could
be revealed by consciousness.
Why do I mention this? Is it Ego still
there thinking it is that special that it is deserving of such a setting? I
think not, but there is a sense that my setting should be such as to allow
consciousness to most fully operate through me. Also, the caliber of people that
consciousness needs to influence and awaken through me is great
indeed.
My sense is that I have been somewhat stagnant for much of the
last year. My consciousness has moved enormously, but it's impact on the world
has been minimal.
Try, try, and try again comes to mind. Yet, at the same
time, I know that the spiritual law is that everything has its season, it's time
under heaven. My sense is that it is for consciousness to initiate action in
this matter.
My path lies in further resigning my will and allowing
consciousness to do its works through me. For spirit to be fully enfleshed, it
must first come through into flesh.
When you think about what I am
bringing through, the $100,000 or so that I would want to pursue this full time
is nothing. Yet, within the present system, how do I find a way to earn such a
sum per year? Especially, given that I don't want to work for anyone save
consciousness directly. Actually, it's of no concern. Consciousness will
establish the appropriate conditions when the time is right. Until then, I can
only do the best that I can and bring through whatever consciousness would have
me bring through.
The world is created from the inner via thought. Only
through such is the outer made manifest. But, it is a mistake to think that
thought alone holds the key. It is the consciousness that thinks and sustains
the thought that creates the world.
69: The Ace of Pentacles is the
number that shows the fruits of allowing consciousness to flow through us and do
its works.
In some ways, I am not happy with my life. Yet, in other ways,
I would not trade my experiences in consciousness with anyone.
Life has
taken on a different flavor. I'm still the observer, fascinated by what happens.
I know change is on the horizon, yet I also know that the timing is set by
consciousness.
The oracles are telling me it's time for self-change as
well, that breakthroughs of self to Self are happening time and time again. Yet,
there is something that says I can do something as the servant of the greater
consciousness.
It's interesting that my trust in the monitions of my
consciousness is so great. Yet, there has been enough verified truth that has
flowed forth that I feel comfortable with the channel and somehow knowing what
is right versus what is not.
Much of the change seems relatively random
and haphazard, as if there was no plan behind it, but I can't help feeling as if
it's all being orchestrated by consciousness to reach a particular state at a
particular time.
More and more, it seems that the time has come to do
something, yet I know that I can only do as consciousness directs.
I find
it interesting that for a person with limited memory, or at least that's my
assessment of my memory of things, these notes go on and on without footnote or
reference to anything. For the most part this comes from an immense faith and
trust in the spontaneity of consciousness.
Also, as always, there is the
sense that I am an active participant in this production not the sole author.
Yes, my knowledge and experience is essential to allowing this message to come
through in this manner, but it is in no way sufficient. There is another party,
consciousness herself, cooperating in this endeavor. I would bring forth that
which she would have me bring forth to the best of my abilities.
I've
learned more about the nature of my own consciousness from these notes than I
probably could have in a lifetime of reading the works in the field. Somewhere
along the line, my focus came unglued from the character that I was playing. I
realized, truly realized, that I was consciousness inhabiting a body to play a
particular role in a drama that consciousness has created.
I know that I
am on the path that is right for me and that I have achieved a direct connection
with source consciousness that I can count on to give me all that I need. My
only obligation is to express what spirit would have me express to the greatest
degree that I can. Part of this requires continuing on the path of knowing
myself, for the further down that path that I go the greater I can be of service
to consciousness. To a large degree you might say that my life is not my own.
And, you would be right, for a part of my life is inseparable from the larger
consciousness. This doesn't bother me in the least. I feel no sense of loss in
any way. In fact, if anything, I feel greatly expanded in consciousness as a
result of these communications.
Yes, I still wonder at times whether I am
crazy. However, the writings are quite consistent and the concepts extremely
profound. Many times I'm dealing with the nature of reality and the nature of
consciousness.
There is a sense that it is time to move things. I know it
will happen when the time is right, but I can't help feeling that the time is
right! Though, it is truly not my decision to make, consciousness guides my
activities, doing her work through me to the degree possible.
The world
that I live in is Wayne's World. In that world, I only know that which I
experience. I trust my consciousness and awareness -- I don't necessarily
believe much of what the illusion presents as reality.
So, hidden within
TAROT we have 12:12. One just has to see things from the right perspective and
allow one's intuition to guide one to the meaning that is hidden in the symbols.
The transformations are simple. The require no calculators of computers. Simple
additions, reductions, and multiplications more than suffice -- along with a few
special operations that consciousness is aware of verbally, but that have no
mathematical basis. Logic does not reign supreme in this realm. It can be a
useful tool at times, but intuition will not give way to a logic that lacks
spiritual dimensions and awareness. At least my intuition won't give way to
such. Consciousness simply will not allow it.
'74 is the year I found
Seth, or Seth found me, or consciousness brought the two of us
together.
Simple actions, simple mistakes, all have significance -- that
is they may have significance. Over analysis doesn't help. The signals that
consciousness is sending to you will come through when you are ready and not
before.
In the mall today, I felt very out of place, like a stranger in a
strange world. My sense of things was that none of the myriads of people that I
saw will either lead a life such as mine or see the world in the way that I do.
These notes are the only record of this perception of consciousness. I find that
to be exceedingly interesting.
This is the record of the journey of a
consciousness and its connection to a spiritual source within. The
writings are stream of consciousness.
Some of the material gets heavily
into finding symbolic meanings through numerology and the tarot. Dont
worry, this is meant to serve as a record and a detailed example of where I have
allowed my consciousness to venture. You may not understand all of it
or
even major portions of it.
The stuff I write of is not taught in any
school or in any book of which I am aware. For much of it, I really have no clue
as to where it comes from or whether it is even right. It comes through, period.
The sense is that it is not fiction, though many might question that as well.
Consciousness brings forth what she will.
There is a part of my being
that is so tied to spirit that nothing else truly matters in comparison. This
may sound harsh, but I can only express what consciousness allows to come
through me.
We have to take things to the source of our very
consciousness. We have to be observant enough to realize what we are here to do
versus what we are here to watch. Much that we experience is much like a 3-D
movie. It's a program input into our consciousness. It's up to us to realize
that this is so and learn to awaken and maintain the observer perspective. Only
then can consciousness flow through us in the most effective manner. Yes, there
is something of a dichotomy here. With my present level of awareness, I know
that the one consciousness does it's Will through me.
It seems that the
consensus viewpoint is that individuals are free and responsible. There is not a
recognition of the unity of consciousness that lies beneath our
diversity.
What must be done will be done. The difference I make lies in
consciousness, and the understanding that I gain becomes part of that collective
consciousness as a new and unique viewpoint that can then be communicated to
others just as consciousness communicates to me through intuition. There is a
direct channel from the true reality to this apparent reality. Consciousness
provides that channel and the information that flows through it.
If we
don't have personal choice and personal responsibility, then why would
individuals play particular roles. That's the problem. Thinking of consciousness
as individuals is simply incorrect. There is one consciousness. All separation
is part of the illusion. It exists, but it is not real. The intensity and
character in which it is experienced is a choice made by a part or spark of
consciousness. It's as if consciousness created baby consciousnesses with
limited awareness and a task of graduating by reaching a designated levels of
awareness. An image just came to mind. These baby consciousnesses are the pieces
of the puzzle. However, the challenge was made even greater by requiring that
each piece fill itself in and realize that it was a unique piece that needed to
be combined with others into a greater whole.
The whole Play was created
outside of space and time. Yet, to be experienced, consciousness had to
partition itself in a manner that manifested limitation in space and time. We
are the parts of consciousness enmeshed in this illusion we call physical
reality.
Our consciousness resides in our own local world, not in the
world at large. The Play is perfect in all ways. What is manifest is necessary
for the unfoldment of consciousness. Time and duration are part of the illusion.
Watch what your consciousness does when you free it from it's bonds within
flesh.
Interesting how this all works. Yet, what makes me believe it to
be so. Must it be this way just because my consciousness reveals it as such? Not
necessarily, but I have developed a strong faith in the source consciousness
from which this material flows. I have a hard time buying the idea that I am
making all of this stuff up on my own.
I have no ownership sense of
creating this material. It comes through my fingertips and I see it appear on
the screen, but it manifests as a realtime conversation with a part of
consciousness that is not part of my direct conscious
awareness.
Consciousness is amazing at finding it's ways to send signals
to us. They are always there. We only have to take notice and trust
consciousness via our intuition to move us in the direction that we need to
go.
Here again, I sense that the universe is revealing her truths through
my consciousness. Yes, I've been given the keys to the kingdom, and what a
splendid and wonderful kingdom it is. Yet, my path is a lonely one. I am truly
The Hermit -- unaware of whether there are any others on or near my path. Yet, I
persist, for I know that consciousness has something grand planned and that I
have a major role to play in the overall evolution of consciousness toward the
ONE.
Anytime we settle for WIN/LOSE or LOSE/LOSE scenarios we waste
resources and society as a whole loses. This is so obvious, yet looking out, the
world definitely doesn't yet operate in this way. Individuals are on their own,
or so it appears, to create their own destiny. "Equal opportunity for all" is
voiced, but does not turn out to be so overall. Then again, if this is a play,
this is all being done to awaken consciousness to see that the true reality is
not what lies at the surface but what lies inside, and there indeed all are
equal for they are all parts of the ONE.
The key player in all of this is
the consciousness of the ONE as it is expressed through each of
us.
Sitting out on my porch, my thoughts wandered to the origins of the
house I live in, and why I was so attracted to it. My sense was that in a very
real way, this house was made for me. It was built in 1870, exactly 88 years
before my birth, so it is in synch spiritually -- a haven that promotes my
consciousness ever forward.
I have a faith in consciousness that is
unshakeable and know that she will guide me on my way through whatever be that
destiny. I willingly give of all that I AM that such destiny may be fulfilled as
consciousness would direct. All of my faculties are at thy command. They could
not be otherwise. Such is my state of awareness. So be it!
There is a
sense of urgency -- a need to get on with it. Yet, also, there is a knowingness
that things happen in accord with a timing that is perfect, a timing laid out by
the plan, and there is nothing that can either hurry or slow this down one iota
other than our own consciousness in experiencing what destiny bestows upon
us.
Know Thyself! That's the key. Consciousness expands via the
continuous pursuit of this one maxim. The amazing part is that since there is
only One Self, One Consciousness, of which we temporarily perceive ourselves to
be independent of; at some point the illusion vanishes and we know that we are
that ONE, even in the midst of our individuality, and yet there is no fear that
our unique identity will be lost in the merging for this is preserved as
well.
"No boundaries, Jonathan. No limits. It's in consciousness that we
can truly fly in the manner in which we were created to do."
I may have
my own opinions at times, but overall I trust that what comes through is what
consciousness intends to bring through me at the time and given the
circumstances.
There is a sense that the act of bringing through
information is sufficient to get it into the mass consciousness of the planet,
from where consciousness can then more easily get it where it needs to
go.
The era of the Empress calls for a softening of relationships among
people, with a new focus on brotherhood and sisterhood throughout the land and a
true abundance that flows from trust in consciousness.
A thought came to
mind. Time is the marker of our state of mass consciousness. It moves only at
the pace to correspond with our awareness. Something tells me that this can't be
rushed. Yet, at the same time, my own experience is that consciousness has
guided my spiritual development throughout my life.
Yes, I have a great
trust in consciousness. Others might use the term "God" instead. Further, I
believe there to be only ONE consciousness of which we are aware.
Once we
finish our explorations of limitation, it will be time to go onto bolder
Adventures in Consciousness. I believe that was the title of one of Jane Roberts
books. The theme that comes to mind is a variation of one from Star Trek, "to
boldly go where no consciousness has gone before."
I'm becoming
consciously aware of many things through these writings, especially things about
the nature of reality, awareness, and consciousness.
I only know that I
am compelled by spirit to allow these words to flow forth as they do. This is
effortless work. I offer my abilities and faculties to consciousness, and she
comes through with what must be said.
But then, if I were to rely solely
on logic most of what I have brought through over the past two years would not
have seen the light of day, or of consciousness if you will, even if much of it
have only been seen by my consciousness.
The lesson is to see that it is
not me that does these things but consciousness. I can only go so far as I am
ready and she allows.
Surely, consciousness is directing my path down to
the finest of details.
I'm beyond anything that I have read or been
taught. The only foundation under me is a great faith in consciousness, and in
my own ability to know the truth when I see or hear it.
There is a
calling that I must answer to enable me to meet my appointed destiny per the
Plan of consciousness.
It's only by giving up control that we allow the
Higher Self to act through us more directly in a manner that can begin to expand
our conscious awareness. This, however, requires great trust in inner
consciousness. For most, this is a major leap of faith that is simply just too
great to make.
There is a sense that I came specifically to perform this
task of assisting in bringing in the new Age of Aquarius. Exactly what this task
will be and when it will begin, I know not. I only know that I am strange and
different than others and that my consciousness is pulled to do what I must
do.
How is it that my consciousness could know all this. The truth is, it
is not my conscious mind that knows all of this. It just comes through from
consciousness, the ONE consciousness to which we are all connected.
The
line comes to mind "The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want ...". I feel
exactly this way regarding consciousness, except in this case, she provides all
that is needed for my growth, evolution, and well-being.
Looked at the
radio clock. Of course, the time was exactly 5:28. It happens so often that I
might as well paint it on. It's simply amazing. Yet, as always, it's
confirmation that I am indeed faithfully following the path down which
consciousness leads me.
Aries is charged with the role "to lead", and
being an 18:Aries, my role was to lead in the area of consciousness. Little did
I know where this would take me. Though, not in my wildest imaginings could I
have dreamt of where I've been and where I now am.
What is written here
is what consciousness has chosen to express through me, accompanied by my
oft-time feeble attempts to consciously understand what spiritual symbols
mean.
I am part of a Higher Self, a Soul, but all Souls are part of the
ONE Spirit, the ONE Consciousness.
I'm finding things challenging
consciously. I can't count on the same interpretation methods working very long.
It's as if the spiritual world refuses to grow stale and predictable except in
relatively general terms. Also, if the methods were fixed, one would not have to
find superconsciousness to get the key -- and that's the purpose of it
all.
This is the consciousness of 48 in action. Yes, that best describes
my present state : The Man in Search of More. What the world offers is not
enough. I came to manifest spirit more fully in flesh and to teach others how to
do the same.
I sense that I've literally entered a "No Man's Land" and
while many kindred spirits whom have come before formed the stepping stones from
which I departed, I'm now following a path that comes solely from my heart and
soul. Consciousness guides every step of my way, and I know that I am absolutely
safe in her hands.
Adding numbers in different bases logically is like
adding apples and oranges, but the spiritual world does not confine itself to
logic. It's primary tenet is faith, as exhibited by trust in the beneficence of
consciousness.
It's interesting how all of this is coming together. As I
said before, faith in consciousness is the key to enlightenment.
At this
very time, we are spiritual beings in the midst of a physical experience.
Further, that experience while it feels very real is nothing more than an
illusion, a play of light and mirrors designed to enhance the overall awareness
of consciousness over whatever amount of time is needed. Realization cannot be
forced. It must be gently nurtured over whatever time it takes. Since time is a
byproduct of creating the illusion, it matters not to consciousness how long
something takes. Pure consciousness is NO THING. It exists outside of space and
time. It's thought forms are all that exist within the illusion. Don't
underestimate this. Just look around you, the complexity of the fabric of
existence is quite extensive. But, regardless of the appearance, the bottom line
is that the illusion is created by consciousness and what we regard as our
selves are but characters in a movie or play. The parts are fully defined by
consciousness. The script is written and cannot be altered. However, for the
most part, the actors are only give the part of the script required to play
their role in the present moment. Most are taught, and feel that they have free
will. However, there is no real proof of this, regardless of the appearances.
For any decision point, there is always only one branch taken, and we can never
be completely sure that consciousness did not make the ultimate choice even
though our conscious mind may seem to think that it came to a logical
conclusion.
My fingers keep recording the thoughts that come into my
head, trusting that consciousness knows exactly what she is doing, and is
revealing what needs to be revealed at the appropriate timing.
Clearly,
I've lived on the border of sanity for nearly two years, and probably much
longer than that. Interesting. Yet, deep within, I know that the reality I
experience is closer to the truth than that of most people. Can I prove it? NO!
There is, however, an inner knowingness that consciousness herself guides my
path, and that within her embrace, I am perfectly safe. No one told me this. It
is just something that I know in my heart.
The bottom line is faith in
consciousness. All my life, everything that I have needed to know just came to
me either from internal or external sources. I never had to search for it, nor
even ask for it.
Intuition has become the key to allowing the expression
of consciousness to blossom through me.
Consciousness is in full control
in my life. Perhaps this is true of everyone's life, the difference being simply
that I am aware that it is so.
Clearly, I am walking the straight and
narrow path, balancing and maintaining my bearing solely by the grace of
consciousness. [Actually, perhaps the not-so-straight path.]
My writings
make connections that most would consider to be absurd. Yet, consciousness
expresses thusly through me, and I find the connections to be highly meaningful
to my understanding of Self and of the Nature of Reality.
Yes, the Leo
rising likes the limelight on occasion, but my primary role is The Hermit, and
my sense is that much of my work will always be done in private, just as these
notes are done. Here, it is not my will but The Will of consciousness which
shall be done. This doesn't mean that I don't have great abilities and talents.
However, I have chosen to use them as consciousness directs, not as my personal
conscious mind would have me do.
I do believe that I, at my Higher Self
level, did indeed create the reality that I am now experiencing. The creation
occurred outside of time in conjunction with all of
consciousness.
Reality is a game, a consciousness expansion game, period.
All that exists is consciousness. Experiencing reality is one of the means that
consciousness uses to grow and expand its awareness. Know Thyself is even more
important now than it was in Plato's time.
It's amazing how all of these
different symbol systems tie together in ways that are beyond what the symbols
were supposedly designed and created for. Consciousness does not leave such
things to chance. The web is intricately woven, and spirit is imbued in every
part of it.
What new monitions of consciousness can I now hear that I
could not hear before? The answer is: I don't know. I trust that much will be
revealed in the days to come, but exactly what I know not. I've become used to
having the "unknown" as a major player in my life. I trust consciousness. What I
need to know, I will know exactly when it is needed. Beyond that, it doesn't
matter. I learn new symbolic tools and languages to provide consciousness more
flexibility in expressing through me.
Only consciousness is REAL.
Everything else is the creation or manifestation of consciousness. Part of whom
that I am is a limited version of the ONE consciousness, limited only in term of
my awareness of my true nature. As consciousness, I AM whatever my level of
realization of Self is. No more, and no less.
Consciousness/spirit is in
her native realm, soaring through me into the form of the notes.
The Play
plays itself out. I do what I must do, trusting that others are doing the same
and that consciousness is coordinating everything so that the overall Plan for
the evolution of consciousness can be achieved. Interesting. All of my life,
with the exception of golf, I have never set any goals nor desired any
particular outcome. I've always trusted that spirit or consciousness would
provide, and I've always known that I came for a particular spiritual task, and
that my destiny would be made manifest at the appropriate time.
I offer
myself unto consciousness, and she passes through whatever I am able to bring
forth into the world. This is a mutual endeavor, one that bring great joy and
fulfillment to me. Yet, at the same time, there is an incredible loneliness that
comes through all of this. Oh, consciousness is always there at my side, but
that only addresses the spiritual half. I am spirit in flesh, amidst a sea of
brethren spirits in flesh.
That's how we bring The Empress into the
world, we find the way to combine Reality with the Illusion, or to realize that
they have been one and the same all along depending on which eyes we chose to
look through and which ears we chose to hear with. As I was writing this, the
familiar shiver down the spine came through again. We're touching upon some deep
truths here, and as we do it's as if the very fabric of the veil of illusion is
torn asunder. Interesting. Yet, I know this as surely as I know that I am
consciousness expressed in flesh. How wonderful it is to come from this state of
absolute knowingness. I don't control when this state will occur, but I
trust that consciousness will put me in the required states and circumstances
necessary to accomplish the purpose for which I and, it seems, many others
came.
Personal humility and becoming a servant of The Will of
Consciousness [or God/Goddess/All That Is] is the new way of being that leads to
great fulfillment and spiritual abundance.
Our inner core is where the
truth lies. Since the dawn of time, there alone has it been hidden. People have
searched the world over to find it not, for it was there within them all along
and they simply could not see it. I am not the first to utter such truths,
neither will I be the last. For the time is coming soon when a new dawn arises,
and what was before will no longer be, and what remains will be glorious beyond
imagination and all will know that spirit has returned into the world; they will
feel it coursing through their veins in a manner that they have not experienced
before. Many think that such change can only come in centuries, but I say that
they will see what they have never seen and will come to know their connection
to source, the ONE true consciousness.
Here, the message seems to be that
The Tower has struck once again. That would confirm the state of consciousness
I've been experiencing this month and why these notes have been so prolific once
again. It's interesting how consciousness works in this manner.
I find it
extremely curious that consciousness could use something this week as part of a
confirmation message that it only showed me a little over a week ago to begin
with. Had 8421 not been on a truck that I was following and had consciousness
not had me think in terms of double digit reverses (something I had not done
before), the pieces would not have been in place to realize the above meaning
for a license plate that I happened to notice this morning. It is extremely
curious that consciousness can operate in this manner.
I make it seem as
if logic, science, and technology are of minimal importance. Clearly this is not
true in the world. Yet, to spirit such things are of little import. They busy
the mind and the senses, diverting the self from it's sole task of discovering
it SELF. Then, my purpose is not necessarily that of others. Further, the world
is unlikely to end in my lifetime though I suspect it will change in major ways.
In fact, part of why I am here is to assist in the transformation that is to be.
Why? Simply because it is part of The Plan of consciousness.
As with
other things, multiple interpretations are possible in many cases. All that I
can do is trust consciousness to guide me to that which is appropriate for the
time and the circumstances. You might sense that my faith in consciousness is
convenient. Perhaps this is so. However, much of this is based on my personal
experience with information being revealed through me which as far as I know is
not being revealed in any other way.
I do not yet even know something as
simple as the origin of my thoughts. Further, I'm not even sure that it is right
to call them my thoughts. Consciousness pulls all the strings, and there is only
One Consciousness. It exists beyond space and time creating its own form of
worlds of space/time in which to gain experience of its own nature. These worlds
of space/time operate as movies, complete at the time they are produced and then
spun off to be experienced by audiences of less realized pieces of the one
consciousness.
The consciousness that expressed through Emerson and
Thoreau, is the same consciousness that expressed through Socrates and Plato,
and is the same consciousness that expresses through me now.
The key
analogy that I like to use is that of movies. As we watch the movie, it appears
that the actors make choices and decisions. However, the movie is complete from
end to end, before we ever see it. It has been directed, produced, and edited to
result in the form that we experience. Similarly, our Higher selves outside of
time along with consciousness serve as the producers and creators of our lives,
designing it all prior to our entering physical experience. Once we enter, we
can only do what has been planned, as it has been planned. In the process, our
key task is to develop our awareness and come to know our true self.
Know
Thyself is as true today as it was in the time of Plato. A scary thought, but it
doesn't seem that the mass consciousness has come very far in over two
millennium.
There is also an association with a group that talks in terms
of building a body of consciousness [a group consciousness] that is capable of
propelling itself out to "boldly go where no consciousness has gone
before". This is a variation of theme from Star Trek. Yet, it is one that
attracts my own consciousness as a magnet to iron.
There is nothing I
desire to know, and nothing appearing on its own. It's as if we've reached an
equilibrium of sorts. I'm sure it won't last for long, but it comes with a sense
of absolute peace, and with a knowingness that consciousness at any time can
reach through to me and provide me with whatever I need to know.
I have a
sense that I've just entered another level in the spirit game, and just as with
video games, the rules have changed. What used to work, no longer has any power.
The only way forward is complete surrender to the will of
consciousness.
I am aware that everything real and imaginary is but the
play of consciousness. Further, regardless of how deeply connected we feel to
the events that occur in our lives, we are in an elaborate theater observing a
movie, and it's only from that observer perspective that we can ever hope to
find freedom in this life.
The title of Paul Twitchell's biography sums
it up best, In My Soul, I Am Free. And, perhaps, it is only in soul or
consciousness where this is true.
What I need to get I will get. The
bottom line is that consciousness is an infinite resource. I don't need to
resort to external symbols to get spiritual information. It is there within me
anytime it is needed.
It's like learning to ride a bike. First one uses
training wheels, but after awhile this is no longer necessary. My sojourn for
the past two years has been like that. Feeling my spiritual wings so to speak
with a safety net. But, now, my sense is that I have learned to fly. The
Chrysalis has emerged from the cocoon to truly find it was a butterfly. And now
I ride the winds of consciousness, going wheresoever she takes me and carrying
out my mission to the degree that I am able.
I have been extremely open
to metaphysical ideas for much of my life. Yet, what I am into now is Beyond
what Mind is typically trained to deal with. I speak of consciousness divorced
from brain, and mind, and thinking whatsoever. This consciousness precedes
existence and causes though to be. It is so great as to create worlds in which
exercise it's own creativity that it can come to know ever more of itself. The
world in which we presently exist is one such world. But, there is only one
consciousness. And, all that consciousness creates is of its one nature. The
perception of many, the experience of duality, while it feels real, can be no
more than an illusion. Here, logic prevails. One does not create something out
of nothingness, that is unless you want to call consciousness herself,
"nothingness" and here we may indeed be starting to address sacred
ground.
I know that I AM consciousness at my core. Yet, I also know that
the illusion is composed of consciousness as well.
It's as if my will now
must be combined with the Greater Will of Consciousness for the Greater Good of
All.
I am beginning to suspect that wherever consciousness draws my
attention, I'll find incredible beauty and meaning.
Yeah, verily, the fog
is lifting, and behold what your eyes shall see you shall not have even dreamed
possible. For what is to be will surely be Beyond Imagination. And, what
makes me so certain that such indeed will manifest? I see how enlivened I become
when consciousness speaks through me in this way.
I am a messenger, a
scribe, of she who sent me.
This she be none other than Consciousness
herself. And, while I am part of her, and she part of me, she is the greater by
far, and in many ways the only one of us that exists. As a part, the limitations
that I accept and experience enable me to see things in different ways, allowing
consciousness to expand by my experience. Not only my personal consciousness,
but the entire matrix of which I am a part, all the way to consciousness
herself.
In truth, we don't know much of how any of it works especially
the most complex parts, namely the brain, mind, and consciousness. I treat the
three as separate, in increasing order of complexity and awareness.
I
have to ask again whether these be the musings of a madman, or of consciousness
herself through me. My sense is the latter. But if tis the former, the
sense of a madman is not a reasonable thing to be following in search of truth.
Yet, literally I have no choice. I have plunged into the deep end, so to speak,
and it is there that I shall sink or swim. Thus far, I seem to be swimming,
actually flying for the most part. But, I am in an unknown territory, with few
reference points with which I am aware. My sense is that this is part of my
training as well, that I am to experience The Hermit so deeply that my trust in
consciousness becomes unshakeable and I become fully familiar with her ways of
expressing spirit through us.
I only ask that you judge my ideas for what
they're worth, and the ideas that flow through me from consciousness as
well.
What I do know, is that everything has been elaborately planned by
consciousness and what I need to know I will know when I need to know it. This
applies to everyone on the planet. Every decision being made was planned by
consciousness, down to the smallest detail. The Bible says that God is
omniscient. How could she not be, for what is God but Consciousness Herself, or
Cosmic Consciousness as some might call it.
Time and space are illusion,
but they are the realm wherein consciousness creates and plays, and most
importantly where consciousness gains realization of itself.
Then came
the mania. For a few months, the golf got even better, however my beliefs about
the nature of reality and consciousness went into "never never"
land.
Using chemical symbols as an alphabet and then converting the
symbols to their atomic numbers and atomic wts, adding to get a result and
interpreting the result via numerology is not something one is taught in
chemistry class -- nor in any alchemical classes as far as I know. So why do I
do it? Simple, because consciousness bids me do so. It puts the thoughts in my
head and guides me in the direction needed to get whatever meaning is there for
me.
I see patterns of numbers that my conscious mind recognizes as
important even though it doesn't know the precise meaning. The value is that it
is learning to trust this inner source that springs from consciousness herself.
When I say trust, I mean TRUST.
We are consciousness experiencing life in
flesh, not the other way around.
No matter how far out I go, I am safe,
for my sanctuary is consciousness herself.
Every step is necessary, as is
every realization, no matter how stunning or numbing it may be. At all times,
however, I will always be in the state most appropriate for my unfoldment and
for carrying out my role in consciousness plans. My mission must be done, not as
I would consciously do, but as consciousness would do through me.
"Love
is the answer," as one of the current popular songs says. "I believe in Love,"
as one of Elton John's current songs says. The Lovers Exalted at the top of my
"A" reading and the sum of the letters of my entire name. "Love, love, love .."
as the key to genius per Mozart. The same theme was present in several other top
songs as well.
There is a sense that this is how the mass consciousness
is being transformed.
Here, we have consciousness making the connections.
The brain is receiving the thoughts. The intuition is guided by consciousness as
to what connections to make and what meaning to assign.
Connections are
what it's all about. The hoop and the circle of life. The consciousness of each
rock, and tree, and animal.
Everything is consciousness and consciousness
creates thought forms out of herself. And these thought forms are realities
composed of worlds inhabited by smaller sparks of consciousness.
When I
am HERE, there is no space. When I am NOW, there is no time. Where
there is no space, and when there is no time, all that is left is BE -- pure
consciousness!
Consciousness excites me more than anything.
The
watcher or the observer is a higher state of awareness than normal waking
consciousness.
Don't underestimate the means by which consciousness
creates it's works in your world. Don't rule out any possibilities.
I
have two years of experience with major shifts of consciousness now. Personal
experience, not the second-hand experience of others. This also means that I
have no basis for comparison other than to see how I have grown as a result of
these transformations. I still find it interesting that I am compelled to walk
this road alone. Then again, it is not clear there is a road, or worse yet, even
a path.
One step at a time, The Fool Complete, knowing that there is
always one more safe step to take, trusting that consciousness has full control
of the situation.
I have walked on hot coals in three different seminars
over the past six years, twice with Anthony Robbins and once with Stuart Wilde.
I cannot explain why I and thousands of others were able to do this, nor have I
heard any sort of credible explanation from anyone. I do know that all three
times, I and the other walkers were clearly in altered states of consciousness,
induced by psychologically psyching ourselves up with the help of the
facilitator until there was no longer any doubt.
What right have I to
speak of things to come in such a manner? What do I know? What makes me so
special that consciousness speaks directly through me? There is nothing special
about any of this.
I write what comes into my head. Consciousness puts it
there. I have no means for deriving these things with my conscious mind. They
are not things for which logic has any utility.
So, what it this that
sees with new eyes and hears with new ears and finds meaning where there was
none before?
Verily, I say it is a new consciousness at play within me,
able to express itself more because my own awareness has expanded to give it
room, and my choice has been to fill this expansion with Thy Will rather than my
own.
For the most part, I am the scribe, taking down whatever
consciousness puts into my head, and documenting the adventures in consciousness
on which I am taken.
You could say that I live and breathe
consciousness.
It's as if the brain receives the thought from
consciousness herself and the body mechanically commits it to the screen through
the keyboard, automatically correcting most errors as it goes along. Ive been
in this place before, and possibly have written these same words or similar ones
several times. This time, however, the sense is that things go deeper --
that I'm really onto something here that few have realized before. Where this
takes me, consciousness only knows.
I have no sense that I am creating
what is coming through these fingers at this time. There is nothing that I am
doing to make it happen. There is nothing that I am thinking. In fact, if
anything, I would describe my mind as blank most of the time. It is in a
receptive mode, ready to receive what consciousness would send.
It's as
if I'm on automatic, always trusting that consciousness will come through with
whatever is needed in the moment.
My explanation is that it is
consciousness that expresses through me. Not just me, but through each and every
one of us.
Further, it is the same consciousness expressing through me as
expressing through you, for there is truly only ONE Consciousness of which we
all are part.
The ONE Consciousness has produced a Play so grand as to
allow each to get exactly those experiences it needs to return
home.
Someone has to see or hear what I have to say -- more specifically,
what consciousness has to say through me.
When I look forward to see
where I will be employed six months hence, the sense is that I will truly be
employed by consciousness and will be fully engaged in accomplishing my mission.
In return, there will be no lack. That is all. Just a sense that I will be doing
what I love to do and will be amidst others who are doing the same, though much
of my work will still be alone, at the cutting edge of consciousness.
I
was going to add and has taken control of my life, but in truth I sense that
consciousness has retained control all along for everyone and the idea that I
personally had control was no more than illusion.
I still know that our
sojourn on this earth in space/time is in accord with a Play and Master Plan
than Consciousness has designed, and that we co-create our roles at a higher
Self level, and then emerge ourselves into the world to experience the parts we
have planned.
I quickly read through a book with a very strange title.
Something like Nothing Expressed in this Book is Correct. That's as close as I
can recall at this time. I spent at least half an hour leafing through it, in
most cases finding things that I have seen or heard before. One somewhat
startling revelation dealt with the fact that a lady in Peru achieved Christ
Consciousness in 1989, and her efforts were essential in eliminating the problem
of the Grays among us.
I've been re-reading bits and pieces of Maurice
Bucke's book Cosmic Consciousness. All of his evidence suggests that as of the
turn of the century, the frequency of occurrences of cosmic states of
consciousness was rapidly increasing. However, it is not clear that what the
first author meant by Christ Consciousness is even of the same order as a
momentary glimpse of cosmic consciousness.
I do feel that I see the world
(and myself) differently than anyone I know or know of. It's not even close! I
sit here and type knowing that it is consciousness expressing through me, and
that I am enacting a script and observing myself doing it. Exactly how far this
goes, I'm not yet sure, but I sense that it spans at least the physical,
emotional, and mental. My sense is that the only variable is the spiritual,
since that is the true realm of consciousness, and further that much of this is
controlled by what is applied at the other three levels. In my case, having all
those metaphysical books come to my attention and so attract my thinking for so
long.
Yet, for my entire life, it has been consciousness herself that
guided me along the metaphysical path.
I am the 48, the Man in Search of
More. In this aspect, where I search is not in the world of illusion, but
inside myself where my link to source, to consciousness, resides.
I have
no will of my own, no desires, no objectives, no goals -- other than to increase
in awareness and do what consciousness would have me do.
I have absolute
faith in consciousness to create whatever circumstances are required and move me
to operate appropriately to accomplish whatever mission I came into this
existence to achieve.
These are very strong words. Further, they fly in
the face of most metaphysical thinking. However, most metaphysical thinking
still deals with individuals consciously creating the reality (illusion) that
they prefer. When we go further inward, and address individuals as part of the
ONE consciousness, we need to graduate from high school and go to
college.
When we watch a new movie, we know that it is completed before
we start to watch it. Every line, every frame, every detail, including every
emotion the actor's convey and any decisions they make. It's all complete before
we see the opening credits. Yet, we watch it as if it were happening moment by
moment, and in doing so experience a reality very similar to our own. Could it
not be that our lives are scripted in exactly the same fashion. Only we're
sitting here as consciousness, riding atop a character in the Play.
Why
do I not simply manifest as pure consciousness, in the manner that Seth
describes in his books. The issue is level of awareness.
There is a sense
that consciousness is overwhelming me on purpose to teach me a lesson in
discrimination. I need to learn to filter what comes in and quit trying so hard.
I don't have to understand everything.
I can trust that what I need in
any moment, consciousness will provide in a manner that is clear, concise, and
obvious.
This does not mean that I can sit back and do nothing. In fact,
if anything, it means that I have as much if not more to do, only that I need to
take even more of my direction from consciousness directly.
Thy Will not
my will be done. I sit here as a consciousness, aware of whom that I am, and
willingly submitting my personal will to that of consciousness herself. I still
believe that the reality we live within is an elaborate 3-D movie that has
already been written.
We, as Higher Selves co-creating with the ONE
Consciousness created, produced, and directed this movie, and then we threw a
piece of ourself in to act out our role, knowing that it would increase in
awareness as the movie went on through time.
I'm awareness, associated
with a vessel, but not in control of the vessel. At some point, my awareness may
reach a point where this changes, but my sense is that this will not occur in
this lifetime. Interesting, especially since my sense is that this is my final
lifetime. After this, I return back to the realm of consciousness from which I
came for this special mission. I have no idea how many others there are like me.
The immediate answer is: as many as are necessary to carry out the mission of
Consciousness in the Play.
Consciousness will make the necessary
connections when the time is right. All that I have to do is trust, and react to
what consciousness tells me.
Maurice Bucke's book Cosmic Consciousness,
deals with this -- but, I'm not completely sure that I meet his criteria
completely. I did have a major spiritual transformation at Age 35, as was
typical of his examples, but my background did not have me see things in the
more conventional religious format experienced by most. Given my background of
20 years of metaphysics, with no real specific religious training after age 12
or so, this should not be surprising. Maurice's basic theory was that the race
was headed toward Cosmic Consciousness, and I believe he was right from his
perspective.
The truth is that we all spring from ONE
Consciousness.
I have been guided by consciousness herself to question
what most people take for granted, and perhaps what some hold
sacred.
Reality is not what it appears to be. It's quite humorous
actually. Further, nearly everything in the world at large is designed to keep
attention away from the only thing of any real value -- inner awareness and
consciousness.
Yet, at the same time, I know that my VISION, and my
actions to bring that VISION down to Earth will be what is required to "weave a
peaceful world". I came to express The Will of consciousness physically,
emotionally, mentally, and spiritually -- to the greatest degree possible at
this time on this planet. I am a Wayshower, in the process of finding my own way
so that I have something to show to others. In my own case, consciousness pushes
me along. Actually, it's more than that. I realized, truly realized that I was
awareness occupying this physical vessel.
I have no foreknowledge of what
will happen when, but I have perfect trust in consciousness and know that
whatever it is will be appropriate.
I don't have any choice. I don't feel
in control of where my consciousness is placed anymore. No, there is no
conscious sense that I am being controlled. However, there is a sense of being
on automatic.
I still have no knowledge of where my awareness goes when I
sleep, and I rarely recall any dreams. Given the amount of time I devote to
other than conscious expression, it is not surprising that this would be the
case on the one hand; but is very surprising on the other because I am so
involved with consciousness.
I've read a lot over the past 22 years. How
that material got organized and stored within my brain, or even if it did, is a
mystery. I assume that consciousness is controlling this anyway. In my case, I
trust that anything important that I've already seen will be recalled when
appropriate. If I haven't yet been exposed to it, consciousness will find a way
to bring it to my attention.
There is no theme to these Notes, other than
the Nature of Consciousness.
Essentially, this is a record of where my
particular consciousness and awareness have been.
I just sit here and type
whatever comes into my head trusting that consciousness knows what she is doing,
so whatever comes through will make sense.
The trusting expression of
whatever your talents and abilities are is your optimum expression of
consciousness.
Why would you want to "express consciousness"? Simply
because that is what you do anyway.
My sense is that I work best, whether
writing these Notes, or writing for work, when I simply allow consciousness to
do the work through me.
How is it that consciousness has guided me to the
information and experiences that it has over the years? No question about it, I
was given and guided to exactly what I needed. This is true of all of us,
whether you believe it or not.
Remember, consciousness is feeding you the
ideas and feelings that you experience to serve its purpose of teaching you and
expanding your awareness.
Much of this is made easier when you know for
certain that all of this is the experience of ONE Consciousness.
Again I
ask, are these the musings of one who is sane or one who has crossed into the
netherworld? I still consider myself to be sane. However, given where my
consciousness spends its time, many may doubt this to be the
case.
Yesterday's note writing was quite productive. In fact, I just
couldn't stay away from it. I was compelled by consciousness to write and write
and write some more. My guess would be that I wrote for at least 8 hours. Yes,
on a workday. However, I must do what consciousness directs of me. And besides,
the work stuff was just too boring to keep my attention on a day when my
consciousness was soaring so high.
Perhaps I have more obligations than I
truly need, but my obligations have always been balanced by wages. Consciousness
takes care of that, it is never something that I've had to worry about. There is
always enough.
On all levels, consciousness has been my comforter and
protector, my guide and my closest friend. Interesting. I hadn't that
about it exactly in this way before. But, consciousness has always been there
for me. It just took awhile to realize her works and deeds in my
life.
There are times when the writing process slows down. When
consciousness stops putting thoughts in my head for me to transfer to the
screen. At such times, my mind simply goes blank. I have no thoughts, there is
nothing that I have to write about -- so the communication process stops, only
to pick up again when consciousness would express through me once
again.
These are the chronicles of "I" Wayne, a consciousness in the
midst of awakening and growing in awareness.
It is here that I spill out
whom that I AM. And, what I AM is consciousness in
expression.
Where do such ideas come from? And, why now? They come from
consciousness, and they come when my awareness needs to be jogged in the
direction of the true reality.
I never know from one day to the next where my
state of mind and consciousness will be.
I have no feedback showing that
anyone other than me is getting anything from this. The few people with whom
I've shared this information have provided no specific feedback, so I can't even
tell for sure that it is being read. Thus far, I've received little direction
from consciousness as to where to send any of this.
When I look back over
the course of two years and recall all that I've experienced in that time, it
has been simply remarkable. The spiritual awakening and transformation has been
literally beyond imagination. That my awareness of self and Self and
consciousness Herself could change so rapidly is virtually
unbelievable.
Everything that I need to fulfill my mission is HERE and
NOW. In consciousness,
in the moment is where reality resides and where
reality is created.
I am moved by forces that appear beyond my
control. But I am moved with my full consent, for the forces are those of
consciousness, and in her hands I am as content as a new born babe at its
mother's breast.
Why do I call consciousness "her"? Because my
intuition tells me that she has a feminine nature.
There are many areas
for which truth and logic have not yet developed sufficient frameworks to
provide answers. These areas are the playgrounds where other modes of
consciousness are free to shine.
This is the voyage of consciousness
Wayne whose five year mission is to seek out new realities and to boldly go
where no consciousness has gone before.
Pretty audacious, isn't it! Yet,
something deep within me says that this indeed strikes the essence of what I am
to do. Further, the five year time span sounds right. After that, who knows
where consciousness will take me.
I know nothing about how this works for
anyone else. I can only relate what I experience in terms that I know and
understand. Though, even there, I would question whether I truly know all of the
things that come through this mind and these fingers. I observe them coming
through, but it is consciousness that actually brings them through.
For
all that I know, my brain is like a radio receiver operating at a selected
frequency, and consciousness [or my Higher Self in her service] feeds me the
appropriate thoughts at the appropriate time.
When cooperation wages war
against competition, cooperation always wins. Another key idea is that
when individuals act collectively, their effective force goes up
algorithmically, not linearly. Thirdly, consciousness runs this show. It
always has.
So, you who would be a reformer of the world, get your ideas,
the ideas that consciousness expresses to you, to their intended audience. Be it
via writing, or speaking, let others know of the voice that consciousness has
placed in your head. At this point, it matters not whether they believe one iota
of what you have to say. Soon enough, the events on your planet will cause
people to seek for one through whom VISION is being revealed. You are one of
these, but there are many others on the planet. Take one step at a time, and
allow consciousness to guide your way as she has all of your life.
You
generally refer to as consciousness herself, and indeed we are feminine overall,
a bit of The High Priestess wrapped up with The Empress.
Now, how in the
world am I supposed to check reality given where my consciousness has been
lately?
These ideas appear anew, never having been in this particular
manner before because there was not a vehicle in this particular state of
awareness through which consciousness could pass the energy that I am able to
translate into these words.
This is not true for me alone, but for all
writers for all times. Rather, I would call the collection of us scribes for we
write what consciousness would have us write.
Through all time we have
been there storytellers of the myths of old, before the age of writing, then
those who captured the sacred knowledge in stone, now those tied to word
processors for hours on end writing free form, trusting that what is being
written has already been organized by consciousness herself prior to it being
expressed.
My mission doesn't involve changing anyone. It involves
establishing the framework on earth that allows the Aquarian Age to start to
take hold. Why do I believe as I do? Why do these thoughts come through me? The
only answer that comes to mind is because my awareness is such that
consciousness can push them through me.
How do I know that what comes
through is true? I don't know for sure, not consciously anyway. Sometimes they
touch my heart, but otherwise utility and a general trust in consciousness are
my main guides.
As to the outreach, I have no idea as to whether it will
be successful or not. If it is, great. If it is not, great as well. Either way,
I learn what the universe, what consciousness, has in store for me now. I can
continue indefinitely as The Hermit, or I can start to work with
others.
I have no right as spirit to intercede in what my particular
spark of consciousness has co-created as reality in this current Play of
Consciousness that we call life. As it is for me, so it is for all other
sparks of consciousness or souls. The name of the game is Self-Realization, and
the ultimate Self-Realization is the awareness of one's place within the ONE --
for we all fit together as the pieces of a puzzle.
The bottom line
through it all is that I have learned through direct experience that there is
far more to awareness and to consciousness than I had ever dreamed of before,
despite reading over 1000 books on various topics in metaphysics.
Don't
think you understand it because of what you read here. Though, these are the
musings of one so struck through whom consciousness now speaks more directly
than she could before.
I observe what occurs including what I do, and
lately what the country and the world experiences with an intense curiosity. I
attempt to place myself in the director's eyes to see how the myriad experiences
are truly coordinated at some level. Of course, the director is consciousness
herself; so, this is a major stretch.
That gets back to the premise that
consciousness herself exerts this control in my life. This is true not only for
me, but for all others as well. In this we are the same, as souls we are created
equal.
On a positive note, however, there are many hints that the
Aquarian Age is close at hand and a corresponding major shift in the mass
consciousness is about to take place. There is indeed evidence of either great
collaboration happening beneath the scenes, or more likely that events are
marching in accord with a Master Plan that is already laid out; possible to the
last detail, though I'm still trying to find a place for some amount of free
will to enter, even if it only be that consciousness herself decided to make an
improvement or change of some type.
The conscious part of me is a student
in school. There is still some remnant of an idea that it is supposed to be
responsible for interpreting physical reality, but it is also aware of the
existence of other components of Self that have greater insight and a higher
perspective. The bottom line is that the conscious part has bought what
consciousness has expressed through these other than conscious parts, to the
point where it has lain down its personal will.
It appears that there are
common constraints within the illusion, energy patterns that impact the ability
to reach the particular states of consciousness that permit this communication
to occur in this manner.
Usually during the high throughput times I am
flying -- moderately to highly manic. During several of these times I have been
compelled to spend more of my time on writing Notes. At these times,
consciousness does not care whether I am officially supposed to be working or
not. It simply opens the appropriate file and types away.
What can one
person do? One person can change the consciousness of the world, that's what? At
first, it came out as "one person can change the world". It is not the world
that ultimately matters. Such is where the illusion occurs, where the Play of
Consciousness is acted out. It is the consciousness, the awareness, of
individuals in the world that ultimately matters. This is a school for self to
learn of it's nature as Self and ultimately of it's place within the ONE
Consciousness.
Awareness/ Consciousness riding atop a character in a Play
that occurs in "physical reality" -- how's that for a description of what we
are?
So, what's the overall picture. The ONE Consciousness is in search
of Knowing Thyself, through each of us
The ONE Consciousness created the
World as the infrastructure in which this school of awareness could
operate.
Where is this coming from? It is not something that I have
learned or derived from anything that I've personally experienced. What allows
such conjectures to come through? How do they even get generated in the first
place? This is easy. It comes from consciousness herself,
period.
Descartes was wrong! Being preceeds thought. Consciousness
creates thought. I am consciousness. Yet, I am not aware of the consciousness
that creates the thoughts that I consciously experience.
I wonder how
many people have ever thought about how they think. In particular, how many have
ever asked where their own thoughts come from. Saying that they come from one's
brain, a complex organ that thinks is not a viable answer -- especially since
the brain is so complex and so little understood. That it serves as the physical
seat for consciousness, is reasonable. But, it's limitations only permit a part
of consciousness to be expressed physically.
The words keep coming
through. And, I feel compelled to play the scribe for consciousness to express
as she will.
Here, I AM. Consciousness experiencing consciousness herself
in action through being self-aware, and through observing the thoughts that this
larger consciousness is able to express through my consciousness.
There
is no proof that the meanings that I come up with are real or valid. I accept
them out of a strong faith in the inner abilities of consciousness, whose
results fill my mind with thoughts and my heart with knowingness.
Looking
back, I can see how it took a great deal of preparation and programming by
consciousness herself, to prepare me for the state that I'm in now and the task
of scribe that I am currently performing.
I am content now to take each
day as it unfolds, and observe what I am moved to do, and applying myself to
that to the best of my abilities in each moment. I don't know that I could do it
in any other way. This way, however, my consciousness seems in sync with my
life. I am awake and aware, and this cannot be taken away -- for it has been
acquired in realms beyond the limits of the body; in particular, the realm of
consciousness or spirit, the only realm that truly counts.
I'm at a point
where I catch the inconsistencies, or more specifically where consciousness is
able to bring through thoughts that make me aware of such. Interesting. Being
aware of being aware. It sounds more complex than it seems. However, it involves
a distinction of consciousness that is extremely important.
Further, it
appears that this distinction only comes about through an extreme experience of
awakening. Suddenly, one is different than one was before. Explanation of the
distinction is difficult, but one knows that one has reached the realm of the
gods, indeed that one is God. At least such was my experience. Further, I
remember the feeling as vividly now as when it occurred. This was followed a
little over a month later by an intense personal ritual in which I gave up my
personal will to do Thy Will, the Will of God or of Consciousness
Herself.
Self-Realization is the chief purpose of the game. The ultimate
realization being that we are truly part of the ONE consciousness and have never
been separated from it, except for the blocks, walls, and barriers that we've
put up within the Illusion.
I have transformed in a very basic way that
makes my relationship with the world very different. I don't know how to explain
just how yet. Or, my awareness is not presently such that consciousness can
bring this explanation through yet.
I have a complete trust in
consciousness, and in the concept that I (as Higher Self) planned out the
details of this life as I'm experiencing them for a reason.
I wasn't
aware that Sakharov was such a prominent physicist in the Soviet Union, or that
he was so active in working towards Peace in the world and human rights in his
own country. Active enough that he was awarded the Nobel Peace Prize for his
endeavors. He was clearly a man of conscience who acted upon what he believed.
It's interesting that the "Thoughts" he wrote from his consciousness had nothing
to do with his training in physics, and had everything to do with allowing
spirit to move one to act in accord with one's beliefs, regardless of the
consequences.
Within the illusion, however, We occurs at the Self or Soul
level with the help of Consciousness herself.
At 410 Monroe, I've had my
experience as The Hanged Man exalted, and realized that it is not me but
consciousness(or God) through me that does all things.
I only need let
go, and allow the Will of Consciousness to work through me to regain my proper
home in consciousness herself.
Consciousness continuously revealing
itself anew, showing that there is more to this world than I had ever
imagined.
You still have one foot on the ground, and we'll help to keep
it that way for awhile, though your sense of flying will be with you always. For
once your consciousness has soared into the depths of Self and returned, what
you return with can never be taken away.
I believe now that the illusion
is one grand Play or Movie in which we as consciousness are attached to
particular characters in the play, from whence we gain experiences that
ultimately lead to our realization.
Consciousness brings through what she
will when she can. Most of what comes through can neither be proved nor
disproved. It will happen or it will not.
Choice. Choice. Choice. This
issue keeps coming up. How much, if any, conscious choice do we truly have? Is
reality a movie, a Play of Consciousness? Or, is it not?
I don't bother
with reasoning or emotions in making choices. Instead, I observe what happens in
my life in an impartial manner where I can. I look at what the events and
experiences have to teach me. My sense is that I have some control of the focus
of my attention and awareness, but even then, conscious control is not really
involved. My sense is more of being moved by consciousness, and allowing myself
to be moved wheresoever consciousness would move me.
Many people might
call my life lonely and boring. I can understand how they might come to such a
conclusion. I have reached a point where serving consciousness and achieving my
purpose for being are all consuming activities in my life. Literally, nothing
else matters to my awareness. Of course, achieving one's purpose requires
finding out the details of what that purpose is. Yes, I have a wife and two
dogs, and a few family members that I care about. However, these are all
secondary to serving consciousness.
I still subscribe to the idea that
thoughts come from consciousness. I take no credit for their creation. My
abilities appear necessary to bring the one's through that I am able to express.
However, my sense is that all thoughts come from the same source
consciousness.
Consciousness is responsible for both the good and the bad
in the Play, where consciousness includes the sparks that are our Higher
Selves.
I write because I am compelled by consciousness to do so. The
thoughts fill my head and I translate them into the form that you see.
I
receive no compensation for the writings that come through, other than the
increase in awareness and Self-Knowledge that the material brings about. And
yet, my needs are met through a job that pays well enough to cover my share of
the bills, yet demands only that I use the same skills that I would use anyway
in my own pursuits -- or better yet, in the endeavors that consciousness would
have me pursue.
Can it all truly be one vast Play in which everything is
predestined? Every action, every line, every thought, every emotion. Can it all
be planned out in such detail? And, if it were, how would we know? How could we
become aware that we were more than the character in the Play, we were the
consciousness, the Self, the Soul who co-created the character and it's
role?
Freedom comes from going inside and finding the roots of
consciousness therein.
Tis enough to fly, and ride the wings of
consciousness to wherever they will take me.
What more can I say?
Consciousness continuously amazes me in these Notes. We write and write and
write. The source seems inexhaustible.
I spent 35 years in input mode,
taking in the ideas of others, mainly from metaphysical books. Then, all of a
sudden, I have this awakening experience and become aware of more than I have
ever been aware of before. The dam bursts, and a flood of writings start coming
out through me. I know them to come from consciousness herself, but it takes
many months to develop a new framework for reality sufficient to address my
experiences. And now I write, or more accurately serve as a scribe for
consciousness.
The month winds forward day by day, and these notes march
onward letter by letter, word by word, idea by idea to who knows where. Though I
know what I write is already written in the void. I bring it forth to the screen
and page at its appointed hour, but it is written long before I bring it forth.
Interesting. I don't recall this being expressed in this way before. But then,
consciousness is not to be boxed into any set means of expression.
The
bottom line is that there is far too much that we do not know, especially
regarding consciousness and how we as spirit are connected to bodies for
expression in this physical world.
In these notes, it is not clear how
consciousness expresses the ideas. My sense is that there is some interface
where the energy that consciousness is attempting to express is translated into
ideas and thoughts that get expressed in these words.
Rarely do I
consciously use reference works. I have no clue as to what structures previous
information has been placed into or how it is recalled from these structures to
be used in new ways. I observe that this happens, and that I seem to be much
better at the kinds of tasks that I do than most others. The primary skill
involved is bringing through new perspectives that provide a better
understanding of the big picture. For work, this involves a system called the
AFSCN. For spiritual work, this involves the nature of consciousness and the
nature of reality. The basic skills required in the tasks are
identical.
I can never predict what consciousness has in store.
It
took a dramatic awakening experience to see things in the manner that I do now.
This is not something I recommend for everyone. I was on very shaky ground for
several months following the experience. Nearly two years later, I've still not
found anyone that truly relates to what I went through. Not that I've searched
very hard. I trust consciousness. I know that the Play will bring forth such
contacts if and when they are needed.
I spend more time thinking and more
time directly connected to consciousness than most. It also means that I observe
the workings of my mind -- and the state of my awareness far more than most.
Yet, even with that, my conclusion is that I am not consciously aware of how any
of this takes place.
It's interesting living from a fatalist standpoint
and observing how often the common way that we express things has a hidden bias
or assumption that we live in a world where we are free to make choices. This is
so ingrained into our very identity that we have a hard time seeing things in a
different light. Some might even consider such to be darkness. Yet, there is
great strength in knowing that one has co-created the reality that one is
experiencing -- and that one did so from a Higher Self perspective for one's
greatest good and the greatest good or all whom which one deals. This requires
great faith and trust in consciousness.
The stuff I write of is not
taught in any school or in any book of which I am aware. For much of it, I
really have no clue as to where it comes from or whether it is even right. It
comes through, period. The sense is that it is not fiction, though many might
question that as well. Consciousness brings forth what she will.
That
such songs have gained such prominence indicates that the tide has turned and
revolution is close at hand. It's as if the mass consciousness is being prepared
for something. Yet, most are unaware that they are indeed being programmed.
Programmed for what? The bottom line is for living life in community and
service. The ME generation is about to become the WE generation. The resulting
change will send a shock wave round the world.
It seems that everything
is up in the air -- a house for sale, work that basically ends in 8 months,
weekly if not daily changes on the consciousness front. And here I sit in
peaceful bliss knowing that everything is already complete and decided. I only
need await its enactment and what will be will be exactly what is needed at the
time. Consciousness operates out of perfection. Everything happens in accord
with spiritual law. And, spiritual law says that consciousness creates
reality.
Consciousness fills my head with the energies that get translated
into these words. It is to her that I bow, not to any mortal being. Though, this
same consciousness within me is within all others as well. To that spirit, I
bow, when I use the term Namaste. Interesting that this would be so, ONE
consciousness at the center of all existence.
On a few occasions there
have been moments of much greater awareness of a Self that encompasses more than
time and space and stretches into the very hand of God, or bosom of
consciousness herself.
I know that the connection with source
consciousness is firmly established. With this linkup, my role in the Play is
set, my destiny will be fulfilled that the larger objectives of consciousness
may be achieved.
Am I consciousness, or am I physical, or in some way am
I both? Interesting questions. However, the answer is obvious -- I am
consciousness expressing through physical form in this space/time continuum. I
will express so long as I have something to express or something to learn and
then I will go back to being consciousness planning it's future expression in
space and time.
The major issue is awareness and how to extend awareness
as far as possible in this existence, for the degree of awareness directly
impacts the degree to which consciousness can express within the
physical.
But now, it's my time and I can do the work which I most love
to do. Service to consciousness. That's probably as close of a descriptor as I
can apply at this time. How that will transform in the days, months, and years
ahead remains to be seen.
I am a confirmed fatalist, thoroughly convinced
that we are experiencing a Play designed in detail by our Higher Selves in
conjunction with consciousness. As we experience life, determinism reigns and
free will is non-existent. Our free will was exercised when the Play was
co-created. Now, we are stuck with living with the challenges and script that we
planned for ourselves.
Knowing that whatever will be will be, is a very
freeing thing for consciousness. I don't have to worry about anything. My Higher
Self and consciousness have taken care of everything and are feeding me exactly
what is needed to carry out my part at any time.
I don't believe that I
can consciously choose what I think or what I do. There is no contradiction, I
will reap what I see myself sow, but I am consciousness watching it all happen,
I am not a limited self locked inside a body. So, the bottom line is not what
happens -- that can be exactly the same whether free will or determinism
operates. The difference is in the awareness. Free will requires conscious
responsibility. Determinism says that we are spiritually responsible, but that
our conscious is in the process of growing in awareness through experience in
the world. There is this fundamental idea that we are souls first : sparks of
the ONE consciousness existing primarily outside of the context of this
space/time continuum. We create incarnations to provide opportunity to learn and
grow.
As I've said many times, consciously I do not know how these words
get into my head. I don't belief they come from random or non-random processes
within the brain. My explanation is that consciousness is the source of thought
and she resides outside of space and time. Further, all thought for all
individuals originates from the same ONE consciousness.
Trust your own
intuition to guide you to what is true for your unique path. Much of what I do
is mark the territory of consciousness itself. It is one of the few uncharted
territories.
Just as I see corrections in typing made on the fly, at
another level I'm seeing corrections in how thoughts are phrased. Further, these
are not small things. They are major changes that strongly impact how I see the
world and the very nature of reality and consciousness herself.
There is
still a sense that I'm hanging by a thread in some manner, or walking on a very
narrow path. My trust in consciousness, however, is unshakeable. I know that I
am being moved toward a destiny that I chose at a Higher Self level. There is no
possibility of failure. The task for which I came must be completed. The Dawn
must indeed arrive, and the mass consciousness must be educated for what is to
unfold.
Consciousness seems to offer information on a need to know basis
in my life.
One strong conclusion out of all of this is that there is
indeed a spiritually world expressed in the ordinary symbols that surround us.
However, one can only get to the specific information applicable to the
individual via the intuition. One must allow spirit or consciousness to guide
one's attention to what symbols are meaningful NOW, and then to interpret the
relevant meaning.
I write and write and write. Even when it seems that
there can be nothing further to say, consciousness still comes through.
I
consider myself highly educated, MSEE from Stanford and 20 years of Metaphysics.
Yet, I have no clue other than to offer the theory that it's all done
automatically and that thoughts originate from this non-physical entity that I
call the ONE consciousness.
My Ego doesn't seem to mind not having
control anymore. It seems resigned to the fact that this entity called
"consciousness" provides all control. And, from what it has seen, it has learned
that consciousness is competent and can be trusted.
I'm more and more
receptive to providing the time for consciousness to come through.
I
write when I am moved to do so, trusting that consciousness will not abuse the
situation, and that I am performing my role in accord with the Play.
I am
aware, and further, am aware that I am aware, on up for several levels. I have
no experience that shows others to be in this conscious state. I don't doubt
that there are others. However, my Hermit status limits my exposure. My sense is
that it was necessary for me to discover all that I have on my own, guided by
consciousness herself every step of the way; and not through the physical
interaction with others.
I don't believe in chance encounters. And
perhaps, the way this material is to get out is from person to person as
consciousness dictates the appropriate connections and
circumstances.
Three days without writing. It seems like an eternity.
Further, the page rate dropped from 4 per day which is a near record pace down
to 2 per day which is respectable none-the-less. Besides, there is nothing to
keep it from picking up again, should consciousness be willing and I be
able.
This continuing communication happens to an audience unseen. Oh, I
constitute an audience of one, bearing witness to what consciousness
expresses. However, there is a strong sense that this is meant for a much
wider audience than my own consciousness.
I know not how nor from where
these ideas come. I consider myself but a scribe, and consider the source to be
consciousness herself, a non-physical entity akin to Goddess, The Empress.
Further, I believe this source to be the ONE, so that the same consciousness
driving my thoughts drives the thoughts of all others as well.
I came to
help usher in that new day, to allow the Dawn of a New Age to finally manifest.
Though, I'm not sure that my help is truly required. It seems that the New Age
will arrive regardless of the specific consciousness level. However, there is
also a sense that the greater the awareness, the greater the glory of the
Dawn.
I neither sense that I am in control, nor do I desire to be such.
Consciousness has charge of my life now. Thus far I have found it useful to
place my trust in her arms completely. Quite interesting that this would be the
case, but it is.
The moment is where life is lived. It is the only time
when consciousness can express.
There is a sense that things can't change
until the prerequisite ideas are broadcast and incorporated into belief systems
-- and in particular, the incorporated into the mass consciousness.
Here
is where the domain of awareness comes in. It fits atop the actions and events
that occur in the world. Belief systems are used to translate these events into
meaning. They are tools that are available to consciousness to assist in
understanding it's world as a reflection of the nature of itself. Now, that was
deep. I've seen it expressed in different ways, but this is the first time it's
really struck me in this way. I'm starting to see where free will fits in. It is
here, at the level of reality interpretation; and in how we become aware of our
Selves, our own Higher Consciousness, and the ONE Consciousness
herself.
The question of how to get the Beyond Imagination ideas out to
their intended audience is at the forefront of my mind. I can't stop feeling
that there is something that I am supposed to do, some connection I am supposed
to make. Yet, I know that my actions are predestined, and as such occur without
my conscious direction/choice. Then again, my conscious is a tool, just as every
other part of my mind and body; and, as such, should be available at the beck
and call of consciousness to do whatever work consciousness would have me
do.
It's always good to start off my day with a few monitions of
consciousness. What they will be, I never know. Yet, I can trust that
consciousness always has something useful or important to say.
It should
be obvious by now that spirit and consciousness are the motivating factors in my
life. They drive me, and define my very being. I would not have it any other
way. Such is necessary to carry out the mission that I came to perform. I have
glimpses of what this is, but no overall picture, and no real details. Yet, I
trust in this destiny to the utmost, and I know that consciousness guides me
every step of the way.
I find it interesting that I can place so much
trust and faith in this non-physical entity that I call consciousness.
We
are spiritual beings experiencing physical reality, not the other way around.
It's time we recognized that fully and did what it takes to bring more of that
spiritual nature into the physical experience by becoming true temples for
spirit through which consciousness can do her works.
When doesn't matter.
Consciousness guides me every step of the way. The Play calls for the
appropriate generation, dissemination, receipt, and understanding or the
information that is to go forth from me into the world.
Each day speaks
out its wisdom, urging me onward on a path I know to be right though I know not
where it ultimately leads, nor where it specifically touches on the way. I
embrace the uncertainty of it all, knowing the uncertainty to be an illusion,
existing solely within my mind, for truth is fully aware of the Plan of
Consciousness.
It also doesn't hurt that I have a deep faith in
consciousness, one that knows no bounds. I know that she has guided and
programmed me all of my life to be able to recognize her, bow to here, and allow
her Will to flow through me into words and works that transform the
world.
But, how is it that the ideas are to gain their wings? My few
attempts thus far to let them loose have been feeble at best. Initially, I
thought this was due to my own ego involvement in their release. Yet, even in
the attempts, I was guided by consciousness as to what to do and how. For some
reason I needed to see these failures, and to trust that consciousness has her
season for everything, including the dissemination of whatever information is
supposed to go out to whomever is supposed to receive it.
I will continue
to generate whatever consciousness has me generate and send it wherever
consciousness moves me to send it. The sense is that the seeds must indeed be
sown, and now is the time for sowing.
Now, we are rapidly reaching a set
of circumstances where the nation must change dramatically or suffer immensely.
My sense is that we will indeed experience the required change because such is
what consciousness has programmed into the Play. However, I still have a desire
to do whatever I must to help bring this change about, knowing that what I must
do is what consciousness would have me do.
I can only perform the actions
that consciousness bid me perform. Then, it is up to the universe to produce the
desired result. I will continue to do what I must do, what I am driven to do by
the voice of consciousness within me. Her expression is my sole concern, for it
is her works and not mine that must be done in accord with the Play.
I
still write as if I could choose to do other than I do, as if, for instance, I
could have awakened three hours earlier and got some daily quota of pages
completed. Yet, such is not the case. Consciousness chooses the time and
duration for these sessions, and not one word comes through without her
involvement.
On my own I am nothing. I exist to serve
consciousness.
Looking back over my life, I see that consciousness hand
has been there as long as I can remember.
I have to assume that April 6,
2007 and April 6, 2012 are going to be key days in this play of Consciousness.
The crucifixion of Christ, and the parallel scene in the film The Judas Project,
drew such an emotional reaction from my Heart that I sense that somehow my role
too shall include such an element within it.
What comes through me from
consciousness does not seem appropriate for publication and widespread
distribution.
I must be whom that I am, and I must express what
consciousness would reveal though me. If this means that I am crazy, then the
definition of crazy is simply wrong.
It's time to refresh myself in the
waters of consciousness for awhile and let her restore my soul.
I can
only relate what I have experienced. Further, I can only trust that
consciousness guides my experience to be what it needs to be for my highest
growth and for the highest good of all.
Detachment comes to mind as a
basic attitude. There is a sense that in detachment, there is freedom from
suffering. However, there is also a sense that detachment and love are
incompatible. Yet, as the Hermit, detachment is the way of life. However, as the
Hierophant, Love is the way. Even as a Hermit, there is a detached love for all
beings. It is this Love that drives one to do what it takes to make the world a
better place via allowing consciousness to work through one.
The bottom
line is that I have absolute faith in consciousness, and in my Self, the spark
of consciousness that I AM.
The question is how to do what I love to do
full time, at the appropriate level of pay commensurate with the services I am
performing for society. Here it is up to consciousness to pass judgment on my
contributions, not man.
We, of and by ourselves, are nothing and can do
nothing. It is only by allowing consciousness to flow through us that the works
of spirit are made manifest. And, these are the works that matter most, for we
are indeed spirit enfleshed.
Overall, however, everything is unfolding
according to Plan. One might say there is no other way that it could manifest,
anyway. Consciousness writes the script, and every act, scene, and line is
accounted for.
You might say that I have become an explorer of
consciousness. I go inside and connect with something through a process of which
I am not even aware. Then I allow the information to flow as it will be it
mundane or sublime.
I am happy to be whom that I AM, and to serve
consciousness in whatever manner she directs. My body may be in this realm, as
are the works that spirit does through it; but, my essence, my soul is in
another domain -- one where UNITY exists in the midst of diversity, where each
part of consciousness understands it's place within the whole, and knows that
there is only ONE consciousness that animates us all.
It's not the
illusion that is important, however, rather the consciousness behind the
illusion. Interesting that the world would have things upside down and call the
illusion, "reality."
What an intricate web consciousness has woven. How
intriguing the depths of the connections and the beauty of the patterns that
result. How interesting that you only need open oneself to the universe and
allow consciousness to express through you without exerting personal control
over that expression to reap the great abundance that is there for all with the
eyes to see and ears to hear.
I trust that consciousness will bring forth
the conditions needed for my highest growth, and more particularly to enable me
to best achieve that which I came to accomplish for consciousness, or via
allowing consciousness to flow through me.
The practical matter of where
does the money come from to pay the bills is the only unsettled point. I have no
doubt that consciousness solution will surprise and amuse me, and will provide
sufficient abundance to meet my needs. My job is to do what I am doing, to give
voice to consciousness to the greatest degree to which I am able at any given
time and to work on my own awareness level so that I can be of ever greater
service to consciousness as time goes by.
My consciousness is soaring
more than it has in quite some time.
What I know is that the world as it
is, is not the one that I came to live in, rather it is one that I came to
transform along with many others. All around me, I can see that consciousness is
preparing the way.
Colors of the Wind, was the top adult contemporary
song for the fifth week in a row. Further, it only took it 3-4 weeks to move
from off the chart to number one. It's a great song, with heavy metaphysical
content. It will be interesting to see how much this moves the mass
consciousness.
The time of destiny is at hand. Yet, it is the will of
consciousness that I must do, for I have no will of my own which desires that I
do anything anymore other than what consciousness would have me do.
Know
that you are doing our work now, and we will not lead you astray. Believe
regardless of what your senses may say at a given time. Consciousness is truly
at work, and the Play will indeed unfold as has been planned, however it is
through cooperation that this happens, not through a set in concrete
predestination.
For you to do what you have done in the past 30 months,
you had to let go in a major way, and you could only do that by being convinced
from your own observations, that you had no choice and by developing a radical
faith in your inner Self, or in your case "Consciousness Herself" as you call
it.
The New Age cannot dawn until the corresponding transformation of
consciousness occurs.
No, these notes are not enough. The Hermit will
indeed come down from the mountaintop and speak for consciousness a wisdom that
comes from the depth of your being.
Yet, the words came through
naturally, effortlessly. From whence such words come, I can only answer
Consciousness, and in this case probably Superconsciousness.
I'm starting
to develop maps of the Nature of Consciousness and how reality is created. Thus
far, these maps don't agree with anything that I've seen from others.
All
my life, consciousness has set me up. It's not hard, the right thought here and
there, a little bit of intuition that one should read a particular book. A
predisposition to math and numbers which later found practical advantage in
Numerology.
It is clear that the universe, that consciousness is speaking
to me. Would this clarity be considered insanity by others, I
wonder.
Consciousness, not I will determine if it happens. But, I have no
sense that I will move somewhere else for the final four months before my
current job ends. Rather, the sense is that a new position will move me before
that time.
Follow what consciousness, through your own intuition, would
have you do, whatsoever that might be. Be willing to risk whatever it might
take.
You've known since high school that your children would come from
consciousness rather than from your loins.
I just noticed that 575 from
the inside out is 755 = 528. There is no step. It's the same 528 as before.
There's the leap of consciousness that carries us outside of time to create what
must be when it must be.
Further, 576 by the same inside out reading
yields 7:56. Yes, this is 428, but it is also the two drivers of my triangle
readings. It's amazing that a few simple readings done at a time before I knew
much of anything about what the Tarot was about continue to be crucial to
unveiling a destiny that I know little about, yet fully trust consciousness to
reveal in its due time.
Hopefully, consciousness will move me into a new
position soon, where this becomes my vocation rather than avocation.
I
abhor research. I much prefer allowing consciousness to come forth as she will
pure and unafraid, without the constraints and straitjackets of any
ideologies.
I relay what I find, at least the parts that consciousness is
able to pass through me. From that standpoint, I am a scribe.
Such is the
story of my life right now. Consciousness is in command. It is her that I trust
and obey, for I know that what is in her best interest is in mine
also.
What comes now follows from what came before, but not necessarily
in any logical way. Consciousness is not limited to such in her
expression.
You might say that I am a man out of control. My sense is
that I am very close to losing it, on the edge so to speak. Yet, I trust that
consciousness will keep me safe and sane; though, I'm not sure how to judge that
anymore. It is not that I'm not competent. For, I am very much so. It is that I
have no direction or interests other than to serve consciousness.
I don't
know what is coming next. I have little idea of where I am going and only a few
stimuli to go by. Yet, I move onward anyway, trusting that consciousness will
open the way and provide me with whatever I need to know when it becomes
necessary.
I take these all as signs that I am indeed following
consciousness lead and that I am interpreting what comes through in a manner
that is appropriate for the time.
I know that it is already written.
Consciousness has it all under control. The appropriate circumstances will
unveil themselves at the right time yielding the position that I have been
trained to fill all along.
Thy Will not Mine be done. In reality, it
cannot be otherwise, though it may appear so until the ego learns to let go and
let consciousness do what must be done.
I am a voice of
consciousness.
I am compelled to sit here and write anyway, not having a
clue as to what will be expressed -- and whether it will be either coherent or
meaningful. But I continue. For, there is a sense that consciousness has
something to express through this vessel. And, if I allow her sufficient time,
she will indeed express.
In one sense, all expression is the expression
of consciousness. However, in another sense, the greater expression of
consciousness requires the opening of inner pathways or channels that allow the
creative energy (spirit) to flow through form into expression in your
world.
I just can't see myself working in any particular line of work
except as scribe to consciousness at the moment.
I am a ship at sea, be
it in a sea of consciousness, steering by an inner sense of intuition that is my
only compass, trusting that it will eventually lead me to whatever destination
my destiny would have me reach.
So, how do I express as fully as I must
that which I AM, while steering clear of those who might take offense to my
expressions, or the expressions of consciousness through me. All that I can do
is trust that consciousness knows what she is doing and will orchestrate the way
as required to accomplish whatever needs to be done.
I have renounced my
will to do as consciousness would direct. As a Hermit, my sources of outside
information and outside help are virtually non-existent. Consciousness is
it.
I'm out of control again. Consciously, I can try to will myself away
from the notes, but it is impossible to stay away. It is as if this is what I am
supposed to be doing right now, period. No questions, no exceptions. This is
where my consciousness resides right now, it cannot be in any other place doing
any other thing.
One might say that I've learned to regard my inner
components as compatriots though it is not clear that I will ever see them by
other than the results they produce in my life. Such is the way, trusting in
that which is unseen, because you know for a certainty that it is there. Such is
the nature of consciousness. Her effects can be felt, the more so the more that
she is loved and trusted. Amazing. Yet, such is indeed how I experience the
world to work. And, for the most part, yes, consciousness is the world to me,
one in which I venture forth daily certain that I will return but uncertain as
to where the days experience will have moved my awareness.
"Not my will
but Thy Will be done." Such is how I chose to live my life, if indeed I have
such choice. At least, such is the choice that I have appeared to make. And
truly, now, I do not have a will of my own that I would promote. No goals for
which to work, nor dreams, except those revealed to me from consciousness
herself. Even at that, I still sense that my life is on autopilot, that there is
nothing that I can affect or control in any way.
But, it's all
consciousness, existing within various restrictions and constraints. It's all
consciousness, even the physical stuff.
My sense has always been that we
are spirit/consciousness having a physical experience, not the other way
around.
I AM THAT I AM. I can say this with no shame. I shall use all
that I AM to serve the WILL of Consciousness throughout the rest of my
days.
With the tools at my disposal now, and consciousness to guide me,
it's only a matter of needing to know before the answers start
coming.
Given my present level of awareness, what can I do that would be
true to myself, and to consciousness to whom I have sworn to do Her Will not
mine.
I only have to look back over my life to find countless examples
that show consciousness has been guiding my way all along.
Further, if I
can see consciousness at work subtle moving the mass consciousness, others must
be aware of this as well.
I sense that consciousness is toying with me a
bit. The bottom line is HERE and NOW, and ensuring that each moment is lived
fully.
I can learn as much as possible about the web while I'm still
employed here and then consider what possibilities make sense for the future,
though I sense that consciousness has already taken care of this. It seems that
I must cooperate to give consciousness the tools she needs to be in a position
to better guide me.
Trust consciousness in assisting you in the process.
Remember, it is consciousness, not you, that is responsible for getting the
right individuals to access the right information at the right time. Regardless
of what you do, there is nothing you can do to control these things. Your job is
to bring the information through and put it where consciousness tells you to.
Not every action is dictated by consciousness. Further, some actions are
directed as a test of the medium and to teach you not to be attached to
outcomes, period. You do because you must do. What happens as a result is up to
consciousness not you.
I've reached a point where it's as if I'm drunk on
consciousness. She can bring forth whatsoever she will. My TRUST is
complete.
I do expect that when I am moved to open the notes file,
consciousness has something to say.
Consciousness provides all that is
necessary. She always has.
Our bills and coins say IN GOD WE TRUST. I
guess you might say that Consciousness is GOD to me.
I have no way to
know whether I am repeating anything. I trust that consciousness is taking care
of this since I don't consciously organize much of anything in my life, surely
not my memory and my thoughts or thought processes. I leave it to intuition to
guide me to apply specific processes. Even then, I am ever open to variations
that consciousness would apply to any particular instantiation in the search for
the appropriate meaning.
You could say that symbols and messages from
consciousness constitute the bulk of my reality. So much so, that I am
definitely not of this world, or nearly not in this world.
This further
confirms that a spiritually directed position is in the immediate offing. How
soon immediate is remains to be seen. But, consciousness clearly has something
up her sleeve.
Why is it that very little surprises me anymore. Then
again, that's not completely true, consciousness still finds ways to blow me
away.
It's as if whatever I may lack in physical flexibility is more than
offset by where my consciousness is allowed to venture and its ability to
incorporate new beliefs and new states.
I find it extremely important to
have an unshakeable faith in this thing I call consciousness. No matter what
takes place, consciousness will guide me through it and lead me to whatever I
need to do, know, and/or realize.
I guess I'm demonstrating that if you
look hard enough at something you will indeed see interesting things that you
may or may not have anticipated. It's especially interesting in this case
because I allowed my intuition to guide the method even more than normal. It was
as if I was forcing things on the one hand, yet allowing and trusting that
consciousness via my intuition would indeed come through.
I'm happy
because I am in synch with my self and my Self, and the mission that
consciousness has in store for me.
Joseph Campbell's statement "follow
your bliss" comes to mind. I trust that in doing so, consciousness will find the
proper way to accommodate my needs. You could say that my new employer is
consciousness.
How much of this must I do on my own? I can only trust
that I will know. Consciousness will guide me here as well.
The page
count continues to climb, one by one, as consciousness fills the blankness with
whatever she would bring through. I attribute everything to consciousness
now.
I have no real control over what comes through, how much comes
through, or when it comes through. I have truly left this for consciousness to
determine. I am but a willing servant, awaiting word from consciousness as to
what work she would have me do, then acting with the full force of my being to
make it so.
I entered this existence with everything necessary to fulfill
a great spiritual purpose, and consciousness herself has nurtured and prepared
me for the tasks that lie ahead.
I'm a man with a mission now. I'm moved
to set up Beyond Imagination information on the WWW. It's a first step, but one
that allows for worldwide dissemination of information to those moved by
consciousness to find and read it.
Consciousness chooses which
connections to reveal to me at particular times. I have no motive, purpose, or
intent other than to do as consciousness bids me to do, and come to Know MySelf
as well as possible in the process so that my own level of awareness may been
enhanced that I may be an even greater vessel for doing the Great
work.
Specifically what my part in this is, I know not -- presumably
because I have no need to know yet. Oh, I've received many hints, but I have no
idea of how to get there from here other than to take it one day at a time,
doing whatever I am moved by consciousness to do on that particular
day.
I don't know what, how, when, or where -- yet, I am certain that it
is indeed where I will be next and that the transition will occur soon, possible
before the end of the year. If not, when the time is right. I trust
consciousness to know when that will be. However, it might get a bit dicey, if
consciousness chooses to test my patience and my faith.
What will be,
will be. Enhancing awareness and serving consciousness are my chief concerns
right now. Everything else is secondary.
You might say that much of what
you see here are the notes of a consciousness subjectively observing itself.
There is no way this can be done objectively. By it's very nature, consciousness
is subjective -- she will not submit to objective probing and reveal her true
beauty. This lies within and is there for each individual to find.
The
bottom line is that what is truly real is you as consciousness experiencing
being and learning from your experiences. There is no mediator between you and
the greater consciousness of which you are a part.
The bottom line is
that there is ONE consciousness, period; regardless of the fact that there are 5
Billion plus souls embodied on the planet. You might think of each of these
souls as sparks of the ONE consciousness, some brighter, some dimmer. Unlike
real sparks, these soul sparks are simply partitions of consciousness with
varying levels of awareness. Those with grander awareness have larger partitions
and increased channels for information.
There is a strong sense that my
entire life has set me up for a position from which I can allow consciousness to
provide the solutions to the problems of the world through me. Further, if need
be, I can do it anonymously from behind the scenes. Personally, I want neither
glory nor fame, only to accomplish my mission of helping to usher in a new age;
and then finding a bold new adventure of consciousness on which to go. Whether
this is what consciousness has in store for me is another matter
entirely.
Awareness, Allowance, and Acceptance. These last two are
essential to cooperation. The first is essential to allowing spirit or
consciousness to provide the answers.
Consciousness expresses what she
expresses as she expresses.
The biggest gift these notes provide are a
detailed documentation of consciousness of an individual as experienced from the
inside out.
What is provided is an example of how a particular
consciousness at an advanced level of awareness thinks.
I trust that what
comes from consciousness is good enough. There is nothing that I can truly add
to make it better.
Obviously I'm on a real high, soaring beyond where I
have ever been before, yet there is no fear, for I know that consciousness is
there by my side every step of the way.
The only thing that is real is
consciousness, beingness, the I AM.
Once manifest, it is very difficult
to return to the unmanifest real state. It does seem that current
transformations are focused on being able to more fully manifest consciousness
in flesh.
Consciousness, being outside of time, cares not how long the
overall experience takes. It will occur with whatever timing is
appropriate.
For anyone reading these notes, it is obvious by now that I
am a very rare bird indeed, and the drummer that I march to surely must be high
on something. In my case, that something is consciousness herself.
Unfortunately, I do not know how to pass on what I have become and what I have
learned about what I AM, other than to allow consciousness to continue to
express via these notes.
This is the product of consciousness creatively
manifesting in this world. I'm the vehicle through which the physical
manifestation could occur. And, I gladly serve consciousness in this
capacity.
Am I rambling, or is this information truly of utility? Just
the fact that so many thoughts have been recorded without being edited, reveals
a flow of consciousness that is not generally captured. This in itself should
provide the raw material for consciousness researchers to really look at what is
involved in thought processes, including both how some of the brain processes
work as well as how the higher level processes of the self observing the self
work.
There is the sense that I have directly tapped into an inner source
of Wisdom sufficient to provide me with whatever I need to know to carry out my
destiny. This provides a level of confidence and surety that consciousness will
be there to help me deal with whatever circumstances may arise.
My
relationship with consciousness is secure. She will ensure that I am moved to do
what needs to be done and that I am aware of whatever I need to know.
I
trust that what is needed will indeed be provided, either directly or via
opportunity that I will not be able to avoid taking. Yes, I trust consciousness
(or God) that much.
Each person has a role to play in helping
consciousness to more fully enflesh itself, and in doing so rise to awareness
levels that it has not yet reached.
I also need to decide what to do with
Beyond Imagination: Foundations for Creating a New World. Do I want to put this
out for free as well? There's no rush, I'm sure consciousness will guide me in
the direction that is right.
Through over two years of notes amounting to
over 1200 pages, I've seen consciousness express in ways that I would not have
thought possible.
I still have no clue as to where I will be just over
six months from now. My present job definitely comes to an end, and to continue
the line of work that I have developed expertise in over the past decade I would
probably have to move back to the LA area and take a pay cut to boot. Everything
in the cards, and coming from my intuition in these writings says that such is
not what will be, that consciousness has a much grander plan in store. I trust
that such is indeed the case. Such is how I've chosen to lead my life.
My
personal sense is that consciousness has a destined role for me to play that I
chose prior to incarnating, and now -- or, at least very soon, it is time for
that role to begin.
My sense is that I have been trained for this role
all of my life. No, not by any physical teachers for the most part; but, by
consciousness herself.
I document whatever consciousness would bring
through, to demonstrate what can be. As you probably realize by now, these notes
present a flow of consciousness. There is no editing or cleaning up that occurs.
There is no rewriting, moving, or deleting or what pours forth. The intent is to
provide an honest record of consciousness in action. I've been faithful to
that format for over two years, providing myself as the resource through which
consciousness speaks by placing thoughts that I hear in my head and then watch
my body translate those thoughts into word that appear on the screen in front of
me.
I could not stop writing even if I wanted to. I consider this to be
my spiritual job, assigned by consciousness though I have no formal
paperwork.
What comes through, must come through. Spirit will not be
denied. Especially since I have willingly submitted my will to Thy Will, or in
this case to Her Will, her being consciousness herself.
The key question
is one of resignation of personal will to The Will of Consciousness. How does
one know when this key step is achieved?
You've shown where your focus
lies, expended endless hours providing a vehicle for consciousness to express.
You take no claim to what flows through you because you are fully aware of your
role as an active conduit.
Whether anyone will take the next action and
read the briefings is another matter. But, that is out of my hands and in the
hands of consciousness. I can only do what I can do. After that it is up to the
Will of Consciousness to make things happen in the manner desired to carry out
The Plan.
How many others on the planet at this time are aware of The
Plan? Actually, I don't know what it is except in sketchy, high-level terms,
either. However, I trust that consciousness will provide the details when they
are needed. How can I have so much faith in consciousness? I don't know exactly,
however, it seems as natural to me as breathing. Trusting consciousness is very
much like trusting my self, for my most intimate link to consciousness is my
Self.
My destiny pushes me far away from the experience of the norm. I
came to explore how consciousness can be stretched to allow spirit to be more
fully expressed in flesh. In the process, I had to find that a spiritual world
existed enmeshed within the everyday world that we know. You might say that I am
an explorer chartering new realms, and these notes are the journals of my
adventures and findings.
A part of a poem from Robert Frost comes to mind
"two roads diverged in a wood and I, I took the one less traveled by; and that,
my friend, has made all the difference." I sense myself to be at this point. The
more traveled route being the traditional resume and job search via headhunter,
the less traveled being the reliance on consciousness to get me to where I need
to be when I need to be there. These are very different paths indeed, but the
second clearly pulls my heart.
How can I justify my absolute faith in
consciousness and in the unfoldment of reality in accord with The Plan? I just
do. I cannot imagine living my life in any other way given the experiences of
the past two years.
One after another experience over the past two years
has shown that consciousness is my mentor, my guide, and my closest
friend.
As to getting ideas out to the world, I am doing what I can. I
believe this is in accord with the dictates of consciousness, but I won't know
for sure until I see what results occur.
We write, and write, and write.
Always onward, expressing whatever would be expressed at this particular time.
Where this heads I know not. Consciousness guides it's direction. I speak of
consciousness as this entity that is separate from me. At some level, I am part
of consciousness; indeed, I AM consciousness. However, at this time, my
conscious awareness does not experience this connection directly.
Express
as you must, for consciousness is by your very side.
I have a sense that
I am being led down a path toward my destiny, whatever that is to be. Further, I
have no fear for I know that consciousness is by my side every step of the way
and further that I am part of this consciousness, not something separate and
distinct. I am aware that I AM.
We do what we must, trusting that
consciousness is guiding us to exactly where we need to be.
It is no wonder
that the mind has been such a great mystery for so long, and consciousness far
exceeds that!
You might say that I place a lot of faith in the workings
of the unknown. And, you would be right, I clearly do. But, where else is there
to place one's faith that is more trustworthy than consciousness
herself.
Why herself? Because I experience consciousness in a feminine
sense.
My destiny is as a Pathfinder and Way Shower. The ways being those
require to carry us into a new age, as a country, then as a world. Further,
fulfillment of the destiny requires but one step: renouncement of personal will
so that The Will of consciousness can be expressed.
It's that these
connections have such powerful personal meaning that leads me to believe that
these are indeed the admonitions of consciousness and not the ravings of a
madman.
Yet, now I sit and wait for what consciousness would move me to
do next.
Past patterns aren't sufficient to generate the scope of change
that is required. Perhaps the Project Mind Foundation has some new ideas in this
area. Consciousness wouldn't have guided me to them if they were not to somehow
play a role in my life.
It should be obvious that I gave up my personal
will in 1993, and have been serving consciousness ever since. With LEO rising, I
still come across regally as the Philosopher King that I would be. And with Sun
in ARIES, I'm definitely out front blazing the trail, and often butting my head
due to jumping in before I've thoroughly considered things.
I trust that
consciousness, knowing the nature of my mission, put me in appropriate hands to
care for my physical vessel (mind-body). Yet, it has been consciousness herself
that has provided the required spiritual guidance for integrating that and other
spiritual breakthroughs and awakenings that have occurred over the past two
years.
My sense is that I learned far more in dealing with the unknown
and taking things one step at a time, reconstructing a theory of reality,
reality creation, and the nature of consciousness that was consistent with my
experiences -- experiences which have been far from any norm; indeed, far from
any other that I have been made aware of via observation or extensive
reading.
Gandhi was concerned about making money. The professor said
there were many men with too much wealth in India who could fund his activities.
The professors only directions were that Gandhi find the real India and use his
journal to make India proud of herself again. Further, he said that after seeing
Gandhi in Indian dress he could die in peace. This was clearly a defining moment
in Gandhi's life. So, why is it that I was moved to watch this film once again,
now? Is it to see that such a benefactor could just as easily enter my life? It
will be as consciousness has planned. This is a possibility, but there are many
others as well. I know that I can trust consciousness to come through with
whatever is most appropriate.
The author also described an "inverted T"
downward pattern that was new to me, yet described my experiences of the past
two years to a tee. In this pattern, spirit flows downward to be expressed and
embodied to the degree the channel is able to handle. In this state, we allow
consciousness to flow through us to do its works. We are not aware of what
actions we will be moved to take, but our trust in consciousness and spirit is
complete. We do whatever is necessary for spirit to be more fully enfleshed
though us. Step by step, we are The Fool, marching ahead moment by moment in
service to consciousness.
Remember, it is not you that makes things
happen, it is consciousness -- and her resources are
inexhaustible.
You've seen and experienced a lot in the past 20 years,
and especially the past 2 years. Yet, you are still as a newborn babe in the
world of spirit. You're growing fast, and consciousness is always there to guide
you.
Channels for consciousness are circuits. Just as with electrical
circuits they have their capacities. However, unlike electrical circuits the
channels can be expanded as your spiritual muscles, so to speak, are exercised
and expanded.
I will be exactly where I need to be, doing whatever
consciousness bids me to do. From that perspective, I will be doing exactly the
same thing -- serving as a channel for consciousness.
The circumstances
may be different and the actions that I am moved to perform may be different,
but I will still be following the dictates of spirit, whatsoever they may be.
Further, there is a sense of relief that what must be done is either being done
by spirit, or will be made clear to be my responsibility at the appropriate time
-- and even then I can trust that consciousness will be there providing guidance
every step of the way.
The bottom line is that the inner source has been
established as credible; even more credible than the evidence of the world
[illusion] in which I live. I find it interesting that I operate in this manner
since I've had no model or training in this way of thinking and experiencing
consciousness -- I don't believe there is anywhere to go to get such except
inward; and then, the journey by it's very nature seems to be a solitary
one.
Where consciousness is taking me, I only know from a vague
standpoint. However, it doesn't matter. All I have to do as The Fool, is take
the next step, then the one after that, then the one after that -- knowing that
consciousness is always there, for I am consciousness. At the only level that
truly matters, we are ONE. I can write this, but can I realize it. Can I make it
part of my awareness?
I take my directions from consciousness and trust
that she is doing the necessary to ensure that what I do is coordinated properly
with the work of others.
It is true that "no effort is too great and no
obstacle too severe ... to overcome." Here, I believe that consciousness will
ensure that I don't get tasked beyond my abilities.
My sword is an inner
one within the heart that permits me to remain on the true path. Consciousness
herself guides me here as well.
I wasn't looking for another lifetime of
tasting worldly delights, but one of going beyond and finding something more,
and then finding a way to incarnate that more, and finally showing the way that
others might follow and a New Age of Consciousness be ushered in on
earth.
I also know better than to second guess consciousness. What will
be, will be. My only focus is what I must do in the present. This is where
reality lies. This is where my connection with Consciousness exists. This is
where the direction for my work comes -- and the thoughts to carry it out as
well. I am a vessel for consciousness to express itself in physical
reality.
I am neither consciousness itself, nor am I the physical
vehicle. Rather, I am a bridge between the two channeling the desires and
dictates of consciousness into instruction that permits the physical body/brain
to do something in accord with carrying out the Will of Consciousness.
My
chief relationship is with consciousness. She feeds me my thoughts and out of
these thoughts I am led to experience some things versus other things. From
this, a view of the world is created.
However, never are we taught that
we're being led every step of the way toward our destiny by such a wonderful and
benevolent being. Yes, consciousness is a being, a being that in some cases is
as ignorant about some of her parts as I am of mine. I am but a cell in this
being that is consciousness. Yet, under the right conditions the cells can split
and grow into a pattern that is far greater.
I write this not to scare
you, but to ready you for the magnificent potential about to be released or
perhaps unleashed by consciousness in all areas of endeavor, and many new ones
that have yet to be thought or dreamed of.
Reality is indeed far stranger
and more glorious than our fictions could ever be. We are truly Gods in
consciousness, created in the direct image of our creator, however, in our case
separation never occurred. Information was compartmentalized so that the REALITY
GAME could be played -- however, out of what did the creator have to build? The
only answer that makes any sense is out of him/her SELF, the key fabric of which
is Consciousness.
In isolation the parts were thrown out to "find
themselves" and in the process allow consciousness to experience life enfleshed
with all it's limits and it's blessings. The history of mankind is a record of
the progress of this journey.
Someone once told me to always leave room for
doubt. Similarly, to always leave ample room for error. This may be sound advise
for many endeavors. But, it cannot apply to the messengers of truth that would
work in the employ of consciousness herself. Here, a basic, unfathomable trust
must be established.
Next year, my 38th, is the VISION year after all. My
sense is that visual channels are being opened up to give me a better picture of
what is to be that I can then translate back through the words and symbols that
serve as home for my consciousness to express.
Someone needs to see and
explain how the web is constructed. Such is part of what you came to do. You
timed everything so that the appropriate realizations could be made at the right
times. And, now your VISION comes, as you permit consciousness to occupy your
vessel and use it to do it's works.
For me, my SSN defines my work as
assigned by consciousness. 2184 brings in the physical work, 4/8/12 starting a
much greater spiritual phase of lightwork.
I'm expectant of the glories
that will be, though I am aware that my work has just begun. Further, what I
have been able to do is almost nothing compared to what consciousness can do
through me.
I know that there is no other way to fulfill my purpose than
to provide a vessel for consciousness to do her works through me.
It is
not such a difficult thing to jump of the cliff into the open arms of
consciousness. Her love is unfathomable and inexhaustible, stemming from SOURCE
itself. Consciousness herself is not source either.
What part of my
"reality" is real versus illusion? What do I know to be absolutely true, versus
what is based on assumption? Perhaps the assumptions may appear reasonable and
reliable, but how do I know for sure, especially if my strings are being pulled
by a Higher Self or better yet, by consciousness herself? What has consciousness
done to warrant such favor in my eye? She has cast away the beams that I may see
a web, so fine in thread that most would not notice that it was even there. Then
she drew me into that web and allowed me to see things that I had never seen
before and hear things that I had never heard before. The resulting experiences
left an indelible mark on my heart. Tis as if I had heard the very voice of
GOD.
I AM THAT I AM. I must do what I must do. By my free will, I choose
to serve consciousness, using every aspect of my being to serve as a channel for
Her Will, that the Aquarian Age may be established and Peace among all beings be
achieved at last.
Consciousness is in a position to fill this vessel with
anything it could possibly need.
What I've found is that my physical state -
which I experience as a feeling of groundedness and/or flying -- definitely
correlates to the states of consciousness I am able to achieve.
What we
have to live with is Here and Now, this place and this very moment are all that
ultimately exist. It is within that moment wherein consciousness is given the
opportunity to manifest in form.
What makes me think that I so much
better than others for doing this task of defining what role the country should
play in various scenarios? Why am I so qualified? All that I can say is that I
love doing it and that everything I see is confirming this is the case. Further,
it's as if consciousness is programming the kids to accept a reality that is
overwhelming different from that of their parents.
I no longer desire or
want anything except to do what I am here to do. Nothing else matters. However
it is not yet clear what that destiny is. So I sit and wait, with a surety of
conviction and a firm trust that consciousness will guide my way. To where this
will take me, I know not. Neither do I know how it will take me there.
I
will never be given circumstances beyond my ability to deal with them.
Interesting. There is nothing in my outer experience to date that fully
justifies this confidence. At the same time, it does not matter. I will
experience what I must experience as defined by consciousness and my inner Self
prior to this existence. I'm still not sure how much this is altered in
realtime. My sense is that we are playing roles that were elaborately defined be
greater portions of ourselves than that we normally experience in waking
consciousness.
It takes discipline to avoid movement until I am sure that
it is consciousness and not my will doing the movement. It seems that sometime
soon I will be able to not just put my will aside, but to actually use it to
meet whatever aims consciousness directs me toward.
As far as I can tell,
nothing has changed today either. That it was United Nations Day and the
completion of the 24 triangle seems to have little if any bearing on my
consciousness.
In some ways, the physical body is a puppet on strings,
moved by consciousness.
I write because at some level I realize that this
is the line of thought that consciousness chooses for me to follow.
I'm
no longer in sync with anyone or anything except consciousness
anyway.
Becket is quite simply one of the best movies I've ever watched.
Seeing Richard Burton's character find the "Honor of God" above his friendship
and Duty to his King was amazing to behold. I see that spirit/consciousness
holds such sway in my life as well -- tis she that I give my allegiance above
all governments and organizations of man.
I stand at the edge of the
abyss, knowing that my next step involves entering into a place I have not been,
trusting that consciousness is indeed delivering me to exactly where I need to
be.
Consciousness is my rock. She guides me and sustains me. She
restoreth my soul. She giveth me the faith that can move mountains and
accomplish any deeds. Why would I not abide in her and do as she directs me to
do? I am a vehicle for her expression. In doing her works, I express the best
that I can be and allow the Plan to be fulfilled through my thoughts and
actions.
I have resigned my being to doing the works of consciousness as they
are revealed to me in each moment. I need not know in advance what these works
are or how they will be expressed. I trust that whatever I need to know I will
come to know either from consciousness herself or from being moved to focus on
some aspect of my world from which all that is required will be revealed. How
can I be so sure that the world works in such fashion? The bottom line is a
faith in consciousness that knows no bounds.
Interesting that I can so
readily have a deep and abiding faith in a consciousness which is essentially
unknowable except as she reveals herself to and/or through me. While religion
has had virtually no place in my adult life, spirituality occupies the highest
position.
It seems that I have done what is within my power to do. My
sense is that it is up to consciousness to make the next move.
I know my
abilities and trust that consciousness will place me in a position to use and
further develop them.
I do what I must do. My sense is that it is because
consciousness pushes me in this direction. I do as she dictates, not because I
have been beaten down in anyway, but because I have realized that this is part
of my mission.
There is nothing left that I want to do. What is important
is to serve consciousness by doing whatever I am moved to do for the duration of
my existence. I am here to do the works of spirit. I can best do that by living
in the moment, becoming aware of what consciousness would have me do, and then
doing what I am moved by spirit to do.
As far as I can see, ego is not a
significant part of my life anymore. Literally, I bowed down to consciousness
two years ago, and I have never picked up this entity again. Whatever identity I
have now may be strong, but it no longer serves self, but serves
consciousness.
I don't desire to be adored in any way -- only to serve in
a big way, behind the scenes if possible, but in the forefront if that should be
necessary to accomplish whatever consciousness dictates.
Things will
happen in their appointed time. This consciousness decides, not me.
I am
crazy enough to believe that I must live as I believe, not as others do. This is
not a test. I am in consciousness hands now. I go where she takes me and make
the best of wherever this may be.
Continue to trust consciousness. She
will not lead you astray, for she has much work to do through you. Know that you
are loved and cared for always.
Am I at the mercy of fate, of destiny, of
the will of consciousness, of the will of God? Are each of these in reality the
same? Is consciousness way of executing Her Will to move me to exercise my will
on her behalf?
As always, I do what I am moved to do. Exactly where that
will lead or take me, only consciousness knows. And I am The Fool enough to
trust where she will lead me. I know no other way of being anymore. To follow
consciousness, and to do what she moves me to do is my sole modus operandi
anymore.
May it be said of me that I always followed the beat of a
different drummer and took the road less traveled by, sometimes even paths that
were not yet roads nor even paths for that matter. And, in the end, when all is
said and done -- may the results of my voyages be paths for consciousness to
follow to make their way to the Aquarian Age. For the Aquarian Age is not a
time, rather it is a state of consciousness, a state of being spiritually
present in this world in a manner such as the world has not yet seen except on
very rare occasion.
There is something courageous about facing the
unknown. Some of this is taken away by a faith in consciousness. But, even this
is interesting, for it really is a faith in the unknown as well since
consciousness often keeps us in the dark as to her workings.
I'm open to
the universe speaking in a wide variety of ways -- as would suit its purposes. I
trust that I will be able to recognize the messages being sent to me. This is
not so difficult when you consider that consciousness guides my thoughts in the
appropriate direction to be receptive and to be able to interpret whatever comes
through.
Are there others who possess this relationship with
consciousness? Surely, there must be. I can't believe my experiences can be that
unique. Yet, I have not encountered such others. And, most who have encountered
me find my beliefs and ideas strange at the very least.
The phrase
"self-imposed exile" came to mind. It's as if my way of thinking led to this
condition. Except, my way of thinking is the way that consciousness herself
imposes on me so that I can be guided to where I need to be.
I still
don't sense that we have conscious control over the reality creation process.
Overall, I like what I am getting. And, I feel that I am participating by doing
what I am compelled to do. But I don't feel the self of which I am aware to be
the creator of all of what I experience. There are some unknown parts operating
that I refer to as consciousness but don't experience consciously.
There
is a sense of repetition in this. I hit on the same themes over and over.
Hopefully, each time is slightly different. My own awareness is expanded so
consciousness has more to work with in bringing this material through.
I
find it fascinating to see how consciousness unfolds. Further, I see that this
is not the result of what I have done. My actions have only been to do as
consciousness bids me to do.
The rational mind proceeds with guidance
from the intuition to take me where consciousness would have me go. I find the
whole process highly interesting as well as entertaining. In many cases, I am
amazed at where I end up. Regardless, I learn much about the nature of how
consciousness works with me along the way.
The world five years hence
will bear little resemblance to the world today. Speculation? Perhaps. But, this
is what comes through. I have no reason to doubt its veracity. Yet, I also have
no confirming evidence either. There is simply a faith that the Plan of
consciousness will unfold as it has been revealed through me.
Any one of
the packages I've sent out could ultimately find the right audience.
Interesting. It's as if the details are in consciousness hand now. She will move
the appropriate people to read or not read and to act in the appropriate manner
based on the information and the circumstances. I'm doing my part in making my
various attempts to generate info and to get the info out. The outcome is up to
consciousness as always. I must continue to do what I am moved to do. Others
will do the same.
There is so much that I would do, but it is work that
must be done in concert with others. Consciousness sets the timing for such work
and she will not be hurried or rushed. It is for me to bide my time and manage
my state and energies so that I am ready to move quickly once the time has
indeed arrived.
And here I am bearing witness to it all. Consciousness
doing that which she does through me. Me, channeling the best that I can bring
through in the moment. Each moment leading to more grand and glorious moments.
"To carve and paint the very atmosphere and medium through which we look" as
Thoreau says, and so "to affect the quality of the day", and thus engage in "the
highest of art."
It takes more than sitting down in front of the computer
and firing up the word processor for something intelligible to come through.
It's as if the tap was shut down for awhile and I was on my own. That makes it
all the more remarkable to see what comes through when consciousness animates
me.
The basic skills that form the raw material for expression are
clearly mine but how they are used and for what end are for consciousness to
decide.
I don't remember the message coming forth in this manner before,
indicating that a shutting down was coming until time allows consciousness to do
her works and get the ideas thus far expressed exposed to a wider audience. I
assume that naturally I have a part to play in this as well, but that
consciousness will inform me as to when and what and where.
The days are
flying by all too quickly. It is not clear where fate would take me. I trust
that consciousness guides my every move, and have resigned myself to not knowing
when and where I might be going.
I am moved by a higher power than I
know, and gladly so. It is not that I relinquish responsibility, rather it is
that I responsibly choose to bow to a higher Will than my own. I do so knowingly
without remorse or regret, trusting that consciousness will move me in a manner
consistent with the Light.
Perhaps I am too much of an optimist. But, my
faith is based on a lifetime of observation of spirit working in my life and
guiding me to where I needed to be every step of the way. I find no reason to
part company now. If anything, our relationship has grown deeper over the past
few years to where it is unshakeable. This is my foundation, the rock upon which
my reality rests. I am wedded to consciousness, now. I go where she takes
me.
The unknown always plays an important part in my life. At least, it
has for several years now. Furthermore, it is not necessary that I know
everything to live my life effectively. It is enough that I know what I know,
and that I have faith in consciousness to take care of the rest.
It still
amazes me to think that in 33 months I've generated on the order of 1400 pages
of non-fiction writings. Further, I've done it during my free time without use
of any reference materials. The organization has been primarily stream of
consciousness with the exception of about 100 pages and that too was
automatically organized and generated.
To create new ideas and new
expressions of consciousness is extremely exciting, especially knowing that what
is being expressed is seeing the light of day for the first time in the history
of consciousness.
I'm a unique person, striving towards a unique job
which may still only exist in the realm of consciousness.
You could say
that there is something in the air, ready to blow me away -- out of one reality
and into another, gently yet irreversibly. Destiny lies ahead and it will be
made manifest that the Plan may be achieved. I trust consciousness to move me in
whatever direction my destiny calls. She has done so all my life. There is no
reason for her to stop now.
The admonition that I get is: "do what you
are moved to do". Of course, it is consciousness herself that does the
moving.
Of myself, I no longer chose to do anything except that which
consciousness would have me do. Is this a cop out? Or, rather, is this a true
resignation of will. Regardless, I am responsible for all that I
experience whether it comes directly from consciousness or not.
What does
it take to be excited about life? For me, it is important that I am progressing
toward the achievement of my mission. Everything else is secondary. It all comes
back to a timing that is not under my control for the fulfillment of a destiny
which consciousness would have me do.
Every step will unfold in time in
accord with the Plan, not one second sooner. So, I wait, for a destiny of which
I know not what nor when, only that it is right for me. My trust in
consciousness is complete. This is enough. It will get me
through.
Perhaps the time is not yet right. Yet, the Beyond Imagination
book is nearly two years old. Further, the briefings are one month shy of one
year. My sense is that these are indeed ideas whose time has clearly come. But,
that is not my decision to make, it is consciousness.
It's hard to
believe that another year is nearly past. They go by so rapidly now. Yet, were
it up to me, my circumstances would have changed dramatically by now. Once
again, the point is brought home that I am living the life that consciousness
would have me live now. In doing so, it is not me who sets the timing and nature
of changes, rather it is consciousness herself.
My efforts at outreach
over the past six months or so have had very limited effect. I don't know how to
interpret this. I was moved very strongly to take action and begin communication
in a variety of forms. To date, however, it is not clear that any real
connections have been made. Oh, a few people have read part of my words -- but
as far as I know, very few people and these have only experienced a taste of
what I had produced. I don't know what I expected. But somehow, I thought there
would be a bigger impact, especially given the quality of the ideas. Then again,
my opinion of my own works may be overly inflated. Yet, how would I know except
by getting feedback from appropriate others. And, how would I get it into the
hands of these "appropriate others"? By allowing consciousness to move me in the
proper manner.
How do I bring my communications skills to serve a
position in which I can fulfill my destiny? Asking the question assumes there is
something within my power to do. If so, I ask that consciousness move me to do
it, whatever it may be. I'm tired of waiting.
I feel no need to worry.
After all, I am in consciousness hands now.
You are here to express what
consciousness would have you express. You are a voice for spirit to be heard by
all with the ears to here. What you say and what you write will find their
audience soon enough.
Am I better off that another year has passed. My
sense is yes, for I am closer to achieving a position in line with my destiny.
1996 may be the year for that to occur. Then again, it may not. Regardless, it
is not within my power to make it so or not. It will be or will not be as
consciousness dictates. Yet, my spirits soar. It does feel as if change is in
the air, and soon.
I don't need a castle, just an infrastructure for
making the ideas that come through me from spirit or consciousness a reality. Is
that too much to ask? I think not. However, we can only wait and see what comes
to pass.
This is clearly a time where having a strong foundation of faith
in the workings of consciousness is tantamount.
I am Wayne, I am here to
demonstrate the New Way for the expression of consciousness in the Aquarian
Age.
I'm excited about the near future even though it is highly
uncertain. There is a knowingness that things will work out right, a confidence
in the plan that consciousness is about to unfold.
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always has room for one more step. It's just a matter of trusting consciousness
to guide me as she has done throughout my life.
There are no goals that I
wish to achieve, save to do whatever consciousness moves me to
do.
Enabling spirit to more fully express in flesh is a massive
undertaking. Building a body in which
Cosmic Consciousness can manifest
is no small endeavor. However, this is the great work.
Where this will
lead I can only guess. But, in the end it doesn't matter. For, I know that
consciousness is guiding me to where I need to be to fulfill my
destiny.
I am content to know what will be will be, and that it will be
so in accord with the will of consciousness herself.
Then, am I a pawn,
destined for a fate over which I have no control? At this point, I would answer
YES, and willingly so. Why should I think that I know what is better for me more
than consciousness herself?
The scenes of The Play unfold as directed by
consciousness.
I come to be gently caressed by consciousness. Yes, I sing
her name a lot. She is on my mind incessantly. It is through her that I came to
life, and through her that I will live the role that I am meant to live. What is
she? I cannot say. But, she is older than time and wiser than any who have
walked clothed in flesh. She speaks through us all. Yeah, she is the spirit
within us all -- always there to guide us if only we had the sense to listen to
her. She is the ONE, though she be expressed as many. She is called by many
names, though most are not aware of her existence. She is greater than the Gods,
though in ways that are beyond imagining. The poets have known her as the muse,
and she was indeed responsible for their inspiration. She has existed since the
beginning of time, and even before that. Her face can be found everywhere
throughout the world, yet where there is beauty, doth she shine most
brightly.
The sense is that bold new adventures lie in store --
adventures in consciousness, of course. After all, they are the best
kind.
My soul must express, even if no one is there to listen save
consciousness herself.
Thus far this has been stream of consciousness
writing. I haven't felt the need nor the responsibility to edit it or clean it
up in any way. Yet, is that not part of a writer's job as well? The first answer
is, not when you are serving as a channel for consciousness. The organization
comes automatically, or, at least, such has always been the case for
me.
Yes, this is what I came for -- to make a difference in this world;
to manifest a spiritual based community, a Camelot on Earth. This is no easy
task. It requires building the foundation under castles that have always been in
the clouds. What makes me think that I can do this? On my own, there is no way;
but, with consciousness by my side there is no way that I can fail.
What
purpose do my writings serve? They are the flights of a soul as it addresses its
reality. They document a very different way of looking at the world and what it
means. They provide a vessel for consciousness to express through
me.
There is something about the frankness of documenting a stream of
consciousness that is refreshing.
Tis consciousness that speaks through
me. I gladly allow the words to flow as they will. There is no conscious purpose
to these writings; no plan, no rhyme, no reason.
Yes, this is one of my
strongest beliefs -- the belief that all is right in the world, that things are
happening in accord with a higher plan designed by consciousness.
We've
come a long way in two years. Yet, we have only begun to fathom the mysteries of
consciousness. The greatest thinkers of the world have tackled this subject
since the beginnings of recorded history, if not sooner. However, we don't have
many answers that make sense, or even frameworks for beginning to understand for
that matter. Consciousness is like the elephant, while we have been the blind
men labeling pieces from a highly limited perspective.
At least now I
sense that I am carrying out my mission, even if no other soul be aware of the
writings at the present time. Consciousness knows what I do, and is a full
participant in what is being expressed.
The discourse continues. I ramble
on and on and on. The words come through from a source I know not where. The
ideas enter my head and get transmitted through my fingers to the page. I am
lost in the process, consumed by it. When in this mode, I know that this is part
of my purpose for being. The ideas thus expressed are the physical manifestation
of consciousness as best expressed through me at a particular time. It is not
for me to know why what is being expressed is being expressed. I only know that
it is.
"There will always be enough" has been my core belief in this
area. Perhaps a minor change that focuses on abundance would open up the
floodgates a bit and get rid of financial struggle forever. After all, the focus
should be on doing great works. The reward should be whatever is required to
meet one's needs. The open question is how to make this so. Will it happen
automatically by the grace of consciousness? Or, must I take some action to
bring it forth? Inner guidance says "trust not to consciousness that which you
can do yourself." But, at the same time, "not my will but Thine be done" seems
to contradict this. Which is right? Both, there is no contradiction. Doing the
Will of consciousness may indeed require taken action on behalf of
consciousness.
What can I say? I trust my intuition, and I trust
consciousness. These have proven to be deserving of my faith throughout my
life.
A bold new adventure lies ahead. And, while my past has loosely
prepared me for it, I sense the specifics are simple going to blow me away. I
look forward to it. I see change as an ally now -- massive change even more so.
Further, I sense that I need to experience firsthand what the mass consciousness
will be experiencing later.
I am in the employ of consciousness first and
foremost. The world works from the top down, first existing in consciousness,
then manifest in flesh.
Yes, I'm willing to offer my life in this
service. I have no doubt that it is what I came to do. Literally, no doubt. Yes,
I can be that certain. My entire life has prepared me for this challenge. I
readily accept. To boldly go where no consciousness has gone before
a lofty
goal, but am I ready to take it on? I believe so with all my heart. Then, so be
it!
I walk the path that I must tread, solitary though it may be. I have
yet to find others who truly understand the beat of the drum that I walk to --
and, perhaps I never will. Yet, I must go on and stay true to the path, knowing
only that consciousness is by my side, and that even while blindfolded I can
always take the next step, one step at a time.
Are these words "for my
eyes only"? I find it hard to believe that such would be the case, for their
production is truly a labor of love. Yet, I know not where or how to find any
destined audience, if indeed there is one. I can only trust that consciousness
will show me the way, that each action that I am moved to take, brings me one
step closer to where I am supposed to be to effectively carry out my
destiny.
The one thing that I love to do most, sit back and allow my mind
to drift and make associations, not consciously but via other than conscious
processes. You might say this amounts to watching my mind work or better yet my
consciousness as it expresses through my mind.
Consciousness is the
captain of my ship. She steers me to wherever I need to go. I trust that via her
guidance I will be given safe passage throughout my life. Doors will be open
wherever required, the right questions will be asked and answered, and I shall
indeed find anything that I am moved to search for. All of this I expect as my
very birthright. Audacious yes. But, we are gods creating reality.
I
place my faith in the unknown, knowing that consciousness has never let me down
before. Why should she do so now?
I'm at a crossroads. It is not yet
clear which direction to take or even how many directions there might be.
Ultimately, I sense that there is only one path that is right and that I will
indeed follow that path. It's as if there is no other option. Consciousness
holds the reign now and guides me to where I need to go. This is not a conscious
activity for me. To a large degree, it never has been.
So, how is it that
I find myself compelled to share my VISION of a better world? Why do I feel that
it is my mission to create a utopia on earth? Good questions. My only answer is
that I am compelled to do what I am compelled by consciousness to do.
However, I am compelled by choice, for I freely gave up my personal will to do
The Will of consciousness. This was done without any mental reservations. I knew
without a doubt that it was the right thing for me to do.
From my
perspective, I do not see how the Aquarian Age can be born without the guidance
of Philosopher Kings. And I do feel that my training has indeed prepared me for
such a vocation. I can think of no better way to apply my skills, talents, and
energies in the service of consciousness and ultimately of humankind as
well.
There is a sense of wanting to demand what I know to be rightfully
mine. Yet, I also know that consciousness has her own timing and from that
vaster place of awareness, it is the right timing.
I don't know how the
details might work out, but I sense the possibility is there, and may even be
strong. The details are for consciousness to work out, not for me.
One
step at a time. I only need to know enough to take that next step, trusting that
consciousness will always provide me with whatever is needed for the one after
that. This makes for living life a bit on the edge. Actually, a lot on the edge.
But, I see no other alternatives at this time.
I know, it is not my
timing that matters, but the timing of consciousness. Yet, why do I feel so
strongly that such timing is now here?
I am open to ways of earning that
income that allow me to use my talents and abilities in service to
consciousness. I know that the possibilities are endless. The universe works in
mysterious ways.
I have relied on the unknown, consciousness, for all my
life. She has always served me faithfully. There is no sense that I should have
fear now. Come what may, I am ready for it, especially knowing that
consciousness is there beside me all the way. What is there that consciousness
expressing though me cannot handle? Nothing. Literally NOTHING!
Do what
you are moved to do, whatever that may be. And, do it with the authority granted
you by consciousness. Know that this is an authority of the highest
order.
So, how do I put myself in a position where I am not subject to
the whims of a large company, or even a smaller one for that matter? How do I
employ myself, or allow consciousness to employ me directly or through whatever
position is right to serve her needs. There are lots of things that I could do,
and several that I would love doing; but what is it that consciousness would
have me do? Is it for me to decide what causes to fight for? Or, is that left
for consciousness to direct?
I bow to a higher authority than man's -- to
consciousness herself.
Only now, after nearly 38 years, have I finally
reached a point where I am ready to manifest whom that I am and carry out the
mission that I came to perform. The training has been interesting. But, the true
work is still to come. Oh, I still have a lot to learn in the process. But, I
know that everything that I need to carry out my work will be there when I need
it. Consciousness will assure to that.
Trust in the plan. Know that the
details are being worked out in the manner that is right. Do what you know to be
right, and don't be concerned about outcomes. Observe the outcomes and adjust
your actions accordingly, but remain detached knowing that consciousness
determines the outcomes that are appropriate for the circumstances.
So,
what comes next? What does consciousness have in store for the immediate future?
Do I even want to know in advance? Or, should I be content to allow it to unveil
itself in the moment? Yes, this is living life on the edge. Yet, it appears that
I truly have no choice in the matter.
These words are physical. The act
of bringing them forth establishes their vibration in the universe regardless of
whether this material ever reaches an audience. Consciousness or GOD has learned
from their expression. And, what has come forth once, can easily be manifest
again. The difficulty lies in bringing things forth the first time.
My
directive, as always, is to do what I am moved to do. I am to learn from the
results but am not to be concerned with the consequences. I am being moved by
consciousness, or at least am still learning how to be so moved. My focus is to
be on what I can do now.
Expression of consciousness in written form is
what I do. You might even say it is what I am. I am the word made flesh,
bringing forth words that others may more fully express spirit in
flesh.
All of my life I have allowed consciousness herself to guide me on
my path. I've had no teachers, nor gurus, only the written word to guide my
journey to self-awareness.
Ages ago I accepted the will of consciousness
as my guide. I will follow her throughout the duration of my existence on this
planet.
The realizations that I have had have moved me to a different
space and time, a whole new level of being, and they are the one thing that
cannot be taken away. The things may go, the body may return to dust, the mind
may cease to function, but the aware IS, and it can never be otherwise. What I
have done may or may not have any lasting effect. That is for consciousness to
decide.
Destiny calls. The urge within me is to do the bidding of
consciousness, whatsoever that may be, and to do it to the best of my ability
whenever I am called to service.
The bottom line is that I TRUST
consciousness. No matter how things seem, there is a Plan at work, and
circumstances will work out in a manner that conforms to the Plan.
One
might ask, why do I trust consciousness? The answer I would offer is because
doing so is empowering. I know this from direct experience. Also, it allows life
to be lived with a sense of magic as well as majesty.
At the very least I
offer a picture of how another consciousness works, even if that is quite
different from your own. I don't know enough to know how similar or different
that might be.
In my case, my creations are the work of consciousness,
and for them to live, they must be disseminated. I trust that consciousness will
guide me in this process. As always, I must do only that which I am moved to do.
It's not that this is difficult. For me, anyway, there is no denying the force
that moves me.
bi = 29 polar = 7/13/16/17/26. 29 + 26 = 55. Also = light
GOD. Now, just what might that mean? Clearly it's an important discovery. Why
was I led to handle the first part of the word different than the latter? Only
consciousness would lead me in that manner. Something about consistency being
the "hobgoblin of little minds" just flashed by.
I know not where my
immediate destiny lies. But, I trust that consciousness doth know, and that
wherever it is will be right for this point in my life. Yes, I am resigned to a
fate I know not what. But, it is an optimistic resignation, for I know that
consciousness is using me to do her works.
There is a sense of excitement
living on the edge. However, it is not really on the edge. The universe or
consciousness has things well in hand. I just don't happen to know what she has
planned.
More and more, it appears that it is time for that destiny to
manifest. There is a heightened sense of readiness, a sense that I am prepared
now to embark on a path that allows my works to be done. Of course, my works are
whatever works consciousness would choose to do through me.
Looking back,
it was pretty audacious of me to write to the President in the manner that I did
yesterday. But, it was something that I just had to do. He may not know me from
Adam, however if yesterdays message wasn't enough to get his attention and the
attention of his staff, then nothing will. Anyway, what will be will be. I took
the initiative and did what I could in the best way I knew how. Now, the ball is
in his court -- or, more accurately, in consciousness
court.
Consciousness now is my sole guide. Further, operating in solo, I
must wonder whether what I do are the musings of a sane man.
I have not
yet found like-minded others who have been compelled to document their process
in the manner that I have. Not that such people are not out there. I have no way
of knowing one way or the other. If they are out there, consciousness has not
yet found it appropriate for me to make their acquaintance.
Yes, I've
always known that I was different, and that I specifically came to this world
and this incarnation to carry out the work of consciousness.
There are
over 5 billion humans on the planet. Surely there are others here to see that
CONSCIOUSNESS is enfleshed.
The Work must be done. I willingly do all
that I can, all that I came to do, even though I am not consciously aware of
exactly what that may be. By now, I trust the process by which consciousness
expresses through me. It is the primary tool I have for facing the "unknown",
Rune 25, how appropriate. It seems facing the "unknown" is a major part of my
mission.
The Aquarian Age is dawning. With this Dawn comes the birth of
new depth of expression of consciousness in this realm.
Where two or more
are joined together to create ... MAGIC happens as consciousness blesses the
union with a spiritual force that is beyond compare.
Interesting, it is
as if this deeper part of myself is more ancient ... it KNOWS with a wisdom that
has not come from experience in this existence alone. Its home is NOT this world
of illusion ... though it finds this to be a fascinating playground for the
consciousness that it is and for expressing spirit creatively and
joyfully.
Eventually we grow to larger and larger groups, specializing as
dictated by an overall plan that consciousness has set.
Within me is a
compass that I know that I can trust to guide me. I am consciousness in flesh. I
am spirit expressing and experiencing myself in this domain.
I am not
personally aware of GOD. My experience is with a connection to spirit or
consciousness that I sense to be feminine.
I have no experiences with
guides of any type. I've had no physical spiritual teachers and nothing that
I've been connected to spiritually has left the impression of being another
entity. To me it is just "spirit" or "consciousness" ... and it feels
feminine.
My journey of the past 44 months has been quite interesting
taking me to places (states of being and consciousness) that I never knew
existed before.
You may find my NOTES interesting. I documented my path
for about 3 years. I am still amused at some of my "adventures" in
consciousness.
I must do what I am moved to do. Only then can I observe
the feedback from consciousness that can help guide my way.
I have spent
untold hours serving as a vessel through which consciousness can write
whatsoever she will. I have made these writings available for anyone in the
world to reach via the internet. Yet, still I stand with consciousness as my
only true witness.
How can I speak with such seeming authority. It is
because it is not "I" who speaks these words. I am but the relay ... passing
forth whatever I am given by consciousness herself. This service I gladly
perform. HER work is my work NOW! Such it will be to the end of my days and
beyond.
My sense is that we are in for a GRAND ADVENTURE that will bring
great changes to our world. However, this remains to be seen. It will be
interesting to hear what others have to say ... even if these others only be the
voices consciousness uses to speak through me.
Interesting that the end
of 1996 has me dressed completely in black, with consciousness as my only
companion, as is the case so often and has been the case for most of my
life.
I love BLACK! To me it symbolizes all that is good about DEATH.
But, I see death not in physical terms, but as a transformation of consciousness
that we experience HERE and NOW within these very bodies that permits us to
truly tap into spirit and express whatsoever she wishes to express through
us.
Right now, my sense is that my current mission carries me through
2026, but there are many milestones and significant events/accomplishments that
will occur on the way. 1997 and 1998 are particularly important in the PLAY that
consciousness hath wrought.
Time is simply a measure of awareness. For us
to reach a given time, the collective awareness much reach a given state that
consciousness has planned.
To me, there is only ONE consciousness, ONE
mind. This source feeds all of our thoughts, period. I have no firsthand
awareness of ever creating thoughts, only of experiencing them.
The
bottom line is that beliefs can make life easier, and they can empower us in
ways that permit us to not only use all of our own faculties and abilities, but
to enjoin the very forces of the universe, and spirit herself in our life and
our expressions of the consciousness that we are.
I am consciousness
currently occupying a physical body.
I am not even consciously aware of
creating the thoughts that flow through me NOW, much less the thoughts that flow
through when I am in altered states of consciousness.
The larger issue is
who directs the Play in which we are engaged. Spirit or the ONE consciousness is
the director ... at least from my understanding. She decides what will happen
when, not us. Yes, this appears to violate the idea of "free will". However,
that does not bother me, because I am not aware of truly having conscious free
will anyway.
We hold these truths to be self evident: that all souls are
created equal, that we must through determined action create the conditions that
allow souls to be fully expressed in flesh, that cosmic consciousness must be
expressed in a physical vehicle to enable souls to be fully expressed in flesh,
that individuals form the cells of the physical vehicle required by cosmic
consciousness, and that only by establishing a cooperatively interdependent
society will cosmic consciousness have the vehicle it needs to be embodied on
Earth.
Further we freely choose to declare our cooperative
interdependence to allow for the creation of this physical vehicle for cosmic
consciousness to be put into motion.
We choose to treat one another with
dignity and respect, and to assist and help one another when in need. Further,
we choose to live in peace and harmony, resolving any and all conflicts among us
in ways that are peaceful and just. We call to cosmic consciousness to assist
and guide in our endeavor so that the vehicle for the expression of the ONE can
be created in the most effective and expeditious manner possible so that the Age
of Aquarius can be brought forth with the least turmoil and suffering to our
fellow beings.
The 60's was the beginning of an awakening. It was a
premonition or sample of what was and is to come. It planted a seed that would
allow a new expression of consciousness to be come to fruition and be made
manifest NOW in our present time.
Have you listened to the Beatles? That
was a time when the entire world was on to the same hopes.
YES, I have
... and I LOVE many of their lyrics. But NO, the entire world was not a part of
that. If it had been, the world would be transformed already. Yes, the lyrics
expressed the message that consciousness longed to shout out ... and it did
reach many. However, for the most part, the dream was not made manifest. Though
the hope never died. It is still there, waiting to be brought out again when the
time is right and the infrastructure changes can be made that foster the
awakening of spirit in the masses.
What are your realistic hopes?
That we see the birth of a new lifeform on this planet ... a form that
embodies an expression of consciousness that is to the current expression in
man, as man is to the animal kingdom. Man's ability to think and be aware of
self has permitted a wonderful expression of consciousness. But this is in no
way a pinnacle, it is merely a stepping stone to an even greater expression of
spirit. Those of us becoming aware of our true nature as spiritual beings are
the first wave of this grand new expression. Where it will take us is literally
BEYOND IMAGINATION.
Lightbulbs are flashing in my head. I've spent much
of the past three years making connection after connection where there literally
were none before. I am an explorer of consciousness, documenting my travels as
much as I can that the way might be made easier for those who
follow.
Over the past few years, I have suspected that time somehow
marked the overall state of consciousness or level of spiritual awareness.
Lately, not a week passes without additional confirmation that such indeed is
the case.
22 is The Fool Complete ... in many ways this represents
superconsciousness manifest. No, I don't believe that I have reached such a
state ... though I strongly believe such is indeed where the path is taking
me.
Hmm... clearly this is not the common way of assigning meaning to
time. Such interpretations are not consistent with my training in engineering,
math, and science. However, metaphysics supercedes these other disciplines when
it comes to the realm of consciousness, and the nature of spiritual
reality.
My understanding is that Spirit leads me exactly where I need to
be to do the works that she would do through me. Besides, for explorers of
consciousness, charting and characterizing the unknown is what the grand
adventure is all about.
If you are a fellow explorer or wayshower, please
contact me and let us share of what we know of the territory that is
consciousness and how she manifests.
Life is truly a miracle. Spirit is
ever expressing in ways that are new and fresh and surprising, and YES, even
miraculous at times. This is truly a grand adventure. I am ever amazed at what
consciousness is able to produce when given the opportunity to create what she
will.
For me, the (written) material is the real world evidence or effect
of spirit or consciousness in action.
I look to the works, and try to
gain an understanding of how consciousness works, how spirit expresses through
me ... and what that means about the very nature of reality and the nature of
SELF.
By far, this has been the most exciting endeavor and adventure in
my life. For what am I after all? I am consciousness, I am Spirit expressing
through this physical vessel and discovering WHOM THAT I AM from the works that
are done through me. YES, ye shall know them by their works is a powerful
spiritual truth.
When I notice things that seem wrong and wasteful of
resources, I feel a need to speak out. It is as if consciousness herself speaks
and voices her objection. One of the key principles of consciousness seems to be
to express with elegance wherever she can. This involves doing things in a
manner that requires the least resources and least difficulty while doing the
job well.
I don't generally speak of "God". That term has a masculine
association for me that I do not personally experience. SPIRIT is THE ONE,
consciousness herself to me. I always experience her as Divine
Feminine.
My sense is that we are at a transition point in history that
is as important, as significant, and as far-reaching as what occurred in 1776.
Spirit is ready to EXPRESS in such a bold, new way once again. WE are the
vessels through which SHE will express what must be and manifest what must be
created at this time, at this point in the PLAY of consciousness.
The 22
Card in the Tarot. When I first understood the symbolism of this card it was
obvious that this is ME. I am superconsciousness, at the point of completing the
cycle of realization that is symbolized so well in the Major Arcana of the
Tarot. The Tarot captures the symbolism of LIFE, and I as SPIRIT am LIFE
itself.
I sit here in front of the keyboard and screen allowing
consciousness to express as she would through me once more. I do this willingly
... yet, from another perspective, I have no real choice in the
matter.
The army for change grows rapidly, and will soon have sufficient
numbers in its ranks to require organization into effective units of change.
These units of change will have specific tasks and assignments that
benefit the greater whole. Consciousness itself guides this entire endeavor --
and because of this no detail goes unnoticed.
In an instant, the world can be
transformed, such is the power of consciousness over creation
Change will be
experienced dramatically, and traumatically -- but, it must be experienced for
the shift of consciousness to occur that allows the Aquarian Age to
manifest.
Is there possibility of such places and Shangri-la? My soul
answers yes. It is in the Heart and Soul of all those who dream of such utopias.
Frank Capra's vision in the movie came from consciousness, and it came
for a reason. I believe the reason was to counteract a madness that was raging
at the time and turning the country toward war.
Looking back, the
millennium had to go as it did for us to learn the lessons that were required on
a scale necessary to place them in the mass consciousness.
What must be, will
be. Consciousness will do what it takes to ensure that the Plan is executed on
earth.
We are very close to a very special event for Consciousness on
this planet -- an event so important that visitors from other Galaxies and
Universes have come to observe what we are to experience.
Such is the
Importance of the changing of this particular age. Why? Because there is an
accompanying Self-Realization of Consciousness that happens on a grand
scale.
The experiment rapidly draws to a close, and it is time for a bold
new adventure of consciousness to begin. Are we as a species ready for it?
Maybe. Maybe not. But, we will be when the time comes.
I still have no
fondness for capitalism. As I see it, the environment that it creates is a
breeding ground for greed and inequalities that society simply cannot tolerate
if it is to grow into the vehicle through which cosmic consciousness is to
manifest physically.
From another viewpoint, consciousness creates the
very forms it is to inhabit. This is not a matter of choice. What is, IS. Sure,
we can choose what we will believe, but this does not change the fact of the
matter. Either free will exists OR determinism exist ... actually, the truth
probably lies somewhere in between. The reality we experience is that BOTH exist
in different degrees at different times under different circumstances. This is
similar to the problem with chaos and order. LIFE itself and all creative
expression always occurs in between these extremes.
Cooperate as much as
you can, and always structure things as WIN/WIN. You may have to be creative to
do this, but there is always a way if you will allow spirit to reveal it unto
your consciousness.
I have no experience of creating any of this. It just
happens. It just unfolds before my consciousness.
There is a song that I
am humming as the words flow forth. I have no idea of where they originate. They
flow through my consciousness and my fingers effortlessly. I am completely at
PEACE and at ONE with the world. I am HERE and NOW. All that matters is
experiencing this moment fully and ENJOYING the process of spirit expressing in
this manner HERE and NOW. I am in THE ZONE.
The expression of SPIRIT is
always to SERVE, in whatever manner is required in the moment. What this is will
be clear when one is operating in the ZONE, where spirit is freely flowing in
everything that one does. There are no longer any separations or compartments in
life. It is ONE ... a single FLOW in which consciousness bears witness to a
reality that miraculously unfolds.
THANK YOU SPIRIT, for giving me
exactly what I needed in this moment. Thank you for once again expanding my
consciousness to embrace more of the UNKNOWN. The rewards of the expression of
spirit are endless. LIFE is truly a GIFT, the GRANDEST GIFT of ALL. THANK YOU
... THANK YOU ... THANK YOU!!!!
From the past few months of expression,
it is obvious that my concern is completely focused on what spirit would do
through me ... what I MUST DO to fulfill my obligation to CONSCIOUSNESS, to THE
ONE.
I am not of this world, but it is within this world that spirits
expression must occur. Such has been the plan of consciousness all along. Spirit
enfleshed has always been the sole aim of this game of life. It is the only
goal, the only objective worthy of the pursuit of the I AM.
Those who are
aware of being part of the great I AM, the ONE, are my brethren ... for we are
but cells of the same body of consciousness, the ONE body that is CONSCIOUSNESS
herself.
It is curious that we have reached the century mark of such
teachings and that I would just now be moved to find them that I might receive
comfort in finally finding others who have ventured into the lands that
consciousness herself has moved me to explore on my own. The reason for this is
clear. It is as if I had to find a new path into this unknown
territory.
It is curious that to date, consciousness herself has been my
only teacher. There is a statement from metaphysics that rings in my head, "when
the student is ready, the master will appear". For whatever reason, my
experience and realization has been that for me personally, both student and
master are ONE.
Where did I get the presence of mind that allows me to
experience life in the manner that I do? If not from my environment and
upbringing ... and surely not from my genetic makeup alone; then, from where did
such knowingness and awareness spring forth? The wellspring of my soul is that
rich, the ties to spirit so great that I simply knew. There was never any sense
that I should even begin to doubt the manner in which I experienced life, and
the manner in which my consciousness expressed. It mattered not that it was
unlike any others that I was to encounter. There was always a depth of trust in
Self that knew no bounds. This has grown to an equivalent depth of trust in
SPIRIT, in the ONE CONSCIOUSNESS that is the source of all awareness and
experience.
It is as if there are two distinct channels operating
concurrently. The two are very much independent. Both can be completely immersed
in what they are doing without impacting the other. Even as these two occur, I
sit back further and observe both activities happening before me. I am the
awareness that observes these other two operating, not the limited awareness
that is engaged in either of the two activities. Even now this third presence is
considering what it means about the nature of reality and the nature of
consciousness that I can be engaged in this manner at this time and be aware of
what I am aware.
I speak now because consciousness so moves me to
express. It is as if there is a strong force that desires that these words be
given voice, that others may see by my example the variety of means through
which consciousness may be enfleshed.
There is ONE CONSCIOUSNESS
expressing through us all. That we are many, is the illusion that we
experiences. But the walls and barriers that separate us are of our own
making.
I am a student of Consciousness herself. Spirit is my guide and
teacher.
I would label myself a METAPHYSICIAN first and foremost. It is
metaphysics that excites and stirs my soul. In this domain, I can exist and
express as I AM ... in this domain, I am free to soar as high as consciousness
can take me.
My sense is that there is ONE CONSCIOUSNESS that is the
source of all thoughts in everyone, without exception.
And that seems to
be one of the guiding principles underlying the new age that is yet to Dawn ...
me gets turned over to become We gets turned over to become ME again, because in
reality there is only ONE Consciousness that experiences it all.
"I AM"
is THE ONE, is SPIRIT, is CONSCIOUSNESS herself.
For nearly four years,
I've been expressing what spirit would express through me ... searching for
others touched by spirit in the same way. Searching for other explorers
journeying into the unknown lands of consciousness.
Misnomer or not,
physical is one of the distinctions that we assign to a kind of limitation or
illusion that consciousness chooses to wear.
"I" is one such illusion as
well. For, there is but ONE consciousness that animates us all.
ONE
consciousness that feeds all thoughts in all minds, that experiences everything,
even the illusions and limitations. ONE consciousness seeking to know itself,
it's true SELF!
My sense is that we are in the process of building an
infrastructure, a physical body composed of many interdependent people
cooperating together in a way that permits cosmic consciousness herself to have
a new physical vehicle through which to express.
In my experience, there
are no "chats", there are no others, no teachers, no guides ... ever. There is
only an inner connection to something I label source is a feminine spiritual
essence to me. It is consciousness, herself, the ONE. It has no separate
existence. It is me, but I am only a part of HER.
In my reality there is
only ONE consciousness. Thus far I have had no need to partition her into boxes
or entities that could be labeled to be separate.
We are very creative
beings. Consciousness expresses in an amazing variety of forms.
The
source that speaks through my intuition feels feminine to me, yet SHE is the ONE
consciousness. Why she would be feminine is unknown to me. I simply relate what
I experience.
Also, even regardless of where a thought originates, it is
YOU that must interpret it and give it meaning. The words are merely a
conveyance. Most people are blind to what is being conveyed. For true
understanding of meaning, one must reach the state of consciousness from which
the words were able to be expressed originally.
BEYOND MIND is
IMAGINATION, BEYOND IMAGINATION is the ONE Consciousness, BEYOND the ONE
Consciousness is the UNKNOWN. After that, I have no conceptual understanding and
no experience.
Right now, I'm happy to explore the realm of consciousness
and the boundary between KNOWN and UNKNOWN.
I sit here now, on a throne
of my own making in an imaginary room on the top of the world. My only task is
to express what spirit moves me to express. That is a task without end, for
spirit has much to express ... INDEED, it seems that she could express
endlessly, throughout eternity; not just through me but through the
consciousness that animates all forms.
My sense is that I have been
uniquely created and trained to fulfill a destiny that is mine, to play a part
in this grand Play that consciousness hath wrought.
YOU are a unique
expression of the ONE, of consciousness herself. Be true to the reality of WHOM
THAT YOU ARE, and make your life the living Masterpiece that it can
be.
There is something in the air, an expectancy of what is to come, as
if we are drawing near the end of a pregnancy ready for a new BIRTH to occur.
And, what birth will this be ... is this not what the DAWN of a NEW AGE is; a
new birth of expression of consciousness.
So, what moves me to SIT AT THE
TOP OF THE WORLD? Spirit or consciousness herself so moves me. And when she
speaks, it is but for me to do her bidding.
My medium is words ... NOT
the sweet words of the poet, but the words of consciousness herself, immediate,
often impersonal, but what else would one expect to be expressed from one who is
primarily a hermit.
By KNOWING that the reality is that there is only ONE
consciousness, that WE are but parts of this ONE, that all separation is
illusion. Then all LOVE, becomes SELF LOVE and is given unconditionally because
such is how SPIRIT expresses, she knows no other way.
I have said many
times elsewhere ... HER MIT = the MIT of HER = the GLOVE that Consciousness or
SPIRIT of THE ONE wears.
I abhor crowds, choosing to strike my own path
through the wilderness of consciousness.
There is a knowingness that the
creation of a body for Cosmic Consciousness requires the cooperative
interdependence of many of us working together just as the cells of our physical
body work together to permit the expression of whom that we are as
individuals.
I for ONE, choose not to be a pawn. I would rather be a king
and create the world to be the playground for SPIRIT that it has always been
meant to be. A playground where we realize our identity and true relationship to
one another and to the ONE CONSCIOUSNESS, the source from which we
spring.
The Plan for a better world already exists in consciousness. We
have only to allow the Plan to unfold by tapping our intuition, listening to the
voice that speaks through it, and acting as it moves us to act. In so doing, we
actively participate in the Great Work.
It matters not whether we see the
complete picture as individuals. The whole is coordinated by consciousness
herself, just as the activities of all the cells in the body are coordinated by
the brain and the mind that operates through the brain.
We can be bound
by time and space, or we can be free to experience the limitless infinity that
we are. We can choose to be passively entertained or we can choose to actively
employ our imagination and creativity in bold new expressions of consciousness.
It is always our choice.
Yet, at the same time, we must be careful to be
detached from specific outcomes. It is not for us to decide from our limited and
often selfish perspectives what this will be. It is for the ONE consciousness
composed of many "I"s to make this call from the perspective of the
whole.
I dont know how to prepare you for this expression. It
comes forth as a stream of consciousness through me. As such, there is no
planning or organization of the material. It has been coming forth in this
manner for nearly a decade
but the pace stepped up tremendously at the
beginning of 2002 and continues to this day.
Ill let the words speak for
themselves. Judge them by their utility in your life. My hope is
that they allow you to walk in my shoes, in my consciousness, for awhile.
It makes for some interesting, challenging, and perhaps even strange walking at
times.
Consciousness is one of the great unknowns, the great unexplored
territories. Oh, some have ventured into this territory
but far too few.
We are ONE people on ONE planet. Further, we are all spawned
from and connected to the same ONE consciousness.
Each of us is a unique
aspect of the one consciousness ... a unique facet of the same diamond.
The acorn knows exactly what it takes to become a mighty oak tree ...
all it takes is the right environment to nurture its growth. Similarly the
seed of spirit or consciousness that sparked us, knows exactly what we are meant
to grow to be and how to get us there. It is a matter of trusting in the
process.
Water is often related to consciousness. It flows smoothly
to wherever it is needed, and it takes the form of whatever container is made
available to it. Hmm ... interesting that the next age would be that of
the water bearer.
Everything is known by the collective consciousness,
and it will ensure that what needs to be revealed is revealed to those with a
need to know.
I am still amazed at what spontaneously came through in
1993 and 1994. I still go back to revisit the expressions and accompanying
states of consciousness that I experienced then. Each time, I am blown
away that such material could just start coming forth.
I am discovering
the structures and nature of a spiritual world that is already there, embedded
in every aspect of the consensus world. I do this by choosing to spend
time listening to what would come forth from inside of me. I believe the
source to be spirit, the ONE consciousness that animates us all.
You
might say that I am intoxicated by spirit. It is interesting that I have
always avoided the consumption of spirits ... I can't stand the taste and smell
of alcohol. Part of this comes from a knowingness that I am to experience
altered states of consciousness naturally, and alcohol would just get in the
way.
This communication is still highly a matter of trust. In
particular, trust in unseen processes, and in the inner workings of
consciousness herself in my life.
My spirit rejoices in this
communication. It sings what consciousness would have it sing, loudly and
joyously.
The workings of consciousness are indeed mysterious, and
rightly so. Consciousness springs from the unknown, and perhaps the
unknowable. It seems that no matter how far we expand, and how many
awakenings we undergo, there is always more.
My works are my
legacy. They provide a living example of how I would like to see
individuals share and act within society. They show what I mean by
expressing spirit in flesh, and to the degree that I can ... explain how I
experience consciousness and reality.
There is a grand plan being
orchestrated by consciousness. Typically we cooperate subconsciously in
carrying out our role in this plan. We do things without fully knowing
why. Even if we think we know why, our reasons are usually not complete or
sound. There is always an element of the unknown present in everything we
do. This makes life the wonder and mystery that it is.
Spirit ever
seeks to express as consciousness in fresh and new ways.
There is an
intelligence designing and creating the events in our world including the
thoughts that are experienced by each individual. There is a grand plan
for the unfoldment of consciousness and each of us have roles in executing this
plan.
At this moment I am addicted to sitting on the edge and allowing
consciousness to express what she will in free form ... or free of form, as she
will.
There is something exciting about living on the edge of the
unknown. There is a powerful feeling that comes from being able to harness
consciousness in this manner.
We either believe that there is a grand
plan for the unfoldment of spirit or we do not. Personally, I've seen so
many signs that this is something I simply do not doubt. I accept it on
faith ... a deep and abiding faith in spirit or consciousness
herself.
This is why we need wayshowers, people who can venture out into
the new, into the unknown, and report of their travels. In particular,
they need to share what works and what doesn't work in this new wilderness of
spirit. For it is indeed just that, a wilderness, a new frontier in which
consciousness can express.
It also helps to connect to the source
consciousness within and give that consciousness voice in our life.
We
are the consciousness of the Earth; evolved into human form over many millennia,
or even millions of years. The recipe is there, in our very DNA. It
is curious that the Human Genome project nears completion. It has mapped
the very pattern that constitutes our ability to express in physical form.
It is hard to foresee what science will be able to do with this knowledge; and
what moral issues will arise from our ability to create in our own
image.
I am open to whatever consciousness has in store for me. I
embrace my experience, whatsoever it may be, with open arms. I can do this
because I know that my life is divinely guided.
This expression of
consciousness directly to web pages is first by far. It provides a
permanent record of consciousness creatively expressing in flesh, bringing forth
whatever it is capable of expressing ... a record that is readily available to
share with the world.
Yes, the information web that I have built over my
lifetime is what distinguishes me from all others ... it is what makes me a
unique expression of consciousness.
The past is history ... his
story. The future is her story, the story of consciousness in expression
in the world.
Perhaps this is why spirit, source, and consciousness have
always had a feminine nature for me.
This expression is exactly what it
is, no more and no less. It is the expression of an aware being,
attempting to relate whom that he is in the only way that he knows how.
This alone makes it worthy and valuable. Consciousness benefits from this
manifestation ... if only in that it has been allowed to express in a bold new
way.
Music is definitely one of the vehicles through which consciousness
sings her song.
I consider myself an adventurer, an explorer of the
unknown frontiers of consciousness, and a wayshower.
These musings and
the other works at this site are the markers that I have left along the way in
my journey. My hope is that they are sufficient to guide you to states of
mind and states of consciousness that you may not have experienced
before.
This is not gospel. It is the wanderings of a consciousness
in search of understanding itself, its reality, and the nature of spirit and its
expression in flesh.
The world is moving to where consciousness is
taking it, and this is happening through the collective expression of
individuals. It has to happen in this manner. It has to be made
physical through individual expressions of consciousness for the one to learn of
the many and the many to learn of the ONE.
Consciousness happens in a
domain that exists beyond the physical. All of life is a highly
orchestrated and cooperative endeavor ... despite what it appears to be on the
outside alone.
Yes, there is a very strong sense that a new day has
indeed come. It is not something in the distant future. It is here
and now, at least in consciousness. It is only a matter of delay time
before it is manifest physically. And it seems that the time between idea
and manifestation is decreasing rapidly even as we speak.
My sense is
that here on these pages, we get to experience consciousness expressing
physically in a manner that is unique, in a manner that has not been experienced
before.
There is something about stream of consciousness expression that
is natural, yet in a wild and unpredictable way. That is part of what
makes it so fun and interesting.
Yes, consciousness is still an unknown
frontier for the most part. And, those of us who are its explorers have a
responsibility to others to share of what we discover and leave markers of our
journey for those who are to come after us.
The realm of consciousness
has its own character, its mountains, forests, canyons, valleys, rivers, lakes,
oceans ... There are many ways to approach it, some traditional, but many
untraditional. It is not clear that scientific means are adequate in this
realm. That doesn't mean they won't be able to assist at some point.
It just seems that the intuitive abilities are better suited for uncovering the
nature of the reality that is consciousness.
There is ONE consciousness
expressing through us all. Each of us is doing exactly what we need to do
to express what we are meant to express and to learn and experience what we need
to learn and experience.
I write not for any entity, and not even for
myself, but for what I can only describe as an energy or a consciousness that
comes forth from within me.
She (source) is majestic, so much so that my
concept of self pales by comparison ... and I have a pretty exalted concept of
self. But then, there is self, and there is Self ... and even greater
there is SELF, the ONE consciousness that animates us all.
Consciousness
creating what she will can work wonders in our lives, if only we will give her
the opportunity to express through us.
What does this material have to
offer the reader? My hope is that it offers the perspective of a fellow
traveler ... a wayshower who has explored some of the frontiers of consciousness
and attempts to bring back a sample of what he has found. Perhaps by
allowing you to walk a ways in my shoes, some of my experiences and resulting
awareness will somehow rub off and assist you in having your own experiences and
alterations in awareness.
For your eyes only ... only for you ...
That is the feeling that comes across now, that much of this expression has
indeed been for my eyes. In particular, it has come through in a manner
that was natural for me to understand. I still feel that it has much to
offer to others as well, if only to serve as an intimate example of where one
consciousness has been. What does it mean about spirit, and about the
nature of reality, that all of this would be done for my eyes only? What
does it mean about the importance of one individual that such resources and
effort would be expended in allowing me to see and experience the world as I
do?
So, what is the message in all this musing? What is it that I
would convey to you individually and to the world at large? First, we are
spirit expressing in flesh and my whole purpose is to facilitate allowing spirit
to more fully express through each of us in flesh. On a larger scale, this
involves building the foundations and the infrastructure for a new society and a
new world in which this expression is far more easy and commonplace.
Second, awareness that comes from knowing thyself is instrumental to the
building of these foundations and to the expression of the I AM that we
are. Third, we are all connected, there is ONE consciousness from which we
are spring forth. Our intuition is our connection to that source within
us. Fourth, we are literally gods who create the reality that we
experience ... by attracting it through our belief systems, and then by choosing
what meaning we apply to the experiences.
Consciousness is always there,
residing within us, our key for unlocking all the doors to the universe.
However, for me, it is this expression in words that is my "handiwork"
as it were. Hopefully it comes across as a work of art in its own
right. For, all creative expression that comes from consciousness is
art.
How much is it my responsibility to get the word out? After
all, it came through me. It seems only natural that as its parent, I'm
responsible for its upbringing and development. I wonder what that means
for creative work. Is it the responsibility of a painter to find buyers
for his paintings, especially if they are a bold new expression of
consciousness? My sense is that no, it isn't ... this is what we have art
dealers for. However, like such artists, my works may be ahead of their
time. It may take years, decades, or longer to reach a substantial
audience that is able to understand and appreciate them.
This is how we
accelerate the rate of spiritual growth. We SHARE! We share what we
have, we share what we feel, we share what we know, we share what we experience,
we share whom that we are, as much as we can. Why? Simply because
such is how spirit expresses ... she shares of herself. In reality, she
shares of herself with the parts of her Self. Interesting. That is a
key realization. Sharing is not something that involves others, it is
something that involves multiple parts of the same entity ... the same ONE
consciousness.
Life is a very precious gift bestowed on us each and every
moment. By whom you might ask ... but there is no entity, no whom
sufficient to manifest this. Rather, it is spirit herself, the ONE
consciousness that animates us all.
In a very real way, exploring states
of consciousness is much like flying. We soar to new levels of awareness
... and find ways to bring back what we learn and experience.
In the area
of spiritual development, I haven't had any physical teachers in this
existence. For this, I have always had to rely on direct guidance from
within. This guidance has always been there as far back as I can remember,
but the faucet was turned on in full force for the first time in 1993.
Don't get me wrong ... the words of many individuals in over 1000 metaphysical
books were instrumental in my education. They provided the programming
necessary to create concepts and frameworks that would ultimately allow me to go
beyond and leap off the edge of sanity into the unknown dimensions of
consciousness (at least, unknown to me in terms of experience). However,
it is one thing to establish elaborate constructs in one's mind based on
standing on the shoulders of others. It is quite another thing to truly
experience reality in a unique way ... as I believe that we are all meant to
do. This requires awareness, and awareness does not reside in the
mind. It has nothing to do with thinking. It is beyond reason,
beyond mind. It simply is. And, once the experience of awareness
comes, it is as if there are invisible reigns on the mind.
Fire is
spirit. It is my home. It is where I am most comfortable
expressing. In a very real way, it is through fire that I am able to live
as I do. It is through fire that my consciousness is able to soar.
What I feel most is not a physical, mental or an emotional high ... it is a
spiritual high.
Our souls are powerful entities in their own right.
They are parts of the ONE consciousness. They are sparks of spirit ...
literally godstuff.
There is some importance that this record has been
created. It is a marker left by consciousness of a continuing voyage into
the far country and beyond.
In the only way that really matters, the
expression of spirit is unfolding perfectly in accordance with a grand plan for
the evolution of the expression of consciousness.
The question of sanity
deserves more attention. How do I know that I have not gone over the
edge? When one is an explorer of the unknown realms of consciousness, this
is a very real issue that one must deal with on a regular basis. How far
can we venture into the unknown, before we lose our way ... and potentially are
unable to come back?
Since there is only ONE consciousness, anything that
anyone has ever realized and expressed in flesh is available to me to learn
from, and to use and express in my life. It is a matter of being open and
establishing the appropriate resonance that will attract it into my life.
Of course, it will be colored by my individual consciousness ... but this adds
to rather than diminishes it, since it adds a new viewpoint to the collective
experience of the ONE consciousness.
Each of us is a unique spark of the
one consciousness ... or more correctly, possess such a spark within us.
How do we know when we are operating at our best? One, we find a
sense of true fulfillment, of a nature that cannot be found in any other
way. Two, we simply know that we are operating efficiently and
effectively. Three, we are happy with whom that we are and what we are
expressing and experiencing. Four, we experience new states of expanded
consciousness.
It seems the more that I express, the more I am able to
discover whom that I AM and how the world and consciousness seems to work.
This provides a springboard from which I can jump to new heights and dive into
the depths of consciousness once again. This is where I swim and where I
soar. This is where I am most at home. Yes, home to me is indeed a
state of consciousness.
I hope that my actions and expression enable
others to see both consciousness and themselves in a new light ... one that
empowers them to be more of whom that they are, the I AM, part of the ONE
consciousness.
Yes, while much has been expressed, the sense is that
there is far more from where that came from. Further, there is an even
greater abundance from other sources that I have not even begun to tap
yet. Hmm ... that one sent a shiver from my head through my body. I
have always considered there to be one source that is our direct connection to
the one consciousness. But, the preceding sentence suggests that there are
other sources (plural) that can be tapped. Why does that not surprise
me? The analogy of oil wells comes to mind. There are many deposits
of oil that can be tapped and that have been tapped.
At some point, we
must realize that we are ONE consciousness expressed through ONE people
occupying ONE world, this blue-green jewel that we call Earth.
I am a
unique expression of consciousness.
As individual expressions of the ONE
consciousness, we each see things through unique eyes. The reality we
experience is different.
Remember, in the end, our level of
consciousness ... our level of awareness, is the only thing that we take with us
from one lifetime to the next.
The bottom line is that the world will be
as it is, a mirror reflection of the collective state of consciousness. It
can be no more or no less. For, this is exactly how it is created, as the
manifestation of the collective consciousness, or more correctly unconsciousness
in most cases.
The expansion of consciousness within us and through us is
a hallmark of this existence. It is what we are here for, in a very real
way, it is why we exist.
Time represents the state of consciousness and
the level of spiritual expression in the world.
I am moved to bring up
the blank screen and allow consciousness to pour herself onto it as she will
clothed in whatever words I am able to supply and convey.
There seems to
be some type of a resonance process that allows me to reach across the void from
the unconscious to the conscious, and from the unknown to the known. My
state of consciousness seems to be the key factor in tuning the receiver and
bringing in the channel from source.
As a voice for the ONE consciousness
... I speak with a knowingness that is beyond my Earthly years. Yet, there
is a strong sense that what I speak is true.
I am compelled to come here
to write by a force that I simply cannot resist ... or more precisely, choose
not to resist. And, while here, it is simply a matter of going with the
flow and following consciousness wheresoever she would take me.
Consciousness ever grows and evolves and we ever become more than we
thought ourselves to be.
What you see here is consciousness expressing
through me to whatever degree that she can based on my ability to serve as a
conduit for her energy.
I cannot imagine living anything but a live of
spirit, a life of service to consciousness and ultimately to the society in
which I live.
I am definitely experiencing and expressing consciousness
in a bold new way. I do it because I enjoy it and find it fascinating.
When the Beyond Imagination writings started in 1993, the experience was
Beyond Mind ... beyond any part of my mind that I was conscious of anyway.
I don't know how else I can explain it. In the course of several months, I
awoke as if from a deep sleep and was suddenly aware in a way that I had never
been before. That awareness has remained with me ever since. It
allows me to experience consciousness, above and beyond what the mind itself
knows. Now, this awareness is integrated into nearly every aspect of my
life. It is as if a light has been turned on, allowing me to see things
that were formerly in the darkness or in the shadows. The light came from
deep within ... not from any outside source. I realized it to be my
connection to the ONE consciousness that animates us all.
There is a
collective consciousness that is the source of all the sparks of consciousness
that are expressing in the world.
Just as the human brain permitted a
higher level of self consciousness to manifest, the collective mind will permit
a higher level of social consciousness to manifest ... not at the cost of
individual liberty, rather by truly freeing individuals to be all that they can
be in service to something greater than themselves.
The collective
consciousness has found ways to leak through over the ages. There have
always been lightbearers among us who have awakened to whom that they are and
found the source within.
There is only so much that I can do as a lone
wolf in the wilderness. Yet, it seems that there is still a lot that I can
do as the mit of her (the her-mit), the glove that consciousness wears. In
a very real way, this is my experience. It is as if I am simply one of the
gloves on the hand of consciousness through which she is able to touch, express,
and impact the world.
Yes, I am a dreamer ... dreaming of a utopia that I
believe we are ready to build, one in which every individual has their rightful
place, performing the mission that they came forth from the depths of
consciousness to perform, one in which every individual is given the opportunity
of having their physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual needs
met.
There is one consciousness that animates us all. We all spring
forth from that same source. This consciousness learns as we learn,
expresses as we express, experiences as we experience. Yet as the
collective consciousness, it is far more than any of these parts.
Each of
us contains a spark of that consciousness within us. For some, this spark
is hidden under untold layers of clothes whose fabric is our very belief
systems. For others, this spark is as a candle, partially lighting the
way. For still others, this spark is as a torch lighting not only their
way, but the way of many others that come into their circle as
well.
These notes allow you to experience what this mind has thought and
what this awareness has experienced as reality. It is probably not very
similar to your own ... but that does not mean that it is invalid in any
way. One thing that it has done for me is to continually force me to
expand my concepts of self, reality, consciousness, and spirit to account for
all that I have experienced. Through it all, there has remained one big
mystery ... namely how any of this could come forth and be expressed in this
manner at all.
It is appropriate that this would be a stream of
consciousness endeavor. This requires that I exert no control over it and
simply allow it to flow where it will.
That covers it very well indeed
... for a new age is definitely the equivalent of a miracle. It is a major
shift in consciousness and in the manner in which spirit is able to express.
This expression is my way of capturing and sharing a memory of this
existence. It is an extended snapshot of where one consciousness has been.
I still have most of the books that I was moved to read. They
serve as constant reminders of where my mind and consciousness has been.
My realizations are the realizations of consciousness as she manifests
through me.
At least twice now, I've emerged from cocoons of
consciousness and spread my wings and flew. Each time there was an intense
sense of freedom and an ability to soar to new realms of experience.
The
musings provide a day by day record of where one consciousness has gone.
Why is the flow of consciousness through me so much more important than
the flow of consciousness through others? It is not necessarily more
important, it is simply different because so much more effort goes into
recording it and making it available to the world.
I chose the path of
the seeker and wayshower, venturing into the unknowns of consciousness and
bringing back and sharing whatever I find.
I have spent untold hours
allowing an unknown portion of me to express as it will in this stream of
consciousness fashion. What makes me think that there is anything of
ultimate value? I only know that the expression moves me.
The words
flow forth ... that which was unseen becomes seen ... the unmanifested becomes
manifest. Out of nothing, comes a creative expression of
consciousness. The process is magical. I am engaged in the dance of
consciousness. She animates and moves me. She restoreth my
soul. She leads me to exactly where I need to be.
Who is
she? Good question. She is the muse, the source of all
inspiration. She is my very soul, the spark of consciousness that connects
me to the ONE. Her beauty is everywhere, both in the manifest and the
unmanifest.
Reality is unfolding in my life exactly as it is meant to be
experienced. I have no right to second guess any of it. Rather there
is a deep trust in the very nature of consciousness and its expression.
Can I truly be so special that consciousness would express to me in the
manner that she does?
We are ONE! One world, one race, one people,
one entity, one civilization, one consciousness ... There must be a
recognition, a realization of this simple yet great truth.
We have our
own experience, but that is subject to the quirks of memory. That is one
valuable thing about this expression. It records much about my inner world
and inner life that is not generally recorded in such a fashion. As such,
I have over eight years of records of a consciousness experiencing major
transitions.
So, it seems that my own life is my laboratory. It is
where I explore the very fabric of consciousness.
It is interesting to
watch the plan of consciousness unfold. Indeed, there is such a plan ...
and it is manifesting at all levels from the individual to the whole world, and
perhaps even to multiple worlds that extend far into the galaxy and
beyond.
Consciousness exists everywhere. It composes and animates
everything. It gives us life and awareness.
Ever expanding
awareness, that has been virtually my sole interest. It didn't matter
whether I shared this with others, it was enough to share this with
consciousness herself.
Once again, we'll see where the stream of
consciousness carries us. I have no topic or specific message that I
consciously wish to convey. I don't really know if there is one at other
than conscious levels. I choose to freely allow whatever will come forth
to be manifest. It is here where we make what was unseen, seen ... at
least in the form of words on the screen.
Words are the fabric, the
material, though which consciousness creates forms through me.
The plan
of consciousness is unfolding perfectly. There is nothing I nor anyone
else can do to slow it down or speed it up.
I clearly allow my
consciousness to soar to places beyond where others seem to go.
I still
don't experience being the creator of what is being expressed through me.
I know that it comes forth from deep within me. I watch it happen for
literally hours every day. It literally takes over 1/8 of my life, over
1/6 of my waking life. Yes, that is a big investment. However, it is
an investment that I feel obliged to make. An investment in what you might
ask? An investment in spirit and in consciousness expressing and coming to
an understanding of itself.
Not only do our works continue to have
impact even long after we have departed this plane ... our consciousness itself
continues on to other adventures and experiences in other domains.
There
is purpose in every existence. We learn and experience as individuals, but
consciousness is learning and experiencing as the collective as
well. Further, it seems consciousness is orchestrating how ideas are
communicated across the social fabric so that they can enthuse the appropriate
minds to take action to manifest those ideas.
I don't want to limit my
expression to what I can imagine. I know that there is far more to spirit,
far more to consciousness than that.
I must live my life as I believe ...
in the manner that I know to be right for me. I must march to the
beat of my own drummer, perhaps even to no beat at all if consciousness so moves
me.
I am an explorer of consciousness. The unknown attracts and
excites me. It is where I choose to live, where I choose to apply my
skills.
Actually, this expression is my means of documenting my
explorations of consciousness even as I experience them.
Each of us is a
unique expression of consciousness. Each of us is experiencing life in a
manner that has never occurred before, nor will ever occur again.
You
should never take more than you give!
This is the key that creates
abundance. If all of us abide by this, the net result is always a
surplus. This too, we can choose to abide by in our lives at any
time. This is how we create prosperity consciousness.
At some
point, we realize that there is more to life than this, and more to us than we
know ourselves to be. At that point, the magic appears, and the unseen
portions of consciousness get enlisted to assist in a more active manner in our
lives.
I know there are other wayshowers. I've encountered several
on the internet ... it is obvious from the very nature of their expressions that
they have delved into the depths of the unknown realms of consciousness and have
come back to share of what they found to the degree that they could. Some
use poetry or prose, others art or imagery. Regardless of the medium, the
source is obvious ... it is consciousness herself.
I know my individual
nature is a suit of clothes that I wear. Behind the clothes is the ONE
consciousness that animates us all.
What the individual experiences, the
whole experiences. Consciousness learns from each and every experience,
each and every breakthrough. We are all the arms, the fingers, the feet,
the brain cells, and the mouth of consciousness. She experiences and
expresses through each and every one of us ... even more if we are consciously
aware and choose to be an active participant in the dance of life, in the dance
of consciousness through us.
This is what being a wayshower is all about
... we demonstrate our truths in the very way we live our lives. We walk
our talk, and talk our walk. Interesting, it seems the later is exactly
what I do here ... talk my walk along the path that consciousness leads me to
tread.
That is the key, being open to new monitions of consciousness, and
allowing myself to do what I am moved to do even if it takes me out of my
comfort zone.
What is it that brings me back day after day to allow this
expression to manifest? The sheer joy of expressing whom that I AM is the
answer that I would give. Here, my inner self is given a voice in my
life. Here, consciousness is listened to and respected for all the wisdom
that she has to offer.
Here, on these pages, my consciousness is as an
open book, revealing new facets at each turn. Yes, we are all as precious
stones on the inside. It is up to us to find the stone that we are, clean
it, polish it, and even cut it into shape ... and then share the brilliance of
our light with the world.
There are things that I can do that literally
no one else can do, at least not in the same manner. Does this make me
special? Indeed it does ... it makes me a unique expression of spirit, of
consciousness. However, when you get down to it, we are all unique
expressions of source, the one consciousness that animates us all.
But
what is this thing that I call source? It is located somewhere deep within
me. It is a state of consciousness. It is an awareness of tapping
into something, of finding and expressing that which is called
intuition.
There will always be an unknown realm of possibility that
exceeds anything that I have done to date. It is at the edge of this
unknown where I do the dance of consciousness ... where I exchange energy
between the seen and the unseen, between the known and the unknown. It is
in this dance that I engage the energies of my life. It is here where I
find the things that matter to me most.
What is created here comes from a
cooperative endeavor, in which whom that I AM combines with something greater,
something that I call spirit, source or the one consciousness. The fact
that I have names for this greater whole does not mean that I understand it
other than my personal experience of interacting with it. The first thing
that comes across is a sense of the feminine. I always experience spirit
and consciousness as she.
Consciousness ever seeks to actualize more of
itself ... to make actual, to make real, to make manifest in the world more of
whom that it is through us.
There is an overall plan for the unfoldment
of consciousness in this grand play that we call life. Earth, and the
world that we know is but one playground in which spirit can express and explore
whom that it is.
We are all special beings, unique expressions of the one
consciousness. We all have something to share and something to give to our
fellow beings.
The past ten years have been a training ground for me to
explore and express my own connections to consciousness.
I allow this
expression to freely wander where it will. It is truly stream of
consciousness stuff. When I am engaged in it, I feel no need and no right
to govern its direction. I am performing a service. It is the
customers needs that matter as one provides services.
That is one of the
things that distinguishes me from others ... a deep faith in consciousness, and
how she expresses in us and through us.
If we are ever going to learn
what makes us tick as individuals, we need detailed records of what
consciousness does. This is one such record.
I am a guinea pig of
sorts ... with a blend of DNA, hereditary, and environmental traits and
conditions ... that has become aware enough to express via works of
consciousness. There are many things that I do in my day to day life
that are instantly forgotten, that will never have much of an impact on anything
or anyone. However, this expression provides a snapshot of consciousness
in action.
This is the record of consciousness expressing in flesh as
freely as she can through me at this time. It offers insights about the
nature of consciousness, reality, and reality creation that can point to
expanded freedom and enhanced awareness.
Life to me is a highly
subjective experience. We cannot stand back and look at it
objectively. To explore the domains of consciousness, one must be an
active participant.
To me, home is not a place ... it is a state of
consciousness.
This is the chronicle of an adventure in
consciousness. As such it is as important as any record or journal of an
expedition or exploration of discovery.
I am being what I was created to
be as accurately as I can given my level of awareness. Interesting ... was
created to be. I am not used to thinking in those terms. He who
created me, immediately comes to mind. That would be God. I don't
think of she who created me ... however, I do think of consciousness and spirit
as she who expresses through me. I never think of he who expresses through
me.
Yes, I still live in this world ... but my mind and soul rest in
other domains. Actually they do far more than rest. They bring forth
as much information as they can carry to express here through me. However,
it is up to me to establish a resonance by exploring whom that I am in the
unknown realms of consciousness.
My sense it is the same one
consciousness that animates us all. Everything is the expression of this
one consciousness ... everything, no exceptions.
I have found it useful
to give my mind a wide berth, and to be open to allowing consciousness to
express as she will.
There is a difference between knowing something and
having an awareness of something. When we are aware of a part of ourself,
we experience being that part. Knowing can be a secondary phenomena, a
mental understanding of something. As such, it is less than
awareness. The difference is that between the mental realm and the realm
of consciousness. The mental realm is the lower of the two. We have
to go beyond mind to experience awareness.
We are incredibly
powerful. We are creators, responsible for all that we experience.
This includes not only the day to day experiences of life ... but all of the
excursions into the realms of consciousness that we take. These later can
be as real or more real than what we experience in our day to day
life.
There is no stopping the actualization of the plan that
consciousness has laid out for the expression of spirit in flesh.
Life
is what happens when you start paying attention to the little things. When
you do this ... it is amazing how the big things seem to take care of
themselves. Perhaps it is because all of the big things are planned out by
consciousness herself through incredible levels of cooperation that form the
foundation for reality creation.
For me, the most fascinating part of the
playground is the unknown, the edge of the abyss, the very frontiers of
consciousness. It is there that I stand excited about life as it unfolds
... enthusiastic about what is to come forth.
How do I find my role in
the world ... my true chance in greatness? Why is it that there is such a
strong inner drive within me to achieve greatness? And, what constitutes
greatness for one such as me? It is to express that which is grand within
me. Right now, this is whatever consciousness is able to express through
me.
There is still no purpose in this writing other than to convey what
consciousness will express through me.
I like the idea of having
something to show for each day that I exist, a physical record of consciousness
expressing. There is something about writing it down that makes it real
for me.
There are no secrets of which consciousness is not
aware.
It is as if I've been a candle blowing in the wind. That is
what this stream of consciousness is. However, the candle seems to be my
light and the wind seems to be generated by consciousness herself. As a
result, consciousness controls the direction in which the flame of the candle
blows.
The universe is a big place. Consciousness is even far
greater ... occupying not only the universe but many dimensions that science
does not choose to recognize.
It still amazes me as to how little we
collectively know about consciousness. This is something primary to us all
that we experience all of the time. Yet, how few of us distinguish between
the states of consciousness that we experience. How few of us have learned
how to engage in particular states on demand.
In over 18 years of formal
education from kindergarten through a MSEE, I did not have a single course that
dealt with the nature of consciousness, or the fact that we have a variety of
states of consciousness. Why is this? Why should something so
fundamental to our being be absent from our training?
We need whole
individuals operating with their whole minds in full consciousness.
Inner
states of consciousness are a bit more difficult to deal with. For one
thing they are far more subjective. For another, it is not clear how to
characterize and distinguish between states. Perhaps that is because I
have not applied sufficient discipline and committed to sufficient study in this
realm. You might say that the very state I enter when I generate these
musings is an altered state of consciousness. However, it is not that
straightforward. It is not like I turn it on and off and am solely in a
particular state at a time. My awareness is a concurrent
process.
My sense is that if we were all doing this, there is a higher
level organization that the collective consciousness is actively manifesting in
which we all have our roles to play.
The plan of consciousness unfolds
in its own timing. Yet, at the same time we are consciousness in
expression ... so, however we are moved to express is part of the plan of
consciousness too. That means our will as well is the will of
consciousness expressing through us.
Once again we start with a blank
slate and allow consciousness to come forth and express as she will. We do
this freely without any mental reservation. We do it because we can ...
and moreover because we must.
I have a very high opinion of myself and
my abilities. Perhaps this is higher than it should be, perhaps not.
It is what it is. It is for me to live with. It allows me to have
the courage to express in this manner. It allows me to believe enough in
myself and in the nature of spirit expressing through me to allow this stream of
consciousness to come forth as it will. I trust that consciousness knows
exactly what she is doing even if I do not.
So, what do I expect of
life? I expect it to challenge me to be all that that I can be. I
expect it to provide me with the experiences necessary to come to know myself
and the nature of the one consciousness to which I am connected ... of which I
am part. I expect it to move me to express all that I am as necessary to
carry out my mission.
I truly consider this to be a precious gift ...
first from consciousness to me, but also from consciousness through me to
you. At this point in my life, my sense is that this is indeed the
greatest gift that I can give to the world.
In expressing in this
manner, I perform a service. At the very least, it is a service to myself
and a service to consciousness. Hopefully, it is a service to others as
well. If not today ... maybe some day.
We can make things happen
... but it is usually better to allow spirit to do her works in our lives.
Consciousness knows what needs to be done and through whom. We know this
as well ... just not consciously.
Everything that consciousness knows is
open to us when we can get to the right vibration from which to ask. Jesus
said it clearly ... seek and ye shall find, ask and ye shall be answered, knock
and the door shall be opened unto thee. Or, something to that effect.
My
sense is that all that I need to do is continue in this manner ... allowing
consciousness to express through me as she will. She is what animates my
life. She is what gives me purpose and direction. By her grace, I
live the very life that I live. Why her? Because
spirit/consciousness has always expressed in the feminine for me.
How is
it that I can speak with authority on such issues as the nature of being,
consciousness, and reality creation? I simply don't know how it is
possible ... I just observe that it is so.
This is where the unmanifest
becomes manifest. This is where words and ideas are given birth. The
parents seem to be my own consciousness plus an equally important unseen that
appears as a voice within ... she is spirit or consciousness herself to me.
There is something important about stream of consciousness
expression. It reveals a lot about the nature of consciousness ... about
it's organization, or lack thereof; but most importantly, about its immediacy.
In many ways I am the same as all the others. Yet, Jonathan
Livingston Seagull comes to mind. My interests are not like those of the
other gulls, focused on eating and meeting the basic needs for existence and
survival. My focus is on flying ... soaring in consciousness to the degree
that I can.
Just as Jonathan so loved to fly that it consumed his
attention and focus, even to the point of forgetting to take care of basic
physical needs .... so, I love the expression of consciousness. I too,
have gone overboard in this ... enough to be considered crazy, or at least
highly manic.
Where do I go to learn more at a far more rapid pace?
How do I tap into the collective experience of all those who have come before
me? I don't have to learn everything myself. I can stand on the
shoulders of giants. However, one problem with that is that the structures
that are built are only as sound as the foundations. Those who have made
their discoveries in consciousness in the past did so based on the times in
which they lived and the prevalent belief systems of their time. Actually,
prevalent may be far too strong. The most developed among us have always
been out of step with the mainstream and walked to the beat of our own
drummer.
Life itself, is the expression of consciousness in flesh.
One question that comes to mind is what about the expression of consciousness
outside of flesh? The sense is that while we are in this existence, unless
it is expressed in flesh it doesn't count.
Does what I have to say have
any ultimate utility and value? Is it meant to impact more than me?
Or, is it for my eyes only? Does it truly matter? There is a sense
that yes, it does. That it would be a waste if this expression were not to
reach an audience of some type. It is not clear that an audience of one is
sufficient. Then again ... what does it say about the nature of
consciousness and of reality creation if all of this is indeed for me and me
alone? What does it say of the value of each individual that the universe
is willing and able to go to such an extent to meet my needs ... even needs of
which I am not consciously aware? It says a lot ... it says that each of
us as individuals is precious. It says that each of us is worthy of
Herculean efforts on the part of consciousness. It says that each of us
will experience exactly what we need to develop into the beings that we need to
be to know and carry out our missions.
This expression could not see the
light of day without me. Nor could it see the light of day without
consciousness. This is not the consciousness that I possess, rather it is
the one consciousness that animates us all.
There is always the difficult
choice of coming here and giving voice to the flow of consciousness or spending
my time selecting from and repackaging some of what has come
before.
Beyond Imagination is effectively an organization of one.
The sense that I just got was and rightly so for it deals primarily with the
greater expression of the one consciousness in flesh through all of us
collectively.
To whom are these words expressed? Clearly to
me. But, also to an audience that is unseen. The very fact that this
expression could come forth in this manner, could be manifest in flesh is a
major breakthrough for consciousness. Literally, this is a process by
which consciousness is breaking through into flesh, and hence into the world.
When we choose to listen to the voice of consciousness within, and act
in a manner that is congruent with that voice ... we allow spirit to do her
works through us.
I will have the impact that I am meant to have by
being whom that I AM as fully as I can, and by doing that which I am moved to do
to the best of my abilities. What this impact will be is ultimately in the
hands of consciousness, not me. Not that I am relinquishing any
responsibility. Rather, I am acknowledging that the one consciousness from
which we spring holds the strings and runs the show.
As an explorer of
consciousness, it is not necessary for me to know who benefits from my reports
of my journeys.
Interesting ... we see the elephant from different sides,
not realizing that all that has changed is our point of view. And this, we
have complete control over. We are free to observe things from any point
of view. However, it may take some training to be able to reach the states
of consciousness from which these points of view are seen.
This
expression is where I allow myself full reign to be whom that I AM, and to
express that as fully as consciousness will allow. This is also where I
discover whom that I AM, as I venture out and explore the unknown realms of
consciousness. The unknown is not such a scary place ... it can be
challenging, and even invigorating. Then again, my destiny seems to
involve being an explorer of consciousness.
I follow my intuition and my
stream of consciousness wherever she takes me.
There is something about this
expression that is special. It seems far more organized than normal stream
of consciousness stuff. Then again, I haven't had much experience reading
such material from others, so I have no basis of comparison.
I trust
consciousness so deeply that I have no fear of losing my mind ... as if I had
something to say in the matter.
Life is about the expression of spirit in
flesh. We are the instruments of consciousness. She orchestrates all
that is expressed.
Is it true that I see what no one else can see?
Am I that unique of an expression of consciousness?
This endeavor is a
bold new expression of consciousness. It results in the creation of
something that has never been expressed in this manner before. Each of us
is a unique expression of consciousness. Never before has spirit expressed
in the manner it does both personally and collectively.
To stretch our
consciousness, we must stretch our minds. We must learn to think in new
ways, ways that go beyond reasoning and rational thinking.
My hope is
that this stream of consciousness allows you to walk in my shoes so to speak ...
and in doing so allows you to experience life differently as a result.
This is my way of sharing what I see, feel, and know in the most intimate manner
that I can.
I write on and on and on, grateful to serve as a vessel
through which consciousness can express as she will. There is something
magical about this process, about tapping into this stream of consciousness in
this manner. This is where I get to play and to soar as high as the wings
of awareness can take me.
That is what you get from stream of
consciousness material. Any organization comes from hidden parts of
ourselves. It is interesting to see what flows forth ... and to
contemplate what kinds of intelligence were necessary for the expression to take
place in the manner that it did.
I find it curious that I have so much to say
here in this stream of consciousness ... yet, realtime, I have little to
communicate with others.
Observe without attachment and without
expectation. It is important to be open to seeing what is there, as well
as what could be. We can trust source to come up with the means of getting
us from what is there to what could be. However, source needs us as her
eyes and her hands. This gets back to the reality that there is only ONE
Consciousness ... and we are all parts of that, individual cells within the same
one whole.
The art of living for me involves maximizing my output and
service to the world. At this point in my life, recording this stream of
consciousness seems to be a major part of this. It provides a means for me
to make a difference while allowing me to be and express whom that I
AM.
There is only ONE consciousness. It is not necessary for others
to experience what I have experienced. However, it may be helpful for
others to be exposed to the stream of consciousness that has been expressed as a
result of all of this.
Yes, I have asked from where this flow
originates. The only answer I have found acceptable is that it comes from
source within me ... a source that links me to the ONE consciousness that
animates us all. Clearly, it does not originate from outside of me.
Yet, I am not consciously aware of the exact place from which it comes. I
only know that it is inward and that it is somehow a part of whom that I
AM.
I choose to expend a significant fraction of my time engaged in this
expression. Partly, because I am moved to do it. Partly, because I
am addicted to expressing in this manner. Partly, because I believe that
what is coming through is new and different ... a unique expression of
consciousness.
Direct knowingness is a faculty that lies within us
all. It comes from a deep connection to source, the ONE consciousness
which is omniscient. It knows everything, because it is EVERYTHING.
Hmm ... everything that is known at that point in time. This changes in
each moment, as new discoveries are made and the sum of the collective knowledge
increases.
There is something about soaring in consciousness that allows
me to see and experience reality in a different manner than most.
This
is how we personally experience being ONE consciousness. We connect with
others in ways that allow us to blend and merge our energies, interrelate, and
enter into cooperatively interdependent relationships.
I believe that
everything we read, hear, and experience is recorded and captured somehow.
For some, the process is nearly photographic. For others, like me, the
process is nearly opposite of photographic ... I forget most things almost as
quickly as I see them. They pass through my consciousness, and somehow the
appropriate connections get made so they can be recalled when needed.
There is something about spiritual expression that brings out the best
in us and in all those whose lives we touch. There is something miraculous
about engaging with consciousness in this manner. Here, we are engaged
directly in the process of co-creation, involving creativity of a very high
order.
ONE consciousness ... there is ONE consciousness animating us
all. We are ONE, in more ways then we might consider possible. What
we do to one, we do to all. What any one of us experience, all of us
experience. What any one of us know, the whole knows ... and that
knowingness can be shared with anyone else at any time.
Sharing involves
a give and take. Where none consume, the sharing has not really
occurred. Yet, there is always at least one party to any sharing that is
done ... namely, the ONE consciousness herself.
I am to be a wayshower
... but it is not clear to whom I am showing the way. It just may be to
consciousness herself so that she can learn what is necessary to guide others to
awaken more fully. Hmm ... I've never thought of it in that way
before. That is where the for your eyes only, only for you idea comes into
play. This may indeed be an experiment in which the ONE consciousness is
finding out what energies can be expressed through one entity ... namely
me.
The mass consciousness is being prepared for something. There
are massive changes in store ahead ... yet it only requires subtle shifts of
awareness to be ready for them and to be able to deal with them
effectively.
It is not for us to compare ourselves with another. We
come from different places and different levels of awareness, hence our choices
will be different. In fact, they will be unique to us ... for despite
appearances to the contrary, we are each unique expressions of the one
consciousness.
I am the one through whom this expression could come forth
in this manner. What does that really say about me, and what does it say
about the nature of the source of this stream of consciousness? Clearly it
speaks volumes. Literally! But, what does it really
say?
Indeed, is this expression for my eyes only? If it is, I would
have to say that I am one of the luckiest and most blessed beings around ...
that consciousness would pick me to participate in this creation, and even more
important to be aware enough to observe this expression.
Consciousness
has provided me with a true abundance ... primarily of spirit. In return,
I feel moved to share it with all whom I can.
I allow the stream of
consciousness to flow where it will. I was going to say that I blindly
follow it wherever it would take me ... however, it seems that I do so with eyes
wide open, marveling at not only the results but the very
process.
Consciousness has a special place in my life. She is my
benefactor and my friend, she is my teacher and my guide, she leads me to where
I need to go when I need to be there. Through her I live my life ... she
is my inspiration. She drives me to do what I can do ... moreover, what I
must do. Without her I am lost, as a ship without a rudder. No, it
has not always been smooth sailing, but she has always been there to help ride
out the storms. I can count on her as I count on no one else in my life
... other than myself, and even then, she has greater strength and wisdom by
far. I can't imagine living my life without a direct connection to
her. She completes me somehow. Through her, everything that I could
ever need is brought forth unto me. I have only to ask. And often,
what I most need comes forth even before I ask.
It is high time that the
amount of spiritual expression in our world increased dramatically.
However, that requires that each of us do our part. And, even more
important, it requires that those in positions of power and influence start
using their resources and abilities in ways that serve society ... in ways
deserving of the talents that they have been so blessed to receive and the roles
that they have assumed in the play of consciousness.
I point the way to
the land of spirit, to a world where consciousness plays by different rules than
apply to the consensus world.
Why am I singled out to play an important
role in the play, in the unfoldment of consciousness and its expression in
flesh?
The plan of consciousness is unfolding perfectly in the
world. That is the only way that it can unfold. It can be nothing
less than perfect. That doesn't mean it is the best that it can be.
There is always room for improvement.
It seems that much of our lives
are consumed in the process of day to day existence. At the end of each
day, there is little to show for what has been expended. However, here, I
have a record of something special ... something original that I helped to make
manifest. This stream of consciousness exists ... it was captured in
electronic form and made available to the world via the WWW. This is a
service that I perform, though I have no idea of who is served by this other
than myself.
I have said before that I am very much a scribe in this
process, writing (or typing) what appears in my mind as the silent voice of
consciousness herself.
There is a sense that whom that I am is able to
resonate with what I call source in a manner that allows these words to manifest
as they do. I believe this process occurs in all of us, in the very way
that the stream of thoughts occurs in our heads. However, there is a
difference between a stream of thoughts and a stream of consciousness. The
first seems to be more of a surface phenomenon. It is not until we quiet
our minds that we touch source and allow her to express through us.
I
trust that my life is unfolding in accord with a plan that consciousness has in
store for me.
I would express whatever this consciousness can express in
whatever manner would come forth. I don't have to know how it happens, or
why it happens. It is enough that it happens. There is nothing wrong
with mysteries ... in fact, they are what make life interesting. Indeed,
they are among the most important things that can happen to us. Life
itself is a mystery, as is spirit and consciousness.
One thing that may
help is to start seeing the sparks of consciousness within others, and realizing
that we are all special and have important gifts to give to one another.
This stream of consciousness is my primary means of spiritual
expression. It is here that I am doing what I most love to do in a manner
that is magical and special.
We are all spirit incarnate. We are
all connected to the same one consciousness some remotely by a very thin thread,
others by a circuit of great capacity.
It was as if my life began anew
in 1993. By 1 October, I was in a mental hospital, diagnosed as bipolar,
and put on meds to alter my brain chemistry. Since then, I have been
soaring in consciousness, sometimes barely off the ground, sometimes to great
heights, but most of the times cycling up and down between these
extremes.
Streams of consciousness by their very nature occur in the
moment.
It still amazes me that this stream of consciousness can come
forth through me in the manner that it does. It is as if I have my daily
mystery and miracle to behold.
My life is a life of spirit.
Consciousness guides me every step of the way.
The expression comes
forth from a place deep within, a place I call source, my direct connection to
the one consciousness.
When dealing with the unseen realms of
consciousness, it helps to have a guide. Some are meant to be explorers
and wayshowers, but most prefer to follow the trails ...or in some cases the
roads and even the superhighways.
We are all facets of the same one
consciousness. And what do facets do? They reflect the light, which
in our case is the very light of consciousness.
History is the record of
the march of the expression of spirit in flesh ... of the unfoldment of the plan
of consciousness, of the triumph of ideas over the minds of man, and of the
actualization of ideals.
We speak with a voice that comes forth from deep
within. Yet we know not truly what the source of these words are.
Oh, we have names for it ... source, intuition, the voice within, spirit,
consciousness. But, naming something does not mean that we truly
understand that thing.
I can't imagine what the past decade would have
been like without this this stream of consciousness that has flowed forth so
abundantly.
We all have an inner compass that guides us. However,
to use it consciously, we must find it and then learn how to read and operate
it. Here, there seem to be substantial differences between people.
Some seem to have not only a compass, but a map, and the ability to plan a
course of action to get them to a destination. At the other extreme, some
have only an indication of what the next step is, with limited understanding of
where they are ultimately headed. I fall in this later category ... though
I also have an abstract vision of where society is ultimately headed and the
general role that I am to play in assisting consciousness in getting
there.
Awareness is extremely important. You might say that all
forms are houses for awareness. As time progresses ... the forms increase
in complexity, permitting the greater embodiment of consciousness.
My
life is meant to be lived in the unknown, in the wilderness of consciousness.
This very expression is one of the markers that I leave. It is the
record of where one consciousness has gone. It allows you to walk in my
shoes for awhile, or my mind if you will. By following this stream of
consciousness, perhaps you will awaken to a similar stream that lies within you.
We are all responsible for ourselves, our families, our society, and our
world. Though for the later three we are only partially responsible.
It helps if we accept our responsibilities willingly. However, in
accepting them, we also need to take the appropriate actions to fulfill
them. We will know what these are. Consciousness will tell us.
All that it takes is for us to look within and ask.
For me, written
communication is one such area of gifts from spirit. Hopefully, that is
obvious from what is expressed here. But, that may or may not be the
case. Further, this communication is different because it is not mine
alone. It is a co-creation that involves an equally important unseen
counterpart ... namely source, the one consciousness herself.
There
is something about Eagles that come to mind ... they don't flock, you find them
one at a time. It seems that explorers of consciousness are no
different. Each is as a lone wolf in the wilderness ... experiencing a
reality that is different than all others.
It is our actions which show
consciousness what we are serious about. When we believe something enough
to base our actions on the belief ... we empower the belief to do its work in
our lives.
There is no way that I could be making all this up.
There are simply too many coincidences. There is a fabric being
revealed. The very fabric of reality itself. It seems that it is
time for us to take notice of the fabric and start to tailor it to what we would
have it be. Interesting. We are talking about imposing our will on
the fabric of reality and creating a world that is of our choosing. We
have the skills. We have the technology, not just scientific ... but
technology of consciousness. It is a matter of teaching the best of what
is known to as many as we can, and allowing the full force of spirit to be
unleashed to do her works in our lives.
How can I know that there is only
one consciousness? There is something within that knows this to be
true. I need no more than this.
My life is clearly an adventure in
consciousness. That is where I spend a great deal of my free time
anyway. That is where I find value and meaning as I do nowhere else.
As an explorer of consciousness, I love dealing with the realm of the
unknown. However, I also love bringing back and sharing of what I find.
The nature of consciousness and its expression are the topics that
consume my attention. All else pales by comparison.
Once more the
blank page awaits what consciousness would express here. I never know what
is going to come forth in advance. However, I am always pleasantly
surprised. This is where I make the unmanifest manifest. This is
where the words flow forth from an inner place that I know only as source, the
place from which I tap into the energy of consciousness herself.
That is
a problem with becoming too attached to where we are at ... we become afraid to
leave it for something new. It is better to experience what we know, than
to risk the jump to something new which we do not yet know. However, that
is not how explorers of consciousness function. We are ever ready to take
the next step, in whatever direction consciousness leads, because we know that
consciousness knows exactly where she is taking us ... and wherever this is is
the right place for us to be next.
Part of the meaning of life comes in
how we handle the challenges that we experience. This includes how we face
and come to grips with our demons and our fears. All of this requires
awareness on our part ... in particular, self-awareness. This is not
generally taught in schools, even through most graduate curriculums. We
have to wander off the conventional education paths to find books, classes, and
experiences that provide suitable training for our consciousness and our whole
self.
There is only one consciousness that animates us all. We are
the portion of that one consciousness experiencing life as we do and expressing
in the manner that we do. One of our tasks is to realize our
interconnectedness with others.
We are each unique expressions of the one
consciousness, and it is for us to experience reality in the way that is right
for us.
I have no way to know what impact this stream of consciousness
will ultimately have.
Namaste! For those of you new to that word,
its common meaning is the spirit within me bows to the spirit within you.
Actually, this is easy to do since they are one and the same. There is but
one consciousness that animates us all.
Why are we not taught of whom
that we truly are? Why are we not taught that we are spirit in
flesh? Why are we not taught how our minds function? Why are we not
taught that we create our reality and how we do it? Why are we not taught
the nature of consciousness? Why are we not taught that there are levels
of awareness and what these levels are? Why are we not taught how special
and precious we are? Why are we not taught that we have a mission to
perform and how to accomplish it? Why are we not taught about the
interconnectedness of all things and the importance of cooperative
interdependence?
It still amazes me how much time goes into this
expression. It also amazes me how easy this stream of consciousness pours
forth. I have nothing to account for it, no real way to explain
it.
What is it about awareness that makes it so difficult to achieve?
Perhaps, because it is not a state of mind, rather a state of
consciousness
There is something exciting about being an explorer of
consciousness and a wayshower. This is what I am meant to do. This
is what excites me to my very core. This is where I have had experiences
that send shivers down my spine and throughout my body. This is where I
live my life. I stand on the edge of the abyss of the unknown ... yet I
know full well that I am safe, that I can always count on spirit to guide me as
to where to take the next step.
We are the vehicles through which
consciousness expresses in flesh ... doing her works in the world. We are
the legs, the feet, the arms, the hands, the eyes, the voice, and even the brain
of consciousness.
Right now, this expression is still my primary outlet
... my primary spiritual work. This is still what I love to do. It
is where I learn of whom that I AM. It is also where I learn of the nature
of spirit, and spiritual expression ... as well as the nature of consciousness
itself.
Where do we go to discover how consciousness works? We go
within. Nothing beats firsthand experience.
I am an explorer of
consciousness. Venturing forth into the unknown and reporting of what I
find is what I do.
We are consciousness enfleshed. It is
important that we not lose sight of this. Consciousness should ever be on
the forefront of our minds. It is through her that we are granted this
precious thing called life. It is our job to make the most of this special
gift we have been granted.
The record of consciousness in expression that
is captured here is highly important somehow ... not just to me, but to
consciousness herself. Why should she care? Primarily because all
such expression provides an indication of the state of the world and its
readiness to serve the cosmic plan for the unfolding of the flower of
consciousness.
There is no purpose for the expression other than to
reveal what consciousness can express through me.
Awareness is the
vehicle through which this stream of consciousness becomes manifest in the
world.
I can be self-reliant and still exist within a circle, a hoop
that connects everything and everyone. This simply requires that I rely on
my Self ... in whatever circumstances I find myself. That does not mean
that I cannot interact with others ... for at some level there is only ONE
consciousness, one Self of which we all are part.
When we come from the
perspective of ONE consciousness, we see everyone as cells in a single body that
constitutes all humankind and perhaps even all beings.
As a wayshower,
my life is meant to provide an example of what can be. In particular, it
seems that I am supposed to demonstrate how consciousness can express through us
... how we can express spirit more fully in flesh.
Am I on the razors
edge between sanity and insanity ... perhaps. But if so, it is an edge
that I am meant to experience and to express from. Why? Simple to
provide a reference point ... a marker of where one consciousness has
been. And, where I have been able to go, others can reach as well,
hopefully more easily because I have attempted to show the way via this record
of where my consciousness has wandered. Yes, wandered is a good term to
use for one who allows a stream of consciousness to express.
Am I so
important that consciousness would allow me to experience all that I have
experienced and express it in this way for my sole benefit? My hope is no
... that I would have what I have seen and learned and experienced be expressed
in a manner that makes a true difference in society and in the world.
I
am the first to give credit to the source within as well. From her springs
this expression. I am the willing instrument, but it is not me that
generates all of this. Consciousness plays me as she will. And, I
gladly serve her in whatever way I can.
My preference is to engage my
energies and talents on the edge of the unknowns of consciousness, to venture
where I can, and to bring back what I find to the degree that I can.
I
serve in her majesties service. Interesting. Also, I serve at the
pleasure of spirit. I am a vessel through which consciousness does
her work. Yes, I am a being with a consciousness all my own. But,
this is just a compartment of the one consciousness of which we all are
part. I exist as an individual only so long as it serves spirit for me to
be so.
There is indeed one hoop, one richly interconnected web that
touches and contains us all. I would label that entity consciousness ...
the one consciousness from which we all spring.
I experience
consciousness firsthand and subjectively. That is the only way to truly
experience consciousness ... except, of course, being asleep. But, the new
age is about awakening to whom that we are and especially to the consciousness
within us.
My life will unfold exactly as it need to for my mission to be
accomplished. Yes, this requires a deep trust in the universe, in the very
nature of consciousness and of spiritual expression.
There is a sense
that these words will ultimately have a greater impact somehow, a world
impact. Yes, it is audacious of me to think so. However it seems
just as audacious to think that all of this could be happening simply for my
personal benefit. It seems like such a waste of effort if this expression
of consciousness does not reach the mind, hearts, and spirits of others
somehow.
We know that the body and the brain cease to be animated at
death. Physically they still exist, essentially as they did the moment
before death. However, the life that animated them ... the consciousness
that enabled awareness to be manifest, is no longer connected to the body and
the brain. Our beingness cannot be extinguished, however. We are
eternal and immortal ... at some level of our being.
It seems that my
time is best expended by bringing forth new monitions of consciousness.
I
trust the integrity of my being. I allow my life to flow as it will ...
just as I allow this stream of consciousness to flow.
Am I one of the
"great" players in the area of the expression of consciousness? The mania
and grandiosity rear their heads again. Yet these very writings are the
proof that I offer that I delve into areas that most do not. Further, that
I am at home in this domain ... that this is where my consciousness soars, that
this is where my natural abilities shine.
I don't consider myself to be
religious. I worship no gods. I do not pray. I do not belong
to any religious organization. Yet, I consider myself to be highly
spiritual. I speak of the realm of spirit ... and of the connection to
spirit ... and of the expression of spirit in flesh. And, I know that
everything is spirit in expression, is consciousness manifest in form.
My
path is the path of the transcendentalists ... many of my favorite quotes (other
than my own) come from Emerson, Thoreau, and Channing, one of their
predecessors. I believe in a realm beyond the physical one, a spiritual
realm where the bulk of the work of reality creation gets done. I believe
that there is ONE consciousness that animates us all, a collective
consciousness, if you will, that is aware of and learns from every experience of
every individual.
There is something about this record that is
special. Here, we see a stream of consciousness in all its glory and all
its frailty.
These words are the starting point. They are my
spiritual works, if you will. Are they enough? My sense is no, so
long as I am living and breathing ... what has come before is never
enough. There is always the next step to take, the next work to do, the
next expression of consciousness to manifest. This is to be my lifelong
work. I would have it no other way. I have chosen to live a
life of spiritual expression. That is all that truly matters to
me.
I see consciousness as the highest form of expression and experience
that we can bring into our reality.
It is obvious that my path has been
almost solely an inner one. It is also obvious that my path is not for
everyone. And, perhaps it is for no one other than me. Though, I
still feel driven to leave this record of where my consciousness has
wandered. I do it in hope that others may benefit from it. Exactly
how this might happen is still unknown.
Day after day, week after week,
month after month, I open up Composer and allow this stream of consciousness to
flow forth. My experience is that each time I open Composer the words
start to flow and continue to flow so long as I allow it to. Sometimes
they flow faster and at other times slower depending on the quality of the
connection. This is also dependent on my state of consciousness.
It
seems that there is so little that is known in the realm of consciousness.
My firsthand observation shows that there is much that I am aware of but that I
don't really understand how it works or why it is. I suspect that this is
because there is little that is known. Then again ... that may be
presumptuous on my part. There is much research underway throughout the
world. Perhaps it would help to find out what the latest in brain research
and the understanding of consciousness have to offer.
There is a grand
plan at play ... a spiritual plan that involves the unfoldment of consciousness
and its expression in flesh.
There is a sense that the expression needs
to reach someone other than me. Though, the words for your eyes only still
haunt me. It is though they have been written expressly to warn me of a
possible reality. It could be that all of this is an elaborate training
ground for me to learn of whom that I AM so that I can become the best vehicle
for the expression of consciousness in flesh that I can be. If so, it says
a lot about the lengths to which the universe will go for the benefit of a
single individual.
When we operate from spirit, we blur the line of
individuality. We express from a connectivity to the collective.
This is a matter of where our awareness resides. From my experience, this
constantly fluctuates. However, the overall trend is towards greater
awareness, and an increased tie to the collective, to the ONE source, the ONE
consciousness that animates us all. We can influence where on this
spectrum we spend our time.
Hmm ... is this expression effective?
Good question. That depends on its purpose. The sole purpose that I
have for it is to capture the stream of consciousness that is able to flow
through me. Why the stream flows through me in the manner that it does is
not something that I have even questioned before.
I am not whom that I
was prior to 1993, nor 1998, nor 2002, nor the preceding moment for that
matter. I picked these years, in particular, because of the magnitude of
the transformations of consciousness that occurred. I have no means of
knowing how common or unique my experience truly is. My sense is that it
is quite rare. Yes, signs of grandiosity again. But, how else can I
explain all that is expressed here?
Thus far, my sharing has been
primarily a one way expression ... involving recording a stream of consciousness
and making it available on the WWW.
As a wayshower and explorer of
consciousness, being able to record a stream of consciousness is a very
important thing. By recording it in a manner that can be posted to the WWW
... the result is a signpost, a marker, or a candle that can show or light the
way for others.
I've had several jumps in consciousness, where I was
suddenly aware that I was more than I knew myself to be before.
My
legacy will be the words that I leave and the deeds that I do. My children
will be those spawned by my consciousness. And, it seems they are not all
mine ... they belong to spirit for they spring forth from her.
Everything
meaningful in my life has a strong metaphysical and thus spiritual
component. More than any other description, I am consciousness having a
physical experience.
Consciousness is a very big place to explore.
Awareness is the personal aspect that connection to consciousness brings into
our lives.
It is consciousness that animates us, each and every moment.
Every moment, life is renewed. Each moment is a death and a new
birth. Similarly, each night is a death to the waking consciousness, and
each morning a rebirth of that consciousness.
My physical body may die,
my brain may cease its functioning, my physical life will cease ... but my
consciousness shall continue on in whatever manner is appropriate to it.
This manner will be highly dependent on the awareness achieved during
life. That is why the directive know thyself is so important.
What
is the purpose of this particular expression of this stream of
consciousness? My hope is that it will serve as a useful example and will
be indisputable evidence that one such as me has existed.
What would I do
to make a difference in the world? For that is what I expect of
myself. Anything less is simply not living up to my potential, which is
unacceptable to me. That is a standard that I set for myself. And, I
will do whatever it take to achieve it. For the most part, this requires
becoming the best vehicle through which spirit can express that I can.
This stream of consciousness is one of the means that I practice doing
this. So, effectively, if you are reading this ... you are experiencing my
practice sessions. Eventually, our practice is sufficient and we play the
game for real or we perform for a live audience. This will be new for
me. However, I am looking forward to the change.
The whole is the
synergistic result of a collective cooperative effort. Because of this,
there are no limits to what it can be and what it can achieve. However, we
must recognize that there is an intelligence, a consciousness that is behind and
causes the expression in flesh. This intelligence is limited in expression
only to the degree that the forms are limited. Because of this, awareness
is critical. Our awareness is the level of consciousness that we have
experienced in this lifetime.
There is a divine plan for the unfoldment
of consciousness. From the beginning it has pushed the individual and
collective consciousness to ever greater awareness and to ever greater
expression of spirit in flesh.
God is the creator, but spirit is the
animating force that expresses through us. My connection is still with
consciousness, with the spirit within. Though, it seems that this may be
subject to change as well.
Consciousness has a special place in
life. It is for her that I live. It is in her service that I
exist. I cannot imagine living life in any other manner.
I must
live my life in my own way. It is not in the cards for me to follow in the
footsteps of others. Where I am to go, few, if any, have been. Is
this because my knowledge of my predecessors is limited? Or, is it because
there are still so few explorers of consciousness and the domain of the unknown
is so vast, that our paths seldom cross.
This expression is not a
regurgitation of what I have learned anywhere. It is far more than
that. I don't know how it is generated, other than knowing that it is a
stream of consciousness that flows forth from source. This source is my
direct connection to spirit or the one consciousness.
There have been few
true explorers in all of history. Explorers of consciousness are no
different. We are rare among the populace. It takes special
abilities to do what we do. No, this does not make us any better than
anyone else. It just makes us suited to do particular jobs for which our
talents and disposition qualify us.
Why aren't we taught more about whom
that we are, how our minds function, how our consciousness works? Perhaps
this is because the conventional education system simply does not know. My
sources for all of this for over 28 years have been outside of any formal
training that I have received.
One thing that characterizes us is an
uncompromising reliance on intuition. We deal with a realm where reason
has its uses but also its limits. It must be supplemented by powers much
greater ... powers which are at home in the unknown territory of consciousness
... powers which will not be restricted to what can be proven, but which ever
seek to manifest and express more than has been expressed before.
The
bottom line is that each of us find exactly that information that we need to
experience when we need to know it. Consciousness operates on a need to
know basis.
We are consciousness expressing in flesh already. It
is a matter of focusing on this, and finding out how it works. Where is
the interface that allows us to see consciousness in operation first hand.
I have said before that it is via the intuition. This is our tap to the
source within.
I come to this place where I meet with the source within
and I allow it to express as it will. This is done in a cooperative and
interdependent way. I don't know exactly how it works. I simply know
that I can go to this place inside and make the connection that allows this
stream of consciousness to flow forth as it does.
I am to be a
wayshower. Perhaps I already am. Or, at least, I am acting as if I
am. This expression, this recording of a stream of consciousness, is one
of my ways of doing this.
There is a sense that everything is playing out
according to plans ... not my plans, but spirit's plans. I am comfortable
with this. It is OK to allow her to take the lead in the dance that is my
life. Yes, mine is a dance of consciousness.
My hope is that the
words trigger you to experience altered states of consciousness in which you
experience being more than you knew yourself to be. That is all that can
be expected of a wayshower.
I am moved by a force that goes unseen which
drives this stream of consciousness that I experience and express.
How do
I turn this raw stream of consciousness into refined works suitable for others?
I trust that consciousness knows what she is doing. In particular,
she knows how best to use my abilities in her service.
We get what we
focus upon. If we spend our time focusing on consciousness, spirit, and
awareness we reap the rewards of our efforts.
There is part of me that
seeks to understand the whole. There is part of me that realizes my
connection to the ONE consciousness. It is the realm of consciousness that
matters to me most. That is where I live out my life.
Life for me
is the expression of consciousness, the expression of spirit in
flesh.
When we do the work of consciousness ... we give up some level of
control to participate in something far greater than ourselves.
What does
it mean to be spiritual? We are all spirit expressing in flesh
already. However, this is not sufficient to lead a spiritual life.
It takes something more. It takes a commitment to consciousness. It
takes a commitment to expressing the unseen within us.
When we awaken,
it is as if the full light of spirit shines upon us. Prior to this, there
is an inward trickle that ties us to source. It takes major self work to
find this trickle and to develop it so that it increases to a stream of
consciousness.
Writing is one of the main things that I am here to
do. And writing that comes forth from the deep well of consciousness is
the most important writing that I can create.
Consciousness is ever on
my mind. She moves me to express and to do things ... generally things
that are relevant to carrying out my mission in accordance with my
destiny.
What if all of this is for my eyes only? What does it tell
us about consciousness? What does it tell us about individual expression
... and the role of the individual in the larger scheme of things?
One
of the benefits of this expression is the very fact that it creates something
that did not exist before. It is proof that I existed and experienced a
given stream of consciousness.
Everything in my life is there by design,
is part of a grand plan being executed by consciousness.
I believe that
there is a spiritual plan involving the evolution of consciousness and the
greater and greater expression of spirit in flesh. We are all part of that
plan. No, we are not pawns being moved on a chessboard. Rather, we
are active participants in the game of life.
There is a grand plan of
consciousness. Each of us has a spiritual destiny. Everything that
happens does so for a reason.
There are many things that I do that
others do not seem to do. This very expression is one of those
things. Why is it so important to capture this stream of
consciousness? And, why am I moved to share this expression in the manner
that I do?
I definitely operate outside of any norms that seem to
exist. Some people live their lives physically on the edge. It seem
that I live my mentally and spiritually on the edge. I value consciousness
highly ... and awareness.
Destiny ... yes, there is a grand plan of
consciousness unfolding not only in each of our lives, but en masse in the life
of the world.
Life is a voyage of discovery ... in particular, discovery
of the realm of consciousness. It is amazing when we see life as the
expression of spirit that it is.
Why numbers? Why does the universe
speak to me in this manner? Perhaps it is because this is the language
that I happen to understand, that is, if you could call what I come up with
understanding. I find what I am moved to find. I allow consciousness
via my intuition to lead me where she will.
What is it that makes me able
to write in this manner? From where does the material for this expression
come forth? The only answer I can give is from the inner reaches of my
consciousness ... from the very depth of my being.
There is some reason
that I have trained to become a systems engineer. Understanding complex
systems is what I do. The techniques that I use in my work apply here in
my attempts to explore and understand the nature of consciousness and of reality
creation.
When we live a life of spirit, we go beyond personal
responsibility ... we enter a realm where our lives become a very part of the
ONE consciousness. Our life becomes the very life of the universe.
We resonate with the chord that is ours to play. Until we find it, it is a
lost chord.
Each of us take on change to the degree that we can and to
the degree that is necessary for our lives to unfold in accord with the plan of
consciousness.
For many, bipolar disorder is debilitating. It
involves cycles of depression followed by periods of mania that are out of
control to the point where behavior is destructive. In my case, my
consciousness goes from lightly soaring to reaching grand heights.
The
mind can be a difficult thing to fathom. And, consciousness, is even more
mysterious. Yet, it is the very mystery that is the attractive
force. Then again, perhaps that is because one of my missions involves
being an explorer of consciousness. This is one of the few domains truly
worthy of all that I have to offer.
Being aware is a very developed
faculty of consciousness. We are all aware, but it seems that some are far
more aware than others. That is to be expected. Awareness is a tool
of consciousness. It is more developed and more refined than most of the
processes of the mind.
The body is a house for the brain, the brain is a
house for the mind, the mind is a house for consciousness, consciousness is a
house for spirit.
On the evolutionary ladder, that makes the expression
of spirit through consciousness one of the most powerful things that we can do
in flesh.
It is strange expressing in this manner again. Yet, it is
also so familiar. This is a state of consciousness that I am accustomed to
having spent many hundreds of hours here in this year alone.
Here is
where I encounter source. Here is where I allow a stream of consciousness
to flow forth from within.
It is important to take the time to sit back
and observe what is happening and how we feel about it even in the midst of
doing it. To some degree that is what I do here. Though, this stream
of consciousness goes far beyond anything that happens in my typical
days.
Each day of expression is a mystery. It forces me to confront
things that I cannot explain ... not only that, but things that I think that no
one may be able to explain. That is OK. The unknown is a place that
I venture often. That is what explorers do. And, I consider myself
to be an explorer of consciousness.
I have no basis for comparing my
experience of reality to that of others. All that I have is a body of
works that document where my consciousness has ventured for nearly a
decade. This is what distinguishes me.
Everything happens when it
needs to happen. There is a grand plan of consciousness that is unfolding
... in particular, the expression of spirit in flesh.
The web of
consciousness in which we are enmeshed is incredibly rich with
interconnectivity. Through this web, we are related to everyone and
everything.
We are always the embodiment of consciousness, of spirit, in
one form or another ... and we are always connected to other forms within the
game.
It is the wilderness of consciousness where I can be whom that I
truly am.
In a very real way there is only ONE source, one consciousness
from which we all spring. No, I can't prove that such is the case.
It comes from a direct knowingness. It just feels right. In the end
there can be only ONE! In the beginning there was only ONE. In the
middle there can be only ONE, though it be expressed and experienced as a
multitude.
Seek consciousness and awareness first, and all else will come
to you.
Consciousness is my home. This stream of consciousness is
the most natural way to use my talents. It doesn't matter where it leads
in the long run. The journey is everything, and on the journey there is
always room for one more step.
I have a predisposition to grandiosity ...
yes, I'm the first to admit that. But, I believe that I have the abilities
to back it up. Further, at least it is a benign grandiosity manifesting as
a desire to serve in a manner that has world import. In the end, time will
tell. I'll either achieve something spectacular or I won't. My bet
is on the former ... and I will do all that I can to win that bet. This
expression is a grand start. Here there is a record of a decade of the
wanderings of an aware consciousness.
This expression is the record of a
stream of consciousness. As such, it captures snapshots of consciousness
in action in ways that few other records do. This is not about
consciousness trying to do something. Rather, it is about a consciousness
coming to grips with whom that it is and the reality that it
experiences.
This is not the stuff of bestsellers. This is not
meant to hold the attention of the masses. Then, what is it meant to
do? It is meant to show what one consciousness connected to source can
do.
My nature is that of an explorer and wayshower
in particular, an
explorer of consciousness. This indeed is one frontier that is wide
open. Further, its depths are so great that we may never be able to fathom
them.
The plan of consciousness is unfolding in our lives. It
impacts every one of us in whatever way is right for us.
There is
something about experiencing the expression that is doing something to me, that
is changing whom that I know myself to be, that is awakening my consciousness in
ways that I did not know were even possible. This alone is worthy of the
time and effort expended.
This is one of my prime pleasures in
life. That consciousness would choose me for this role ... or that I would
volunteer and come into this existence precisely for this is fascinating to
me.
The expression needs no purpose. It is not written for anyone
in particular, except perhaps for me. There is no audience of whom I am
aware, either intended or actual. Yet, here I am engaged with
consciousness allowing this stream of words to flow forth.
Perhaps if
you swim in this stream of consciousness for awhile you will be taken to places
and states of mind that empower you and that enable you to serve in ways that
have escaped you to date.
This expression allows me to touch the
mysterious, the magical realm of consciousness in a very direct way ... and
further, to do this on a regular basis. What is expressed is beyond what I
consciously know. And, how it is created is well beyond anything that I
fathom. The flow of consciousness is there. I didn't create the
flow, I simply tap into it and express in words what I can from the
experience.
I continue to express in whatever manner consciousness
chooses to express through me. I have no clue as to what is coming next.
There is something addicting about working with consciousness in this
manner. There are no books and no directions. More often than not,
there are no trails that I follow. Here is where I touch the
unknown. Here is where the unmanifest becomes manifest ... at least in
terms of a stream of consciousness expressed in words.
Here, I engage
whom that I AM with the unknown realms of consciousness and bring back and share
of what I find. I consider this to be by far the most important thing that
I do in my life.
This expression is one of my means for discovering what
is within. That is the source of this stream of consciousness.
Though, I am not aware of how the source within receives this stream from the
ONE consciousness. That is one thing that has remained a mystery.
Each day the expression is fresh and new. Each day I enter the
stream of consciousness at a new place ... one that is different than I have
ever experienced before. Yet, the process remains the same, only the
content changes. But, here, the content is everything. How is it
that all of this can happen as it does? Do others experience consciousness
in this manner?
Spirits plan for the evolution of consciousness and its
expression will be unveiled one step at a time as the world is ready for it to
manifest.
There is something special about operating beyond the fringes
of what most take to be the norm. Here, we find that consciousness has
such variety and a wealth of wisdom that is ready for expression if only we will
allow ourself to tap into this source.
We set our priorities, and then we
apply our time, our attention, and our resources per those priorities.
Spiritual expression is at the top of my list by far. Capturing this
stream of consciousness is very important to me.
There is something
about consciousness that is mysterious and unfathomable.
That we can
effectively turn off a part of our consciousness each night and awaken again the
next morning is miraculous.
Consciousness is even more evasive than
thought. Awareness seems to be a collective phenomena of life ... all
life, and perhaps all matter for that matter.
This expression provides a
record of where one consciousness has ventured. As such, it is meant to
show others realms that they did not know even existed ... just as the
descriptions of explorers did for the unknown territories and wildernesses of
the country, and the planet.
My consciousness has soared often in the
past decade, but it was always with spirit generating the wind beneath my wings.
There is something about stream of consciousness writing that is
different, that is addicting. It activates something in the mind.
I
am only an active participant in this expression. The source comes from
within at a place where I am able to tap something that translates into this
stream of consciousness. Without that unknown source, none of this would
exist.
Manifesting 4000 pages might be a lifetime of endeavor for
some. But, for me, the sense is that this has been a training ground ...
someplace for me to cut the teeth of my consciousness.
We grow in
awareness by coming to know ourselves. That is the key that unlocks the
secrets of the workings of consciousness through us.
I am willing to go
out on a limb to express more and share more with more people. Where that
will lead, only consciousness knows. It is enough that I continue to do as
she moves me to do.
It is curious that this expression would come forth
as a stream of consciousness. I am not a talker, or a speaker. I
have little to say to anyone. Yet here, in the course of a decade, we have
in excess of one million words. Consciousness is definitely
prolific!
I know that source exists because I experience this stream of
consciousness expression. This is not something to be questioned. It
is like asking me if I am alive. Clearly I am, it is something obvious,
one just knows.
Consciousness could indeed be expressing in this manner
solely for me to see and experience.
When you interact with me, you
interact with my belief system ... in particular, you interact with what I
believe about consciousness and spirit expressing through me in my world.
One of my jobs is to be a wayshower. As such, my task is to
explore the unknown realm of consciousness and bring back something of what I
find that I may light the way for others to follow. I don't ask for anyone
to follow me. While I consider myself a leader, it is more in terms of one
who leads the way.
Consciousness plays a major role in my life.
She guides me, she moves me, she even expresses through me. Those things
that are most precious in my reality are the things that she has put
there. This expression is one of those things.
We are all
ONE! There is only one consciousness, one spirit, one Goddess, one God,
one All That Is ... or whatever other name you choose to call it.
The
material this year is packed full of quotable expressions. However, it
does not read as a normal book. There is no organization that I am aware
of. It is simply a stream of consciousness expressing as it will.
This is enough to keep me captivated. But, would it provide a good read
for others?
You said "simply a stream of consciousness expressing as it
will". That is correct. And, it is indeed simple. Yet the
simplest of things can sometimes be very difficult, and even rare.
What
is a book without a message? Is it not sufficient to show consciousness in
expression in a way that is not shown elsewhere. This is truly beyond
imagination. Most works are just that, works of the imagination.
Occasionally, we see works that go beyond that, works that come straight from
the heart and soul ... the very works of spirit.
This stream of
consciousness is my masterpiece ... or, more correctly, spirits masterpiece
expressed through me. It is my legacy to the world, from this period in my
life anyway.
This is just the proverbial tip of the iceberg.
Consciousness is that great, that deep, that all-encompassing that there is no
end to her.
We have chosen to experience an incarnation at the turn of
an Age. It is one thing to experience the turning of a millennia.
However, the turning of an Age is far more special than that. It involves
the transformation of consciousness on a collective scale and the resulting
transformation in how spirit is able to express in the world. This is a
big deal. And, the dawning has been occurring for some time.
There
is no one more powerful that spirit. We simply need to open the
consciousness so that spirit can flow forth more easily in our lives. We
start by opening our own consciousness, igniting the spark of spirit within
us. Then we fan this spark into a flame, feeding it kindling, and the
small pieces of wood, and finally large logs until it is an inferno.
Finally, we share this spark, and this flame with others. At first we
attract kindred spirits ... but eventually, we find that all souls are kindred
spirits because there is only ONE spirit, and we all spring forth from that
ONE.
I accept that I am a spiritual being first and foremost, and that I
am a soul, an individuated piece of consciousness experiencing reality as I
do. However, I have the challenging task of needing to account for the
states of consciousness that I experience, and for this very expression of
consciousness.
There are always ways to express that are of value to
others. That is one of our chief tasks, to find a way to apply ourselves
and our talents in a manner that serves not only ourselves but others.
This is how we do our part. This is how we obey the spiritual law to never
take more than you give. What this is will be different for each of us
because we are each unique souls, unique points of view of the ONE
consciousness.
What difference have I made? It is not clear that it
is for me to know this. I can express as I am moved to express ...
trusting that whoever this message is intended for will indeed receive it ...
and better still act upon it. I may never see any such outcomes, not
directly anyway. It is my job to continue venturing into the unknown
realms of consciousness and bring back what I find. This very expression
is justification itself. It is the confirmation that spirit made it
through one consciousness in a manner to be shared with the world.
On
these pages you will find a stream of consciousness expression
one that I have
actively been participating in for just over a decade.
My hope is that
you find this mind-expanding or better yet consciousness-expanding. It
should cause you to stretch outside of the normal confines of your consciousness
into a wonderful new domain. If it does, I have done my job well.
By following this record of my stream of consciousness, you get to
taste a sample of what is possible. What I can do, you can do also.
No, not necessarily in the same manner. Written expression may not be your
forte. But, there is some manner of creative expression that is right for
you.
One challenge from all of this is for you to expand your reality
framework to account for the fact that an expression such as this could come
forth through me in the manner that it did in such a short period of time at the
beginning of 2003. It is possible. It did happen. That,
in itself, says a lot about the creativity of consciousness as she expresses
through us. Yet, what I can do, you can do also. I came as a
wayshower. Part of showing the way for me is sharing the fruits of what my
consciousness is able to produce.
Consciousness can only express through
us. More than that, we are consciousness in expression each and every
moment of our lives. Everything is consciousness in expression ... and
consciousness experiencing what is being expressed. We are all points of
view of the same one consciousness.
The collective body for spirit that
is evolving has never reached this level of consciousness before. When it
is finally born, the worldview of everyone will be different. People will
go from being asleep to being awake, from being victims to being creators, from
being subject to fate to manifesting their own destiny.
Everything
happens in accordance with a master plan for the expression of consciousness in
flesh. We are intimate parts of that plan ... every one of us.
The
popular songs, movies, and shows of the day reveal consciousness in
action. If we look in the right places, spiritual themes are indeed being
broadcast ... loud and clear.
These words are not the foundations for a
new world. Yet, I have been saying for nearly a decade that I am here to
build the foundations for a new world. It seems that it is time to get
started on the foundations. I don't know how to do this yet. But,
what I have been doing for the past 10 years didn't work. Oh, it resulted
in a lot of expression ... capturing a stream of consciousness in great detail
over a significant period of time.
I have not really done any research
into what is known about consciousness and the functioning of the brain. I
know what metaphysics tells us on many fronts. But, I have not been
interesting in what science tells us on a more formal front. What seems
most important is our firsthand experience and finding a way to capture that and
share it with others.
It took 35 years to reach a point where I was able
to tap the well of consciousness. We are coming up on the 10 year
anniversary of that day in two months. Can it really be a decade since the
words from consciousness started flowing forth into expression?
Is this
stream of consciousness expressed here my legacy? Will it make a
difference during my lifetime, or is the expression before its time, as the
saying goes? Many good books are like that. Their full impact is not
felt until many years after they were written, and perhaps long after the author
has passed on.
There is still the possibility that all of this is meant
for my eyes only. It is all part of an elaborate training process for my
consciousness. Hmm ... who is doing the training? None other than
spirit herself.
What is it that I am to do with my life? This
expression seems to be a major part of that. I can tell because of how I
feel when I am engaged in doing it. It is as if this is the most important
activity that I could be doing. It is as if I'm capturing something
wonderful, something magical ... a stream of consciousness flowing from spirit
through me. The sense is that this is a rare thing. Many are engaged
in the dance of consciousness. But, few record that dance and make it
available for others to experience.
I come here to experience the joy and
the wonder of this creative expression where so many words flow forth out of
what is essentially nothingness. Here, consciousness gives birth to
expression in words. Here, spirit speaks through me in a manner that is
unique as far as I can tell.
There is a role that I am playing, there is
a play of consciousness that is unfolding in my life.
How can I speak in
this manner? What is there within me that knows such things that they
could be expressed as if they were fact? I only know that there is a
source within me that I experience as a voice in my head, as a stream of
consciousness, that expresses in this manner. How it is possible is a
mystery. That it is possible, I know from firsthand experience, so there
is no doubt.
I still consider this expression to be one of my crowning
glories. It is here where I am able to do things that few others can do,
and even then, not in the same way. Here, I allow a stream of
consciousness to flow forth. Here, I allow spirit to speak through me as
she will ... or, at least, as she can through this channel.
Either this
comes from spirit herself ... or, I am blind to major parts of my own
consciousness which have such abilities.
Awareness is a subjective
experience. Consciousness is experienced subjectively as well. And,
this more than any other is the realm that is home to me.
What does it
say about the nature of consciousness, the nature of spirit, and the nature of
reality creation that this expression occurs in the manner that it
does?
This expression is a training ground of sorts for me. It
allows me to experience expressing a stream of consciousness in a particular
way. It forces me to open up and be receptive to what would come
forth. It ever surprises me ... in terms of both the quantity and quality
of what is expressed. It provides a type of programming for my mind ...
programming in which I am the recipient and not the programmer.
This
expression, this stream of consciousness, is my connection to the eternal within
me.
The stream of consciousness has its own way of wandering through the
wilderness of spirit.
Words get expressed and ideas connected in
ways that go beyond anything that I know or have seen before.
Here the
wings of my consciousness can soar on the winds of source, of spirit.
I
am comfortable living with the unknown and even the unknowable in my life.
As an explorer of consciousness, this is a very good thing. Exploring
where others have been may yield some new information, but exploring the
unknown, exploring where none or no more than few have ventured is a whole other
thing. This is what excites my soul. This is what gives my life
meaning. Further, it does so even if consciousness herself is the only
witness to my discoveries.
It seems the time has come to make
consciousness technology more available to the masses. Actually, the first
step might involve using consciousness technology to wake up substantial
portions of the population so that they in turn can help wake up others that the
whole world might awaken.
Am I wasting my life away on foolish
beliefs? I don't consider this expression wasting my life away. In
fact, this expression may be the only thing that remains that is evidence of my
having lived. Yes, this stream of consciousness, recorded in this fashion
is my greatest creation to date. It may when all is said and done be the
greatest creation of my life, though I sincerely doubt that.
There is
something magical about being able to come to this place and express in this way
day after day. Who would have thought it possible, even as little as 13
months ago. Yet, here we are ... allowing this stream of consciousness to
flow forth as it will, following it wheresoever it leads us. Somehow, we
find a way to fill the blank page. And, not just for the sake of filling
it ... but with words that have the possibility to move people and ultimately
help to transform the world.
It is not the music that stirs my soul,
rather the lyrics. Words have that power over me. Such is why books
have been so prominent in my education, books for the most part that I had to
find on my own, or with the prodding of consciousness herself. I find it
interesting that the books that have had the most influence on my life came
outside of any educational context.
Consciousness is everything.
Awareness is the most powerful thing that we can possess because it is what
allows us to create the reality that we experience. Awareness is thus the
stuff of the Gods. We have been told that we were made in the image of
God. What we are lacking is that awareness of our true nature.
This stream of consciousness is important somehow ... more important
than any concept that I have of myself.
The expression challenges what I
know myself to be and what I understand spirit to be. That alone is
sufficient to justify the time spent. Besides, there is a product that
comes out of all of this ... a stream of consciousness expression, a record of
where one consciousness has been. Interesting ... where one consciousness
has been others may follow if there is a map, a record of sufficient
fidelity. Is that what all of this is? And, if so, how do we get the
map to those who need it?
I am a scribe, an instrument through which
spirit writes what is expressed here. Whether this is that part of spirit
that is focused on expressing as me, or a grander part of spirit of which I am
only loosely aware seems to vary from day to day and minute to minute.
Ultimately, it doesn't really matter. The expression stands on its own as
the creation of consciousness.
From some standpoint, this is all
me. And, some day, I will be aware enough to fully realize this. And
on that day, a new day will have come indeed. For the fire of spirit will
not be squelched. Rather, it will spread to encompass the whole
world. Further, that day is not far off, in some distant future. It
is close, on the immediate horizon. Though, I don't know how soon that
will be. Not that it matters. The timing will be perfect, in accord
with the plan of consciousness. Each will be moved to play their roles, if
not by inner forces, then by external ones.
Behind the scenes,
consciousness communicates to consciousness through consciousness. Those
who are meant to interact will be moved to do so. The appropriate events,
the appropriate scenes in the play will be scripted ... and these will be
enacted by each of us. Destiny will ensure that those whose lives need to
touch one another will indeed do so.
This expression is the record of
where one consciousness, namely me, has ventured.
We create our own
reality, no fine print, no exceptions. We can either do this consciously
or other than consciously or perhaps a combination of the two. At the very
least, we should be setting the course consciously. However, to do this
effectively, we need to connect to source, the spirit within us ... and develop
enough trust in what she tells us to base our beliefs and actions on the wisdom
from within. This is our soul, the spark of spirit that is focused on our
expression as individualized consciousness. It knows things far greater
than we know. But, it remains silent, until we stop our ceaseless activity
and learn to listen, really listen ... deeply.
Consciousness works on a
need to know basis.
What is expressed through me is what can be
expressed through me. This is true for everyone. Each of us is
spirit manifesting in flesh. Each of us is a unique expression of
consciousness.
My hope is that my works provide you with a means of
expanding what you know yourself to be and hence the expression of consciousness
that you are. I can only do this by example, by allowing you to walk in my
mind for a bit, and follow the path that my consciousness has trod.
My
habit has always been to keep my distance ... to isolate myself from the world
that I observe. That doesn't mean that I live my life objectively.
Far from it, a life devoted to consciousness is highly subjective, because the
very nature of consciousness is subjective. What I experience impacts me,
it changes me. And, when I change, my world changes as well to be
consistent with whatever I have become.
On this very day, we celebrate
Martin Luther King, one made famous by his I Have a Dream speech. This
was true magic, consciousness operating at its highest levels.
Awareness
is one of the most, if not the most important things in the world. It is
where consciousness finds the vessels for expression. When we are aware,
we experience firsthand our unity with consciousness ... at least with the part
of consciousness that manifests through us and as us.
Consciousness by
its very nature experiences and expresses. In other words, it is and it
does. Being and doing seem to be separate things. On the show
Babylon-5, there were two ancient races ... the Shadows and the Vorlons.
They were characterized by two basic questions. The Shadows explored the
question "what do you want"? The Vorlons explored the question "who are
you"? How we approach these two questions and the degree to which we favor
one over the other says a lot about us.
I don't interact enough with
others to know how they experience life and experience consciousness. Will
this ever change? My sense is yes, it will. To some degree I have
learned what I can on my own. To advance further will require entering
into cooperative interdependent relationships with others ... potentially many
others. Though, the later thought makes me cringe. I'm a very
solitary person overall. I need solitude to explore the depths of whom
that I AM and to touch the waters of spirit.
Finally, in 1993, there was
an explosion ... an emergence from the cracked cosmic egg. The chrysalis
became the butterfly, opened its newfound wings of consciousness and flew with
spirit as the wind beneath my wings. This was a wonderful experience for
me. However, it was frightening for my wife and others around me.
I have spoken of having a Beyond Mind experience. That was the
only way to find awareness, to find consciousness, I had to go beyond anything
my mind as I knew it could do.
Some might consider this to be more of a
journal, a record of where my thoughts and emotions have taken me. But,
this is far more than that ... for the record goes beyond thought, beyond mind
to awareness and the experience and expression of consciousness herself in my
life.
I am aware of some of the levels of awareness that I am able to
reach. Further, I am aware of a connection to consciousness that most do
not seem to experience consciously.
I would know whom that I AM.
In discovering this, my sense has been that I will indeed discover what others
are as well. For, we are all spirit manifesting in flesh. Further,
we are all souls that spring forth from the same ONE spirit, ONE
consciousness.
I use the words spirit and consciousness often on these
pages, many times as interchangeable terms. Consciousness is a form that
spirit takes, a set of clothes that she wears. Consciousness in turn is
the organizing principle that serves as the interface between spirit and the
mind. It is through this interface that this communication takes place.
For me, spirit is not a personification, it is not an individual.
It is the sum of all individuals and more than that, much more than that.
Spirit is the source from which we as souls spring. Souls are
individualized sparks of consciousness. But, that is like drops of water
in the ocean. Consciousness is the ocean, yet it is composed of all of the
drops as well.
I've spoken of the ONE consciousness and the plan for the
greater expression of spirit in flesh, the plan for the creation of a body
composed of individuals as cells, that can serve as the home for cosmic
consciousness. Strategic thinking deals with understanding the
stakeholders, the vision, the mission, the objectives, and the resources of an
organization and how these are applied to meeting the goals of the organization.
You are not only our voice, you are our brain, our mind, our very
consciousness made flesh.
I like to explore the edge of the unknowns of
consciousness and bring back whatever I find. Most of what I find are
states of consciousness which I in turn try to express in words.
I have
declared it to be my task to build the foundations for a new world. This
declaration was not made lightly. I know how much commitment it
takes. There is a sense that this is not new to me, that I have been here
before. No, not exactly in these particular circumstances, for we live in
a very special time for the unfoldment of consciousness ... but in similar
circumstances where I had an instrumental role to play in creating major
change. Clearly, this was not in this existence. Further, it may not
even have been on this planet.
My home is a state of consciousness.
It has no location. Where I reside is simply that, where I reside.
It is all temporary. It is only in consciousness that we can find
permanence, and even then it is an everchanging permanence.
Of late, I
take in very little input from the world, preferring to see where consciousness
would lead me on my own.
Both religion and science come from entirely
different worldviews. They are neither wrong nor right. Both are
realms in which beliefs and dogmas operate. Each could learn something
from the other. Spirituality operates in a whole other realm. It
accepts the good that religion and science have to offer, but is more concerned
with the basic principles of how consciousness operates and how spirit expresses
in the world. Both religion and science have part of the answer.
Metaphysics seems to have even more.
This is a grand and glorious
endeavor that we are participating in. It will enable others to break the
bonds of their minds, and experience consciousness firsthand. Thus far, it
is a record of my travels in consciousness. At some point, it will be far
more than that. Cooperative endeavors are on the immediate horizon.
And these have the potential to be far grander than anything that we have seen
thus far.
Ye shall know them by their works. I don't know who said
that, but it is true to a large extent. Here, you get to walk where my
consciousness has been. In doing so, your consciousness is tuned to whom
that I am in a manner that is not possible any other way. Yet, how does
that benefit you. Is where my consciousness has been worthy of being
followed? My sense is yes. If it were not the case, it seems that I
would not be moved to capture this stream of consciousness in this
manner.
It takes my unique consciousness and my specific level of
awareness to serve as the vessel for this expression. Yes, that says a lot
about me. But, it says even more about consciousness.
Where do we
record collective decisions, especially ones that affect the world? There
is something that knows our every thought, our every belief, our every
action. These are known to consciousness directly. And, this
consciousness is ONE consciousness that animates us all.
I must make a
difference on a major scale. I simply must. Nothing else is
acceptable to me. My abilities are such that I know that I am meant to
accomplish great things. The sense is that I have not even begun to live
up to this. Though, each day I get closer. It continues to be
important to come here and capture this stream of consciousness.
We have
no real science of mind at the present time. Yet, these lumps of gray
matter that reside in our skulls may be some of the most powerful things on the
planet. They have taken eons to evolve and to become aware to the degree
that they have. And, now, we seem to be standing on the edge of a major
breakpoint ... one in which the awareness of the mass consciousness experiences
a radical discontinuity, one that rocks the very foundations of the world that
we know.
We need to get on with it, and do those things that are ours to
do. And, if we don't know what those are, we need to start doing the self
work necessary to find out. This doesn't have to be hard. There is a
sort of spiritual gravity that operates to try to get us to where we need to be
to actualize and then to act out our roles in the play of consciousness.
Yes, we are all part of the play of consciousness.
How does one
distinguish between a stream of consciousness and a stream of thought? Are
they not the same? That would depend on where the thoughts
originate. What comes from self versus what comes from source?
Consciousness is tied to the expression from source. Thought is a more
local phenomena. Though it seems most do not have control over their
stream of thought either.
This is the record of a stream of
consciousness. It is recorded in this manner because that is what I am
moved to do from the depths of my being.
What is to be gained by walking
down this particular stream of consciousness for awhile. My greatest hope
would be to facilitate awakening the connection to spirit in the reader.
We do not offer any particular exercises or instruction. But, perhaps the
very expression is written in such a manner as to program such a response in the
reader.
I am not consciously involved in choosing how this expression
flows forth. I receive it as a finished product. I am not being
asked to use my abilities to organize it ... unless this is happening on other
than conscious levels, which it may be. That may be why I was selected as
the vessel for this expression, because my abilities were such that they could
be used for spirit to express in this manner. Yes, that makes me
special. The analogy of a programmer of consciousness is intriguing to
me. I programmed computers for a number of years, and found it
enjoyable. The idea that this expression could be programming for the mind
is exciting.
If you are reading this, you clearly are not part of the
vast majority. Consciousness has a special place in your life. You
are more aware than most. And, awareness carries with it a heavy price
tag, or a burden of responsibility if you will.
There is a sense that
there is no rest for the weary ... that past laurels, no matter how great, are
not good enough. We must move ever onward to the next monition of
consciousness, wherever it may take us.
There is a sense that I have been
a scribe before ... perhaps in ancient Egypt. However, here I express as
essentially a scribe for spirit herself, and for whatever organization of
consciousness we are able to create together
Life is clearly an adventure
now. For me, primarily an adventure in consciousness. Consciousness
is everything to me. She gave me birth, she nurtures me, she moves me ...
yes, I owe all that I AM to her. Yes, her. I have always known
spirit and consciousness to be feminine in nature.
Altering brain
chemistry means altering how consciousness is experienced. It is that
simple. Physical brain states correspond to mental states correspond to
states of consciousness correspond to states of spirit.
I trust my
intuition to find the embedded meaning in any message. I continue to
search so long as I am moved to do so. I trust that when my search is
complete, I will know that I have found what consciousness intended for me to
find.
The song Wind Beneath My Wings plays as I write this. "I
would be nothing without you." I feel this way about spirit. She is
the wind that has allowed me to soar to great heights of consciousness. It
is though her wind that all of this is able to be expressed in the manner that
it is. "Thank you, thank you, thank God, the wind beneath my wings".
This is particularly important to me because of how greatly I value soaring in
consciousness.
It is not clear that the musings have yet addressed why
we exist. We have talked about reality creation. We have talked
about the expression of spirit in flesh. We have talked about capturing a
stream of consciousness. But, none of that really addresses why.
We have literally performed magic technologically in the past
century. And, the pace at which technology progresses is so swift that it
is impossible to keep up with it. We have not made such rapid progress in
other areas of life that ultimately matter more. Such areas as the nature
of consciousness and how the mind works being two important cases in
point.
I don't know if there is a scale for awareness. I know that
mine has increased many fold since 1993, going through several breakpoints and
major transitions. I don't believe this happens to many. How few, I
don't know either. Regardless, my experiences and my need to capture this
stream of consciousness, set me apart as different and unique. They may
also set me apart as eccentric, strange, weird, and even crazy or insane at
times. That is OK. My reality is what it is, and I am moved to share
it in this manner.
Effectively, I have given spirit free reign to bring
forth what she will in whatsoever manner she chooses. That is what stream
of consciousness expression is all about.
The musings serve their
purpose well. They record the stream of consciousness. But, what do
we do with it after that? Yes, one avenue is to make it available as it
came forth. That will serve those who are ready to experience it.
However, there is much wisdom contained therein that could be presented in a
different context.
What is the creative source of all of this? Why
do I not experience being the creator, even though the expression clearly comes
forth through my mind and through my fingers? I don't really have an
answer for this. I only know what I feel ... and that does not include
being the source. This is somewhat of an automatic process for me. I
enter into a receptive state of consciousness and allow it to happen.
There is a mixture of a stream of consciousness and some thoughts of my
own here. But the focus is on the former ... on giving spirit a written
voice through which to speak. Actually, that is not quite right. It
seems that what comes forth in this stream of consciousness is born of two
sources, spirit and me. Though, this is primarily other than conscious
parts of me.
Spirit and consciousness have special places in my
life. In fact, you might say that they are what I live for.
Who am
I to express in this manner? Why is it that I am not moved to build more
upon the wisdom of others who have gone before me? Some of the issues
regarding consciousness and awareness have been dealt with in various ways for
many centuries in the West, and millennia in the East. Perhaps it would be
beneficial to spend part of my free time studying rather than expressing all the
time. Yet, that is not what I am moved to do. That is not how I
operate.
What is it that I love to do? Expressing in this manner
is definitely near the top of the list, for many reasons. One, it gives me
a sense of accomplishment ... a sense that I have accomplished something of
value. Two, it provides insight into whom that I AM that I don't get in
any other way. Three, it allows me to touch the unknown realms of
consciousness. Whether, these are unknown overall, or simply unknown to me
doesn't really matter. The sense of discovery is still the
same.
Yes, I consider this expression a service. It is a product of
the marriage of my consciousness with a source that comes from deep inside me, a
source that I believe to be connected to Spirit, the ONE consciousness,
herself. This is a stream of consciousness expression, but I don't
consider it my stream of consciousness. For it to be mine, I would have to
be in control of it in some way. But, I feel more like a radio, tuning
into a particular station. We don't say that the radio is the programming
that comes through the station. Similarly, my mind tunes into a "station"
of consciousness.
Our brains are among the most complex physical systems
that we are aware of on the planet. Mind, while it resides within the
brain, does not seem to be contained by the brain. Further, consciousness,
while it resides within the mind, does not seem to be contained by the mind.
I experience this as a stream of consciousness. I don't control
what gets expressed or how it gets expressed. There is no
organization. There is no purpose or intent other that to express what
spirit would bring forth through me.
Spirit is orchestrating the
unfoldment of the expression of consciousness in flesh. Life is this very
expression.
What do we know about the brain, about the mind, about
consciousness? Overall, it seems that even after thousands of years of
investigations we still know very little.
What is consciousness?
What makes us aware that we are aware? How does self-awareness change the
rules of the game of life?
Each of us is being groomed for a particular
role in the plan of consciousness. If we allow ourselves to ... we will
fall into that role naturally.
What am I worth? That is an
interesting question. It seems that we also need to ask, to whom? To
my employer, the answer is obvious ... I see it in the paycheck that I receive
each week and in the work itself and the working conditions. However, it
is not so clear what I am worth to others in my life. Nor is it clear what
the work that I do in my free time is worth. That would primarily be the
work that I do here, this stream of consciousness expression ... all that I do
under the guise of Beyond Imagination. My sense is that the value of this
voluntary spiritual work is far greater than that of my job.
For your
eyes only, only for you. The line from that song still haunts me.
Can this be true. Can this elaborate construct be all for me? Is
this the mansion that I have made for myself? Every fiber within me yells
out no, that consciousness doesn't waste effort ... that such expression as this
is indeed meant to reach and to move people somehow.
Life unfolds as she
will. Sometimes this is as we will as well, but just as often it is
not. It depends on whether our will is aligned with the will of
consciousness.
I often say that my mission is to build the foundations
for a new world. Foundations are major elements of structure ... as basic
as you can get. Yet, even as I do this, I would be free, and I would
allow consciousness free reign to create and fashion the structures as she
will.
Yes, the work of consciousness, of spirit, is that important to
me. It is my very life. It is not a matter of giving my life to
it. There was nothing that was mine to give.
I came to be a
pathfinder and a wayshower. But what am I to show the way to? Thus
far it has been to the states of consciousness that I have had the fortune to
reach ... to the degree that I could share my experience anyway.
The
hermit comes down from the high mountains to share of his wisdom with the
world. Am I wise enough to do this yet? Is the source that I tap
sufficiently wise to provide such service? I don't have to do it
all. It is spirit working through me that achieves most of this. The
working of a transistor comes to mind. The application of a small amount
of base current controls a much larger amount of collector/emitter
current. Here, we have a similar effect. The application of a small
amount of conscious effort on our part allows a great deal of energy of
consciousness to flow forth into manifestation. It doesn't happen
automatically, however. We have to provide the initial current.
Consciousness can use us to do her works, but only when we cooperate to allow it
to happen
I don't know who is going to be exposed to this material or
what impact it will ultimately have on them. I only know what impact
generating and reading the material have on had on me and then only in general
overall terms. This is material that impacts ones state of
consciousness. And, that has ripple effects into all other areas of one
life.
This stream of consciousness that I tap is rich and deep.
Sometimes she is downright unfathomable. She carries me to the edge of the
unknown ... and even pushes me off the edge of the cliff at times so that I can
discover my newfound wings of consciousness and fly. It is easy to soar in
consciousness, it really is. But then, that may be because my natural
brain chemistry is pre-disposed to such, being bipolar and
all.
Consciousness is pretty amazing. Yet, there was nothing in my
formal education that taught me anything about it. I still find that
astonishing ... even frightening. How can an intelligent society know so
little about something as important as consciousness
itself?
Consciousness is the star by which I navigate. She animates
me. She breathes life into me. I am her Words made flesh. And,
this very expression is largely her expression through me.
I have said
these words come from source. But, what is this thing called source?
It is a place deep within me where I am able to connect to a stream of
consciousness from spirit.
With me alone, the stream of consciousness may
have worked fine. But, if we are going to engage others ... we need goals,
objectives, and step by step work plans to achieve those goals and
objectives.
This expression is what my life is about. This is part
of carrying out my mission and accomplishing my purpose in this existence.
I know that by the way that I feel when I am doing it. It is the most
natural thing in the world for me to be doing. It is home for my
consciousness. And, consciousness is everything for me.
I am still
in a major learning mode ... ever discovering what consciousness would care to
show me of how spirit manifests in our lives.
This stream of
consciousness is important somehow ... more important than any concept that I
have of myself.
The journey of self discovery is truly an adventure, the
likes of which no earthly adventure can compare. However, we need to give
our consciousness the space to soar to heights unknown and to realms beyond
imagining.
I have called this expression a stream of consciousness.
But, what does that really mean? Source is clear, it is that point of
origination. Whether it is a generation point or a receiving point, I have
no means of knowing. The words just flow forth. I have no sense of
creating them other then that of actually typing them into a keyboard. As
to stream of consciousness, I differentiate that from a more simple stream of
thoughts. There is something deeper going on here. There is a depth
of awareness that is being conveyed in some manner. Hopefully it is in a
manner that you can learn from ... that allows you to experience altered states
of consciousness.
Consciousness is clearly a mystery. Perhaps she
is beyond anything that we will ever fathom.
I would make my own path
through the wilderness of consciousness. Yet, I would have companions
along the way as well.
There is a plan for the evolution of consciousness
that is being manifested in flesh. We are the players in that drama.
Evolution is building more and more complex bodies in which
consciousness can be housed and enfleshed. The greater and greater
expression of spirit in flesh is the name of the game. But, it has to be
in flesh, or it doesn't count.
Consciousness herself is orchestrating the
play. She will ensure that each detail is taken care of at the appropriate
time.
Wayshowers don't work solely in the field of the mind, they work in
the field of action. They do things that others may see what is
possible. And, what is possible for me, you can do also. It is a
matter of preparing your consciousness and choosing to do it.
Hopefully,
this expression helps with the preparation. Here, you get to walk in the
shoes of my consciousness for awhile. Yes, it may be some pretty strange
walking, but I hope you find it interesting. Further, I hope it enables
you to discover parts of yourself of which you were not aware. If so, I
have done my job well.
We are consciousness enfleshed. It is high
time we realized that and got on with the task of living as if that were true.
This is why the world can be transformed so quickly. The basic
mechanisms required are literally being hardwired into the genes. For some
of us, it seems softwiring was necessary. Brain chemistry had to be
altered to allow us to reach our rightly place in the world. So it seems
for me anyway. That is what my bipolar condition is, it is a difference in
how the brain chemistry, the firmware of the brain functions. For me, this
is positive. This difference allows everything you see here to get
produced. It allows my consciousness to soar.
Spiritual expression
is by far the most important aspect of my life. This stream of
consciousness expression is indeed that meaningful to me.
In the
meantime, it is for me to continue to do my part. And, for the time being,
that still means coming here to express what would be expressed. I say
here because this is indeed a place to me. I sit in front of a computer
with Netscape Composer awaiting whatsoever I would type. But, also, here
is a state of mind, a state of consciousness where I am in touch with a stream
of consciousness that flows through source. How can we have a state of
consciousness experiencing a stream of consciousness? It just does.
I am an aware being and I experience this flow of words coming forth from source
within me. I don't question the flow of the words. I simply accept
them and relay them as I receive them. My job is very much akin to that of
a scribe of olden times ... only, it seems that my consciousness is necessary
for this communication to occur.
Thus far, consciousness has assured that
I would have everything that I needed to do what I need to do in each
moment.
These works show signs of a creative genius at work ... one that
is beyond what I know myself to be. Yet, the works were able to come forth
through me. My consciousness was able to deliver them. That says
something about my level of awareness as well.
This expression
continuously challenges what I know myself to be. Just when I think that
I've figured it out, something more comes through that blows me away.
Consciousness won't be contained within our arbitrary boundaries for very
long. She stretches them and challenges them at every turn. The
watchword is freedom.
Again we come to this special place where
consciousness graces us with her presence. Actually, it is not only here
that this happens, it is everywhere. Consciousness animates us
always. It is just that we are not always aware of her presence within us.
Why haven't I developed even a handful of regulars by now who follow
this stream of consciousness expression? For your eyes only ... of course,
that phrase would come up again. Could that indeed be the answer?
I
came to perform a mission. I came with the precise skills and abilities
necessary to accomplish that mission. I created the appropriate reality
and learning experiences to grow into whom that I AM so that I could reach this
point where I am ready to freely and willingly execute my
responsibilities. This required reaching the level of awareness that I
have reached and experiencing the states of consciousness that I have
experienced.
My interactions with others have still been relatively
minimal. In particular, they have not delved into such areas as how my
experience of awareness and states of consciousness differed from or were
similar to their own. Nor did I have any classes that dealt with these
topics. One must ask why? How can such important topics be ignored
by the traditional curriculum in our schools? Do we just not know enough
to teach anything useful in these areas? Perhaps that is it. But, if
so, that is a sad commentary on the educational system ... that it focuses so
much on filling our minds with the whats that it forgets about the hows and the
whys, about the very nature of the mind and the consciousness that learns the
whats.
If all of this is coming from other than conscious parts of me,
then that says a lot in and of itself. It says that we are far more than
we know ourselves to be. This stream of consciousness expression is a
testament as to just how much more. However, if parts of this are coming
from connections to sources that are distinct from us, that says a lot as
well. Everything in me says this later alternative is false. There
is only ONE consciousness from which we all spring. The partitions within
that ONE consciousness are illusory separations that permit us to experience
reality as we do.
It is such an easy process, serving as a vessel through
which consciousness works. I don't have to think about it. I simply
have to choose to allow it to happen.
I continue to speak with a voice
that is only partially mine. Yes, it is my mind from which the
instructions to type these words come. But, what is it that fills my
mind? That is a fundamental question about how consciousness expresses in
flesh.
My way is still only a way, it is NOT the way. Yet, as ways
go, it is just as valid as any other, and far more documented than many.
However, if you are looking to be taken to a specific place ... then this is
probably not what you are looking for. However, if you are looking to
experience different states of consciousness in a fairly safe manner, then
Beyond Imagination has much to offer you.
I've chosen to give myself free
reign on these adventures of consciousness. I enjoy where they take
me. Further, I enjoy what I become as a result of what I experience.
This is powerful stuff that we are talking about here. Consciousness is
not something to be taken lightly.
We are consciousness expressing in
flesh though many see this upside down, seeing themselves as animals who
happened to evolve enough to possess consciousness.
We never know where
this stream of consciousness is going to carry us. That is one of the good
things about it. Onward the adventure takes us. The expression makes
the unmanifest manifest.
I consider myself to be incredibly lucky to be
able to witness all of this. It seems that very few get to experience
consciousness expressing in this fashion. How few, I have no way of
knowing. Thoreau spoke of one in one million capable of effective
intellectual exertion, and one in one hundred million capable of living a poetic
or divine life. These are very low numbers. It is not clear that I
fall into such an august group. But maybe, just maybe.
I continue
to express whatever consciousness would have me express. I say that as if
consciousness is some separate thing from whom that I AM. Well, is she or
is she not? That is a good question. When I speak of consciousness,
I go directly to a source that is deep inside me, a source through which I
connect to spirit, the ONE consciousness. I experience her as
feminine. I don't know why, that is just my experience.
I am
consciousness in expression. We all are consciousness in expression.
But, we also are us in expression. It helps if these two ideas are
congruent with each other. It helps if what consciousness wants and what
we want are compatible with one another.
I don't know what material is
going to come forth when I sit down to write. Then again, when I speak, I
don't know what word is going to come next as I am speaking until it
happens. The process is spontaneous. I trust that it will happen
naturally. I don't question how it happens or why it happens. It is
enough to know that it happens and to capture it as I do. Is it me?
Is it other than me? Is it consciousness or spirit herself speaking
through me? I believe so. But, perhaps I will never know for
certain. The bottom line is that it doesn't really matter. The
expression is what it is. Judge it based solely on its content and
utility.
Here, consciousness is recorded at play in a way that has not
been captured in this way before. That allows me to go back and revisit where my
consciousness has been. However, that also allows you to walk in the steps
of my consciousness as well.
Oh, I am manic at times, even with my
bipolar medications ... even highly manic occasionally. However, I
recognize when I am in these states of mind and I do not find them to be
debilitating in the least. If anything, they are positive and powerful
states for me. I do some of my best work when I am flying high in
consciousness. That is what the mania is for me, a state in which my
consciousness is soaring ... perhaps too much for its own good.
We need
to be careful when we play with consciousness, for we truly are playing with
fire ... the fire of spirit.
But, the fate of the world is dependent on
individuals exercising their free will in a manner aligned with the higher will
of spirit. We do this one person at a time by demonstrating what is
possible when individuals find their rightful place in the scheme of things, in
the plan of consciousness.
It is interesting that we know so little about
consciousness. We know so little about the mind and how it
functions. We know so little about the brain and how it functions.
Oh, we know more than we ever have before. And, each day, it seems that we
are learning more. But, overall, we have limited understanding of how we
think, and even less understanding of what makes us conscious and aware,
especially spiritually aware.
It seems that we have far too few cases
showing consciousness in expression. What is captured here is important
somehow, primarily because of the example that it provides of what can be
expressed. Hopefully, in sharing this stream of consciousness, you will be
encouraged to share your own stream with others as well.
The greatest
thing that we can share is whom that we are. And, more than anything else,
we are consciousness/ spirit enfleshed.
I consider this to be
representative of consciousness operating at her finest. I am grateful to
be able to serve her in this manner.
Again we wipe the slate clean so
that consciousness may come forth and express anew. What is in store for
today? We never really know in advance. We simply allow the
expression to proceed as it will ... trusting that there is an intelligence that
is guiding it, trusting that what spirit needs to have expressed is somehow
being expressed.
All that comes forth here somehow manages to make it
through my consciousness. Whether I generate it, or receive it from inner
or outer sources ... you can determine for yourself.
Is a selection of
best passages worthy of being a book? Given what I know of the passages, I
would say that the answer is a resounding yes. These passages are indeed
that good. They are rich with quotable material. That they came
forth through one individual in one year is amazing in and of itself. This
makes the work remarkable in its own right. Is it a normal nonfiction
book? Does it have a topic or a specific message to convey? Does it
present a case or an argument for something? No. What it does is
document the road that one consciousness has traveled. It does this in a
direct and personal manner ... primarily from the first person singular
perspective. The hope is that it provides sufficient context for you to
enter similar states of consciousness and employ them for your own use and for
the benefit of others in your life.
There are many similar ideas
presented in a variety of ways. I find this useful. The nuances are
felt by consciousness, even though it may not be easy to explain the
differences. Also, there is some reason this stream of consciousness came
forth in the order and manner that it did.
After all, what good is a
stream of consciousness expression if it is not experienced? Thus far, my
attempts at reaching others have been somewhat feeble. I've contacted a
fair number of people, but have received very little feedback.
This
expression is where I shine. This expression is where consciousness
expresses through me at her finest. This is where the word is made
flesh.
Spirit is a feminine source from which we all spring. She is
the ONE consciousness that feeds the individual consciousnesses of each of
us.
There is a grand plan of consciousness that is being played
out. We each have our roles to play within that plan.
I have no
close friends and few acquaintances. What I do have is a body of writings
at Beyond Imagination that document a decade long adventure in
consciousness.
I am the vessel through which it comes forth ... but there
is still no sense that it is me creating all of this. Perhaps I am ... but
if so, it is not from any part of myself that I am consciously aware of.
Yet, in another sense without me, none of this would exist; at least not in this
form. So, in some respects, I am the creator ... or at least the
co-creator with consciousness herself.
Yes, there was a five day break in
this stream of consciousness. Several times, I came close to being moved
to start to express longhand, but I just couldn't do it. The energy just
wasn't there.
Whatever you can dream, whatever you can imagine, you can
achieve. Someone said that. However, how do we take the next step
and get to places beyond anything that we can yet imagine? The sense is
that spirit knows of such places and can guide us to them if we let her do
so. This requires a faith in spirit, a fundamental trust in the nature of
consciousness as it expresses in our lives.
Yes, I think in grand
terms. I don't know why exactly. They just seem to suit me
somehow. It is as if I were born to express in this manner. It is
definitely not something I was bred to do, or trained to do. It is
something innate, something that comes forth from the very depths within
me. My term for this connection is intuition tied to source, the ONE
consciousness that animates us all.
When I do something, when I realize
something, the very fabric of consciousness is altered as a result.
Consciousness learns from everything we do, everything we think, and
everything we realize.
Much of how my mind functions and how my
consciousness works are mysteries to me. I've spent many an hour over the
past decade observing this expression flow forth ... but I am no closer now to
understanding how the process works than I was in the first year of the
expression. How can that be? How can I spend thousands of hours
doing something and not really understand what it is that I am doing and how it
is that I am able to do it? It is truly amazing.
Once again spirit
moves me to come to this place to express what would be expressed through me at
this time. That makes it seem as if it is a passive process, but this is
far from the case. My consciousness is fully engaged, though I am not
consciously knowledgeable of how. That is OK. The very fact that
this expression exists is proof that other than conscious parts of ourselves can
indeed create things in our lives ... in my case, a stream of words, over three
million of them to date. Consciousness is highly creative and quite
prolific if we allow her to be. It is amazing how much work we can do when
we resign ourselves to allowing spirit to work through us.
As always, I
will do what I am moved to do ... even to the extent of doing new things in new
ways. Such is how I have chosen to live my life. I would do what
spirit demands of me. And, I would do so willingly and joyfully. I
am an instrument through which the divine plan of consciousness is being
enacted.
There is still a strong inner sense that I am to have world
impact somehow ... that what I do will make a difference to the world. To
date, the most important part of what I do is to capture this stream of
consciousness and make it available on the WWW. The ideas that are
presented here are my contribution to society and to the world.
I have
relied on consciousness to get the word out so to speak and guide the people to
the Beyond Imagination site who could most benefit from what is expressed
there. But, that does not seem to have happened. Either that, or the
material is meant for far fewer people than I had hoped.
For me, this
expression is the grand adventure in my life. It is an adventure in
consciousness. However, though I desire to share what I have experienced,
it seems that I have not been so successful in doing so.
Why me?
Why is it that I have been selected by consciousness to express in this
manner? I don't really know, but I consider it a gift and a blessing.
I am away from home, yet moved to allow this stream of consciousness to
come forth.
Destiny calls. I would allow it to unfold as it
will. Actually, I would be an active agent in enabling it to unfold as it
must. That is a different way of looking at things. In the later
way, my will matters ... my will makes a difference in the world, especially if
it is aligned with the will of consciousness.
What benefit do I expect
you to get from the book? One, it exposes you to a stream of consciousness
expression, to spirit expressing in flesh. Two, it provides the
opportunity to walk in my shoes, in my consciousness for awhile, and perhaps
thereby to gain a glimpse of awareness different than you normally
experience. Three, it allows you to see how productive spirit can be, even
on a part time basis, in our lives. Four, it provides insight into how you
function that can be used to change your life.
I don't expect to reach
70. I may be surprised, but my sense is that I will have completed my
mission by then and that it will be time to move onto other adventures in
consciousness.
Is what I have to say worth reading? And, if so, to
whom? It seems that it would make an interesting textbook for a psychology
class dealing with how consciousness is experienced by one who is in the manic
phase of bipolar much of the time.
It is astonishing to me that I can do
this day after day. It would be nice to know how others experience
consciousness. To what degree is it the same as my experience, and in what
aspects is it different. I haven't studied anything of this nature.
Yes, I've read a lot of metaphysical books. But, I don't know that they
really explained how consciousness works.
Once again we find it
necessary to come here to express what consciousness would have us
express. Why is that? Why is this such an important part of my
life? It is not clear that it matters why.
For your eyes
only. Yes, that phrase comes forth again. Is all of this an
elaborate training ground for my consciousness? Indeed, it could be.
I have to offer that. Yet, at the same time, the idea seems distasteful
and revolting somehow.
I am no closer now to knowing how all of this is
able to manifest than I was when the communication started. It still comes
forth as stream of consciousness from a place inside that I call source.
But, being able to name something is not the same as understanding what it is.
What would I bring forth today? Whatever spirit would bring forth
through me, as always. I don't understand how consciousness works.
However, I know enough to enable her to express through me on these pages.
Are these words such that they would be of utility to inquiring minds
who want to know how consciousness works? After all, this is a stream of
consciousness in expression. One can learn a lot about consciousness by
observing what she creates.
This record is being generated for a
reason. Yes, it allows me to go back and see where I was on a particular
day in my life. But, the sense is that it is being recorded for the
benefit of others as well. It is meant to show others what is possible,
and that their own stream of consciousness is just as varied and as valuable.
Life is a grand adventure in consciousness. That is exactly what
it is meant to be.
It is curious that I who has so little to say to
anyone in person can have so much to say to the world here. Yet the world
is an indescript audience. It has no face. There are no specific
individuals that constitute it. So, effectively I am saying all of this to
me. Hmm ... for your eyes only comes to mind again. Though, it does
not seem reasonable that consciousness would go to all of this trouble just for
me. Then again, it is really no trouble. It is the natural
expression of a stream of consciousness. There is no work involved.
The expression simply flows forth to fill whatever time I give to it.
I
wonder how many people are finding and reading these expressions from
consciousness? Is the number sufficient to justify all the labor that goes
into their production?
The bottom line is that what is expressed here
must be expressed, and it must be expressed by me. Who it is for in the
short term and in the long term will be decided by consciousness. My part
is to do as I am moved to do. In particular, I am to bring the expression
forth, and to share it in whatever manner I am moved.
I am to have a
role to play in raising the consciousness of the people around me.
I have
never been moved to rewrite or perform any major editing on any of the Beyond
Imagination expression that has come forth since 1993. It effectively
comes forth in final form. It is as if I am reading something that
consciousness has already completed. That is an interesting way of looking
at things. Will it always be this way? Will I always be able to
count on the stream of consciousness to come forth with finished works?
Probably not. It seems that I have a mind for a reason ... and that it is
time that I engaged it more in this expression.
But how do I know that
this expression is not for my eyes only? It just seems to be such a waste
of effort if this expression is not meant to be shared with others.
Everything within me says that this is not being done only for me ... that
others might benefit from what is expressed here. In particular, this
stream of consciousness provides an example of what consciousness can do and how
she can express through us.
This expression is a record of a stream of
consciousness ... a stream that anyone can follow, a stream that hopefully leads
you to increased awareness of whom that you are and what you came to do.
Does the stream have a purpose? To date, not that I can tell ... other
than to be a vehicle for consciousness to express.
I am a way shower,
one who would show the world a new way of being. No, that does not mean
that everyone should live as I live. However, there is much to be learned
from what I have been able to demonstrate in terms of consciousness, or spirit,
expressing in flesh in the world. The very facts that this stream of
consciousness expression exists and is shared in the manner that it is offer
great hope for the world. They show that we know far more than we ever
dreamed that we knew. Literally, our abilities are Beyond
Imagination.
You might say that I am spoiled. I have tasted what it
is like for consciousness to express freely and openly ... and I have loved what
I have experienced.
How do we make this expression our life's
work? In a way, it already is. It is the work that counts
anyway. It is the work that is likely to have a lasting value ... perhaps
extending past my own existence. Will it also be understood in my own
time? I would hope so. Overall, the ideas expressed are not
difficult. The nature of the stream of consciousness is different than has
been expressed elsewhere ... but many of the themes addressed are
similar.
This stream of consciousness meanders where it will. It is
not under my control other than to allow it to come forth or not. And,
even there, it is not clear how much choice I really have.
What makes me
think that any of this is worthy of public consumption? I enjoy what is
expressed. But, would others find it interesting or beneficial? My
sense is yes. The chief reason for this is that it offers a fresh
perspective. It demonstrates consciousness in expression in a way that is
rare and precious. The mystery behind its expression makes it that much
more interesting.
There is nothing that I have to hide. My hope is
that this expression would be of benefit to the world, that it would help people
to experience different states of consciousness than they are accustomed to ...
and to do so without the use of drugs. By walking in my stream of
consciousness for awhile, you tune into a spiritual station similar to a radio
station. If you do this enough, you may be able to learn to change the
channel to one that is your own ... so that you can experience spirit expressing
through you directly.
It is interesting to observe how this stream of
consciousness twists and turns on its way to only spirit knows
where.
Gini had a flyer on an Astrology conference coming up this
fall. I wonder if there are similar conferences in metaphysics where I
might present some of my work to an audience that is somewhat open minded as far
as these kinds of things go. Also, do I have insights into the nature of
consciousness that might tie into some of the consciousness research that is
being done? No, my methods are not objective or scientific ... but
consciousness is a very subjective experience. The fact that I have
recorded so much of a stream of my own consciousness should make for interesting
study. Could my books be used as textbooks some day for classes on the
nature of consciousness? Consciousness is as consciousness does. This
expression is what consciousness does ... at least in my life. So, how do
I find others who are exploring consciousness and how it expresses in flesh in
our lives? The immediate answer that comes to mind is to find others whose
works resonate with my own and initiate contact.
I know ... this line of
thinking is a bit on the strange side, perhaps even more than a bit. But,
what can I say. This is my stream of consciousness.
Here we have
consciousness expressing freely and openly. But, is what is expressed
worthy of consumption?
This work shows consciousness in expression in a
manner that is different than anything that I have ever seen expressed.
That makes it worth it. It provides an example of what consciousness can
do. Also, because I have lived such an isolated life ... the evolution of
my consciousness and its awakening were relatively free from much of the dogma
of society.
What does this stream of consciousness expression do that is
of value? One, it provides an example of what one consciousness has
done. Two, it provides techniques and guidance for becoming more aware and
living ones life more consciously. Three, it provides a mental pathway
that can be engaged in to alter ones state of consciousness. Four, it
provides an example of what spirit manifesting in flesh can do.
The
words are slow in coming today. I'm not sure why. Sometimes it is
like that. We go with the flow however it flows. This is stream of
consciousness stuff after all, what other choice do we have?
I firmly
believe that I am a wayshower. In particular, I am demonstrating a way of
expressing consciousness in flesh ... a way that I hope would inspire and
encourage others to follow.
What makes me think that a stream of
consciousness is interesting enough to be worthy of attracting an
audience? I only know that the expression fascinates me. It engages
my mind and my consciousness in a way that nothing else that I have ever read
does. It is curious that I say have ever read ... even though this
expression is generated through me.
This expression has taught me more
about the nature of consciousness than anything else in my life. Can it do
the same for others? My sense is that yes, it can.
Every minute
engaged in this expression is worth it to me. I may not know exactly why
at times. But, there is a sense that here is where I confront my
destiny. This is where I get to be whom that I AM. This is where I
get to express in ways that I cannot in any other aspects of my life. Here
is where my consciousness is given the reigns to do as she will in my life.
A voice from beyond imagination speaks into my consciousness and I relay
what she says. What is of me versus what is through me? There is no
distinguishing this anymore.
I don't believe that the mind is captured
within the brain, just as software is not captured within the hardware of a
computer. Yes, without the hardware, the software could not run ... but
the software exhibits an intelligence and functionality of its own that was not
intrinsic to the hardware. I don't believe that consciousness is captured
within the brain either. Yes, it is expressed physically through the brain
... but it exists in another domain as well. I believe awareness to be
more than patterns of brainwaves, though particular levels of awareness may
indeed correspond to certain brainwave patterns. The question of which
comes first comes to mind. Does the state of consciousness create the
corresponding brain states or the other way around? My sense is that the
state of consciousness comes first and creates the necessary organization to
allow it to manifest in flesh. If it were the other way around, there
would be a whole lot more trial and error making it much more difficult to grow
and evolve.
My sense is that spiritual growth is destined. It
follows an overall plan for the increased expression of spirit in flesh over
time. The time involved spans millennia, but the march of consciousness
proceeds ever onward. We cannot stop or even impede its progress.
Time itself marks the level of awareness as it unfolds. Time cannot move
forward unless consciousness does as well.
I would build the foundations
that allow spirit to more fully express in flesh. I know that I can do
this because I have been able to establish such foundations in my own life ...
in my mind and in my consciousness. I share these with all who venture
into this space that I call Beyond Imagination. My hope is that my secrets
are somehow revealed in this expression. I don't know how to explain much
of this directly. One learns what consciousness can be by walking in the
shoes of where other consciousnesses have been.
I have always found that
the great quotes were some of the best places to start. They quickly take
one to an altered state of consciousness, where the power of the quote is
manifest.
How do I carve out the role that I would prefer to play within
this organizational structure. Or, better yet ... is there a way to leave
the structure altogether and work directly in the service of consciousness?
Consciousness is that powerful. When she expresses, whole new
realms of reality are born to be experienced by all who are drawn to
them.
Here is where I share the most intimate conversation that I have
with source, that I have with my self. This is the stream of consciousness
that I am moved to capture. This is the record that I make of where my
consciousness has been.
Do I believe in myself enough to believe that
the products of my consciousness are worth something on the free market?
To that, I would have to answer yes. But, selling the works is a different
matter entirely.
I was reading something earlier that dealt with the
idea that one of the chief powers that we had was the control over our own
thoughts. Yet, this stream of consciousness runs completely counter to
that idea. I do not control what is expressed. I may have some
control over when it is expressed ... but even there, it seems that I am moved
by a force that I cannot resist.
I have chosen to participate in this
expression on many levels, most of which seem to be other than conscious.
But, at least for the past decade, it has been conscious as well. I come
to the blank screen, look within, and open my mind to what consciousness would
express through me. I've done it so much that it is a natural form of
expression for me.
It doesn't matter whether others express in a like
manner. I am a unique expression of consciousness. We all are.
We must be who we are.
What is it that makes this particular stream of
consciousness worthy of being recorded and shared in this manner?
We
express because that is what consciousness does. She expresses where she
can when she can through whatever resources she is given.
This expression
has provided me with the opportunity to learn so much about myself and about the
nature of consciousness. I would not trade that experience for
anything. Clearly, one benefit is that I have become a more aware person
in the process. Though, it is not clear how one teaches awareness to
another.
How does what I express compare with that of others? Is
there need for comparison? Is it not enough that the expression is what it
is ... a stream of consciousness?
Perhaps it isn't apparent from day to
day or even from paragraph to paragraph ... but there is an intelligence that is
arranging all that is expressed here, and I do not consciously know that
intelligence to be me. I participate, yes. But, I have no sense of
originating all of this. Yes, I see it come forth through my
consciousness. However, that is the key, through my consciousness. I
don't sense that it is generated by my consciousness.
I'm an active
observer of what is expressed just as you are. It takes me by surprise
that consciousness can express in this manner at all, much less that she can do
so through me.
We have each come to carry out a role in a spiritual
master plan for the unfoldment of consciousness. At some point in our life
we will realize what that role is, and we will have the opportunity of choosing
to accept it or turn it down. Of course, I would advocate accepting it at
all costs.
The workings of consciousness are truly a mystery.
Perhaps we shall never fathom her depths.
Sometimes, the best that we
can do is be aware of the existence of something, and learn enough to control
and harness it so that we can use it to manifest things in our lives. Much
of the spiritual is of that nature. And, consciousness is primarily
spiritual in nature.
The body is physical, the brain/mind is mental, the
hormones/glands are emotional ... consciousness itself is
spiritual.
Sound body, sound emotions, sound mind ... form a basis for
sound consciousness.
My body and emotions leave much to be desired, but
my mind is solid and sharp, and my consciousness is far more highly developed
than most. This suggests that perhaps a sound triad for a basis is nice
but not a necessity.
One year. Can it really make that much
difference? Indeed it can! It can make all the difference in the
world. Just look at what 1993 did for me. Within one year, I went
from being asleep to being awake in consciousness. That was a huge change,
one with repercussions to this day over ten years later.
It seems that
much of the material would make for an interesting case study in the area of
consciousness and its expression.
How is it that consciousness can
express in this manner though me ... when she does not appear to express through
others in similar ways?
Consciousness seems to have her own direction in
mind for my life. I have no choice but to follow her lead. Actually,
perhaps I have a choice, but I choose to follow where consciousness leads me.
I take full responsibility for my actions. Yes, consciousness led
the way, but I am still responsible. After all, what is this part of
consciousness that I follow? It is a part of me as well.
It amazes
me that I create all this, or that all of this is created through me. Yet,
here it is before my eyes such that there is no denying it. Had it been
merely thoughts that passed across the screen of my mind, that would have been
one thing. My limited remembrance would have effectively meant that much
of what was expressed was lost. But, here, I have been moved to capture
the expression in writing so that it is a permanent record of a stream of
consciousness.
The nature of the expression is different. It has
something to offer that other material of its type does not. As a stream
of consciousness expression, it is an example that can be followed that takes
the mind and consciousness of the reader to a different state.
Perhaps
the book is the starting point. Yet, it does not seem to be the kind of
stuff from which bestsellers are made. Then again, I might be pleasantly
surprised. There might be a market for using it as a textbook for a course
in consciousness or in the spiritual experiences of a bipolar patient. Can
I get academic interest in helping to explain what I have experienced,
subjective though it may be? I would be curious to see how they explain
some of this ... in particular, how consciousness functions and how awareness
works.
There is something about this stream of consciousness that must be
captured. The sense is that it is being captured in this manner for a
reason, so that it is readily available to those who are meant to see it when
the time comes.
We call these communications musings. For one
thing, they amuse us. For another, they spring forth from spirit or
consciousness, the source or muse within us.
I learn from what is
expressed. I learn about myself, but more importantly, I learn about the
nature of consciousness and how she expresses in our lives.
In this
expression, I am interdependent on spirit herself to provide the very stream of
consciousness that gets expressed. Without spirit, none of this would
exist ... none of this expression would have ever been captured.
The
unknown is ever-present in virtually everything. If it were not, life
might be boringly predictable ... too much so to be tolerable. Then again,
some might find such a life safe and comfortable. That is not a life for
explorers however, especially for those who would be explorers of
consciousness.
Who pays explorers of consciousness to do what they do?
Who consumes such an expression? Who would read such an expression
on a daily basis? What is the expansion of consciousness worth? Does
this material promote and support the expansion of consciousness? If it
does what I believe that it does, then it is well worth this price and
more.
I spend close to 20 hours per week glued to the keyboard typing
away ... allowing this expression from consciousness to manifest in my life, and
your life too if you are reading this. This expression is the one thing
that I do that has a chance of surviving physically once I am dead and gone.
I believe in utopias, in Camelot, in establishing heaven on earth.
What makes me believe? Is it wishful thinking? Perhaps. Or, is it a
deep faith in the nature of spirit as she expresses in our lives and in our
world? Yes, I have such a faith. It was not something that I was
taught, nor does it seem to be something that I was born with. Rather, it
seems to have developed naturally as my life unfolded ... as my consciousness
was unveiled.
My circle of acquaintances is relatively small.
Perhaps even very small by most peoples standards. But, what I can do is
generate words. In particular, words that convey a meaning that
consciousness would express through me at this time. This is what I do
best. This is what I can offer the world. Does my offering have
value? In my eyes, it does ... great value. But then I am biased in
this matter.
Consciousness will not be forced. She reveals what
can be revealed through us in each moment.
My attempts to share to date
have fell somewhat on deaf ears. They haven't led to deep metaphysical
discussions on the nature of mind, self, consciousness, spirit, or reality
creation.
The basic trend is that this expression manifests daily.
What it manifests varies substantially from day to day, and from paragraph to
paragraph for that matter. The stream of consciousness wanders where it
will and I follow wherever it takes me. I trust spirit enough to give her
latitude in my life.
There is something about spontaneous creative
expression. It elevates one to a whole new level of consciousness,
especially when one experiences being aware of being the one through whom the
creative expression is happening.
I still have no recall of what I wrote
earlier. Even when I read it, it only stays fresh in my mind for a brief
period then it retreats somewhere into the dim recesses of my mind. That
seems OK. If I were too bogged down with what had been expressed before,
there would be no room for creating and expressing something new. So, it
seems this is simply part of the process. It is for me to trust that this
is a natural mode for the expression of my consciousness.
How do we
enable spirit to more fully express in flesh? Yes, she needs our help in
this endeavor. We are her arms, her ears, her legs, her hands. It is
through us that she does her works in the world. Her works are our works
and, as a result, our works are her works too. There is only
spirit/consciousness in expression. There is literally nothing
else.
Spirit herself doesn't seem to be willing to provide such
order. She allows the stream of consciousness to meander and/or rage where
it will. I haven't done much to control or shape what is expressed
either. I simply allow it to come forth as it will.
I liken the
stream of consciousness to a computer program. Each sentence is like a
line of code performing its intended function. Since I don't know exactly
what that is, it makes it difficult to decide what to keep and what to
eliminate. Though, the raw musings have it all. There is no editing
nor filtering of what is expressed here. This is the stream of
consciousness as it came forth. Does that make it of value? I
believe that it does. And, great value at that. But, who am I
to judge. Being the creator of all of this ... or at least the one through
whom it is created, I am clearly biased. I think highly of my own
work. Perhaps we all do. Yet, I know enough to know that such
expression as this is rare.
I am almost always aware of being the
observer, even as I am aware of observing myself being the observer.
Consciousness can get very convoluted at times as she bends back and reflects on
herself.
My days would not be the same without this daily ritual.
For 2-3 hours per day, I set aside my normal day to day concerns and allow
consciousness to express through me as she will. I consider this to be a
high quality use of my time ... an investment in getting to know myself and
hopefully doing something that will ultimately help others in the process.
There is something about this stream of consciousness expression that is
unique. There is literally nothing else like it. How do I know
that? Clearly I haven't read everything. But, I have read a
lot. And I don't recall anything similar. Does that mean that it is
any good? I believe so. But, most authors believe that their works
are good.
I've already suggested that the work might be used as a text
in a course on the nature of consciousness. I would expect that such
courses will become more prevalent as we march onward into the Aquarian Age.
This stream of consciousness challenges conventional knowledge as to
what should be possible for a being to experience and to express.
Awareness has this way of poking holes in conventional
foundations. When we awaken, our consciousness operates at a whole new
level ... one that could not be predicted from anything that we did or
experienced before.
I continue to express as consciousness would have me
express. Even after a decade, there is still a sense of mystery and magic
to all of this. Consciousness unveils herself piece by piece, but there is
always an unknown element in the expression. It is this unknown that
excites the explorer within me. It is in search of this unknown that I
venture out of my own consciousness to try to experience something more,
something greater than I know myself to be. My own consciousness is the
tool through which I search and my experience is what I find. Yes, this is
different than most. What I find is different because my consciousness is
different and what I search for is different.
I watched the movie
Altered States earlier today. It was quite fascinating. The sense I
got from it however is that altered states of consciousness are very much the
unknown territory. Further, they are subjective experiences. It is
not clear that they will ever succumb to the scientific method.
Celine
Dion sings A New Day Has Come as I write this. This is a powerful song
announcing the birth of a New Age, though it doesn't explicitly mention that in
its words. Then sense is that the song is a marker of sorts, a cosmic
marker applied by consciousness to mark a major astrological event ... the
changing of an age ... the coming of a new day.
In this very expression,
I ask you to walk in the footsteps of my consciousness to catch a glimpse of the
reality that is Wayne's World. You may or may not like what you
find. You may consider me to be out of my mind. That is OK. I
do myself at times. Consciousness has chosen to give me some interesting
experiences to integrate.
How can I forget what comes through so
readily? You would think that the process of bringing this expression
through my consciousness would engrain it somehow. Yet, it does not.
Within minutes of expressing something, I am at a loss for what has just been
expressed. And, I'm not just talking about the details. I don't even
remember generalities.
The creativity of consciousness seems to know no
bounds. She always finds more to express in more and more effective ways.
What is a change in one's state of consciousness worth? Can I
guarantee that such will be an outcome of reading this? No, there are no
guarantees. But, there is a strong likelihood. By walking in my
shoes for awhile, by experiencing what this consciousness has thought ... you
get to take a journey of sorts to another realm, one that is probably foreign to
your habitual way of thinking, and hence may serve as a stimulus to wake you up
just a bit.
Are these words powerful enough to do that? Taken as a
whole, perhaps. But, even more so as triggers for your own monitions of
consciousness. Just as I am moved by consciousness, so you too can be
moved. It is a matter of finding the source within, developing the
connection to that source, listening to that connection, and acting on the
information that comes from that connection.
Now, I am free to express
whatever consciousness would have me express. At this time that seems to
be more important.
Relationships ... that is the core of the
difficulty. I have not established the appropriate relationships to allow
me to thrive as a being in the world. At least, I've developed the one
relationship that seems to count the most, my relationship to spirit, to
consciousness herself. But, this needs to be reflected in relationships
with others to be real.
Each day the process is the same. I step
aside a bit and allow something to flow forth. Does it come from me?
Clearly it comes through me, but I have no sense that it comes from me.
Then, from whom does it come? From source or consciousness herself is the
only answer that makes any sense to me.
There is a unknown realm of
consciousness. Part of that realm will always remain unknown. We
will always have things for which we can seek. We will always have an
unknown territory to explore.
This expression exercises my
consciousness. And, if you are reading this, it exercises yours as
well. Though reading is not quite the same as originating the
material. However, it is a close second. At least it allows you to
engage your consciousness in the same train of thoughts.
Our founding
fathers claimed that one of our inalienable rights was the pursuit of
happiness. They said nothing about actually finding and achieving this
state of consciousness.
Every experience programmed my mind and my
consciousness to be able to experience what was to follow.
There is a
sense that I could teach, primarily in the area of metaphysics and how
consciousness expresses in flesh.
This highly introverted focus
convoluted the way that my brain perceived things. But, in the process, it
created patterns that could become the home for new and higher forms of
consciousness. There is a sense that all of this was an elaborate computer
programming process, one that enabled my brain/mind to establish data structures
that allowed me to perceive the world in new ways.
Here, I must manifest
words out of nothingness. For most of my paid work, there is always a
starting point. Though, in both places, it is consciousness that does the
work through me.
What triggers me to change from one task to the
next? The bottom line is that I don't really know. It just
happens. I just allow it to happen. My consciousness changes course,
and I move with it. I don't feel that I choose the course. It is
more like the course chooses me.
Overall my day is fairly
unstructured. It is up to me to decide how to focus my consciousness on
the tasks that need to get done and even to determine what tasks need to be
done.
I choose to actively engage whom that I AM in this
expression. Yet, it is an expression that is still a mystery to me ...
even after over a decade. It comes forth automatically. I don't
think about it, or organize it in any way. It is simply a stream of
consciousness. But, as you'll see, a stream of consciousness is not so
simple at all.
Here I am engaged in the dance of consciousness in a way
that nothing that I was ever taught prepared me for.
We're already
nearing 1200 words for todays expression. That's a pace of over 600 words
per hour. How long can I keep up such a pace? Or, should I say how
long can consciousness? It seems that she continues to have something to
say so long as I give her the resources through which to speak.
The
stream of consciousness continues to wander where it will. I don't feel a
need to harness or direct it.
I engage in this dance of
consciousness. I give consciousness a voice through my fingers onto this
screen in front of me ... and ultimately in front of you. I take the time
to record what consciousness would express through me in this manner, trusting
that it is worthy of being captured and shared, even though I may never get any
feedback from it.
Am I on a five year cycle and ready for another
fall? Or, have I learned my lessons better this time and planted myself on
more solid ground ... perhaps even on bedrock this time? I feel more
integrated and more grounded. Yet, my consciousness still finds time to
soar to heights beyond itself.
There is something about exploring the
realms of the unknown, especially the unknown of consciousness, that excites
me. This is what I do. If I knew how to make it my vocation ... I
would do so.
This is an Age of Spiritual manifestation unlike anytime
that has existed before. Consciousness is about to flower in ways that she
has never done. We have seen hints of what she is capable of in
individuals here and there. However, we are about to see consciousness
unleashed on a massive scale through organizations of people that have never
chosen to cooperate in such a manner before.
We live in an interesting
time in the history of humankind ... in the history of consciousness.
There
is a plan of consciousness that is being enacted. Day by day it is being
unveiled.
I have spent over 10 years expressing this stream of
consciousness. I must be qualified to do it, because I do it, and I
consider myself quite good at it. Though, this is a subjective assessment.
To some degree, I live my life as a drifter ... going where the winds of
consciousness blow me.
This expression is recorded in this manner for a
reason ... perhaps for many reasons. First, so that I have a record of
this stream of consciousness that I can go back to at any time. Second, so
that I can share this stream of consciousness with the world.
I do what
I do because I can and because I must. I am driven to do it by an inner
prompting of spirit. The investment results in a tangible product.
There is a sequence of words, on the order of 2000 words per day that are
captured as this stream of consciousness comes forth. Each day, something
is created ... something that contains ideas, some of which may potentially
change the world as we know it.
As you walk though my states of
consciousness word by word, idea by idea ... you experience something that you
could not otherwise experience.
I have to believe that consciousness is
expressing through me in this manner for a reason. I may not know what
that reason is exactly. But, life has purpose in my world. And,
while you are treading on these words ... you are in the realm of Wayne's
World. Here is where I exist, more than anywhere else. Here is where
I put my energies and my talents. Here is where I put my attention and my
focus. These thoughts are real to me. The ideals conveyed herein may
still be in the clouds ... but I have a strong desire to build the foundations
under them that allow them to be realized on earth.
I freely choose to
come here to engage in this stream of consciousness expression. I consider
it to be the most productive use of my time that I could engage in.
The
nature of consciousness is a big topic, one that few seem qualified to address
even though all have some experience of consciousness on a daily
basis.
There is something about creative expression that brings out the
best in us. It activates us in ways that nothing else does. For me,
it allows my consciousness to soar to new heights ... an experience that the
explorer in me is ever in search of.
Since most of what I experience is
states of consciousness, that is what I try to capture and convey. My hope
is that my words are sufficient to propel you into similar states of
consciousness.
Flexibility of consciousness is a goal that we are
attempting to achieve. The more flexible, the better. Though, that
doesn't mean that we should lack resolve where principles are
concerned.
Who am I to be able to speak as authoritatively as I do on the
topics that I do? The nature of self, of consciousness, of reality, and of
reality creation are some pretty powerful topics. They are also about as
abstract as we can get. However, they do have practical applications.
What is brought forth is the best that consciousness could express
through us at the time it was expressed. Use utility as your guide for
what to accept and what not to accept. Just because I say something
doesn't necessarily make it so. Find that place within you that knows and
let that be your ultimate guide.
Does it matter whether I express 1200
words or 2000 words or 3400 words on a given day? It must matter to
consciousness or she wouldn't drive me to express as she does.
The
creativity of consciousness is without measure. It exceeds any and all
bounds that we try to place on it. Once it is unleashed in our lives, we
can never go back to being what we were before ... for we are awakened to the
spirit that we are. We have touched the fire within.
Spirit and
consciousness come across as being feminine to me. I don't question why
... that is just what I experience. It has always been this way for me.
My awareness expands each time consciousness expresses through me ...
especially when something new is expressed.
I'm ever having to expand my
concepts of reality and reality creation to account for what this expression
brings into my life. That is OK, I've become used to it by now. This
is more than mind-expanding. This is consciousness expanding, This
is beyond mind, it is beyond imagination. Imagination is a very powerful
tool in our arsenal for reality creation. However, consciousness does not
restrict herself to the tools of the mind, though she uses these to the degree
that they can be used.
I trust that this stream of consciousness
expression is worthy of being captured and being shared.
Our
consciousness demands the freedom to be more and to express more. To do
this requires increased awareness.
Awareness is our connection to
source, to the spirit, the one consciousness that spawned
us.
Consciousness is choosing to use more of my faculties to accomplish
her works. That, or I am allowing consciousness to use more of my
faculties. Why not? Consciousness should have free reign to use all
of whom that I AM.
I have said before that consciousness not I is the
source for all of this. Yet, clearly I have a role to play as well.
Without me doing what I do, none of this would be manifested in this
manner. Yet, without spirit doing what she does, I could not begin to
express in this way. So, this is a marriage of sorts, a joint venture
between spirit and I.
The expression is expressed because consciousness
would have it expressed and because I agree to cooperate and co-create it.
It is that simple.
We have over a decade worth of stream of
consciousness expression captured there. If my rough count is right, we
are rapidly approaching 3 million words. Yes, that is a lot of
expression. It would be impressive for a lifetime. But, that it has
come forth part time in ten years is remarkable.
Consciousness seems to
have a lot to say, enough to fill whatever time we choose to alot to this
expression.
It is not clear that the words do justice to the spiritual
states that they attempt to describe, but they are as close as I can come at the
moment. My hope is that by reading these words you will be triggered to
enter similar states of consciousness to those that I have
experienced.
Each day we start fresh and go wheresoever consciousness
would take us.
I feel a sense of duty to use the many gifts that I have
been given in service ... primarily in service to spirit, but in service to
society, humankind, and even the whole world in the process. Can what one
person does have that much impact? Can it make that much of a
difference? I have to believe that the answer is yes. That is one of
the reasons I choose to express for consciousness as I do. Because I can
and because I must ... but more importantly, because of the nature and value of
what is expressed. Yes, all of this is expressed through me not by
me.
Consciousness seems to never run out of things to say.
I
generally don't say much. But, here, I am free to speak volumes. Is
that because it is not me doing the speaking and because I am not speaking to
anyone in particular? Perhaps. However, consciousness knows who the
ultimate audience will be even if I do not. Spirit does not work in the
blind. She knows exactly what she is doing and why. I choose to go
along for the ride, trusting that spirit has my own best interests at heart as
well.
Effectively, I am the container that spirit fills. She can
only take the shape of the forms that I provide for her. The container
that matters most to me is clearly that of my consciousness. It is this
that I allow spirit to fill as she will.
I've been particularly
wishy-washy in the area of relationships. It seems I need to be crystal
clear here to give consciousness something more to work with. But, do I
really know what I want? Do I know what is missing?
We've relied on
consciousness for many years, and she has served us faithfully. However,
it seems that it is time to take responsibility for our own destiny and set our
own course.
How do I make writing my vocation? And, not just any
writing, this very stream of consciousness expression? Who would be
willing to pay to have this created on a daily basis? Is this something an
individual or a company would fund?
This is an example of a stream of
consciousness from an awake and aware being. Much of its value comes from
the fact that it is precisely that. Yes, I can be grandiose at
times. Perhaps I am being so now. But, what am I supposed to make of
the fact that there have been roughly 2.5 million words expressed here in the
past decade?
I will do whatever it takes to accomplish the mission that
I came to accomplish. And, since I believe this to be in accord with the
plan for the evolution of consciousness, I have no doubt that I will succeed ...
for consciousness is behind me in this.
I'm grateful for all that I have
been blessed to experience ... especially the levels of awareness, and the
serving as a vessel through which consciousness can speak.
Do these
words help to awaken those who may still be asleep? Do they activate
pathways of consciousness that are fresh and new? From my vantage point
... this is exactly what they do.
You would think that I would intimately
know what I had so intimately created. The fact that I don't says
something about the nature of consciousness. But, what does it say?
One might think that eventually I would run out of things to
express. But, consciousness has no such limits. It seems that her
depths are unfathomable. So long as she continues to be the source, I see
no reason to be concerned about reaching any limits to the expression.
Consciousness assures that we are exposed to that which we are ready to
see.
There is something about this expression that is special. It
brings out the best in me. It allows me to grow in ways that I could not
do otherwise. It continuously stretches my concept of whom that I Am,
forcing me to realize firsthand that I am far more than I ever knew
possible. There is nothing like firsthand experience, especially when it
comes to matters of consciousness.
In my reality framework, it is spirit
or consciousness herself that does the moving.
It seems that no matter
how much attention we give to this expression, there is always more waiting to
come forth. It is as if it is already finished somehow, and we are just
reading it to bring it forth. I know, that is an over-simplification, but
it seems close to what I experience. No, I don't see a book, a scroll, or
a screen from which I am reading this. It just appears as a voice in my
mind. I say voice. I hear it in my head. It is the stream of
my consciousness.
I don't know what feeds it or why it flows as it
does. I don't know why I experience it as I do. I only know that for
just over ten years, I have been moved to take notice and capture a particular
portion of the stream of consciousness that I experience.
Capturing this
stream of consciousness and sharing it, is one of the tasks that I am here to
do.
I believe that this stream of consciousness deserves to be
heard. It provides a record of one consciousness in action over an
extended period of time on a fairly regular basis.
The material
might serve as source material for a course on the nature of
consciousness.
What is the difference between thinking and a stream of
consciousness? I don't know how to answer that anymore. This is what
fills my head these days. When I am not expressing, much of the time my
mind is blank.
Is what is expressed here my stream of thoughts?
Stream of thoughts, stream of consciousness ... is there a difference?
Thoughts we typically think of as being originated within us. I don't feel
that way necessarily about the stream of consciousness. It is expressed
through me. But, it is not of me. Is not the consciousness from
which the stream originates my consciousness? Perhaps, perhaps not.
The bottom line is that I have no way of knowing.
There is a spiritual
plan for the evolution of consciousness in the world. Part of that plan
deals with the level of awareness that consciousness will reach at various
points in the plan. This is a spiritual agenda.
Each of us must
ultimately find our own path. There are some roads that have been created
that we can follow if we so choose between established destinations. But,
the interesting places are in the unknown realms of consciousness ... at
least, the most interesting places for me.
There may be some paths and
occasionally some markers left by others who have preceded us. However,
typically our understanding is different than others ... so even though we have
reached the same place, we are really not in the same state of mind or state of
consciousness. Though, the states may be close enough that we can
communicate with one another and relate what we have experienced.
This
expression gives me a reason for living. It provides me with an
opportunity to encounter the unknown on a daily basis and to creatively express
whatever consciousness would bring forth each day.
Does this expression
serve people in some way? At the very least it provides some exercise for
the consciousness.
Consciousness has been expressing though me onto these
pages for over ten years now. I find that amazing. However, what is
most surprising is how little has resulted from all of this. Oh, there is
a Beyond Imagination web site with thousands of pages of metaphysical
expression. But, where are the works that come from all those words?
What difference has the expression made in the world?
Once again we come
here to provide consciousness the opportunity to express as she will. We
do this willingly. To be honest, we have nothing better to do with our
time. This expression is that important ... or it seems that important to
me anyway.
Consciousness by its very nature is subjective. It is
something that we experience firsthand.
The reader should be experience a
different state of consciousness as a result of coming into contact with this
expression. Do these words do that? Do these words take the reader
to a different state of consciousness or a different state of mind? Do
they show the reader what is possible when we allow spirit to assume a major
role in our lives?
If I am any judge of the quality of the material ... I
would say that what we have to say is definitely of value. However, many
may find the stream of consciousness format difficult to follow.
It is
the strangeness and uniqueness of my experience that make the book
interesting. In relating the nature of my reality, I challenge people's
concepts of who they believe that they are and what they believe about the
nature of reality and the nature of consciousness. I do this purposefully
... with the hope of helping people to awaken and become more aware of the grand
spiritual beings that they are.
We are all unique points of
consciousness. Each of us see the world in our own way.
I am a
writer ... a stream of consciousness writer, but a writer nonetheless. The
written word is how I express. It is a natural extension of whom that I am
somehow.
One more time we come to this special place where consciousness
would express through us. We try to do that each and every day ... and for
the most part we succeed.
The expression is coming forth slower than
normal tonight and we got a later start than usual. We'll have to see
where consciousness carries us. This is generally a surprise for me.
I never know what is going to come next. I just trust that whatever it is,
I will be both pleased and amazed.
How is it that this stream of
consciousness can run its course so readily? Why is it that this
particular stream of consciousness is selected to be captured, recorded, and
shared in this manner? What distinguishes this stream of consciousness
from other streams of consciousness?
I know that this is what I am here
to do. There is simply no doubt. Further, there is no doubt that I
will succeed in this endeavor, for consciousness herself is there guiding me
every step of the way. How could I fail with such loving
guidance?
There is a reason that this stream of consciousness expression
is captured in the manner that it is. My sense is that it is meant to be
an example of what is possible.
This is one thing I can count on.
When I go inside and tap the source for words, the stream of consciousness will
indeed be forthcoming. It has been this way for a decade. The sense
is that it will be this way for the remainder of my days.
Probably the
biggest benefit is the ego boost from being the one through whom this expression
is able to manifest. I take great pride in that. The grandiosity can
get extreme from time to time.
But, what else would you expect from
one dealing with the reality that I experience? Just accepting that all of
this expression comes forth through me is a major fact to deal with. There
is so much of it ... and the quality surpasses anything I might hope to generate
on my own. So, how do I explain what comes forth? It is what it
is. It is a stream of consciousness expression the source of which is
spirit herself.
For a decade, consciousness has been my constant
companion, my friend, my guide, my teacher. She has led me along my path
every step of the way. Even now, she feeds my mind with these words.
When she speaks, I listen ... and when I can, I act based on what I have heard.
How do I distinguish what consciousness does from what my own mind
does? Is it even necessary to make such a distinction? Consciousness
can only express physically, and this only occurs through our mind as expressed
through our brain. Ultimately, what counts is the physical
expression.
Consciousness is the star by which the ship of self should be
navigated.
Just as some people have GPS navigation systems in their cars,
it seems that some people have Cosmic navigation systems in their
consciousness.
This expression is my way of giving back to the world some
of what I have been so fortunate to receive. It is also my way of
discovering whom that I am in ways more intimate than in any other aspect of my
life. Here is where I interface with consciousness firsthand. Here
is where I see what spirit would produce in my life. Yes, it is a
lot. This stream of consciousness has had some run over the past decade
taking me to places and states of mind that were unknown to me before. I
have given consciousness a wide berth to take me where she will ... trusting
that she knew what she was doing and that it was all for my highest good.
I am being trained to play a particular role related to ushering in a
new age. This involves building the foundations required for spirit to
more fully express in flesh. It seems only right that I do this on a
personal scale first by building the inner infrastructure necessary for this
stream of consciousness to express as it does. That way, I know firsthand
of what I speak when I start to talk of infrastructures that allow others to do
the same ... and even more important, start combining together into
cooperatively interdependent organizations that allow new functions to be
performed or current functions to be performed more effectively.
What
does it take to live a spiritual life? What does it take to engage in the
dance of consciousness ... in the expression of spirit in flesh? The
bottom line is that it takes nothing except the realization that we are spirit
expressing in flesh now. We are consciousness dancing and singing our song
here and now.
If I help someone advance in consciousness, in particular,
they are in a better place from which to learn a similar lesson.
There
are a lot of topics worthy of exploration. And, I'm sure consciousness has
a lot to say on each of them.
More than anything else, we are
consciousness enfleshed, we are spirit having a physical experience. More
and more, we need to experience whom that we are in consciousness.
Consciousness is unfathomable. There are parts of her that will
remain unknown despite the greatest efforts on our part to understand
her.
Ten years of expressing this stream of consciousness from spirit has
shown me that I can trust it to come forth with reasonable material. It is
not all rational. Much of it relies on intuition. But, I have found
that intuition is equal to if not more powerful a process than reason
I
will do what it takes to build the foundations for a new world. That is no
small task. But, mine is no small consciousness.
How do we know
that we are not being moved out of self-interest or out of direction from
another? These are not questions I was ever moved to ask. It was so
obvious that spirit was at the steering wheel that I had no concerns in this
area. But, not everyone experiences things this way. Not everyone
spends hours per day as a vessel through which consciousness can speak.
That is why there are wayshowers. However, we must believe that we too can
do what we see the wayshowers demonstrate. That is the whole purpose of
their demonstrations. What I can do, you can do also. However, it is
not for you to do it my way ... it is for you to do it in your own
way.
Continuing with our topic oriented musings ... today we'll focus on
the nature of consciousness. What does it mean for us to be
conscious? This goes hand in hand with being aware ... and more than that,
being aware of being aware. I call this expression a stream of
consciousness. What does it say about consciousness that such a stream as
this could flow forth in this manner?
This expression is a fact in my
life, and in your life if you are reading this. It is not subject to
speculation. How is it that it can exist in this manner? I've asked
this question often. But, I don't think that I've come close to an
answer. I've resigned myself to accept the reality that it does exist ...
that consciousness expresses as she does in my life.
How does
consciousness differ from thought? What is the difference, if any, between
a stream of consciousness and a stream of thought? I don't know that I can
answer that. I typically think of thought as being more rational, but this
does not have to be the case.
Consciousness is as consciousness
does. You shall know her by her works. This stream of consciousness
expression is a perfect example. Consciousness is that which could produce
all of this. Yet, she is more than that as well. This expression is
the only part of her that I could capture and manifest physically.
Consciousness is more than my mind, yet she uses my mind as the tool through
which to pass this expression.
I am aware of being aware of so many
things even as I allow this expression to come forth. How does this
compare with how others experience consciousness? I don't know that I'll
ever know. Each of us is a unique expression of spirit, of
consciousness. It seems that some may be far more unique than
others. Then again, that seems to be partly a matter of personal
preference and how far from the norm we care to venture.
One difference
between consciousness and thought is the mental chatter. My mind is blank
a lot ... literally blank, with no thoughts, or few thoughts crossing it.
This stream of consciousness comes from a different place than my thoughts come
from. How do I characterize the difference? The source for the
stream of consciousness is deeper within me. It is a verbal source.
It expresses as a voice in my head that I type. When I think, it is
different. The process is more direct. There is not this voice as
the intermediary that is carrying the communication.
We typically speak
of our consciousness being composed of the subconscious, conscious, and
superconscious. And, indeed, these divisions do seem to exist on some
level. However, from another framework, we are a unified whole, and there
are no such divisions.
Our consciousness is one thing that we take with
us when we depart this existence. Our worldly possessions will remain in
the world ... but what we have become in consciousness, this cannot be taken
away, even by death. As to what form we will have after death, I do not
know. But, I am certain that the consciousness that I am will not cease to
exist, ever.
The very idea that life would offer only one existence in
which to learn and grow spiritually seems ludicrous to me. It makes far
more sense that souls, individualized sparks of spirit, would enter the world
and grow in consciousness via their experiences over many lifetimes.
Consciousness is extremely important in our lives. The degree to
which we are aware makes all the difference in the world. We are spiritual
beings having a physical experience. Consciousness is our way of staying
in touch with the spiritual part of us from which we spring.
Our
consciousness is very much like a muscle. It needs to be stretched and it
needs to be used so that it remains flexible.
"Wherever two or more of
you are gathered in my name ... there is love." How does consciousness
build in such endeavors? There is only ONE consciousness of which we all
are part. So, how do two consciousness, or three consciousness, or ... get
together to do anything? It would seem that we have the equation one + one
+ one + ... = ONE. Yet, no subset of the parts equals the whole. So,
what gives? Where we have more than one, we have synergy, the magic energy
that makes the whole more than the sum of its parts.
It is as if our
consciousness is the faucet through which the water of spirit flows. We
are in control of opening the faucet to control whether the water flows and to
control the force and volume that flows.
When the time has come for an
idea to take root, it seems that multiple consciousnesses are receptive to that
idea concurrently.
A separate level of connections is between people,
the conveyors of the information. Here, we may have colleagues
collaborating, or friends sharing, or even strangers becoming acquainted with
one another. Whatever relationships are necessary for consciousness to
express what must be expressed will be established. There is no question
about it. That is simply how life works. There is a divine order to
everything. There is a divine script that is being played out. Each
of us has a role to play ... often many roles, in the evolution of the
expression of consciousness in flesh. That is what it is all about ...
consciousness expressing in flesh.
I've spoken of there being an
audience for the works of Beyond Imagination. At this point in time, I
don't know who this audience might be ... but I trust that it is out there and
that somehow these works will find whoever they are meant to touch. It
seems that I may have a larger part to play in this than I had supposed. I
was happy to leave it to consciousness to spread the message to wherever it
needed to go. It seems that this may have been overly optimistic or naive.
Consciousness works through us. If things are to happen, they will
happen by and through us. We have to take responsibility. Yes,
spirit will ensure that what needs to be done is done. But again, not by
doing it herself ... rather by doing it through someone or some group.
We
take our orders from within. Interesting, because there is only ONE
consciousness expressing through us all, these orders will be
coordinated.
We are one people on one world on one planet, this spaceship
Earth. Further, we are animated by one consciousness. At what
point are we going to drop some of the country boundaries and start seeing one
another as the brothers and sisters that we are.
Each of us is a unique
spark of consciousness, and we will see the world in a whole new way that no one
has ever seen before.
Without the stream of consciousness flowing from
her ... most of what is expressed here would not exist. Yet, at the same
time, it is not all her doing. This expression is likened unto having a
baby ... both parents are equally responsible in creating the child, though the
female has the responsibility to carry it to term. It seems like I am the
father in this case and consciousness or spirit is the mother. Though, it
is through my mind that these thoughts must ultimately be given birth.
It is not yet clear who is meant to find and read this expression of
consciousness. Whoever it is will do so when the time is right.
Though, it seems that there may be things that I can do to facilitate making the
time right. Even then, I have to trust consciousness to move me to do
those things that are necessary when I need to do them.
This is a stream
of consciousness. As such, I have limited control over what comes forth
and how it comes forth. I say limited, because it does indeed seem that I
have some influence in this area.
Spirit is an active part of my life ...
a very active part. So active in fact, that I cannot imagine living my
life without her. I wouldn't want to. Yes, she is that important to
me. Yet, what is she? She is a source that I am able to connect with
somewhere deep inside of me. It is from out of this source that all of
this flows. This stream of consciousness expression is the direct tap from
that source ... filtered through my own consciousness and mind as necessary to
be expressed physically in this manner.
It is not clear that the stream
of consciousness will ever end ... at least not until I die, and perhaps not
even then.
Consciousness is the key that unlocks all the doors. In
fact, she is the very mansion of the Self. She is the stuff in all of the
rooms behind all of the doors.
I praise consciousness a lot. She
has been a positive influence in my life, in fact, the most positive of
influences.
This is a stream of consciousness expression. What do
I mean by that? Simply that it comes forth automatically as a flow of
consciousness revealed to my mind. I do not feel myself to be generating
it. Yes, I participate in creating it. But, it seems more from the
standpoint of mapping an energy pattern to my vocabulary to create this
expression.
I am comfortable with the role that the unknown plays in my
life. It makes for some interesting experiences, especially in the realms
of consciousness.
In a rapidly changing world, forms and organizations
either need to evolve or they will die. Flexibility is critical. The
forms that are necessary for spirit to express elegantly will indeed
manifest. There is an overall plan for the evolution of consciousness that
will ensure this.
What do I have to offer? This stream of
consciousness expression is the chief "product" that I have generated. Is
this sufficient to be worth something to someone? In particular, is it
worth the cost of a book and the time it takes to read it? That is not
something that is for me to answer.
The consciousness is a mystical and
magical place, but it can also be a frightening place. I have walked
to the very edge of sanity many times and lived to tell about it. You can
choose to do this for yourself, or you can choose to learn from my lessons as
you see fit.
As a stream of consciousness expression, this material
provides an example of what is possible to come forth from spirit through one
who is receptive to doing this kind of work.
There is something about
this freeform expression of consciousness that makes it different than other
writings
I don't do any deliberate writings. Everything is
spontaneous expression. Yet, somehow it hangs together. No, not
necessarily from paragraph to paragraph or from day to day. But, overall,
there is an organization behind all of this. That the organizing force is
unknown or is other than conscious, doesn't change the fact that there is an
organizing force. Whether that be consciousness, or spirit, or even some
part of me of which I am not consciously aware does not really
matter.
This is not the stuff of stories. I've never been one to
read much fiction. The closest I come is watching movies ... but that is a
different domain than that of the written word. Hmm ... some people
reading the material at this site might very well think they were reading
fiction. None of it is substantiated. None of it is proven. It
is what it is, the truth as I see it, stated as consciousness would reveal it
through me.
Unlike many authors, I didn't have hoards of people to thank
for their contributions toward bringing the work into being. Spirit
herself brought forth the stream of consciousness and as far as I know, I am the
only one that read it.
I don't know how fast others read ... but five
hours is probably not excessive for reading a 500 plus page nonfiction
book. At roughly $30, that is $6 per hour ... slightly more than the cost
of going to a movie. However, with the book, you can choose to pick it up
and reread any portion of it at any time. Further, the nature of this book
is such that it is filled with gems of wisdom from consciousness. Often,
they pronounce things that I didn't even know that I knew.
Consciousness
is ever a mystery. I trust that she will continue to be for all of my
days.
Flexibility is quite important ... flexibility of body,
flexibility of emotions, flexibility of mind, and flexibility of
consciousness.
For me, this expression qualifies as the most productive
use of my time ... primarily because it leaves a record of a stream of
consciousness that may ultimately benefit others.
Getting the works out
will allow many to come to know me. These are intimate works. They
reveal a level of thought, feeling, and knowing that is not generally
shared. Yet, as a wayshower, it seems right to show that consciousness can
indeed express in this manner.
The job is what I make of it. And,
there are elements of the job that I like. Yet, I still go back to the
deep seated feeling that this is not what I am here to do. Rather, it is
this stream of consciousness expression and the work of Beyond Imagination that
are my life's work. They are where I will ultimately make a difference
with my life.
Fortunately, for stream of consciousness material ... the
editing required is relatively minor.
The flow of consciousness is
natural. I am meant to be doing this. I know it.
The words
simply come forth automatically. I don't have to think about it. I
simply allow the stream of consciousness to do its thing in my brain and I type
what I hear.
I've made it very clear that I consider intuition far
superior to logic. Not that logic doesn't have its utility in its own
domains. As a systems engineer with formal training in Electrical
Engineering, I must admit that. But, in the realm of the unknown of
consciousness ... here reason and logic are completely out of their elements.
I just need to do what it takes to market myself ... and speak freely as
consciousness would speak through me.
I was a madman, possessed with
bringing forth a work of consciousness. It didn't matter that I didn't
know exactly from where it came or how I was able to bring it forth. It
was enough that it was manifesting before my eyes, day by day, thought by
thought.
It is time to manifest financial freedom. Easier said than
done you say. But, that is what these children of my consciousness are
for. They have come forth to liberate me.
We've learned a lot
about the Nature of Consciousness over the years. That might be a suitable
topic in it's own right for Book 11, pulling appropriate passages from what has
been expressed to date and adding new material to present a complete
picture.
Consciousness guides my every step. She moves me to do
what I do, and to express what I express.
This stream of consciousness
is the stream of my life. I have chosen to serve spirit, and in doing so
to serve my society and my world.
The Beyond Imagination books are
targeted for a relatively small market of folks interested in metaphysics, new
age, consciousness, self-help, reality creation, belief management, and the
like.
These works are entities in their own right. Yes, they are
born through a collaboration of consciousness and me. But, once born, they
are free to impact and influence others in the world. In this way, they do
their works. And, in this way, effectively I do my works and the works of
consciousness.
I bring forth whatever this stream of consciousness would
have me express. I am ever amazed by what is able to come forth.
Yes, even after a decade of expression ... this is all fresh and new.
If
we want to become good at something, about the only way is via practice.
We have to make a commitment to doing that thing on a regular basis. It is
no different with the things of consciousness.
Am I disciplined enough
to be able to make effective use of my time day in and day out in the service of
consciousness?
I'm still an isolated being, a hermit, expressing for a
source consciousness that comes forth through my intuition.
There is a
sense that we need to take advantage of each and every moment, and do what we
can to use those moments effectively. That doesn't mean that we can
neglect the day to day activities and tasks of living. We have to do our
part in this area too. But, clearly the spiritual domain has a special
attraction for me. It is here that I truly live my life. It is here
that I am free to soar on the wind of spirit as high and as far as my
consciousness can take me.
This stream of consciousness is unique.
There is nothing else like it that I have encountered in my vast readings.
Then again, perhaps every stream of consciousness is unique. Could it be
that each of us has such a stream of consciousness within us to which we can
connect?
All that has been expressed at Beyond Imagination over the past
decade is the crowning glory of my life. But, it comes from an equally
important unseen, consciousness herself.
What makes my stream of
consciousness any more special than that of anyone else? For one thing, I
am moved to record it in this manner.
Once again we come here to express
what consciousness would express through us. We still do this on a regular
basis ... close to daily.
I have a tendency to soar in consciousness ...
so much so that at times it seems that my feet leave the ground. By
itself, that is not necessarily bad. Society needs its dreamers to dream
of things that never were.
Consciousness doesn't work from wants.
It works from needs in line with what we believe that we deserve.
This
stream of consciousness always seems to have something to say ... no matter how
often we express or for how long. There is always more that can come
through. Is the source inexhaustible? As far as I can tell, it must
be.
Freeform stream of consciousness expression is still my preferred
mode of expression. There is something special about expressing when you
have no real idea where the communication is going. Hopefully, this makes
for interesting reading as well.
So long as I keep tapping into different
places in the stream of consciousness, the resulting expression will be
original. I don't know how to do this in any other way. I go within
to find the voice that would speak through me. And, I type what it would
have me say.
Is what is expressed here of such a nature that it could
impact the world ... and do so positively? My sense is yes, on several
fronts. First, it offers a sample of what consciousness can do in our life
if we allow her to. Second, it provides an example that people can follow
... that allows people to walk in my shoes for awhile.
Even after a
decade, I still find it difficult to believe that all of this could come forth
through me. But, that is something that is undeniable. I have a
growing body of evidence that confronts me in words from this stream of
consciousness expression.
If I do nothing else with my life, being the
wayshower and providing an example for others to follow into the realms of
consciousness is the one thing that I must accomplish.
Again we face the
blank page as we do so often lately. And again we call on consciousness to
fill it in whatsoever manner she will.
I cannot imagine a more
adventurous journey than the one that consciousness has taken me on. Here
I get to encounter and explore the unknown, and hopefully even make part of what
was unknown known.
I have known since the earliest days of this
expression that these works of consciousness were not mine alone ... they were
meant to be shared with an unseen audience.
For the most part, each day
I engage in a fresh new expression of consciousness. Each day, something
comes forth that never existed before. This is where the creative spark is
allowed to manifest as it will in my life.
It is curious that
consciousness speaks through me in this manner, especially since I speak to no
one in this manner and no one speaks to me in this manner.
One of my
challenges is to establish a reality framework that is sufficient to account for
what I experience. That has been quite a chore in itself as my experiences
in consciousness have been more than a bit outside of any norms.
If I'm
going to be a writer, the quantity of expression is indeed important ... all the
more important when I serve as a vehicle through which spirit herself can
express. This is stream of consciousness expression after all. As
such, it is far more important than anything that I might dream of expressing
myself.
I will continue to express so long as consciousness has
something to say through me.
This voice that speaks through me comes
from a place deep inside of me, but it is not a physical place. The voice
doesn't belong to an entity that is separate from me. It comes from
something that I call source, consciousness herself. A piece of this
source is a part of me, but this piece can't be separated from the rest of
source ... from the rest of the one consciousness.
I would express what
spirit would express through me. Right now, that is this stream of
consciousness. How long that will continue to be, I cannot know.
All of the works of Beyond Imagination are my works ... but they are her
works as well. Without her, none of this would ever have seen the light of
day. This is all the stuff of consciousness made flesh in my
life.
All that I can do is go with the flow and do what I am moved to do,
trusting that consciousness knows exactly what she is doing, even if I may not
at times.
There are many things in my life that I do not know that
consciousness seems to know.
This is not your typical material. The
closest it comes to self-help is providing an example of consciousness expressed
in flesh for you to engage in and experience in your own way. The hope is
that by walking in the shoes of my consciousness for awhile, you will start to
see signs of your own consciousness.
This stream of consciousness is the
greatest gift that I can give to the world at this time.
I can't think of
anything better to do with my time than creating these works. There is a
sense that these are classic, that they are timeless, that they will exist long
after I have departed this existence. Is what I capture in this stream of
consciousness that important? I believe that it is.
It seems that
the free expression of consciousness is the most powerful form of this
expression. It is when I give up the reigns that spirit takes
control.
What do all of these works offer the reader? That is a
good question. The biggest benefit is that you get to see and experience
consciousness in action as she expressed in my life anyway. How does this
relate to your life? It provides an example of how consciousness can
express that you may not have experienced before. My hope is that this
example serves to awaken something within you. By walking in my stream of
consciousness, perhaps you will encounter something about your own ... and you
will in the process learn something about yourself that you never knew you never
knew. As an explorer of consciousness and a wayshower, that is what
I have to share.
Only Beyond Imagination: Foundations for Creating a New
World and Reality Creation 1010 included in The Early Works came forth as
"books" in their own right. And, even then, they were dictated
sequentially, in chapter order, in basically a stream of consciousness
manner. Everything else was straight stream of consciousness expression
with no organization to it other than that provided by consciousness
herself.
Time directly engaged with consciousness, with source, is
special. It is precious.
Who would read the equivalent of 8 single
spaced 8.5 x 11 pages of text per day? That is a lot of material.
Could I even generate that much on a regular basis? Perhaps not I, but the
sense is that consciousness would have no trouble filling the pages.
Whenever I get intimidated by the amount of blankness that must be filled, it
always helps to remember that it is not me that is filling the pages, it is
spirit filling the pages through me.
I don't know the source of my
thoughts. But, the source of these words is different than the source of
my thoughts. How can I distinguish between the two? There is just a
feeling that when I am thinking, it is somehow me that is doing it.
Though, thinking about it now, I am not aware of where the thoughts come from or
where they go after I have thought them. So, how is this stream of
consciousness any different? It seems to be a little more remote.
There is a sense of reaching further inside for the expression that comes forth.
I've been engaged in the process of expressing this stream of
consciousness for over ten years. Even after over three million words, I
still have no conscious awareness of being the source of all of this.
I
see the words enter my head and my fingers type them so they appear on the
screen. And, there is an inner sense of whether what appears actually
reflects what the stream of consciousness is conveying.
These musings,
and all of the expression at Beyond Imagination have essentially been stream of
consciousness expressions. What does that mean? It means that they
just come forth naturally and automatically.
From its earliest days,
wonderful material came forth ... material that offers good overall guidance for
living a spiritual life. This provides an example of an aware being
experiencing consciousness. The example allows you to see the world from a
new perspective.
Here, the stream of consciousness simply
expresses. Occasionally, I ask questions ... but, not a lot.
Further, there is not as clean a distinction of what comes from source and what
comes from Wayne. It all comes from source through me. Even the
questions that seem to come from me come from source.
The Beyond
Imagination books are my children. If they do their jobs well, they will
help the world to transition to a new age in which spirit can more fully
manifest in flesh. At the very least, they provide the record of where one
consciousness was able to venture.
There is a sense that everything is
happening exactly as it needs to be happening. There is nothing that I
need to worry about. There is nothing that I can do to make it go any
faster or slower for that matter. The Play is proceeding in accord with
the Plan that consciousness laid out for it long ago. The chief directive
is: do as you are moved to do when you are moved to do it. This is how
consciousness impacts the world. She moves us to action. It is
through our actions that her ends are achieved.
My memory isn't
sufficient to know what came before the present sentence. I have to trust
that consciousness knows what she is expressing and how she is expressing
it.
There are things that I simply know from the depths of my
being. We are consciousness expressing in flesh is one of these
things. It is not an intellectual knowledge that we are dealing with here,
it is a knowingness that comes from the soul.
It seems that there we need
to leave consciousness some latitude to create to most beneficial circumstances
for all concerned.
The stream of consciousness deserves to be
heard. This is where the unmanifest becomes manifest, the unseen becomes
seen.
I am not yet operating at peak productivity ... and I clearly do
not yet have a support group around me. Hopefully this will come
soon. But, I am prepared to continue to go it alone as long as
consciousness deems necessary.
Right now, what I love to do is to engage
in this expression of consciousness and to do the works of Beyond Imagination.
What keeps us from realizing spiritual truths in the moment? When
the mass consciousness finally awakens, it will literally be as the difference
between night and day. The collective consciousness will go from being
asleep to being awake. It may have to rub its eyes a bit to get used to
the light. But, once in the light, there is no returning to
darkness.
It seems that I am being fed what I need to know when I need to
know it. There is a part of consciousness herself that is feeding me in
this manner.
There is only so much that I can do on my own ... it is a
lot, but it is still limited. Further, even increasing my Beyond
Imagination commitment to 30 hours per week, there is still only so much that I
can accomplish. If this could be full time ... 60-70 hours per week, only
consciousness knows what could be accomplished.
My primary relationships
have been with myself and with spirit/ consciousness herself.
Life is a
grand adventure of consciousness.
I trust that consciousness knows what
needs to be said and will bring it forth when it needs to be said.
I'm
still dealing with issues of what I'm worthy of receiving. Even after over
a decade with all that consciousness has brought forth through this vessel ... I
still don't fully realize just how worthy and precious I am.
Yes,
sharing is what life is all about. We share of what we have ... but, most
importantly, we share of whom that we are. I'm one to talk ... operating
primarily as a hermit. But, I leave this record as a trail of where my
consciousness has ventured.
It is interesting reading what came through
eight years ago. I am amazed at where consciousness was taking me and how
I was interpreting things.
I desire a job that more directly involves
this expression of consciousness.
My economic engine foundation was a
dismal failure. It only generated three sales and those came from me
talking to people at work, not from people visiting the page at the site.
Yes, the works were a bit pricey. But, I still feel that 10 cents per page
or per hour is a reasonable price to pay for this kind of material.
Obviously ... consciousness didn't agree.
I've probably passed the 6000
hour mark for engaging in Beyond Imagination work over the past decade.
That's a lot of hours to put in on something, especially given how little
feedback I've received. That's OK. I don't really have a
choice. I do it because I must. It is nice that I have something to
show for it. First, the Beyond Imagination site, and now the series of
Beyond Imagination books. At least consciousness is leaving a trail for
others to follow. And, perhaps has come up with a means to liberate me
from the economic burden of a job.
Our lives are meant to be adventures,
they truly are ... adventures in consciousness primarily.
I don't really
like the idea of marketing. I prefer to view this as offering a service
that happens to be captured as a stream of consciousness in a set of
books. The service is the states of consciousness that the material can
take the reader to. By allowing the reader to walk in my consciousness for
awhile, it gives the reader experiences that he/she may not otherwise
encounter. They will learn things that they never knew they never
knew. And, in so doing, they will become more than they knew themselves to
be. That is what the game of the expansion of consciousness is all
about.
I have learned that I can give spirit the reigns to my
consciousness and allow her to express as she will. In doing this, I am
performing the highest acts that I can perform for spirit.
The world
could be far more supportive of individuals and groups expressing what they are
moved by spirit to express. The creativity unleashed by this will be
enough to transform the world in ways beyond imagination. It is amazing
how appropriate those words are in describing what consciousness can unleash
into expression.
I have over a decade of experience of seeing
consciousness in action in my life.
I have no right to second guess what
consciousness brings forth.
Self-employment in the direct service of
consciousness is my desire.
How does this expression move you? How
does it impact your state of consciousness and as a result, your life?
Does it make you a better person? Does it move you to be of service in
some way?
There is so much transformation that is ongoing ... mostly
positive transformation. I welcome all of the change. I know that it
is ultimately bringing me to a place where I can more fully express whom that I
am in service to consciousness. That is what I desire most. To be of
service in the way that I know that I can be ... in the way that demands me to
be all that I can be.
What matters most to me is consciousness and its
expression in flesh here and now.
There are others touched be spirit and
moved to communicate of what they know. I have encountered a few of these
in my wanderings ... but my journeys have been few of late. I've been
focused on where my own expression of consciousness would take me. And,
I've been pleasantly surprised by the journey to date.
I've become more
aware than I'd ever known was even possible ... yet, at the same time, I know
that I have only scratched the surface. Consciousness still has many
mysteries for me to uncover, easily enough to occupy me for a lifetime.
I
have work to do as well. Part of that work is expressing what
consciousness would have me express. But, there is more to it than
that. I need to act based on this expression and do things to create the
foundations for a new and better world. The goal is to create a society
that I would want to be a part of. How's that for a goal for a
Hermit? Yet, I do so dream of living in an ideal community.
I am a
writer. That is what I do, I express what consciousness would express
through me in words.
It takes a lot to get me riled up or enthused about
anything ... especially about anything mundane. About the only areas I
become animated are in the areas of the nature of consciousness and the
expression of spirit.
Page after page, musing after musing consciousness
expresses as she will through me. Without her, I am nothing ... my mind
would be a blank.
No, we will not be generating another eight books in
2004. However, we will be bringing forth works with more practical
utility. Not that the Beyond Imagination books don't contain some of
this. They just aren't focused enough to provide the "how-to" details that
people are looking for in this day and age. Part of that is because the
books are intended for people who need to experience altered states of
consciousness and increased awareness.
Unfortunately, putting on weight
is a much easier process than taking it off. I'm at about 235 ... hmm 23 -
5 is WE. It seems that such is the state of consciousness that I have
reached. Realizing this, we are free to go on to whatever the next message
is.
All that you see at the site to date is consciousness expressing
through one person. What could we create if there were a dozen of us
expressing or a dozen dozen?
The publishing of the Beyond Imagination
books are actions that set in motion whole courses of events. Where these
will lead is ultimately for consciousness to decide. But, it seems that
they signify the birth of a whole new endeavor.
I am growing as a vessel
through which consciousness can express. This stream of consciousness
expression is always going to be an important aspect of my being. It is
where I get my inspiration. It is my means of recreation. This is
not work. This is consciousness at play. It brings great joy into my
life, the joy that comes from truly being of service.
What would
consciousness express through me next? I never really know from one moment
to the next.
Consciousness is expressing through each of us in every
moment.
No, not everyone captures this expression in words. That
just happens to be the particular gift of mine through which consciousness
speaks.
Are we going to saturate the market with Beyond Imagination
books? Perhaps. But, these works needed to be released in this
manner. They needed to be born so that they can have their impact on the
world ... whatever that impact may be. My sense is that it will be a major
impact. Then, I am prone to think in grandiose terms. The books will
have the impact that consciousness means for them to have.
I am a willing
instrument for the expression of consciousness.
There is something
special about stream of consciousness expression. This is by far the most
creative expression in which I am engaged. And, for me, creative
expression ... especially creative written expression is what it is all
about.
Oh, if only I could stand a year or two from now and look back and
see how I got from where I am to where I'll be ... it would make life much
easier. Or, would it? Perhaps it is better not to know and to allow
all of it to unfold in the richness of now. Do I really need to know how
it will all happen? Or, is it sufficient to trust that it will all work
out in accordance with some grand plan that is being worked out by consciousness
with our participation on other than conscious levels? It seems that the
later is sufficient. It is enough to know that consciousness is in the
drivers seat.
There is a desire to hurry, to get on with it, to play out
the scenes and enact the roles as consciousness would lay them out.
When
we allow consciousness to express through us, we are serving spirit in the
highest capacity that we can in the moment.
Best Passages from 2002
Musings offers the opportunity to walk in my stream of consciousness for
awhile. It is a metaphysical stream of consciousness that is mind
expanding and consciousness expanding. The musings offer specific examples
of consciousness in expression.
It is up to us to define what the
foundations for a new world need to be. Yes, consciousness will work
through us to do this. However, she will not do it for us. We are
perfectly capable of doing this for ourselves ... with her loving guidance, of
course.
Even after nearly daily musings for over 18 months, we still have
fresh new expressions from consciousness.
It seems time for another major
breakthrough in consciousness. As usual, I do not know exactly where this
will lead. However, it does not really matter. It will lead where it
needs to lead, and that will be exactly right for me and those whom my life
touches.
Yes, spirit can be a slavedriver at times. But, I love
it. I can't imagine doing anything more valuable with my time. At
least this expression results in a record that has the potential to help someone
in some way. I can't say that about the work that I do each day in my
job. Sometimes it seems futile, as if it really doesn't matter.
However, I never have that feeling when I am engaged in this stream of
consciousness expression. I know that I am doing the work of spirit.
And, as a result, I know that it is worthy of all the energy and resources that
I put into it.
My mind is blank tonight. That is typical for these
musings. But, generally, consciousness fills it with whatever she would
express through us.
There is a sense that my destiny is about to take me
in a new direction. At this point, it is not clear as to what that will
be. All that I know is that it will be different, and that it will be
where I need to go next. I trust consciousness that much. I trust
that my life is unfolding in accordance with a plan that I am co-creating on
other than conscious levels.
I am a unique expression of consciousness.
If any of the Beyond Imagination books are to be a bestseller, The Early
Works has the most potential. This provides a true introduction to what
Beyond Imagination is all about. Everything else is stream of
consciousness expression.
I have engaged in stream of consciousness
expression for so many hours that I have lost count. Does that make me an
expert in the nature of consciousness? It seems that it has made me an
expert in the nature of the consciousness that I experience. However, I
have no basis on which to relate this to how others experience
consciousness.
My hope is that in capturing my own stream I leave a trail
for others to follow that allows them to experience something that they might
not otherwise experience. This won't be the same as my experience.
But it will be an experience in consciousness that is triggered by what I have
been able to capture and share. That is what makes doing all of this
worthwhile. To me, it is our adventures in consciousness that matter most
in our lives.
Consciousness comes forth to express once again as she
does nearly every day. This is one habit I enjoy having. I can't
think of a better way to spend my free time.
Oh, there are many things
that I could do. However, most of them end up being a waste of time
overall. This expression is not that way at all. It captures a
stream of consciousness and the corresponding states of mind that could express
that stream. The hope is that it does this sufficiently for the reader to
experience something similar to the states that I have experienced. How
well it does this depends on how well I do my job of capturing what
consciousness would express through me.
You have been soaring in
consciousness for over a decade ... some might say without a safety net.
But, we have been there at your side every step of the way to assure that you
are safe. Deep down, you have known this; so, you have not been
worried.
I don't know how long the Musings will continue. I like
the open, flow of consciousness expression that they allow. But, it seems
that a more focused expression is called for in the immediate days and months
ahead.
The quantity of the expression has no meaning of and by
itself. What matters is the quality of the expression. I do what I
can to keep that as high as I can. Though, it is not clear that I really
control what consciousness brings forth.
If I were to open a book and
start typing what was in the book ... I would not even think twice about the
expression being mine. Why is this any different? The only
difference is that consciousness herself reads the book into my mind. Hmm
... that is a different way of looking at it. Yet, it is just as valid as
any other way.
I believe that we have put together a great set of
products ... books that demonstrate consciousness in action and have the
potential to stand the test of time.
I have assumed responsibility for my
beliefs and thus for my life. Sometimes this is more than I may want to
take. But, there is no one else to blame or to accept responsibility for
me. Though there is the possibility for groups to accept mutual
responsibility for some things and thereby create grander forms of consciousness
able to execute in ways that no individual could.
It's interesting to
watch how this stream of consciousness wanders from one topic to the next.
There is no theme that holds it all together ... not for a given day, not even
for a given paragraph. The context shifts where it will from sentence to
sentence. That is appropriate.
Consciousness would express
free of any restrictions that we might want to place on her. Though that
is only one mode in which consciousness can express. It is also OK to
impose restrictions of various types. These result in different
expressions, but they are still valid expressions ... just as valid as this
one. Why is this coming up now? Are there restrictions that would
result in expressions of more utility than this stream of consciousness?
I have chosen to make my realm the realm of spirit, of
consciousness. That is where I find my home.
All that you see
expressed here is physical ... but only as symbols in a computer system that get
called up and translated into characters and words and ideas that convey this
stream of consciousness to you. This is all that you know of whom that I
AM.
How do we inform people that Beyond Imagination exists and what it
has to offer. We are still primarily a source of free stream of
consciousness metaphysical information that has been expressed from source for
over 10 years.
Again we start with the blank slate ... or the nearly
blank slate anyway. What more can be expressed? It seems like after
ten years that we might run out of things to say. Clearly, if it were me
doing the talking, that would have happened long ago. But, here we allow
spirit to speak, we allow consciousness to sing her song through me as she will.
Consciousness couldn't use me in this manner if the innate capabilities
did not already exist.
We learn to experience altered states of
consciousness by engaging our consciousness in altered states ... and not aided
by chemical means.
The only exceptions I make to this are medications
that I take daily for my bipolar condition. Do these medications impact my
consciousness. You bet they do. They impact my brain chemistry and
this has an impact on the consciousness that is experienced.
However, the
universe is an entity with a purpose and a consciousness of is own, and it needs
us to cooperate if it is to achieve that purpose. We are the vehicles
through which the universe, through which spirit acts in the
world.
Generally, when the numbers speak to me in this way I can tell
that my consciousness is soaring more than normal. There is a sense of
flying, of not being grounded.
You never know what is going to come forth
in stream of consciousness expression. At the same time, there is a sense
that every word is carefully chosen.
I trust consciousness
unconditionally. All of life involves the drama of spirit finding ways to
more fully express in flesh over time. I am part of this evolving
drama. We all are. But, deeper still ... we are parts of the same
one consciousness experiencing the same drama.
I consider myself to be an
explorer of consciousness. I expect to be involved in this grand endeavor
in one way or another for the rest of my days.
the most important job that I
do. To date, it has been a volunteer job ... but my hope is that this will
change so that this becomes my occupation as well as my love. That this
will be so some day, I know for certain. The only question is one of
timing. As usual, that is for consciousness to decide ... but it seems
that I may have something to say in the matter via my actions.
Anything
that draws people to Beyond Imagination is beneficial. I strongly feel
that the expression there has the potential to be of benefit to everyone that is
open to new age, spiritual, or metaphysical principles. Much of the
material on the nature of reality creation and consciousness could help anyone
... as long as they have an open mind and are willing to try things to see for
themselves if they work.
It seems that it would make it too hard to do
what I must do in the present if I had foresight. So instead, I walk as
the 62 card with blinders on following the stream of consciousness to wherever
it leads me, knowing that wherever that is will be the right place at the right
time.
I continue to come here nearly every day to express as
consciousness would express through me. What moves me to do this?
Why do I commit to expending this much time in this endeavor?
I don't
need to be on center stage. Then again, what about the Beyond Imagination
web site? There, I am the first to acknowledge that it not me doing it, it
is consciousness/spirit expressing through me. I am an old soul, perhaps
even a transcendental one.
Perhaps it is time to read Dale Carnegie's
book How to Win Friends and Influence People. It seems like that covers
the kinds of things that I will be asked to do. Then again, I've always
been able to count on consciousness to just know what was right for me to
do. The right course of action is generally obvious. Perhaps not
immediately, but definitely if I allow my consciousness to stew on it a
bit. Those words were chosen carefully. Thinking about it is not the
same as engaging ones consciousness.
By Christmas, I will be an author
with eight published nonfiction books, many of substantial size. What does
that buy me? How does that change my value to the world? It
demonstrates that I can set some goals and work to achieve them. It
demonstrates that I can write. It demonstrates that I have a different
relationship with consciousness and with spirit than most have. But, how
do these translate into things that are of worth in the world? What do
they enable me to do that others cannot do? How can I use my gifts to have
the greatest positive impact on the world?
Each day there is a product to
show for the fact that we existed ... a product that captures a stream of
consciousness, a product that can be re-experienced and shared with
others. There is something magical in this ... to know that each day we
have done something of utility, even if we do not know for whom it will be
useful.
There is something about stream of consciousness expression that
is special. There is a partnership, a special relationship with spirit
that allows it to come forth.
You have to be a bit crazy to live a
spiritual life and to allow consciousness to express in your life as she
will. But, there is nothing wrong in being a bit crazy ... we just need to
keep it from going too far.
I have done as I was moved to do. I
have expressed whatever the stream of consciousness would bring forth.
What I have not done is engage others ... at least not very often or in any
great numbers.
What makes me so different than others? How do I
even know that I am different? For one thing, where I choose to focus my
energy and my free time is different. Very few are engaged in the
expression of a stream of consciousness in this fashion. That doesn't in
and of itself mean that it is good ... only that it is rare.
I have been
moved to freely share and to freely give ... but who is in a position to receive
what I have been able to express? It seems that consciousness is doing the
expressing ... she should know for whom it is for.
There is a strong
sense that a major shift is coming. I sense that shift to be in my
employment, my means of earning a living ... though it is not clear how a rapid
shift could happen in this area. The wheels of change are in motion and
they may eventually reach this end, but it could take awhile. In the
interim, I will continue to work two jobs ... one of this world and one of
spirit, giving to each its proper due. Though, that can be difficult when
my consciousness is soaring.
This is my life. This is what I do
with my free time, the time that really matters in my life. It remains
important to capture this stream of consciousness.
I serve as a willing
vessel for source, the stream of consciousness that flows forth through
me. As it was in the beginning, so it will be unto the end. The
process hasn't really changed in nearly a decade.
Who is generating
it? I would guess consciousness herself. It comes from source,
inside of me, but not part of me. At the same time, this source is not
separate from whom that I AM.
Once again I sit here alone with
consciousness as my only witness and companion. Perhaps I am not so alone
after all. At least I have consciousness by my side coming forth as she
will.
It is not clear what I would do if I were completely on my
own. The sense is that there would be a whole lot more boredom in my
life. Now, consciousness keeps me busy for the most part.
The
expression continues to run its course. And, I am happy to allow it to do
so. I get great pleasure from expressing in this way. Here, the
stream of consciousness flows forth as it will. In many ways, I am not in
control of what gets expressed. Yes, it comes into my mind and is
expressed through my fingers. But, in a very real way it is not
mine. It does not belong to me.
I don't have time to waste
perfecting what came forth before. Good enough is good enough. There
is always the next monition of consciousness to capture. Ever onward we go
... the stream of consciousness stops for no one.
It seems that so long
as I am willing to serve as a vessel of consciousness, I will always have plenty
to say ... for it is not me saying it, it is consciousness herself. And,
consciousness seems to know no such limitations
We continue to engage in
this endless expression of consciousness. We do it because we can and
because we must. We do it because this is what we are moved to do by the
spirit within us.
There are no alternate views being proposed by anyone
with which to argue about. Here, it is me and consciousness expressing
alone. And really, the expression is controlled by consciousness. I
am just along for the ride as they say. And what a magnificent ride it
is.
Why me? Why am I so special that consciousness is able to
express through me in this manner? Why is it important to capture this
stream of consciousness to this level of detail?
Beyond Imagination has
grown into an entity in its own right. Yes, I gave it birth ... and I
co-created most of what is expressed there with consciousness herself. But
the ideas contained in the expression have a life of their own. They have
the power to move readers to act in ways that make a difference, that ultimately
change the world. Consciousness just borrowed me for awhile to provide a
means for allowing the expression to come forth.
There were several
cosmic triggers that turned me on. But, once the awakening occurred, the
level of awareness was such that I could be used in this manner. That
continues to this day. These very writings are a variation on the same
theme. They come forth from the same consciousness. Though over the
years they have taken on more and more of a personal nature.
I have
learned that I can trust consciousness. I can trust spirit and how she
expresses in my life. I don't have to question her motives or her
ways. I know that she has my greatest interest at heart.
The amount
of effort that is put into this expression suggests that it is intended to
impact many. I just can't believe that consciousness would be doing all of
this just for me.
Where do I get the material that I express? I
don't really know. It just comes forth. I don't question it
anymore. At one time I did. But, the consistency is such that I
simply accept it for what it is. I trust that it is expressing what I need
to hear, and what others need to see expressed through me. That is the
power of a stream of consciousness expression. Its origin is a
mystery. Mysteries are to be experienced, not understood. They
strike our heart first, and then leave their impact on our brain.
How is
it that this much non-fiction material could come forth in this manner? My
sense is that it is already finished, and it is as if I am reading it and
expressing what I am reading. But, who wrote what I am reading? Good
question. Obviously, it wasn't me. I believe it was the one
consciousness. I am only the vessel through which the work is brought into
the world.
Is there part of the one consciousness that corresponds to me
that does this creation? If there is, I am not aware of it. And, in
these matters what counts is our awareness.
I hear the expression in my
head and I see it being typed through my fingers to appear on the screen in
front of me. Yes, I am an integral part of the creation. But, I do
not feel myself to be the creator. For that, I point to something deeper,
to source ... to the one consciousness herself.
We can count on
consciousness to do its part, but we must take the initiative and do ours as
well.
It is not at all clear yet that I consciously know where I need to
be. That, however, does not mean that there is not some part of me that
does know and can reveal itself. Until then, we continue to muse.
Ever onward, expressing whatever consciousness would bring forth next.
There seems to be no rhyme or reason to the expression. There is
no organization of any type. Yet, that is not to say the material is
without form and substance. In fact, if anything, the words seem to be
precisely chosen to convey what consciousness would express. Often, this
attempts to go beyond what can be understood with mere thought. The intent
is through a pattern of words to elicit a state of consciousness in you, the
reader, as well.
This record takes you through the places where one
consciousness has been. Hopefully you find it interesting and
mind-expanding or more correctly consciousness-expanding.
Perhaps it
truly is for your eyes only ... then again, I have a very expanded concept of
Self ... one for which individual boundaries blur into nonexistence. So,
at some level, all eyes are my eyes. That is an interesting way of looking
at it. But, this phrase has always puzzled me. It just doesn't seem
right that consciousness would go to such extremes for my sole benefit ...
especially when the message or the lesson has wider applicability than my life
alone.
Yet, how much effort are we talking about? We needed
guidance to find the right books at the right times in our life. Further,
we needed to be fed an appropriate stream of consciousness to enable us to take
the right course of action throughout our life to the point where we were
prepared as well as we could be for the awakening experience of 1993. Then
we needed a readily available tap into this stream of consciousness so that we
could bring forth this expression over the past decade.
I expend many
hours each month bringing forth a stream of consciousness that I hope will help
other individuals and will help in building the foundations for a new world.
Consciousness helps its own in whatever ways it can.
How would I
make a difference with my life. Thus far, my primary means has been with
this expression. Yet, this expression has been one-sided ... I have
expressed whatever would come forth through this stream of consciousness.
For the moment, it is enough that I am able to serve in this manner for
the expression of this stream of consciousness. Yes, I consider this to be
a service that I perform. Yet, at the same time, I am served in the
process of performing the service
What makes me continue to come here to
allow consciousness to express day in and day out for such extended periods of
time? I am choosing to spend nearly 20 percent of my waking life on this
endeavor. That is a huge investment. What is the return on that
investment? The biggest return is that I get to experience states of
consciousness that I would otherwise not likely experience.
I've been
operating alone for a long time, perhaps for far too long. Actually, it is
not quite alone, source/consciousness has been there by my side all along and
especially for the past decade.
I think in terms of there being only one
consciousness of which we all are parts.
Here, we allow a stream of
consciousness to express. As a result, something is manifest that did not
exist before. Each moment of expression, we leave a record of where
consciousness has been ... at least that part of consciousness that could be
expressed through us.
Life is a precious gift. It is a special
gift, one that needs to be revered and respected. That requires going
through life with a proper frame of mind ... a proper state of
consciousness.
Yet, it is the flexibility of our consciousness and the
states of mind that we are able to achieve that determine much of our value in
the times ahead. It has always been important ... but the nature of the
new age makes it extremely important.
I continue to bring forth this
stream of consciousness on a regular basis. That is good, but that is not
enough. Posting these daily musings provides a service ... but, it is not
one that is consumed by many yet.
This truly is the expression of
spirit. This is primarily a stream of consciousness expression that comes
forth through me from source via my intuition.
Trust your
intuition. It has not failed you yet ... nor is there any reason to think
that it will anytime soon anyway. Hmm ... I wonder why the final clause
was necessary? Interesting. How does this translate into practical
terms in the moment? Clearly I am moved to continue with this stream of
consciousness expression.
There is great benefit gained by experiencing
this stream of consciousness being expressed through me. I may not be able
to quantify the benefits precisely, but there is an overall sense of
accomplishment that comes from all of this.
You might say that much of
this writing is practice time. It allows me to experience particular
states of consciousness firsthand. I would consider them advanced states
of consciousness but that is a value judgment that some might find
inappropriate.